After All this Time? Always.

[Jon]

Okay. Poem time.

[Jon]

Stars Fall

Had so many plans, we did...
We had novels to read
And shows to watch
A book to write maybe...
Amidst late-night talks,
We had decided,
To fall again and again.
It was meant to be this way
Oh, we fell in love together
But you got up
And walked away...

We were gonna have a home
With a library inside.
A leather couch there,
Supposed to be our place to hide
We had decided
On the music and coffee...
Maybe share some hugs
While catching a movie...
We had promised
To always stay.
Oh, we fell in love together
But you got up
And walked away.

Watch the sun go down,
Or make our wishes,
At a star's fall...
Lay in bed,
For hours and hours....
Make it special everyday
Yes, we fell in love together
But you got up.
And walked away.

[Jon]

I like to think about the Butterfly Effect. How one small movement, one small small beating of a butterfly's wings can give rise to a chain of events that could eventually even lead to a huge-ass tornado.

And the same way.... How one decision. How one choice, can set the chain reaction going, that shapes who you are, where you are, your chemistry with everyone you know, who your friends are and who you yourself are.
There are so many small seemingly insignificant decisions you make that affect your future in the greatest way possible.
How....choosing to talk to someone instead of someone else, can give rise to a whole set of different friendships. Those friendships make you think a certain way. Which in-turn shapes your personality.
How....the decision to stay home instead of stepping out one day, can change your life. How, the decision to write something different on a social media profile can lead to things happening that are the prime reason why you are the way you are.
Everything counts.

[Jon]

The above post calls for a song recommendation.
One of my favourites ever. One song that I never skip.
The Butterfly Effect by Before You Exit

[Jon]

I wanna rant. I don't even know what it will be about. But I just wanna talk and keep talking about something.

[Jon]

Hiya people. I have been away a couple of weeks. I'll be away a week more. Have my exams going on. It's crazy. So yeah.

[tonia (violet)]

jonnn. good luck with exams:) miss you!!

[Jon]

Thanks, violet. Miss you too :-)

[Jon]

Damn it's been a while.

[tonia (violet)]

you're BACK

[Jon]

I was just passing. xD How are you??? How's everyone!

[tonia (violet)]

oh :( Im gooddd!! What about you? I think everyone's good haha, i haven't talked to willow in a while >.<

[Jon]

I'm sorry I'm back

[Jon]

I am just very brain-tired crazy something, idk.

[Jon]

Everybody has different theories, different explanations regarding why a certain individual behaves a certain way. And maybe they're right. But what about that individual's own motives? Do those count for nothing? How ever real, how ever pure the motives may be, are they just a misled line that was walked on? And how people trying to take the misled traveller away to the one which leads somewhere, even though it could very well be misery.

I don't know what I've written but it just flowed out in painful breaths and gasps, and it's important to let it out sometimes.

[tonia (violet)]

you okay, jon?

[Jon]

Wow i actually didn't know what I was writing. But yes I am better now, thanks violet! How're you?

[tonia (violet)]

of course jon! i've been okay, life is pretty meh :)

[Jon]

I'm here if you wanna talk about it, okay?

[tonia (violet)]

okay, thank you. same goes for you though