˜”*°•.˜”*°• J a c o b ' s W o n d e r o u s N i g h t m a r e s •°*”˜.•°*”˜

[-adonis ❰Stitched you up, put you together With cotton and feather Gave you love, put my heart inside you Oh what could I do When you started talking]

Mу ηαмє ιѕ Jαcσв αη∂ му σтнєя נσυяηαℓ ιѕ σνєя нєяє. I ℓσνє тσ ωяιтє. Sσ нєяє I'ℓℓ נυѕт ѕтσяє яαη∂σм ωяιтιηgѕ αη∂ ѕυcн. I'ℓℓ тяу тσ ωяιтє ∂αιℓу (єχcєρт ƒσя ωєєкєη∂ѕ). Aη∂ ιƒ I ∂ση'т яємιη∂ мє, уσυ cαη cσммєηт нєяє, вυт cσηѕтяυcтινє cяιтιcιѕм σηℓу. Tнαηкѕ.

[-adonis ❰Stitched you up, put you together With cotton and feather Gave you love, put my heart inside you Oh what could I do When you started talking]

１２/９/１４

Lσνє

What is love? Love is a hard thing to describe. It is emotions and feelings for a person place or thing. I have always been pestered into telling who I like to my friends.... but I've been going through them super quickly. Do I even like someone? Am I just desperate to feel love?

[-adonis ❰Stitched you up, put you together With cotton and feather Gave you love, put my heart inside you Oh what could I do When you started talking]

(view spoiler)[Allie doesn't count for because of a long story that we already figured out so don't worry :) (hide spoiler)]

[-adonis ❰Stitched you up, put you together With cotton and feather Gave you love, put my heart inside you Oh what could I do When you started talking]

１２/１１/１４
        Hєανєη

(view spoiler)[Something I'm working on, WIP (hide spoiler)]
“Welcome to Heaven” I am greeted at the gates of Heaven. I’m guessing everyone's Heaven is different. Mine was filled with stuff I like. Basketballs, baseballs, frozen yogurt, movie theatres, and sushi.

I enter the gates and am ambushed by security guards. “Name?” they ask. “Alexander Henry Sawyer”. “Age?” the ask. “15” I say. “Cause of death?” they say. I hate why I died, but I say it anyway. “Sisyphus syndrome, jumping off house.” I look down at the ground. “You may pass”.

Sisyphus syndrome is where you don’t have any awareness of what you are doing. I forgot to take my meds that night, and I had no clue what I was doing. So I, sadly, died. There was so much to live for. I had my friends and my family. And my cat, who was named after the syndrome I had. Sisyphus.

[-adonis ❰Stitched you up, put you together With cotton and feather Gave you love, put my heart inside you Oh what could I do When you started talking]

１２/１１/１４
        Hєανєη

(view spoiler)[Final product (hide spoiler)]
“Welcome to Heaven” I am greeted at the gates of Heaven. I’m guessing everyone's Heaven is different. Mine was filled with stuff I like. Basketballs, baseballs, frozen yogurt, movie theatres, and sushi.

I enter the gates and am ambushed by security guards. “Name?” they ask. “Alexander Henry Sawyer”. “Age?” the ask. “15” I say. “Cause of death?” they say. I hate why I died, but I say it anyway. “Sisyphus syndrome, jumping off house.” I look down at the ground. “You may pass”.

Sisyphus syndrome is where you don’t have any awareness of what you are doing. I forgot to take my meds that night, and I had no clue what I was doing. So I, sadly, died. There was so much to live for. I had my friends and my family. And my cat, who was named after the syndrome I had. Sisyphus.

I remembered that my grandpa, who I had been close with, had also passed. I immediately started searching for him. Where would he be? He liked to relax. Usually by the beach. That’s where he was. I looked for the beach, if only there was a map here. I asked someone if there was a beach. They gave me really confusing directions.

I tried to follow them as best as possible. Through the streams of memory, then up the mountain of misfortune. This would be a long hike. I’d probably spend most of my second life getting there. But at least I’d be reunited with my grandpa.

[-adonis ❰Stitched you up, put you together With cotton and feather Gave you love, put my heart inside you Oh what could I do When you started talking]

１２/２４/１４
Wнєη I Gяσω Uρ

Ever since day one of kindergarten, I've been asked the same question. Every year. One question. That is, "What do you want to be when you grow up?"

To tell you the truth, I don't know. At first I wanted to be a teacher. Then a veterinarian. Then a swimmer. Then an Olympic athlete. Then an author. The back to being a teacher.

In reality, any question about the future and what you want to be and do annoys me. I can't think about the future. It's fate, and I can't change that. I'll let fate decide what I do and who I am.

I can't live in the future making plans, deciding what college I'll go to, or who I'll be. I need to live now. I'll finish up a quote brought to my attention by my friend Alex. "The past is history, the future is a mystery, today is a gift, that is why it is called the present."

[-adonis ❰Stitched you up, put you together With cotton and feather Gave you love, put my heart inside you Oh what could I do When you started talking]

１２/２４/１４
Cнσcσℓαтє, Bαℓℓσσηѕ, αη∂ Dυcкℓιηgѕ

(view spoiler)[Something fun... XD (hide spoiler)]
Chocolate. With its rich creamy inside, and its tough outside. And now I want to eat chocolate. But, while we're on the topic, here's some hypothetical chocolate stories.

What if, chocolate could talk. And as we were eating it, we could hear it pleading to be saved from the evil villain we call our mouths. Would we still eat chocolate?

What if, chocolate ate us. We were their chocolate. Their nougat. Their yummy pain quencher. Their savior from life. What then?

Now, some chocolate gifs:




Next up, balloons. No gross, get them away from me. I hate everything about them. The noises, the squeakiness of it. Everything. Some hypothetical things....


All balloons popped and floated up into outer space.

Next, ducklings. I have grown up with ducks because my brother has had an obsession with them. And they are so cute and *squeals*. Some hypothetical things....

Ducks were equals with us. Like we had no power over them and vice versa. We went to school with them, had duck lawyers, etc. That would be kinda cool.

Duck gifs:

[-adonis ❰Stitched you up, put you together With cotton and feather Gave you love, put my heart inside you Oh what could I do When you started talking]

   １２/２６/１４
Cняιѕтмαѕ ƒσя α Jєω

So, yeah. I'm Jewish. And I'm proud. Cos we have sooo much better holidays then you guys. Like we have that one where you can't eat for a day. And the one where you can't eat bread for a week. Like I said, much better. But that's not what this is about. This is about what I feel, and do on Christmas.

Christmas Eve, everything is normal, I eat, I blog, I do whatever I normally do. But nighttime is the problem. Everything closes. Even the Chinese restaurants, which are what Jews rely on for Christian holidays. So you end up eating at home, but usually, you no longer have any food because Hannukah just ended. So you'll eat something gross that is still open.

Christmas Day, once again, no place is open. Not that I'm mad or anything, but nothing is open. Once again, we repeat the same procedure, scouring every inch of the city trying to find a place that is open. And the places that are open, will be extremely busy. But otherwise, everything is fine. Until midday. Then traffic goes crazy and everything is crowded, again.

[-adonis ❰Stitched you up, put you together With cotton and feather Gave you love, put my heart inside you Oh what could I do When you started talking]

         １２/３１/１４
Nєω Yєαяѕ Rєѕσℓυтισηѕ

☞Being on my phone less☜

I started this towards the end of last year. My parents started to get suspicious of when I was on my phone and thought I was up to something. So I started to be on my phone less. First order of business, deleting my instagram. Basically that locked me out of life. And I was worried about what was on instagram and not what was going on around me. I'll try to be on less on that.

☞Being on Goodreads less/more☜

By less I mean, so it isn't as noticeable by my parents and more I mean so I can spend more time with you guys. Seeing you guys everyday is the best I could ever ask for. For me to be happy, I just need a computer and you guys. Without question, you guys make me laugh everyday. By less is basically, so my parents don't question why I'm on my computer as much.

☞Trying to be on better terms☜

(with my friends)
As you guys know, I haven't been on the best terms with my friends. And sometimes their comments really hurt me. Next year, I will try to be nicer to them and hopefully they'll be better to me.

☞Being nice in general☜

So apparently, I'm rude and sarcastic a lot of the time and I get in trouble and apparently, my sorries are not good enough and don't mean anything. So this year, I'll try to be way nicer towards everything, and have an overall good attitude. So yay for niceness

[-adonis ❰Stitched you up, put you together With cotton and feather Gave you love, put my heart inside you Oh what could I do When you started talking]

Information

Pℓєαѕє cσммєηт уσυя тнσυgнтѕ нєяє αη∂ ѕυggєѕтισηѕ нєяє

[-adonis ❰Stitched you up, put you together With cotton and feather Gave you love, put my heart inside you Oh what could I do When you started talking]

         １２/３１/１４
Mσνιєѕ Dυяιηg Bяєαк

I saw three movies in the past 2 weeks. Here they are and they're rating.

1. Hobbit: Battle of Five Armies

This movie should be called "Hobbit: The Movie that Barely Happens in the Book". You know what, we might as well call it "Percy Jackson". The actual battle (95% of the movie) only happened in 5 pages of the book. There was way to much fighting and it got annoying. But the elves were excellent (like always). The orcs were really annoying. Thorin was bitch and so was that guy who was the king's assistant. But I give this movie 7/10. Most of that coming from the effect and animations.

2. Night at the Museum 4: Secret of the Tomb

This movie was amazing. I love that the actor of Fat Amy (what's her name again?), Rebel Wilson. She is good at any roll that requires her to be lazy and sarcastic. The battle with everyone was really cool. The India exhibit was amazing. I loved the four armed people. They but so much extra detail. Like they had unimportant paintings in the back walking around. The dragon was cool. I was really sad to hear that two actors were lost in the making of the movie. And the ending was... interesting. But I loved the movie. I give it an 11/10 for the humor, amazing acting, and special effects.

3. Into the Woods

I thought the movie was great, but I was not prepared for musical-ness part. I knew in the back of my mind it was based off of a musical, but I didn't realize it would be one. I just saw it yesterday, so I haven't had much time to think about it. But I know the Woods symbolize something important and helpful and strong. But literally every other word was a song. Red was my favorite. But you never learned any of their names which I did not like. My rating is 9/10. The musicality of it surprised me so I didn't give it its last point

[-adonis ❰Stitched you up, put you together With cotton and feather Gave you love, put my heart inside you Oh what could I do When you started talking]

         １２/３１/１４

Part 1      Fuck You Felicia

"Fuck you Felicia". There it was, my last friend to leave me. Now I was friendless. Officially. Most of my friendships had started in 5th grade (and therefore lasted 4 years), but that was because I was normal and popular. Put in the beginning of ninth grade, all my status plummeted. Because I wasn't normal. But anyway, my problems started in ninth grade. I started to become a 'weirdo'. Every time I did anything, something bad would happen. I was a 'bad luck charm'. So people stopped inviting me to things. I became the outsider. Eventually people just kicked me off everything I had worked for.

"Fuck you too Alice" I replied back but Alice was long gone. I walked on the grassy field of our campus by myself (first time in a while) and was starting to compensate what was going on. But the thing was, I didn't know. How can you deal with something you don't know about. Why bad luck followed me everywhere. Why I had random spurts of energy when I complained that I was tired. I didn't know the answer to those questions, but I did know one thing. I was alone.

[-adonis ❰Stitched you up, put you together With cotton and feather Gave you love, put my heart inside you Oh what could I do When you started talking]

         １２/３１/１４

Part 2      Get out Bethany

So there I was, friendless, lifeless, without anything I wanted. What was wrong with me? I tried to take it all in. Was I going mad? I got into my violet beanbag and tried reading my favorite book, Timeless, but I couldn't see. The tears has started flowing. Gently at first, then violent. I was sobbing uncontrollably. Of course, my sister had to hear me, so she barged into my doors. "Felicia, what is going on?". I rolled my eyes. "Nothing." I said calmly. "Are you sure?" she asked. "Yes, now get out of my room Bethany" I said not as calmly.

"No." Beth said back. I nearly fainted. This never happened, although she was in 11th grade, she usually would look out for me, and do as I said. But this time, it was different."I know what you're going through" she said. "No yo-" But I stopped myself. She actually might understand me. When she was in 9th grade, her door was always closed and at least one of my parents were in there and there was usually loud sobbing. I let down my guard. "Fine, talk to me" I said.

[-adonis ❰Stitched you up, put you together With cotton and feather Gave you love, put my heart inside you Oh what could I do When you started talking]

         １/１/１５

Part 3      Off to the academy

Bethany sat down on my bed. She took a deep breath. "I don't know how to make this not seem crazy" she laughed nervously. I stared down at the intricate patterns of the carpet. "You," she said, "You have magical capabilities". Wait what? "So I'm a magician?" I asked. Bethany thought about that for a moment, "In a way, but none of it's fake. It's all real. When you get to the age of 14 or 15, those with magical capabilities usually start showing signs of what their power is. Mine happens to be cursing, basically, I can curse someone with, you know, a curse." I laughed. "Pretty dark" she said. I was actually taking this in pretty well. All the random signs that seemed weird about my sister were making sense.

"What about mom and dad?" I asked. "Mom was a wizard, dad was not." she said. "Anymore questions?". I thought, "What are my powers? How am I going to train them?" Those were my only questions left. "I don't know yet, and power, singular" she corrected "it is rare for someone to have two or more powers. And the Academy will help you train your powers." That raised a new question, "But you were never gone, so how did you train your powers?" I asked. "Mom helped me," she said. "She wanted to wait until you showed signs of powers, if you did, until she sent us both to the Academy". "When are we leaving?" I asked. "Now," Beth smiled. "Mom packed our bags already because her power is transporting." She answered my question before I could ask it, wow, she did know me pretty well. "Mom will transport us there, you ready?" I took a deep breath. "Yes" I said. Five minutes later, we were at the grand oak doors of the Faefana Academy for Gifted Children.

[-adonis ❰Stitched you up, put you together With cotton and feather Gave you love, put my heart inside you Oh what could I do When you started talking]

         １/１/１５

Part 3      Off to the academy (Modified)

Bethany sat down on my bed. She took a deep breath. "I don't know how to make this not seem crazy" she laughed nervously. I stared down at the intricate patterns of the carpet. "You," she said, "You have magical capabilities". Wait what? "So I'm a magician?" I asked. Bethany thought about that for a moment, "In a way, but none of it's fake. It's all real. When you get to the age of 14 or 15, those with magical capabilities usually start showing signs of what their power is. Mine happens to be cursing, basically, I can curse someone with, you know, a curse." I laughed. "Pretty dark" she said. I was actually taking this in pretty well. All the random signs that seemed weird about my sister were making sense.

“Also,” Beth said. “There’s something I need to tell you”. I was scared for what was to come next. “What?” I asked. “Well,” she paused. “I was the one who killed Will.” I started to sob again right after I had stop. Will was my brother and I was always looking out for him and when I was in 7th grade, and he was in 5th grade, he suddenly passed out and was dead. My parents said it was a heart attack but now… I lunged on her. “You what?!?” I was kicking and screaming and crying, but she managed to defend herself. She waited for me to calm down before explaining. “Two years ago, just when I was learning how to use my powers, Will was really annoying me, so I pretended to curse him so that every time he spoke, bees would come out of his mouth.” I was still crying but was starting to calm down. “I forgot that my curses came true and he tried speaking, and bees came out of his mouth. I swear, it was an accident” I was calm, but still mad at Beth for killing our only brother.

After we made up, and I was calm, I asked, "What about mom and dad, did they have magic?". "Mom was a wizard, dad was not." she said. "Anymore questions?". I thought, "What are my powers? How am I going to train them?" Those were my only questions left. "I don't know yet, and power, singular" she corrected "it is rare for someone to have two or more powers. And the Academy will help you train your powers." That raised a new question, "But you were never gone, so how did you train your powers?" I asked. "Mom helped me," she said. "She wanted to wait until you showed signs of powers, if you did, until she sent us both to the Academy". "When are we leaving?" I asked. "Now," Beth smiled. "Mom packed our bags already because her power is transporting." She answered my question before I could ask it, wow, she did know me pretty well. "Mom will transport us there, you ready?" I took a deep breath. "Yes" I said. Five minutes later, we were at the grand oak doors of the Faefana Academy for Gifted Children.

[-adonis ❰Stitched you up, put you together With cotton and feather Gave you love, put my heart inside you Oh what could I do When you started talking]

         １/１/１５

Part 4      Headmaster Itsuki

Me and Bethany squeezed each others hands and walked through the oak doors. A grand and beautiful mess hall awaited us. Hundreds, no thousands, of children were eating their lunch as we entered. The man who seemed to be the Headmaster, for he was sitting in the middle seat at the staff table. He was wearing a deep purple robe and his grey beard stretched all the way to the floor as well as his hair. He looked kind of like a sensei, Korean or Japanese maybe. The headmaster waved us over. A few students turned to look at us while others were eating or using their magical abilities to play with their food.

Beth, thankfully, did the talking. “Hello sir, we’re new here” she said. “I was not aware of this arrival, which of your parents had magical capabilities?” the man said. “Our mom, Lily Peterson” Bethany said. “Lily, she was quite a fine classmate,” Wait. So my mom, who looks really young, and this man, who looks really old, were in the same class together? What? “My name is Itsuki Wantanabe, but you can call me the Headmaster. You are?” He asked us. “My name is Felicia Kotsey” I shook his hand. “And I am Bethany Kosey”. She shook the Headmaster’s hand.

Headmaster started to explain the Academy. “Right now, the students are eating lunch, and then they will go back to their dorms for rest hour and then they will have their classes again. I should probably prepare you a schedule.” All of a sudden, I saw a white schedule in my head. At the top it read, This is the Headmaster, I have the ability to send things to you with my mind. Here is your schedule. I read my schedule a few times. 1st block was Learning About Your Power, 2nd block was Controlling Your Power, 3rd block was Using Your Mind, 4th was Rest Hour, 5th was Study of Magical Things, 6th was History of Magic, 7th was Using Magic Around Others, finally, 8th was Dangers of Magic.

“Each block is one hour, starting with breakfast from 9 AM-10 AM before 1st block. In between blocks 3 and 4 is lunch and in between blocks 7 and 8 is dinner. After block 8 you are free to do whatever until 10 PM which is curfew. Anyone caught up past curfew will be punished. Also, blocks one and 2 depend on your skill level. Any questions?” For once, I had none. “Then let me show you to your dorms, you will be sharing one until you are more comfortable with your surroundings.” At least I would be with Beth for a while. “You will be sharing your dorms with two other girls, right this way.”

[-adonis ❰Stitched you up, put you together With cotton and feather Gave you love, put my heart inside you Oh what could I do When you started talking]

         １/２/１５

Part 5      Delila and Moira

The Headmaster showed us to our dorms. Outside our dorms waiting for us were two pretty girls. He pointed to one of them. “This is Delila Archibald. Her family, and herself, specialize in the art of pyrokinesis.” So she was a fire mage, interesting. As long as she didn’t burn down the dorm I was good. “This here, is Moira White. She has the power of discord” he lowered his voice to a whisper so only Beth and I could hear, “you better watch out, she’s dangerous” He raised his voice back up again. “Well, enjoy yourselves” With a flick of cloak, he was walking down the hallway to attend other matters.

“I’m Bethany Kotsey,” Beth said. Moira stared her down as if reading everything she contained. “I’m Felicia Kotsey” I said. Moira continues to stare at Bethany. There was silence. “What are your powers?” Delila asked to break the silence. “I don’t know actually” I said. “But she had symptoms” Beth added in, “I can curse people.” There was another pause. “Well, let’s get inside” Delila said, “By the way, you can call me Lila”.

We walked into the bedroom. There were six beds total, a bunk bed on the left wall, a bunk bed on the right wall, and a bunk bed on the back wall. The front wall was for dressers. The bathroom was attached to the right wall. On the right wall bottom bunk, there was stuff laying out. Moira caught me looking, “That’s my stuff,” she said “Touch it and you’re gone. No one can sleep over my bunk so you’ll either be under Lila or in the back wall by yourself.” It was clear who was in charge here. We chose the back wall.

[-adonis ❰Stitched you up, put you together With cotton and feather Gave you love, put my heart inside you Oh what could I do When you started talking]

         １/３/１５

Part 6      Top Dog of the Dorm

I got into the top bunk because that was what Moira and Lila were doing, lying down. Once again, a silence rose around the room. “Is it always like this?” I asked. Lila nodded. Guess so. “What block do you have next?” Lila asked 5 minutes later. I pulled up the schedule in my mind. “Ummm” I checked it. “I have Study of Magical Things. So does Beth”. Moira emitted a sarcastic woop. “I have that too. Yay, another hour with you guys.” She said in an even more sarcastic voice.

“How much time do we have left of Rest Hour?” She asked Lila. “30 minutes” Lila replied. “Bathroom is mine until bell rings” Bethany looked like she was going to say something, but she closed her mouth. After the door slammed, Beth asked, “Is she always like that?” Delila nodded. “I keep time for her, I am basically her nannie.” You could tell Lila was starting to get annoyed. “I am sick of doing all of her bidding and getting pushed around!” She threw a book.

She started sobbing. I looked at Bethany, were we going to do? We tried to comfort her. After 10 or 15 minutes, she calmed down. “I’m sorry about that,” Lila said. “It’s just that there is so much discord in this room because of Moira.” That part was true. I was feeling random hatred towards Lila and Beth for random reasons. We were silent. Seconds later, the bathroom door clicked and Moira came out smiling smugly. She probably knew what had happened and it had been her fault! Now I was mad. The bell rang. “Well, let’s get to class.” Moira said.

[-adonis ❰Stitched you up, put you together With cotton and feather Gave you love, put my heart inside you Oh what could I do When you started talking]

         5/4/１5
Nєω Yєαяѕ Rєѕσℓυтισηѕ

(view spoiler)[Let's see how well I kept these up (hide spoiler)]
Last year: (view spoiler)[

☞Being on my phone less☜

I started this towards the end of last year. My parents started to get suspicious of when I was on my phone and thought I was up to something. So I started to be on my phone less. First order of business, deleting my instagram. Basically that locked me out of life. And I was worried about what was on instagram and not what was going on around me. I'll try to be on less on that.

☞Being on Goodreads less/more☜

By less I mean, so it isn't as noticeable by my parents and more I mean so I can spend more time with you guys. Seeing you guys everyday is the best I could ever ask for. For me to be happy, I just need a computer and you guys. Without question, you guys make me laugh everyday. By less is basically, so my parents don't question why I'm on my computer as much.

☞Trying to be on better terms☜

(with my friends)
As you guys know, I haven't been on the best terms with my friends. And sometimes their comments really hurt me. Next year, I will try to be nicer to them and hopefully they'll be better to me.

☞Being nice in general☜

So apparently, I'm rude and sarcastic a lot of the time and I get in trouble and apparently, my sorries are not good enough and don't mean anything. So this year, I'll try to be way nicer towards everything, and have an overall good attitude. So yay for niceness (hide spoiler)]

☞Being on my phone less☜

At the beginning it was good, and it slowly increased
COMPLETED? so-so

☞Being on Goodreads less/more☜

I had a great hiatus and it was surprisingly hard to get back on after, but now I'm on and if I want to take a hiatus, I'm not missing much because of mah bruhs.
COMPLETED? Yes

☞Trying to be on better terms☜

New friends, and I'm so much happier with them so yayayayayay
COMPLETED? YES YES YES

☞Being nice in general☜

I try not to be rude in front of adults, but sometimes it's really fun to be rude hahahaha
COMPLETED? No

SO there is an update on my new years resolutions.... I'll do another update soon. And I'll try to post here more yay.

[-adonis ❰Stitched you up, put you together With cotton and feather Gave you love, put my heart inside you Oh what could I do When you started talking]

         6/5/15
BRUHS :* <3

I honestly don't know what I'd do without these guys. For those people out of the loop, the bruhs started when I asked Low (bLOWjob) if I could add Meiyu (sugar MEIma) in a group chat. She said "sure!" so we did the hiya's stayed up to watch movies, TV shows, typos etc. Then out of the womb, came Selia (SEquiLA). We basically did the same thing, except this time, the baebae species was discovered. And ohmygod I love them so much bye.

[-adonis ❰Stitched you up, put you together With cotton and feather Gave you love, put my heart inside you Oh what could I do When you started talking]

         12/5/15
Twenty One Pilots Gifs

[-adonis ❰Stitched you up, put you together With cotton and feather Gave you love, put my heart inside you Oh what could I do When you started talking]

**Sorry about the quality, I'm still learning how to do this