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@AllieDang...that was so long, dyslexia took over & I couldn't finish.
But...a lot of what you felt is what I'm feeling. Right now, as we speak. Especially the part about the depression, wanting to commit suicide & cut myself until nothing's left, even though I'm usually 1 of the first people to try to encourage people to keep going on with their life because they have purpose, yet I cant believe.
I guess...in many ways, I'm just like your old you.
But you can become New You :)
You can beat it.
I know you can and I fully believe in you.
Keep turning to God. He'll help you out of your storm. :)
I know you can and I fully believe in you.
Keep turning to God. He'll help you out of your storm. :)
She, like the majority of my friends, has. I haven't. Yet.
@Allie*tears* Thank you. Gee...now I REALLY wish you could stay...hug?
*Yet*
You can. You can do this.
You can. You can do this.
It will take time and you have to really work hard.
It's not easy at all. But you can do it and don't listen to the voices telling you you can't. That's not Gods voice.
It's not easy at all. But you can do it and don't listen to the voices telling you you can't. That's not Gods voice.
CLaRiCe™~i'M HaPPY...SoMeTiMeS~ wrote: "@Allie
*tears* Thank you. Gee...now I REALLY wish you could stay...hug?"
Aww. I'm sorry. *hugs*
*tears* Thank you. Gee...now I REALLY wish you could stay...hug?"
Aww. I'm sorry. *hugs*
Clarice: it's here too if you want to finish it when I'm gone.
https://www.goodreads.com/topic/show/...
https://www.goodreads.com/topic/show/...
My friend & I have an "inside joke", I guess...if we said something negative about ourselves, we would say, "THAT'S NOT A TRUTH!"But hey...it's gotten A LOT better. A couple usernames ago, it used to be:
CLaRiCe™~SLoWLY DRoWNiNG iN a PooL oF MiSeRY~
Not kidding.
But it still really hurts a lot. Trust me, I never planned to be this way. No one does. After 6th grade, my life just...took a bad turn. I thought I was free, TRULY free! But...no. I wasn't. Every time I think I make progress, I realize all I did was fail even more. People on the outside dont me all that much. No one does, & no one ever will. Even my own mother doesn't know as much as my 13-year-old bestest friend in the whole world. It's heartbreaking when you think about it...I guess I'm just really bad at keeping dark secrets hidden. For the most part.
Look, I wasn't trying to make your journal so gloomy...so, I'm sorry.
That's good:) I bet it helps too
Aw so you've grown a bit already.
Right. It feels like it's okay sometimes then it doesn't and everything feels worse than before but someday soon I know everything will be really great for you :) you just have to win this battle.
I don't mind it one bit. Pour your heart out if you'd like sweetie.
Aw so you've grown a bit already.
Right. It feels like it's okay sometimes then it doesn't and everything feels worse than before but someday soon I know everything will be really great for you :) you just have to win this battle.
I don't mind it one bit. Pour your heart out if you'd like sweetie.
It does...A little...not a significant amount, but I'm getting there.
Thank you, both of you, for believing in me, along with all the other folks.
You sure? I hate the feeling of walking into a room & it darkening with every word...I dont wanna be the curse that does that everywhere.
You're no curse. And you're not darkening anything. :)
You're not. I actually enjoy hearing peoples problems so continue if you'd like but I'm going to suggest things and contine to encourage you. ;P
=]Thanks, random dude!
That's what I'm here for. :P Random encouragement.
Haha. That would be Zechariah. :3
=]Well, I appreciate it! ^_~
Well hello there, Zechariah!
He's indescribably amazing and wonderful and beautiful and *is crying again*
We'll yeah he's just :')
We'll yeah he's just :')
Keep crying. It'll make you feel a little better.
& hugs. Hugs always make you feel better.
I don't like crying though. I think I've cried enough tears to water every blade of grass on the planet and fill the ocean.
T_______________T
I'm sobbing. >.<
I'm sobbing. >.<
Don't leave don't leave don't leave tonight or ever
αƖƖιє ✳ ǀ ɗση'т кησω нσω тσ вє ѕσмєтнιηg уσυ'ɗ мιѕѕ ✳ (I'm halfway gone) wrote: "I don't like crying though. I think I've cried enough tears to water every blade of grass on the planet and fill the ocean.""If you wanna know how far my love can go
Just how deep
Just how wide
If you wanna see how much you mean to me
Look at my hands
Look at my side
If you could count the times I'd say you are forgiven
It's more than the drops in the ocean..."
~"Drops in the Ocean", Hawk Nelson
Ayah wrote: "Don't leave don't leave don't leave tonight or ever"I agree!!!
αƖƖιє ✳ ǀ ɗση'т кησω нσω тσ вє ѕσмєтнιηg уσυ'ɗ мιѕѕ ✳ (I'm halfway gone) wrote: "Ayahhhh *hugs tightly*"
*hugs back tighter* Al… >.<
*hugs back tighter* Al… >.<
Ayah wrote: "αƖƖιє ✳ ǀ ɗση'т кησω нσω тσ вє ѕσмєтнιηg уσυ'ɗ мιѕѕ ✳ (I'm halfway gone) wrote: "Ayahhhh *hugs tightly*"
*hugs back tighter* Al… >.<"
*cant breathe* Ayah...it'll be okay, sweetie.
*hugs back tighter* Al… >.<"
*cant breathe* Ayah...it'll be okay, sweetie.
*lets you go* I'm just gonna miss you so much :'(
αƖƖιє ✳ ǀ ɗση'т кησω нσω тσ вє ѕσмєтнιηg уσυ'ɗ мιѕѕ ✳ (I'm halfway gone) wrote: "I love that song. :)"^_~
See? Helping already!!
Ayah wrote: "*lets you go* I'm just gonna miss you so much :'("
I'm going to miss you too.
You're amazing, Ayah and really you're very sweet and kind and loving. And beautiful all over. And you're a magically awesome person.
I'm going to miss you too.
You're amazing, Ayah and really you're very sweet and kind and loving. And beautiful all over. And you're a magically awesome person.
CLaRiCe™~i'M HaPPY...SoMeTiMeS~ wrote: "αƖƖιє ✳ ǀ ɗση'т кησω нσω тσ вє ѕσмєтнιηg уσυ'ɗ мιѕѕ ✳ (I'm halfway gone) wrote: "I love that song. :)"
^_~
See? Helping already!!"
Thank you
:')
^_~
See? Helping already!!"
Thank you
:')
αƖƖιє ✳ ǀ ɗση'т кησω нσω тσ вє ѕσмєтнιηg уσυ'ɗ мιѕѕ ✳ (I'm halfway gone) wrote: "Ayah wrote: "*lets you go* I'm just gonna miss you so much :'("I'm going to miss you too.
You're amazing, Ayah and really you're very sweet and kind and loving. And beautiful all over. And you'r..."
AGREED!!!
And Clarice I only just met you a few days ago but you seem likes really great person and I pray that you get past your depression soon and you step away from it stronger than ever before.
αƖƖιє ✳ ǀ ɗση'т кησω нσω тσ вє ѕσмєтнιηg уσυ'ɗ мιѕѕ ✳ (I'm halfway gone) wrote: "And Clarice I only just met you a few days ago but you seem likes really great person and I pray that you get past your depression soon and you step away from it stronger than ever before.YAY!!! I wasn't forgotten!!!
Aww you guys are so cute :3 My hug triplets <3
Noooooo
Schoooooolll