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[[deleted user]]

Goodfuckingnight

[[deleted user]]

Dont
Please

[[deleted user]]

Don't leave...I'm sorry
I am so sorry.

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Clara please.

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Motherfucking shit it's a bad night I fucking hate this no I can't take this bit now I fucking can't it's because of youtht I'm still alive so quit saying that's it's your fault
Fine it's your fault that I'm alive so you want me to leave? I will right now if that's what you want I apologize idk if I mean any of this I just can't fuckin take it

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I'm sorry, I shouldn't of said anything...
It's just I went on three different journals of people I care about and everyone one of them said I want to die.
I lost it I'm sorry...>.<
Don't leave I never would want you to that's the exact opposite of what I'm trying to say.

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I can't fucking take this
I hate this all
It's not your fucking responsibility to save everyone!
I apologize! But you can't save everyone! Be happy!!!!
More people are happier when you are happy, including me but I don't fucking matter, right?
Okay I'll just suffer as I watch you hurt and wither away until your dead yeah fucking wonderful

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Okay, you're right I've been dumb.
I'm sorry.
I'll be happy please just stop.
I won't die at my own hand I can't do that.
So it's fine I'm sorry I freaked out please just don't be angry with me.

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I'm not mad at you I'm pissed at everything!!!
Maybe I'm a tiny bit mad because you're keeping me here yet ou don't seem to care that I'm only staying here for you!!!!!!!
I haven't gone and slit my wrist or tried smoking weed or getting drunk of my ass and fucked, all for you!!
But it seems like you don't care just like every other mother fucker here

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I do care but it scares me...like now..I've upset you and...I'm scared...>.<
I'm sorry, really I do care which is one of the reasons I lost it
I'm sorry. Please..I really am sorry.
I...can't stand to have someone be mad at me especially you...I'm soooo sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I am effing sorry.

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I'm sick of not being able to fucking help you you're my best fucking friend and I'm just watching as you get worse and worse so worried about everyone and it makes me feel even shittier because I'm a horrible fucking person I can even help you I hate myself worse but is is jhqbsisbshzbs fuck!

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I'm sorry
I'll stop.

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I don't want you to be hurt.
I'm sorry, I'll quit...I'm sorry I'm sorry.

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No it doesn't matter
Stop fuckin being sorry

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Please....>.<

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I apologize I'm just sick of being here okay and anything I say I'm scared if it'll hurt you

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It matters to me.
...please stop yelling >.<

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It won't I'm alright I just lost it for a moment. It won't happen again. I'm sorry.

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Motherfucker!!!! I want to leave!!!! So fucking bad!!!!! I'm so fuckibg done I can't even take this omfg just fucking leave me Allie
I'm not worth this

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No you don't, don't say that...

[[deleted user]]

You'll still be thinking it
You'll still be starving yourself
You'll still keep me here but not be happy

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I will!
I'm sorry I'm SORRY!
What can I do?
I'm sorry! How can I fix it tell me.

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Cmbcibcbdsvbxbdk
Leave like you want to

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I don't...

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I'm so fucking done indebsjehsh

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Stop...


>.< This is not what I want at all!

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You wouldn't even notice if it was me that left.
You'd just think that someone was gone but it won't matter cause I could never help you anyway, right?
I could never help anyone
Clara was a nobody
Nobody gave a fuck about her
They all hurt her an broke her and threw her away for everybody else
She tries to become strong
But that just made them break her more

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Stop!!!!
I would definitely notice. It would break me beyond repair.
You've helped me a lot I've just been messed up lately but it's okay. I'll be okay.
You're not a nobody. You're an amazing person and I want you to be alive for you. Understand that you can do something so beautiful with your life I just know it.
I didn't mean to hurt you. It was meant more for them anyway.
You are strong. I believe you can overcome all of this. And you'll look back and laugh at how silly you had been before because everything worked out.
Don't break. You mean too much to me.

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I have to go in less then ten minutes.
Please be okay.

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I'm already broken.
I've said goodbye to some other people already
Now I just.... Fuck
Stop saying things because you feel like you hve to
It wasn't your fault
Nothing was
I feel like I'm hurting you more now so I should just fuckong leave and hope you don't notice

[[deleted user]]

Goodbye
Not forever yet
Just for now
Be happy Allie

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No. Don't say that.
>.< you're going to live.
I don't feel like I have to. I am because I believe it's true.
Okay.
You're not. It's others.
All I want for you is to do things because you want to not because of anyone else. I'm so terrified something will happen like I'll get seriously grounded and I won't be able to get on then you'll just leave because you think it's okay.
Well it's not. That is not some easy route out. It will take you some where terrible and I know you're a sweet person. Sure you've messed up but you're human. I've messed up too. Just stay please for you.

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Why Weren't You There? wrote: "Goodbye
Not forever yet
Just for now
Be happy Allie"

I can't be happy until you are and you're obviously so freaking ticked at me that you believe that I actually don't care about you.

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I was begging to be happy when you were but that ended

I'm not alive for myself

Okay
Goodnight

[[deleted user]]

Really I'm okay.
I just lose it sometimes. Not really because of anyone in particular. Just me being....me.
That's why I'm hard to be with. :) but it's okay.

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I'm happy. :)
Everything is a-okay.
Okay? It's perfectly fine. :) I just have emotion issues. It's alright. I wasn't mad just losing my mind for a moment. But I'm okay now.

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Stop pretending
I'm just tucked
Goidnight

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She was fucking stupid

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She only wanted someone to care.....
But why would someone care about her? A worthless nobody
They never cared
They only hurt her
They don't care
And never will
They're happy
Never even noticed that I was gone
Don't pretend like you're sorry I fucking hate this
I fucking hate everyone and everything
Why can't it be different?!?
I wanna leave so fucking bad right now
But I can't
Nskdsudoh

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Why the fuck is it like this?!?!?
Nobody cares so can't I just leave?!?!
NOBODY WILL FUCKING NOTICE!!!!!!!!!!!


I only wanted somebody to care....





Fuck you clara
You're a fucking psycho
You're a loser
A "pisstaker" and a "deadass"
An ugly loner
Nobody
Nobody wants you
Nobody stayed
Nobody cared



Why does everybody always choose other people over me?
No matter how much I've done for them, no matter how much it will hurt me, they always choose the other people
...,,I'm just a fucking loser. Nobody wants me.


I can't play sports
I cant do cool little circus shit
I can't play lots of instruments
I can't fucking draw
I can't write
I didnt cut deep enough
I'm fat but skinny
I'm a tease but not really I just hate myself
I can't take good pictures of myself
I don't write the things that people need to hear even if I mean it
I never help
I'm nobody
I've never been someone else's first choice. Or their second or third.
(Example: Lexi chose Jon over me. Jon chose Lexi over me. Lexi chose to stay here and keep hurting me so that she wouldn't hurt others. Zhane loves his gf sure, maybe I do mind being used. Alex....won't even reply anymore. Allie....idek. You care a lot about everyone else and since I'm a nobody I don't matter, not that you've ever said that.) point is..... I've never mattered and...I'm tired of it
I just wish....
Fuck
FUCKKKk I fucking hate this

[[deleted user]]

Clara...you do help...you're not a nobody...please don't think that..

[[deleted user]]

Not fucking true
I can't fucking do it anymore....





Night.

[[deleted user]]

It is true. You're not a nobody.

Okay....goodnight...please don't do anything to yourself..please...I want to see you tomorrow, alive...don't die or anything...(worst advice ever...)bye...

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Clara, you can not say that I do not care about you.
You don't know.
I care about you so much. And I'm so incredibly sorry that I made you feel this way.
There is no way I would just "not notice" if you left. No way. (Oh my lord you better still be here)
I love you. I mean it. Don't be upset. It's okay. Really. Everything will be alright. (All of your sins are forgiven just stop doing them and open your heart to Him. )
I do care about you. I do. I do. I do. I see that you don't believe me but think about it. Who do I talk to when I'm on....? You. Every time. Always you. I've even left some of my rl friends just to speak with you. They think I'm obsessed and I just tell them that someone I really care about is here. It's a little silly but everytime I see that you've posted I get a little excited. I love when we snuggle or hug or talk about nothing for hours. I've written for you. No one else reads those. But that's okay they're meant for you. You cannot just go, my love. There is so much in His plan for you and you can't just abandon everything. Everything will be okay. You're going to do something with your life. And you know what? It might not be that you become some famous singer or actress. What might happen is that you have a son. A very very important child and he may grow up to save the world from some nuclear war but if you leave he wouldn't exist. Or maybe you'll change the lives of a few people because you decided to just donate a bit of money somewhere. And those people come back and they're lives have become so amazing just from your donation maybe they'll come back and give you an insane amount of money and you'll be able to take care of your family forever.

Believe me, my dear, you have a purpose. I don't know what it is exactly but I know you do.

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Clara is pretty.

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Clara is sweet.

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Clara loves.

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Clara is funny.

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Clara is incredible.

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Clara is a wonderful friend.