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Drayven's heart was racing, his head hanging in defeat. He couldn't argue with him. He wanted to tell him everything. He wanted to come clean to someone. But whatever. If he wasn't going to listen. Fine. If he was going to make him feel guilty for keeping a secret, a secret that has ripped him apart by every limb fine! Fine! He wasn't going to tell a soul! He turned his head away, "I don't care about keeping secrets. Okay? I'm not doing this because you feel guilty. Ive kept this for three years! I want to tell someone and now! Whatever! I don't care anymore. I'm going to your room. Don't slip." He always said that when people were going to a shower. He didn't know what to do anymore. Fine. Fine.... His secrets were his forever. He couldn't even tell hi. About that night of being drugged. Whatever.... That was the reason he his everything. It was hard to talk about. Its not like he never tried. But he didn't want to talk about how many people he slept with!
Kirk sighed and grabbed onto Drayven, pulling him into a hug. "Just, come shower with me. You can tell me anything you want and I'll listen with all my heart. I just want you to know that I'm not going to force you and I'm never going to ask you tell me anything. It's your choice to tell if you want to tell. Ok? I just want us to move on from this either way. Please." He was beginning to feel desperate again. He had tried all approaches at this point and Drayven still wasn't happy. If he pushed Drayven wasn't hapoy, if he pulled back Drayven wasn't happy. This was all so frustrating and on too of that Drayven was being passive aggressive.
This was the only person Drayven wouldn't fight. He didn't want to. He wanted to just give up anymore. He gasped when he was pulled into him. He frowned, looking down and hugged him tight. This is all he ever wanted. To just love someone and have them love him from who he was! He had a few tears going down his face. "I just want to finally say it to someone who won't judge me and tell me I'm some fuck up... I want fucking love is that too much to fuckkng ask for!?" He asked. It was more of a soft cry that was just a tad bit louder. "I don't want you to be scared of me anymore.... You can destroy me just as much as I can you.. Thats it.... And by hurting you id kill myself too.... Don't you understand...?
Kirk flinched at the cry Drayven gave out about wanting love. "I do love you though and I always have. That's why I was upset in the first place. I fucking love you and I would never judge you. I might be a little jealous, but...that's because I love you too. All I've ever done is love you. Don't you get that? Drayven. I. Love. You." He looked the other boy straight in the eye as he sai it all. It needed to get into his head right now or it never would. "So stop. Stop holding it in, stop being so angry, stop putting yourself in danger. Just talk to me and let me love you. I'm begging you. I can't take seeing you hurt anymore. Tell me what you need to tell me or just let it go. The past is in the past and I'm here now."
Drayven looked up at him, the tears going down the bumbs in his face. He was frowning and he hated himself. "If you want to love MW and make it work, you'll have to know. One thing I don't know if I can let go of yet...." He hung his head, but kept ahold of him. "I love you, too.... Thats the reason you, the only other person, that gets to know. Deal?" He asked raising his eyebrow. He stood on his toes, getting up to his face and pressed his lips against his, even though the spark was gone at the moment. He closed his eyes and went down on his feet.it would come back, he was hella sure of that. He was just upset and he didn't feel good anymore. "Wanna go take the shower and let me tell my story...?"
Kirk nodded his head. "Yeah. I guess I do." He walked toward the bathroom and started up the shower. He took of his clothes, but it wasn't the same as it had been earlier. There was no teasing ot watching, it was simple stripping for a shower. He didn't much like that, but it as how it had to be for now. "I'm just going to be quiet while you tell me the story," Kirk told him. "I want to listen without you feeling judged or anything. I will save my comments until the very end. Sound good?" He stepped into the warm shower water.
Drayven nodded, moving slowly as he took off his clothing. He had a scar on his back that looked like a bite. That wasn't a good memory. He just woke up with it. He took it all off and jumped in, keeping his distance though. He closed his eyes, "The reason I never said anything is because....." He wiped his face, "I'm so ashamed I feel disgusted with myself even at the thoughts... I know its not much of a reason... But its hard to get it out.. It's not that I didn't trust you... Its I hated myself...." He rubbed his head again.... Then breathed in, "s-so here it goes...."He held onto the wall as he started, "when j first came out as gay, my brother was the one who made it that way. He walked in with my first boyfriend... It was going fine... He was just the start after he broke up because he's scared of my brother... Ou were the still the first one I told." He said. "You always found out things first.. But once out, people started using me.... Playing with my heart.... Making me like them, and they made me think it was mutual.... Then after we did the deed...." He breathed in, "they told me they were disgusted and they weren't gay. They didn't like me, they used me.... I tried to find someone.... But... I wouldn't go to you because I was terrified of refection because you're the only one that mattered to me.. I didn't want you to hate me because you were and still are my best friend and I would die without you.... I would be alone... Thats why. Thats why I never spoke up.... I partied, got drunk, fought, but you knew all of that... "
He started wiping his face, shaking, "and... When I tried to... T- to...." He couldn't get it out, his head hanging as he choked on his own words. "When I straightened up and wanted to actually have a serious relationship with someone I did love... They.... There was a guy.... A-and I turned him down twice.... B-but he wouldn't... T-take it... As an answer.... He drugged me... And took advantage of me...." He started shaking. "He... He recorded it.... And said if I told anyone he'd release it..." He hugged his body, clawing into his arm as he just let out all go the pain. "This is why I said I was a slut...."
((Feel special. I'm on my phone and typed that all for you! Feel special!))
((I've been on my phone all day haha, it's a pain in the ass!))Kirk swallowed hard as he listened then yanked Drayven into a hug. "I'm so so sorry Drayven. You shouldn't have kept that in so long. You should see someone and that guy should be put in prison. Who cares about the stupid video? That guy needs to be in fucking jail. Who was it? I'll put him in jail myself." He let go of Drayven an started to get out if the shower.
He was going to find this guy and he was going to kill him, not put him in jail, and he was going to do it right now. He knew it wasn't logicL but nothing about this situation was logical. He was too completely pissed off to even know what he was doing
"This is NOT your fault. The stuff before this guy you had a part in and let it continue, but this guy, no. You were raped Drayven. Raped. That's not ok and I swear to God that guy is going to regret being born. Tell me who it was." He was shaking with the anger coursing through his body.
((Ikr!? Ugh. Stupid phones. They need to make a pop out keyboard. One we can type on. Like a hologram type thing. My friend has one. 0.0))Drayven's eyes widened when he was hugged, not expecting that to happen. He slowly started to close his eyes, hugging onto him tightly. It did feel good to let someone know and them not hating him. He knew it was his fault for falling for it so many times, he was too desperate for love like that. He didn't realize it was right here. "I'm sorry...." He whispered to him. "I was too desperate...." He wiped his face, moving his head more in his chest.
But when he brought up who it was, Drayven felt his blood then to ice. He was terrified of him. He honestly didn't know who he was. "I don't know... I don't know where he is..." He said, shaking more. "I just knew him from parties.... And I usually watered my drink up so much I only got a buzz.... Not drunk.... Sometjems I went without it.... Then he slipped it into it and.... Yeah..." He explained.
"I know his first name and what he looks like.... But don't know who he was...." He rubbed his hair, reaching out from the shower. " please come back in..." He begged. "He'll hurt you... He's crazy...."
((Why don't I have one?))"I don't give a shit if he hurts me. What I give a shit about is that he he hurt YOU. That's not ok. He can be a crazy as a shit house mouse but that doesn't give him the right to rape you. That's is your body and he had no right to lay a finger on it!" Kirk was pacing back and forth along the bathroom, dripping wet, butt naked, and unaware of how many times he had said the word shit.
"Drayven, I have to do something! I can't just know that you got raped and do nothing about it. I can't. I won't. I'm supposed to be protecting you, not letting you get taken advantage of. I need to rip this guys fucking head off!" He slipped on the water on the floor from his own body, but he hardly seemed to notice. He fell hard on one knee but just got right back up. There would be a bruise there later but he didn't know it care about that. He was raging.
((I don't know if they're on the market. I think they're with beta testing. So far there are done problems with it.))Drayven watched him, wincing when he was yelling and everything. "You need to break something." He said thinking about going to get more glass. When he fell,he jumped up and took his arm, pulling him a bit, "sit down." He said setting the toilet seat down. "Please." He said looking up at him. He felt weak. He wasn't in charge of this. He usually was. He hated not being in control, but he was going to have to get used to it.
"I'm okay... It just bugs me with people sometimes..." He tried so hard to get him to calm down. "I'm not going to let you do anything until you calm down." He didn't know what he could do anyways. Beating him wasn't going to fix what happened. Nothing would fix it besides letting go, and he was working on it. The first step they did hours ago.
Kirk ran his hands through his hair over and over again. "I can't just sit here..." he whimpered "My boyfriend got raped. I can't just sit here and accept it." He took Drayven's face in his arms and looked him in the eyes. "I am so sorry. I'm sorry this happened to you and I'm sorry I can't fix it and make it all ok again." He pulled the other boy onto his lap and held onto him tight. "I love you. I love you so much. It wasn't your fault. Ok?"He took a few deep breaths to relax himself, though it didn't work well. He was still shaking badly at this point. "W-what do we do now? How do we move on? I can't...but I'll take care of the guy when I get a chance. How do I help you move on? Tell me what to do."
Drayven was so worried he was going to hurt himself, he was ready to just hold him and make him calm down. When he finally started to a bit, he sighed a bit. He did look up in his eyes, not knowing why he was so sorry. It didn't make sense. He did smile at him anyways, taking his hand and kissing it. He just wanted d him to be okay. He knew it wasn't his fault, all the way. Besides giving him the title easy, though he wasn't. He smiled more, "I love you, too. I love you a thousand times and more."He went onto his lap, leaning back, his back warm,well. More like his side since he wanted to look at him. He felt bad he had such a terrible past for him to deal with. He reached IP and stroked his face. "Just love me." He said, "Love me like there's no tomorrow. And were both jealous motherfuckers, never make me jealous.... And I won't make yours." He said laughing a bit. He was hoping those terms would be fine. "Just show me what love is for." He winked.
Kirk smiled a little bit before gently stroking Drayven's hair. "I love you. I'm, can we get back in the shower now? Sorry I freaked out so bad I'm just so, fucking pissed at that guy. I'm sure you would be too if someone did that to me." He stood up, lifting Drayven with him. He stepped into the shower next, pulling him along. He was glad for the warm water. It was good after his little freak attack. He kissed along Drayven's face lightly as the water ran over them. "I'm good now, but you better tell me if you ever see that guy again. I have a personal vendetta now." He kissed his lips gently. He then kisses him again, a little deeper. Time to focus on the shower.
"I love you, too." He said with a smile, lwnaing in and hugging him. "Of course I'd be pissed. But now you have me as a boyfriend I'm sure you'll never be alone in those sorts of situations..." He said hugging him. "IMA protect you with my life." It was true. He didn't value life very much, more so now than ever before. Actually now, he would probably watch what he was doing so his life didn't end. That was new. Way new. He held onto him when he picked him up, "And everything is okay.... Believe me... If I would have told you right after you probably thought I was in a dying whale."He was relieved by the warm water since they had been drying and chilling in the cool outer area. He hugged him tight, trying to get the warmth. "I promise. No more secrets. Never again." He leaned back against the side of the shower, wanting to pull him into him again. Drayven was just a horney guy. "And if I see him you'll know it. He scares me to death." He said. He kept kissing him, starting to poke at his boyfriends lips with his to gue, it brushing against the metal.
***Drayven woke up an hour after he left, cuddling with his pillow that he thought was Kirk. Of course, it was squishier than him. Much squishier. He whimpered a bit, opening his eyes slowly and seeing that he was now headless. He let out a gasp and sat himself up, looking down to find himself straddling a pillow. He blew hair out of his face in a pout. He pushed himself up, stretching as he wondered where his boyfriend was. He hung onto the pillow and started walking through the house with his hair a complete mess. He rubbed his eye, yawning as he walked into the kitchen. He noticed his boyfriend, to which Drayven smiled wide. "Good morning." He said.
He waddled over to one of the chairs and curled up in a ball, putting his head on the side of the pillow again. He rocked around a bit, purring. He was so weird when he woke up. He usually stayed in his room though, that or he was all alone at the house. Which he liked. WHen he was alone he went and made himself food and crashed on the couch again, to which he got yelled at by his parents for being indecent.
Kirk laughed before walking over and kissing the top of his head. "You always were weird when it came to waking up." He shook his own head and laughed again. "I made
((Stupid phone -_-))pancakes if you're interested. There's regular syrup or that strawberry syrup my mom likes. What can I get for you?" He walked back to the plates he had been getting out for the food an waited for the answer from Drayven. He just looked so cute all curled up like that.
((I was just about to start writing something hilarious to put to finish your sentence. Didn't work.))Drayven looked up at him, smiling softly at him, "I know." He said with a small purr in his voice. He was still tired, knowing it still wasn't morning yet. It was probably about midnight or one o'clock. Today was filled with sleeping and sex. Good combination in Drayven's opinion. He thought about what he wanted for his food, just staring out into space as if he wasn't thinking at all. "Regular." He finally answered. "With a side of sexiness." He said winking at Kirk.
((Ugggh this never notified me))Kirk laughed then gave a dramatic eye roll. "Everything I serve automatically comes with a side of sexy. You should have known that by now." He finished up the pancakes then brought them over to Drayvrn. "Sorry it's not on a silver platter. I ran out of those," he teased.
A few minutes later he sat down next to his boyfriend with his own plate of pancakes. "Eat up handsome," he said "You're wasting away to nothing and we can't have that. Can we?"
((Thats alright. :3))Reaching forward he stroked his side and hip, "mmm. I'll believe it." He bit his lip sexily and looked up at him with a small, amazingly hot wink. He leaned back, him still being shirtless and pantsless. Just with underwear, how sad. "You'll have to pay for that with something special."
He looked at his food and smiled a bit, though he was hungry, he still didn't know much about eating and stuff. He nodded with a smile, starting to start eating, which got easier over time.
Kirk kissed his neck lightly and smiled. "I promise the pancake are not going to bite back, just dig in like you're not afraid to get messy." He took a bite of his own food, smiling as he did so. Drayven could be so strange sometimes, and he really sort of love that, it made for an interesting relationship for sure.
Drayven shivered and smiled wide at him. He turned to the food and laughed a bit. "You don't know that." He said with a small chuckle. "And I already took a shower, I don't wanna have to take another. Last time I ended up dirtier than when I went in." He said with a wink, starting to eat slowly, but he was getting it down. It got easier over time, him getting used to eating. Sometimes he forgot how to swallow, which is why he was so slow at it. He would just sit there, thinking of how to actually eat, then when he figured it out it went more simple. He was a strangeboy. "So, what are we going to do for the rest of the night/morning?"
Kirk laughed and shrugged his shoulders up and down. "Cuddle, watch a movie, go to the park, I dunno. There's an endless list of things we could do I guess, but I don't know what I actually want to do. A walk might be nice. I could take you down to the park and push you on the swings. Or you could push me." He stuck out his tongue teasingly. He loved the swings.
Drayven thought about what they could do, "We could go grab you a helmet from the store and go for a bike ride." He said. "Go up the hill, go to the park. Do everything on that list?" He asked tilting his head to the side as he continued to eat. He blinked a few times, finishing off a half of it and starting off into the other pieces of the pancakes. It tasted amazing, especially when you don't eat and that you're eating with someone you love.
"Mmmmm, I like that idea a lot," Kirk grinned. "I vote yes. As soon as we're finished here we'll get dressed and go for a ride. You're so smart." He gave him a big smack of a kiss then finished his pancakes and got a few more. He was much more hungry than he had realized. Being with Drayven had really taken it out of him, though he hadn't even noticed until now. Probably because he had full on passed out asleep.
He smiled and nodded. He was planning on buying Kirk a helmet soon, he just hadn't gotten around to it yet. He was excited to get him on the back of the bike. This time it wasn't going to be awkward. It was going to be fun having the bike rev under their bodies, making a small jumping motion with Kirk against Drayven's back. It sounded like a lot of fun. He was glad that he was okay with the riding of the bike, a lot of people weren't, even though Drayven never understood how people could hate it that much.He kept eating, finally finishing it all after Kirk had got his second set. He wasn't going to get more, he didn't think that he could eat that much. Which kinda sucked, since Kirk was an amazing cook. He didn't know how he could be so slow at eating, but hey. That's just the way he was.
Kirk finished his second plate then piled the dishes in the sink to be cleaned later. "Alright, lets go get dressed so we can get out of here." He ran off to his room and began rifling through the closet for something acceptable. He was very picky about his clothes, and in that he was much like a girl. He often tried on many outfits before deciding on one, but this time he tried really hard to be quick about it. He picked some clothes, put them on, then sat on his bed and waited for his boyfriend.
Drayven watched him as he took his plate, watching him and thinking about how it would be if they lived together. He wanted to do it before, even before he had a crush on him. He only had one friend and he thought it would be fun to be able to live together and make a lot of people mad by how loud they could be when they messed around. Oh if only those imaginary people heard them now...He stood up and walked in after him, seeing he was already dressed. He pouted a bit, looking down and getting his clothing on slowly, his body sagging as if he was very upset, but it was obvious he was just joking around. He looked over at him, his bottom lip pushed out and wobbling a bit. He wanted to help him get undress- I mean dressed.
Kirk smirked as soon as he saw the way that Drayven was pouting. "Hey now, you had your chance...but if you're nice maybe I'll let you into my bed again a little later." He winked playfully then pranced over to Dayven and put his arms around his waist. "Ok, what are you going to wear? My closet is your closet now." He kissed Drayven's face all over then walked over the bed and plopped down. "Model for me you handsome boy you." He grinned wide.
Drayven looked up at him, smiling softly as he wrapped his arms around his waste, looking up at him. He laughed lightly, thinking about what he was going to do to him, "I'm going to do a lot worse." He said. He reached back and put his hands on his rear, squeezing it with a laugh. He moved his hands forward, his hands on the arms now. "I'll look." He let him let go and walk to the bed. Drayven was instantly in model mode as if he was pro at it. He strutted, and started looking through the closet, he showed off his body, the curves, and how long and nice his arms were. He pulled out a few articles of clothing and started putting them on, but all in a show. You thought a strip show was provocative, this was worse. He pulled up the pants, buttoning them, and moving his legs apart a bit, his choice was black jeans, surprising, right? Then he just wore his black combats. The next thing was the shirt, him bringing it up his arms in such a way to show off all the muscles. He pulled it over his chest slowly, his eyes looking directly at Kirk's. He finished dressing and walked over to him. Well, strutted. He sat down next to him, crossing his legs perfectly. "How was that?"
Kirk looked down at the front of his jeans, making sure Drayven followed his eyes to the obvious bulge. "How do you think it was?" he asked, smiling seductively. "If I wasn't so set on that bike ride, putting those clothes on would have been completely pointless." He pulled Drayven close and kissed him deeply, holding back only so things didn't get taken too far. He really did want to go to the park. When he pulled back he grinned. "You're the perfect model, you know that?" he asked. "I mean really. You've got the body, the moves, and the body." He kissed the tip of his nose. "Now, mister model, I was promised a ride on the back of your motorcycle."
Drayven did follow his eyes to the bulge, smiling, and he had a huge wave of pleasure go through him at that moment. He bit his lip, his eyes shining in the lust. He laughed a bit, "I think it was great." He said. He did sort of wish he wasn't set on the bike ride thing, but then again, he had imagined having that on his bike, even though that wasn't something he really wanted. He would crash and they'd both die, or they'd knock the bike over and get seriously hurt. As would his bike. He kissed him back, his hand going lightly on his jawline, his eyes closing and his head tilting to the side ever so slightly. He let him pull back, however. He looked into his eyes and smiled, "I love you."He had always thought that he was a model at heart, but never thought that he'd be able to do that. "You said body twice." He said laughing a bit when he got his nose kissed. "Come along, your ride awaits." He stood up, offering his hand to his boyfriend. Things were turning out great. Thank God. He was worried for that whole time. Now, now they were fine. He hoped it would forever stay that way.
Kirk took his hand and allowed himself to be pulled along. "I said body twice because I meant body twice," he told him "And I love you too. I love your entire you. From your perfect hair to your perfect toes. Alright?" He kissed his nose then went out with him to the bike. He was excited, beyond excited. He hadn't ever really ridden on the bike for fear of the problem in his pants right now, but things were different at this point and he was glad this was all happening. "Don't go too fast," he told him "I've never been on one before and I don't know how I'll feel about it. Ok? If I start screaming you better stop." He laughed.
He smirked, not even knowing he had a nice body with all of the scars on it, mostly self harm scars, but hey, whatever floated his boat right? That's the one thing that saved his life half of the time, and he never hid them. Unless he wore bracelets, but bracelets were just cool, which were the only reason. He walked to the bike, throwing his boyfriend the helmet, "Now put it on. Or I'm not taking you anywhere." He said getting on it. He would drive safely with two of them on it. He was going to go to the store and get a new helmet for Kirk anyways. He just hadn't gotten around to it. He fired it up after Kirk got onto it. He loved the purr of his bike.He reached down and stroked its beautiful outside color softly. He couldn't help but love his bike. Sure, he loved Kirk more, which made him reach back and stroke his leg as well. "I will, don't worry. I won't hurt you. I wouldn't be able to live with myself." he said. "Just put your arms around me and don't let go. But also don't squeeze all the air out of me. I'm not wishing to die yet."
Kirk laughed lightly and put his arms around his boyfriend's waist, careful not to squeeze, after he put on the helmet. "Alright, I'm ready," he smiled. He felt incredibly calm and happy at this moment but he didn't know if that would last once they got going. Having never been on a motorcycle he just assumed that they were dangerous. However, he also figured that they were incredibly exciting.
Drayven nodded to him, knowing he was going to have to go grab another helmet, espeically if they were going on the hill. He wasn't going to risk it. So, as he started to move the bike out into the street, it vibrated under them. He loved the purr of his bike, he would never get enough of it. He got onto the blacktop and started off down the street. He was going slow at first, so Kirk didn't freak out but he was also going fast enough no one would complain. He hated those kinds of people, they were so annoying.
Kirk shivered from head to tow. He loved the feel of the bike beneath them and he loved how Drayven felt in front of him. He just loved the entire situation. Adrenaline pumped through his veins and a huge grin was plastered onto his lips. "This is amazing!" he practically squealed, squeezing onto him pretty tight.
Drayven watched the road and headed towards his favorite bike shop. He had a friend there that usually helped him out with everything. He smiled hearing Kirk, it feeling great to have him behind him. He pulled yo after about ten minutes of riding. He was lucky not to get caught by cops.... He looked back at him and shut off the engine. He smiled and motioned to get off. He wanted his helmet back and was ready to give Kirk his own.
"I think I'm going to go take a shower because I feel...gross. You can join me if you want to but I must warn you I'm not in the mood to mess around at the moment." He gave his friend a half smile. "I'm a little drained."