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I'm too tired right now so I'll shut up and take a nap xD
I was Cinderella but then dicided nahh I wanna be rapunzel :P
So a few days back I had this profile pic of this girl wearing jeans (it was avril lavign and she had this studded belt on). But the picture only showed the bottom half and then this dude comes along and is like "I don't like your profile pic" and I'm just like "Wtf? You have a problem?" Blah blah blah big fight and yeah...
So then I stop talking to him and then later he says "that was YOU???"
I say "No you *****, it's not me a frickin singer and if you weren't do quick to judge then you would have known >_<"
I got pissed and he was all like "Ohhh"
I just ignore him and say "I don't like judgemental peeps .-." He says sorry but I was still pissed. Then he did it again and ugh...
So then I stop talking to him and then later he says "that was YOU???"
I say "No you *****, it's not me a frickin singer and if you weren't do quick to judge then you would have known >_<"
I got pissed and he was all like "Ohhh"
I just ignore him and say "I don't like judgemental peeps .-." He says sorry but I was still pissed. Then he did it again and ugh...
He speaks whatever is on his mind. I don't really mind that since I do that as well. But seriously did he have to judge me AND spam my journal too? -_-
He calls me 'sister' and I'm like don't call me that you sound like a bloody saint when you say that...
And then I find out he's dating my friend and *cough* his supposedly other 'sister'.
When I heard this I was O.o
Wtf? When did this happen? She's your girlfriend and sister at the same time? Dude that is messed up ._.
When I heard this I was O.o
Wtf? When did this happen? She's your girlfriend and sister at the same time? Dude that is messed up ._.
Enough about this person...
Listening to the script :3
Listening to the script :3
Love their music, turn it on full blast, Flares <3
And Rita Ora as well... She is one damn good singer
And pretty too :P
Love and War is my favourite song from her...
And pretty too :P
Love and War is my favourite song from her...
A couple of days ago I was at school and I started singing 'DO YOU WANNA BUILD A SNOWMAN' really loudly, Idk why I just felt like it and a boy comes up (lets call him A) so I start singing louder because I know the song really pissed him off.
Him: No
Me: why?
Him: Because there's no snow
Me: It might snow...
Him: Still no
Me: But it did snow here
Him: It won't snow this year
Me: How do you know?
...
So we got into a big debate over the weather, weird I know but then everyone else got involve and it was kinda funny and the teacher was like 'God help me' xD
Him: No
Me: why?
Him: Because there's no snow
Me: It might snow...
Him: Still no
Me: But it did snow here
Him: It won't snow this year
Me: How do you know?
...
So we got into a big debate over the weather, weird I know but then everyone else got involve and it was kinda funny and the teacher was like 'God help me' xD
I like this journal better, no one from IP can bother me here unless they suddenly decide to join...
Mehh thanks.
Wanderer out.
Peace.
Wanderer out.
Peace.
I will never understand parents -_-
Today we got back the results for this really hard science test. I got a L7b (I live in London so we call the grades levels so I think that's an A grade?) Anywayz I was really pleased with myself because I had worked my butt off for that test and I got higher than most people in my class (I'm not boasting here). I had a really good day coz of that and then I come home and show my parents but they say it's not good enough ._.
I felt crushed, I mean I worked so hard and I was 1 mark away from a Level 7a but I thought I did pretty well. They wanted me to get higher in the test...
I was upset and then angry wtf? I did my best, don't I at least get a pat on the back? Instead of giving me support they criticize me, they need to know that I'm not completely hard... sometimes I need loving words of encouragement instead of a kick on the back.
So there you go bravo, congratulations my parents have managed to make me feel like I'm a worthless piece of s*** and just coz I wasn't up to their standards.
Like I give a damn what they say. At least I know I tried. And that's enough for now...
Today we got back the results for this really hard science test. I got a L7b (I live in London so we call the grades levels so I think that's an A grade?) Anywayz I was really pleased with myself because I had worked my butt off for that test and I got higher than most people in my class (I'm not boasting here). I had a really good day coz of that and then I come home and show my parents but they say it's not good enough ._.
I felt crushed, I mean I worked so hard and I was 1 mark away from a Level 7a but I thought I did pretty well. They wanted me to get higher in the test...
I was upset and then angry wtf? I did my best, don't I at least get a pat on the back? Instead of giving me support they criticize me, they need to know that I'm not completely hard... sometimes I need loving words of encouragement instead of a kick on the back.
So there you go bravo, congratulations my parents have managed to make me feel like I'm a worthless piece of s*** and just coz I wasn't up to their standards.
Like I give a damn what they say. At least I know I tried. And that's enough for now...
I'm so pissed -_-
So I'm doing my homework and then my dad comes into my room and tells me to go give M (My sister) something to eat. I'm just like umm I'm kind of busy here... and if he could come to my room and tell me to do something then can't he go to the bloody kitchen and do it himself?
Dad: Go give M something to eat
Me: Uhh I'm busy here... *gestures to all the papers around me*
Dad: You never do anything you fcvghbjnkmnbvtc. We're your parents and blah blah blah big lecture -_-
I'm just like wtf? I'm fucking revising here and it's not like you volunteer to do my homework for me or bother helping me with anything. I'm doing this to pass my fucking GCSEs which you've been banging on about for the past 3 months. So just leave me the fuck alone so I can do my exams, graduate and then get the hell out of this place ._.
Obviously I didn't say this out loud, I would've been in far more trouble if I did...
So I'm doing my homework and then my dad comes into my room and tells me to go give M (My sister) something to eat. I'm just like umm I'm kind of busy here... and if he could come to my room and tell me to do something then can't he go to the bloody kitchen and do it himself?
Dad: Go give M something to eat
Me: Uhh I'm busy here... *gestures to all the papers around me*
Dad: You never do anything you fcvghbjnkmnbvtc. We're your parents and blah blah blah big lecture -_-
I'm just like wtf? I'm fucking revising here and it's not like you volunteer to do my homework for me or bother helping me with anything. I'm doing this to pass my fucking GCSEs which you've been banging on about for the past 3 months. So just leave me the fuck alone so I can do my exams, graduate and then get the hell out of this place ._.
Obviously I didn't say this out loud, I would've been in far more trouble if I did...
Anywayz For our Shakespeare homework it's split up into 8 sections and we have to finish it over the course of 3 weeks:
Section 1: Write a monologue (from either Romeo or Juliets POV from when they first me)
Section 2: Create a shoebox scene from the play
Section 3: Write a modern version of one of the scenes
Section 4: Prepare and perform a drama piece with a group
Section 5: Create a Facebook page for one of the Characters
Section 6: Ask family/friends their POV on Shakespeare
Section 7: Create a poster advertising the film of R&J
Section 8: Create the cast list for a modern film version for R&J ✔
So far I've done task 8 and now doing section 6... so if I keep going at this rate I should be able to do it on time...
Section 1: Write a monologue (from either Romeo or Juliets POV from when they first me)
Section 2: Create a shoebox scene from the play
Section 3: Write a modern version of one of the scenes
Section 4: Prepare and perform a drama piece with a group
Section 5: Create a Facebook page for one of the Characters
Section 6: Ask family/friends their POV on Shakespeare
Section 7: Create a poster advertising the film of R&J
Section 8: Create the cast list for a modern film version for R&J ✔
So far I've done task 8 and now doing section 6... so if I keep going at this rate I should be able to do it on time...
Urrgg so much ._. but I can do it!
Is anybody out there?
It feels like I'm talkin to myself
No one seems to know my struggle
And everything I come from
Can anybody hear me?
I guess I keep talkin to myself
It feels like I'm going insane
Am I the one who's crazy?
So why in the world do I feel so alone
Nobody but me, I'm on my own
Is there anyone out there
Who feels the way I feel
If there is, let me hear just so I know I'm not the only one
It feels like I'm talkin to myself
No one seems to know my struggle
And everything I come from
Can anybody hear me?
I guess I keep talkin to myself
It feels like I'm going insane
Am I the one who's crazy?
So why in the world do I feel so alone
Nobody but me, I'm on my own
Is there anyone out there
Who feels the way I feel
If there is, let me hear just so I know I'm not the only one
Btw I'm not posting in some random person's Journal, I'm Olaff ^.^
And the pictures above are just stuff I drew in my sketchbook... Micah is my real name and I was listening to this song whilst I was drawing.. :)
The last one is kinda depressing :/ Yeah I was having suicidal thoughts and that shit like cutting myself... but now I think I'm okay.
Music is my drug ^.^ I wouldn't have made it very far in life without it... or my friends or Jay...
I'm stopping right here...
The last one is kinda depressing :/ Yeah I was having suicidal thoughts and that shit like cutting myself... but now I think I'm okay.
Music is my drug ^.^ I wouldn't have made it very far in life without it... or my friends or Jay...
I'm stopping right here...
I did cut myself and in Tech we have to take off our blazer because we were doing woodwork... I didn't have a choice so I had to take it off, I felt practically naked without it ._.
And then everybody saw the cuts crisscrossing my arm and started asking questions -_-
And then everybody saw the cuts crisscrossing my arm and started asking questions -_-
Another picture...
Whenever people go through my sketchbook they always say 'Wtf? Is this? This is so fucking depressing'
But then they say how good it is...
My art teacher was really worried when she saw my sketchbook but I told her it was just a phase I was going through and she just dropped it. I really like her, she's really nice.
Whenever people go through my sketchbook they always say 'Wtf? Is this? This is so fucking depressing'
But then they say how good it is...
My art teacher was really worried when she saw my sketchbook but I told her it was just a phase I was going through and she just dropped it. I really like her, she's really nice.
Depression really sucks :/
So that's why I listen to music, especially Eminem...
Some people don't like his music because they're about drugs, rape, abuse... the other day my friend accused me of listening to his songs. I just like 'Bitch, Wtf? He;s way better than Justin Bieber' x_x
Eminem talks about life and she lives in a fairy tale... I wonder what it would be like to be stupid and oblivious to reality...
Haha anyone who doesn't like Eminem has automatically kissed his ass and sucked his dick xD
Cause how EMINEM says 'I just don't give a fuck!'
So that's why I listen to music, especially Eminem...
Some people don't like his music because they're about drugs, rape, abuse... the other day my friend accused me of listening to his songs. I just like 'Bitch, Wtf? He;s way better than Justin Bieber' x_x
Eminem talks about life and she lives in a fairy tale... I wonder what it would be like to be stupid and oblivious to reality...
Haha anyone who doesn't like Eminem has automatically kissed his ass and sucked his dick xD
Cause how EMINEM says 'I just don't give a fuck!'
Ariel ^.^
I haven't been here for a while...
And lately I've been really stressed with all the school work and starting tomorrow I have to do my first mocks in preparation for my GCSEs. I had a week of holiday and now it's ended :( I really don't want to go back to school.
And lately I've been really stressed with all the school work and starting tomorrow I have to do my first mocks in preparation for my GCSEs. I had a week of holiday and now it's ended :( I really don't want to go back to school.
Sometimes I feel like I want to break everything. All those times I've been stabbed in the back. I want to stab those people back over and over again and make them feel how broken I am. Cutting, drugs, drinking... those are all when I feel an adrenalin rush but then after thats over I feel all shitty again. I feel useless, left out in the cold and nobody cares or a gives a fuck. After all when you've dropped glass it's broken and you can't fix it. It's the same with people.
Bad day? It's a bad life.
Bad day? It's a bad life.
I really miss my best friend. She was always there until one day she just lost interest. I have another best friend but he's a guy and there are some things that you need to talk to with a girl rather than a boy.
I look inside of myself and try to find someone else
Someone who's willin' to die as to watch you crying for help
I know that blood will be spilled and if you won't then I will
My grave will never be filled it's either kill or be killed
Most people know me as Olaff but I change my name every so often so yah call me Olaff.
Can't think of a better name >_<
My brain is mush