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1x1 Kim and Shade RP (+Hush)
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Shade felt like his heart was breaking into a thousand jagged pieces. "Kim...?" His voice broke. He couldn't blame her for not responding but it was making him more worried. Would she ever come back. "Kim? Kim? It's me Shade. It's okay, you're safe now... Please..." He murmured, sidling closer to her and against his better instincts, sort of started to hug her, though only resting his arms lightly upon her shoulders. He leaned his head against hers, and as he did so he caught the words she was mumbling to herself and he inhaled sharply. I want to see you Kim, I want you to be here. I want you to know it's okay now... If it ever really would be okay...
And he wasn't sure why he did it, but as he laid his head by Kim's shoulder close to her ear, he started to sing, though he couldn't stop his voice from shaking, he still somehow managed the words.
"Hush little one now don't say a word,
Or I will turn into a bird,
You're here with me you're safe and sound,
You and me our hearts are bound..."
((Intriguing! And aww! Perfect song!))Kim Squeezed her eyes even more tightly shut trying to put her self in the place but here. But she in the distance of the pit she had descended into, could hear her name being called. She had a hard time placing the voice, it seems so far away and something about it sounded good.
Then, warmth. She asked Health several rapid bursts through her nostrils expecting pain or something worse to come, but it didn’t. And then with a gentle voice she heard, singing. She was still so far away but she found her self being drawn back. The Voice was beautiful and she knew it, she couldn’t even remember why she knew it but, she knew it. She knew she wanted to be near it.
She didn’t exactly respond but the tightness in which she was squeezing her self lessened slightly, her breathing also slowed down. Her trembling didn’t stop completely but it did ease Significantly.
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Hush little one now don't say a word,
Or I will turn into a bird,
You're here with me, you're safe and sound,
I'll make sure nothing bad's around.
I am here for you, I protect,
There's no danger I can't detect,
You're here with me, you're safe and sound
You and me our hearts are bound...
The melody tugged her back from whatever place she had been sent. “S...Sh... Sh-shade?” Her voice was small. Fragile. She still didn’t move, but her breathing calmed significantly. As he sang her eyes remained closed. Though not as tightly. She was desperate, desperate to hear a voice, a kind voice. Was it really him? Were the men gone?
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Shade inhaled sharply as Kim said his name. He wanted to grip her tighter but was just able to think that that might not be the best thing. "Yes." His voice quivered. "Yes, Kim. It's me. You're safe now, it's okay. I'm going to get you somewhere safe." He told her. Instead of squeezing, he rubbed her shoulder gently, an attempt at comfort.
Focused on Kim as he was, Shade didn't notice or hear the movement behind him. As a form ambled up towards him. Xander. And he still had the knife. And suddenly the huge man raised his arm, the blade of the knife glinting in the light.
Slowly Kim inched her eyes open, it was Shade. Shade was here. she took the courage to turn her head to look at him, she wanted to see his face. The kind set of eyes that could look into her and make her smile. Good Lord she want to smile, to have a reason to smile. However her eyes open widely at the side of something glinting. “Shade!” She squeaked, her voice strained and awkward from all the screaming and crying from earlier.((Hope this is okay.))
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If Severin hadn't lunged for Xander's instead, wrapping his arms around the massive man's neck and dragging him down. The look of surprise on Xander's face as he staggered from being pulled back was almost comical. Then his expression contorted into an ugly snarl and he twisted, slashing the knife. And suddenly Severin shouted in pain. His grip loosened. Both continued to stumble from momentum, Severin pressing a hand to his side.
Xander managed to recover before him, and then he straightened, staring at Severin. "Severin?!"
Severin finally gained some semblance of balance and looked up with gritted teeth. Red blood started to bloom beyond his hand, seeping through his shirt. It was a bad strike.
Xander suddenly growled and lunged for him. "You traitor!"
Severin tried to back up but his wound made him clumsy and Xander was able to hook his foot and Severin fell to the ground. Xander stomped his foot down on Severin's ankle and Severin grunted. Then Xander drove the knife toward his chest. But Severin twisted just in time, but Xander still managed to stab him in the shoulder and Severin winced harshly.
Finally that was when Shade acted. "Severin!" Then Shade shifted into a black panther and leapt at Xander. With a loud wildcat snarl he slammed his paw into Xander's side and knocked him off Severin, then he pounced on him again. Xander stared up white faced and wide eyed with fear as Shade snarled, baring his massive fangs. Then he lunged down and bit into the material of Xander's clothes, and he heaved and flung him across the room. Xander screamed before landing with a thud against the crates near Maxon.
But apparently Severin wasn't content with that. Snarling in pain, Severin tugged the knife out of his own shoulder and forced himself to his feet. He staggered over to Xander, breathing heavily, but then lunged for him, brandishing the bloody knife. "I never liked my father! And I never exactly liked you either!" He gripped the knife with two hands. "And this is for what you almost did to that girl!" With that he stabbed the knife into Xander's neck. Blood spurted and Xander gurgled and convulsed. After a few seconds Severin tore the knife out, rose and stumbled away, but then he groaned and clutched his side and sank onto the floor once more.
((I’m lost... please tell me an explanation post is coming?))Kim began trembling again but her eyes were open she stayed stomach on the floor scooting away slightly finding a bit of fabric from her clothes that have been torn off and attempting to somewhat cover herself as she watched this insane scene unfold before her. I didn’t make any sense, that man was the one who kidnapped her! He fought her, he had intended to kill her, but the other two stopped him so they could... do horrible things to her! She was going into a massive panic attack.
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For a moment Shade was torn. Kim was more important to him right now but Severin was hurt badly. However the sight of Kim seemingly starting to panic made the choice easier. He rushed to her. "Kim? Kim it's okay, you'll be okay." He told her. He rubbed a hand gently across her back, trying to calm her.
Okay? That man, he, he just killed his partner, he still could kill them! just because he said those things didn’t convince her, actions spoke louder and yeah maybe he seem to have protected them but maybe it was just the fact that she couldn’t use logic. He was a bad man her mind and that wasn’t changing on likely anytime soon. Clutching the ribbons of her clothing to her chest and shivering still. “He-he, they...” Now she was stuttering, she couldn’t calm her racing heart. The parts where they cut her chest, it hurt so much now. “They cut me...” Her eyes went to the spot where Xander and Maxon had fallen, she expected them to rise like some horrendous monster. She was borderline hysterical now!
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Shade knelt beside her and continued rubbing her back in what was hopefully a comforting manner. He frowned in concern as Kim said they had cut her. "Do you want to go to the hospital? Here, I have your phone." He could call emergency services, if that was what Kim wanted. Then he fully registered that she was naked and rapidly he stripped off his jacket. "Here." He said softly as he handed it to her. But she needed more... Frowning in grim determination Shade got up and dashed over to Maxon's prone form. Unlike Xander before, he'd been well and truly knocked out. He relieved Maxon of his shirt as well and carried it over, though of course he wasn't expecting Kim to wear it, he was just going to at least wrap her and cover her up. She could use his jacket for more of her top half and the large shirt for her bottom half.
((I honestly don’t remember, where in the story there had been a mole mentioned.))
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((No, honestly I don’t))The warmth of Shade’s jacket, and the scent on it help to comfort her. So she did go back to closing her eyes. It was one of those moments where fears are running rapidly through her mind worries and concerns but, she couldn’t find a way of verbalizing them so instead of just left her there in this sort of in between place where she really couldn’t interact properly with the world around her. When the shirt was tied around her sort of like a skirt she looked back at Shade. “H-he...” again struggling to get her mind to process what she wanted to say she wasn’t even sure what she wanted to say but it was concerning Serverin.
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Shade pursed his lips as Kim didn’t end up answering his question. He hesitated, knowing how much Kim seemed to hate the hospital so maybe she wouldn’t want to go there unless her injuries were serious, but he was worried about her. Then Shade’s attention was snatched by a groan of pain he realised was coming from Severin. He cast an apologetic glance at Kim. “Hold on a sec.” He told her and dashed off to the other young man. “Severin?” He grimaced. Blood was starting to drip onto the floor under Severin and the size of the bloodstain on his shirt was alarming. “Hold on I’ll call an ambulance.”
“Do NOT call an ambulance Shade you’ll get me f****** arrested!” Severin suddenly snapped but was then subdued as he winced again. He was on his hands and knees, one hand pressed against the terrible wound in his side. He shook his head at Shade. “Just go.”
“I’m not just going to leave you!” Shade protested.
“I have an associate on the way, they’ll help me.” Severin urged. He jerked his head in Shade and Kim’s direction. “Just take her and get out of here!”
Shade lingered, but then his mind was made up and he spun back around towards Kim. “Come on.” He whispered to her softly so he didn’t startle her. “Let’s go.”
Severin hung his head as he continued to lay there, the arm he was using to hold up starting to shake. But he wouldn’t let Shade help him if he wanted to...
Kim truthfully hadn’t even heard the question she was still having issues focusing or listening. In all honesty though it didn’t matter how bad she was hurt she did not want to go back to the hospital, she didn’t wanna be around people! Especially men, which said something that she didn’t shy away from Shade. In her mind right now he was a rescuer.She didn’t comprehend or care what was being said by Severin, instead when Shade came back and said to leave she tried to force herself to stand, but her legs hurt, her arms hurt, she still felt so weak. She had fought past the point of exhaustion, so when she tried to stand, she ended up falling on shaky legs.
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“I...” She nodded, not finding it in her to say ‘Yes, I need you to carry me’, but instead just started to cry again. Presumably when he would pick her up, she would still be crying, and despite all that happened, she leaned into his arms. Seeking warmth, comfort, safety. She wasn’t really thinking, but reacting. At the question he would get a mumbled ‘iI don’t know’. Mumbled because her face was buried against him. She didn’t want anyone to see her, to be seen by anyone. She wasn’t in a place to be making decisions.
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Shade pursed his lips but indeed he took it that he did need to carry her and so he lifted her into his arms, ignoring the roiling in his own stomach. As he beheld her distress Shade sucked in a breath and his heart ached. “I’m sorry...” He whispered though it was unclear what he was apologising for. He held her a little closer as she buried her head against him. “Hold on Okay.” He told her gently. And then he shifted, not drastically, but just into that winged figure from that time he’d fought off the bullies at Kim’s work. That seemed like so long ago now. Spreading out those beautifully blue wings Shade took to the night sky. Somehow he knew what Kim was feeling. She didn’t want anyone else to see her right now. And so he’d get her home himself. He flew as gently and smoothly as possible, holding onto Kim tightly.
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Shade pursed his lips but indeed he took it that he did need to carry her and so he lifted her into his arms, ignoring the roiling in his own stomach. As he beheld her distress Shade sucked in a breath and his heart ached. “I’m sorry...” He whispered though it was unclear what he was apologising for. He held her a little closer as she buried her head against him. “Hold on Okay.” He told her gently. And then he shifted, not drastically, but just into that winged figure from that time he’d fought off the bullies at Kim’s work. That seemed like so long ago now. Spreading out those beautifully blue wings Shade took to the night sky. Somehow he knew what Kim was feeling. She didn’t want anyone else to see her right now. And so he’d get her home himself. He flew as gently and smoothly as possible, holding onto Kim tightly.
((Hope that’s okay!))
((Thank you! ^_^ ))Kim sniffled. Fresh tears soaking his shirt where her face remained buried. Normally she would have been thrilled, excited to fly and see that winged version of him, but right now no joy could reach her. She was at the end of the tunnel where the light was, but the light bothered her,. She didn’t run from it, but she took a few steps back into the dark, liking that it hid her. Despite how bad of a way she was, she did tremble less than she had been. Just hugging herself against him.
Nausea rising, memories flashing. Vividly she saw the trunk she had been locked in, the boy who had tried to take advantage of her. The car wreck. She whimpered pitifully, trying to shove those thoughts and memories away.
((Of course! Love it!))
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His voice was at least comforting to her but she still wasn’t very much in a good place. It was unclear how she could ever be in a good place after what just happened, ironically she’d feel guilty later because she hadn’t gone through the worst of it any of the others had gone through. Fortunately right now she was still too upset to be considering how ‘selfish’ she was being. She feels like everyone else has a right to complain but her.It’s probably frustrating to deal with her won’t because she’s like this but her creator is like this as well and knows how frustrating it is they both know it’s wrong but they can’t help but feel that way. When they were inside the building he said that they were home she grip to his shirt. “Do they know where to find us? They said they would hurt you, both if I didn’t...”
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Kim’s group seem to relax slightly he sounded so confident and that confidence was something she needed right now. “So, we’re safe?” Sadly she was really a messed up girl, she had lean forward to many lies about her value and worth and how everyone was more important than her. One of the things keeping her anchored to this moment in time was the sound of his heartbeat, who knew how she was going to react when she was no longer feeling comfort and warmth.
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Kim sighed, tension slowly draining, but then he mentioned her boss and the anxiety began to return. “I...” She was breathing rapidly. She didn’t know what to say. “I just want to hide...” Wasn’t really an answer to his question but she could only verbalize in that moment what she was feeling, and she just wanted to be somewhere dark away from everyone. But at the same time she didn’t want that, at least not everyone.
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“N-no... d-don’t le-leve me... ple-please.” Her fingers dug in again. She didn’t want to be alone and yet she did. “I... closet...” kim had revered to her safe place, he had seen her in there before, and should understand that for whatever reason that was where she ran when she was afraid.
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Kim had her eyes closed so she couldn’t see them or how they reacted I just feel the door close behind as they made it inside her bedroom a familiar space with familiar sounds and smells. She was still breathing heavily as if she had been exercising just a moment ago.—
Adam Rose to his feet and had started to say something but with the speed the young man moved and how he seemed on a mission as soon as he was in the bedroom he rub the back of his neck awkwardly and then looked at Young Hush. “Uh... I guess they want to be alone?” He didn’t really get a very good look at Kim’s condition it look like she had been robbed and a lot of random pieces of clothing.
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Shade lurched into the bedroom and shut the door behind him. “Here. We’re in your room Kim. Here’s your bed.” He spoke to her softly and very gently he bent down to deposit her onto her bed. “I’ll go tell Adam he can leave? I’ll be RIGHT back okay.” He said to her though he didn’t move until she gave an answer, just to check...
Kim Had dug her fingers in as he said he was leaving, but then he said he would be right back, she looked around as if trying to convince her self she was in a familiar place and then looked back at him and gave one slow nod. Slowly relaxing her fingers and releasing her grip as he set her down on the pallet that made the bed. She wrapped her arms around her immediately the absence of his warms in the sense of exposure even though she had a jacket on she really wasn’t closed and the shirt tied around her just made her feel barely concealed.—
Adam sighed. “ let’s just give them a few minutes I’m sure it’s fine. She’s back that’s what matters.“ He smiled trying to be positive and reassuring once again. He and Hush it’s seem to of gone along quite well. At least in his perspective.
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Hush glanced to Adam and miraculously he gave a little smile. He too was grateful for his help as well and he truly did like the man.
Adam shook his head. “ I wish I could do more. But I did have fun with Hush. Take care of her, and please don’t hesitate to call or ask if you need anything.” Then he looked at Hush. “You take care of him, he looks about ready to drop, Don’t let him get in a bad way. He needs you.” He winked at the younger of the two. Then turned to leave, he reach the door and start looking over his shoulder. “I’m only a phone call away” and unless they stopped him he would bet them goodbye and pass through the door. —
Kim kept looking around her.paranoid something was lurking, every noise on the street or car siren made her jump. She as a result, burrowed herself amidst the old blankets. Hiding. Closing her eyes. She hurt so much, in truth she needed to be doctored, but she would lose it if she went to a hospital where there were people, people to see. Shame burned within her.
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Hush looked to Adam, and then he smiled and gave a nod. He signed ‘thank you’ to Adam and hopefully the meaning was clear even if he didn’t quite understand the exact words.
Shade raced back to Kim’s room and found her under the covers. “Kim? Kim it’s me Shade. It’s okay I’m back.” His lip quivered as he approached the bed and his breath was a little shaky. “You’re safe okay, you’re safe. I’m not going to let ANYTHING get to you.” His tone communicated his commitment to the statement.
Adam winked, it seemed he did understand. At least the heart if not the exact sign language. Though his expression became very sad as he left, poor girl has been through hell again... However there was nothing he could do here he had to get back to the cafe. And try to think of something he could do, to help.
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Kim heard him, and peeked out cautiously. “I’m bleeding...” she sharing all of this movement and tension in her body and contortion had reopened the knife cuts that had clotted but not healed. So she had blood on her chest and her hands from the way she had been hugging her self. As a result of the blood was on his jacket as well he’ll be able to see a little bit of red smear on some of the blankets too.
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Shade took in a ragged breath as Kim said she was bleeding. “Do you want me to get you something? I can get some towels, wet them and you can hold them against the wounds. Do you know if you anything to clean them with?” He asked gently, approaching so he didn’t have to speak too loudly either, but he also didn’t know if she wanted him to keep his distance.
Kim seemed confused, she, she didn’t know what to say. “A... a first aid kit, in-in the bathroom...” she looked towards the door. “C-can I have clothes?” In truth she needed to wash but there was no way she was up to going in there and trying to take a shower. The only way she was getting cleaned up as if she did a sponge bath.
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The first aid kit was deep in the cabinet in the bathroom so he would’ve deafly had a knock over a bunch of things just to pull it out quickly. Well her clothing was in two drawers not belong to a dresser just stuffed and folded with clothing fortunately he grabbed a pair of pajama clothes they were a bit oversized for a reason of comfort. SC asked she had started to emerge from the blanket pile not realizing his jacket had come off as she shrugged the rest of the stuff wrapped around her away so in a very awkward moment she was topless. The bloody X & M on her chest and bruises that had now started to form properly splashed all over her arms face and upper body. Because ironically she didn’t receive much in the way of injuries to her legs so she probably would have bruises from the man sitting on them the way he had. She hadn’t noticed she was exposed because this whole time she’s felt exposed so she had just absentmindedly reached for the first aid kit and clothing from him wincing in pain and even the smallest movement.
((Sorry if you didn’t want him to see but I feel like this should happen because she won’t be able to talk about what was done to her any time soon))
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Shade gladly handed her the first aid kit and the clothes. But then his eyes travelled to her as she reached for the items and the first thing he caught sight of was the bloody cuts above her breasts. But then a second later he realised he was looking at her exposed form and it was if a lightning bolt struck him inwardly. Part of him flushed with scorching heat. Part of him was not ready to see another woman naked on a bed in front of him. Shade inhaled sharply exclaimed in surprise, then he backed up so quickly he collided with the wall. Rapidly he spun around and searched for the door. “Uh I’ll uh, leave you be. G-Give you some... some privacy.” He stammered and scrambled out the door.
Fortunately Kim didn’t take this part personally. She gave a small shout she realize she was completely exposed and covered her self for the clothing had just given her unfortunately getting a little blood on it. And though she wasn’t in the best place mentally she assumed he was leaving not because she was ugly or something equally ridiculous but because of respect for her decency. Despite knowing that she started to cry, and rearranged the blankets and such so that she could sit on them as she slowly begin to clean her self and her cuts as well as put salve and bandages where she could. She didn’t realize how much she was hurting until now. So she ended up wrapping 2 sprained breasts, putting various bandages on cut she got from the unsanitary floor that they had pinned her too. And something on her chest cleaning it sanitizing it and stopping the bleeding. She slid her pajamas on making quite a bit of noise as she did the last part, cries of pain and grunting. In the end she looked a bit like a cat and she laid on the lump of covers huddled into her self again. Her mind starting to replay everything that it happened and then what just happened she wanted to apologize I didn’t have it in her to speak right now she just laid there tears coming from her eyes.
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Hush looked up and immediately he shook his head. He signed ‘she needs you more than I do’ to Shade and Shade immediately smiled. “You’re the best buddy.” He said and gave him a hug, though he ended up lingering a lot more than was necessary and his hug became tight. Even Hush gave him a look. Finally Shade let him go. Hush immediately signed ‘You should rest’.
“I need to make sure she’s okay.” Shade whispered. “I’m fine, just a little tired but nothing bad. Tiredness is hardly anything.” He gave Hush a nod. “Get yourself something to eat if you want it and put yourself to bed when you want. Come and knock on the door the second you need me or something is wrong.” He told his surrogate little brother then smiled and nodded and padded back to Kim’s room. He was in time to hear her cries of pain and he was suddenly overcome with concern. He waited a few more moments before he called. “Kim? Kim are you okay? I could hear you...? I’m coming in okay?” He slowly inched open the door. “Can I come in?” He asked, not looking yet. “Are you alright?” Stupid question but oh well.
There Kim was laying awkwardly in what appeared to be a pretty uncomfortable position. Her eyes were closed again, the tears making them burn. Sadly she couldn’t hear him, as anyone who has ‘zoned’ out knows, you can be totally oblivious to your surroundings. Sadly this was not just staring off into space, but instead an unending cycle of upset thoughts, feelings and memories. She had begun to rock her body despite the awkward state of her in a fetal position and hugging herself atop of an uneasy pile of blankets.
Kim couldn’t hear him, she had retreated. The way she had when she was being ‘punished’ by her foster mom. So she didn’t respond, she didn’t flinch was she just kept trembling and it’s almost paying close enough attention they would realize she was sort of rocking she stayed curled and up on her self. The only part of her naked farm exposed was her backside, she was mumbling something, but it was unclear exactly what she was mumbling unless she would get in really close and if he did he would recognize the phrase she had said when she was in the closet. You can’t see me. I’m not here. over and over again.
She was crying silently, but her gasps and shaky intakes of breath were enough to let anyone know how vehemently she was weeping.