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[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

I wanna be able to say how someone's making me feel when Im angry without feeling like I'm going to hurt their feelings or how I'm feeling in general without feeling like no one cares

[Mystic Orange]

I don't think I remember myself using a swear word in Goodreads or any other things online.

[Mystic Orange]

To say 'I am not taking a no for an answer' when I am applying for a job especially when I have tried looking everywhere. I tried to use that line when I wanted to work for Shoe Zone I completely lost it because of my lack of confidence.

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

To have the confidence to correct people if they use the wrong name or pronoun

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Even if they're teachers

[Lynx ~ 10/1 Never Forgotten]

jay wrote: "
What’s something you’ve always wanted to say but never could?
"

Talk about a deep question. Im genuinely not sure how to answer. I think my issue is not any thing specific that I always wanted to say but never could, so much as many things I wish I would say. In person I'm genuinely a quiet, reserved loner who is terrible at speaking up at times. What I say I say with confidence and I try to keep 100% honest, sometimes to the point of being brutal or harsh. You know, laying it out as it is. But that only ever happens with people I have known for years or in a classroom setting. I want to be able to talk comfortably with everyone. I'm shit at small talk, never know what to say, and dont often have the courage to reach out, make a friend, and initiate conversation. I don't like to let people see who I am, what I feel, or what my life is. In person, of course. Online is a different story. In person I am super private, but I've been working on improving and letting people know more about my life. It's like when I hold a conversation I don't want to reveal more tham small facts and unless we are on a topic I know and am passionate about (AND I know the person) then I simply do not know what to talk about. My mind becomes like the freakin Mines of Moria - silent and uncomfortable but capable of blowing people away and offering warmth once they speak friend and make the effort to brint life to the halls.
It's just... idk. Maybe I'll have a real answer to this question later

[Mystic Orange]

Sometimes when someone saying I want to die. It is hard for me to tell them that they can be what ever they want to be.

[Kitty]

my feelings

[misha]

Deep questions. It's like, you have to know, I'm very good at writing, and the words just spill out of my pen on to the paper. There, I can say what I want to say without using my voice, which is only an advantage, as I'm the lonely kind of person who doesn't speak all the time. (I'm the complete counterpart of the ones who talk all the time without meaning anything.)
And when I try to express my answers to these questions to another one, my mind goes entirely blank. It's like a white void, and my words become jumbled and they're sounding always so dull in my ears, like I'm diluting their message. Sometimes I think my voice is only made to be heard on paper.

[kavi ~he-him~]

jay wrote: "
What’s something you’ve always wanted to say but never could?
"

my feelings for him

[jay, rip]

What’s your deepest, darkest secret?

[Mystic Orange]

I've stolen a toy horse from Primary School and never confessed.

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

I used to wet the bed until I was about 9 or was it 8 years old

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

I have other secrets that I dont want to tell

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

But I did use to be afraid of public toilets growing up because of the noise

[Mystic Orange]

I have a lot of secrets.

[Mystic Orange]

Sometimes it's hard to explain my secrets.

[Lynx ~ 10/1 Never Forgotten]

If I tell you it wouldn't be a secret, would it?
And my deepest, darkest secret? Tall order, bro. Tall order.
I don't have many secrets and I wouldn't say most are dark. I only have one that comes to mind that counts as dark. I've only voiced it maybe all of once or twice. It'll take more than this to make me voice it here.

[Lynx ~ 10/1 Never Forgotten]

I don't like cherries. XD I might share but I haven't decided yet. It makes me nervous thinking about sharing it.

[kavi ~he-him~]

My secret:

I am a vampire

[Lynx ~ 10/1 Never Forgotten]

Im putting this in spoilers cause it's kinda long. Im going to write it, but it's more for me and my own growth than anything.

(view spoiler)[So I'm pretty sure most of you know that the college I used to go to had a shooting occur, right? 10 dead including the shooter and 8 wounded. It was (and I think still is) Oregon's deadliest shooting in modern history. I did not know the shooter, but I am 98% sure I had met him before.
You see, my husband and I volunteered at an end of the year school celebration and we got put in charge of lazer tag in the gym. We were only supposed to be there for a couple hours but we had a system going and manned it all day. Well there was one guy who came in a couple times. He was insanely good, a bit quiet, and didn't chatter with the others about his scores. That man was the one who just a few months later would walk into a classroom and kill 9 people before taking his own life. To this day I wonder if lazer tag somehow contributed to his decision to take lives. The feel of a gun in his hands aimed at students as he obliterated them all in virtual bullets.
Anyway, a shooting is something which completely can tear your world apart, even if you weren't close to the action or hearing the screams as classmates died and friends bled out onto ground as cold as the heart of the shooter. It is a horrible atrocity that left many families broken, that bled into the heart of the community, and will leave a stain on the lives of many until the wear of life smudges it into nothing but a blurry memory soaked into the crevices of our beings. The deep, dark secret that makes my skin crawl to share is the thoughts that have crossed my mind on occassion. The thoughts that claw up through the damp, cloying reaches of my mind to see but a glimmer of daylight before being locked up and buried into the Pandora's jar of my mind, never to be opened or entertained. The thoughts of excitement that something eventful had actually happened in my life, even as that event tears up any semblance of sanity I have. The terrified giddiness that something new and noteworthy had happened and it had broken the daily grind of my life. But even more terrifying, the sickening understanding I have felt for the shooter. His desire to leave a mark on the world, to care about something(well, hate something is more like it) to the point of taking action and bringing his demise in the process. It is clear his actions were in part for publicity and to some extent I understand. Many people want to leave a mark and leave the world with their name on the tongues of many. I have that same goal - I really, really want to leave a mark on the world. To influence lives and put it all on the line. To live a life full and exciting, the sort where a movie can be made in my memory. And that, that I understand. That desperate need to make a name for yourself and influence the lives of many. On really, really bad days some part of me understood the desire to do so how he did. But that is where the secret ends, because where his mark was a wound bleeding out fear, hurt, and negativity I hope to see any mark I leave be one of beauty, positivity, and friendship. My secret is the understanding and inkling of desire to truly go out with a bang, and in doing so following the easy and cowardly path. But that is all it will ever become - a thought I know none should think, locked up and buried never to be opened. (hide spoiler)]

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

It's not your fault Lynx, it was his decision that led him to do that, you just wanted to have fun with the laser tag and you couldn't have possibly known that would happen

[Lynx ~ 10/1 Never Forgotten]

I know it's not, but still. It taints the memory. But it really isn't that which bothers me the most so much as the weird excitement about something new happening and the understanding I have occasionally felt about it all. Like even as it tore me apart some weird, dark part of me just... understood. I had never been so scared of myself until that moment. It is disgusting and vile, hence the thought being locked up. The only other thing I kinda keep secret about the whole incident was the weird, calm voice I heard telling me to go back to my car because there was a shooter on campus. Ever since I told my mom and she pegged it as like divine intervention I decided not to tell anyone because I'm pretty darn sure it was just someone nearby who I couldn't see....

[K.C.]

Enclosed mine in spoiler tags as well; it would be too painful for me to even look at otherwise.

(view spoiler)[In 2015, a girl messaged me in a text-chat and asked if I had Skype. I told her I did and asked her why...and she said it was because she was planning to commit suicide and wanted someone to watch her die. I was only 13 at the time, so I was still very vulnerable to the world and its terrors, so I told her, "NO!" and gave her my old (at the time current) Skype name. After accepting her friend request, she began to vent to me about how she was going to kill herself, and I did my best to talk her out of it. However, while I was able to do so for a few days, I unintentionally said some things - such as Nazi analogies ("If the Nazis hadn't killed so many people, the world would likely be so much better than it is today; EVERY LIFE MATTERS!" or something to that effect), not knowing she was part-German - and behaved in certain ways (such as by responding to her messages in ways that came across as annoyed) in the process that ultimately led to her taking her own life. I mean, I don't know for certain if she actually went through with - I hardly knew her in the first place - but in any case, I have blood on my hands I will never, ever be able to wash off.

And it's a burden I've carried for over 3 years now. (hide spoiler)]

[Mystic Orange]

Note that spoilers don't keep away secrets it actually drags you in reading them. :)

When I was in Year 8 it was Maths Lesson, second favourite subject at that time. Like every Tuesday we will always be on the site www.mymaths.com and you ad to complete all tasks. When I finished mine I thought it would be great to look up stuff in the internet. You know random things like googling for questions in the internet because I want to know stuff. The question I was very deep. I was at the back searching stuff. What I didn't know was that it was monitored by a teacher. What happened was out of nowhere my computer was acting funny and I thought I broke the computer. I tried everything. I looked all panicking because I was like a ghost just went in my computer. I tried asking my teacher, Mr Prior, that something was wrong with it but he didn't know. After that I carried on My Maths. But later I searched more on Google. A message somehow popped up which rarely happens, saying: Mr Broomhead: I can see you. I tried looking around. There wasn't any cameras and I got all spooked. But when I looked through other classes. I saw him making a face saying: Do your work. People on that class were laughing. Sometimes a Nerd needs a break once in a while.

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

How where you supposed to know she was part German, plus you referred to Nazi's some German people today might agree Hitler did a wrong, you didn't mean to offend her

[K.C.]

Sylveon~Raven wrote: "How where you supposed to know she was part German, plus you referred to Nazi's some German people today might agree Hitler did a wrong, you didn't mean to offend her"

I wasn't supposed to know the specifics - but I was supposed to be more open-minded and thoughtful than I was.

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Well it was Hitler's fault and the Nazi who decided to follow Hitler, heck some that where Nazi's ended up feeling terrible for what they did and wants to be forgiven but killing—no murder—is a hard thing to forgive but at least there are some willing to apologize for what they did and realize it was the wrong thing

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Heck Im part German(I think, I know I am somewhat related to Attila the Hun or whatever the heck his name is) and Im willing to acknowledge that Hitler did a wrong

[Lynx ~ 10/1 Never Forgotten]

@Rumell: the spoiler was in part due to length and in part because for the person writing it they don't want to have to see it again. It's not always easy to write.

@KC: You did fine, hun. Ive done worse. Here's another secret: I once told a girl to just kill herself. I'd spent weeks if not months talking to her but she was one of those people who go completely contrary to anything anyone ever says or told her to do. Almost everyone hated her because she was a drama seeker and lie weaver. She kept pushing all my buttons and bringing me to tears day after day stretching my emotions until I just snapped and told her to just kill herself at this point. I justified it as being something she would not do just because she always did the opposite of what was said. I regret it to this day. I tried apologizing later down the road (obviously she hadn't killed herself) but she had none of it. Can't say I blame her.

[Mystic Orange]

Just saying.

[Elizabeth ♛Smart Girls Love Trashy Books♛]

jay wrote: "
What’s your deepest, darkest secret?
"

....My family is really poor. We're basically just white trash. All those stereotypes about poor white people? We have them all in spades. We live in the goddamn ghetto for crying out loud. But I lie to people and make them think we're actually middle-class because I'm so embarrassed.

[jay, rip]

Have you ever broken a bone?

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Yes, my pinkie

[Mystic Orange]

No. But I have been scarred for life when I tripped over a curb and my 'friend' saw.

[Mystic Orange]

My scar is on my left of the palm of hands.

[[deleted user]]

Nope.
I'm too careful to allow that to happen.
But I did try to break my leg when i was younger so i didn't have to play soccer during P.E.

[Lynx ~ 10/1 Never Forgotten]

jay wrote: "
Have you ever broken a bone?
"

Yup, left wrist. Fell off a trampoline. It was so awkward. I was at a sleepover at my best friend's house and we went out to play on it in the morning. Fell off, broke the wrist, and spent the next 30 minutes mostly crying from embarrassment that her family saw me get hurt and cry.

[jay, rip]

i broke. my butt.
(not even kidding, i cracked my tailbone)
(it never healed properly)
(i still can’t sit for too long at once)

[Lynx ~ 10/1 Never Forgotten]

Dude, me too.
I think.
Actually I never saw a doc about it. I am pretty darn sure I broke it but it could just have bent weird or something. I was sledding....

[Mystic Orange]

That sometimes happens when someone sticks a middle finger in front of you.

[Mystic Orange]

😂 😂 😂


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[Mystic Orange]

I'm about to use a word that I don't usually say online.

[quq]

why would you just randomly say that
that’s so crass

[Mystic Orange]

When another person says it seems okay doesn't it?

[quq]

well yeah but other people say it for a reason, like to make a point

[Mystic Orange]

A lot of people randomly say it. And I had to step out of my comfort zone.

[Hallie]

jay wrote: "
Have you ever broken a bone?
"

Nope, never. It's a surprise because I'm really clumsy and I never pay attention to where I'm head, so no one knows how I managed to walk into so many walls without breaking my nose.

[Mystic Orange]

That must hurt though.

[kavi ~he-him~]

jay wrote: "
Have you ever broken a bone?
"

Yes, my left arm, I got hit by my brother's bike