Only the cake should be in tiers

[Delphinia (Dhamma ✿)]

I think the truest you is someone you're comfortable being :) That makes choices for you first, which can be in the name of compassion and understanding but is what you want first and foremost. And you might not know it right away and might need to step back and look at your options but the stepping back and the thinking are still for you~
Of course that might not make sense to a reasonable person :)
But that's just me. I think the you I know is someone bubbling with well spoken observations that are clear to understand but at the same time very unique ideas :)

[Artsy]

Passed all tests. Just need to order my diploma.
I feel like i should be excited. I'm not sure i am.

[Artsy]

I feel like i'm not where i'm supposed to be. Like i'm ten paces behind everyone else, and i'm just trying to catch up.

[Artsy]

Goals:
Get my GED ✔(sort of)
Apply to community college
Apply for EMT classes
Get my drivers license
Get healthy
Get a job

Plus other small goals.

[Artsy]

Reading the drivers manual is stressing me out. Driving on the highway seems stressful and scary.

[Artsy]

Hold your breath
Make a wish count to three
Come with me and you'll be
In a world of pure imagination
Take a look and you'll see
Into your imagination
We'll begin with a spin
Traveling in the world of my creation
What we'll see will defy explanation
If you want to view paradise
Simply look around and view it
Anything you want to, do it
Wanna change the world?
There's nothing to it
There is no life I know
To compare with pure imagination
Living there, you'll be free
If you truly wish to be
If you want to view paradise
Simply look around and view it
Anything you want to, do it
Wanna change the world?
There's nothing to it
There is no life I know
To compare with pure imagination
Living there, you'll be free
If you truly wish to be

[Artsy]

I'm trying to be in a more whimsical mood.

[Artsy]

I love thunder storms.

[Artsy]

I ordered my diploma. Should be here within a week. After that, i'll get to my other goals. One step at a time.

[Artsy]

I'm conflicted. I want to go out and have friends and get an education and have a life, but i also want to never leave the house ever again.

[Delphinia (Dhamma ✿)]

I feel that. It's like I'm at a standstill, don't want to move but also don't want to stay like this.

Also, I love your new profile picture! Is the girl you?

[Artsy]

Yeah thats me. Sorta(with filters and stickers)

[Delphinia (Dhamma ✿)]

I can't see your eyes, but you're so pretty!

[Artsy]

In that picture i look alright. I usually look like a walrus. But thanks though. :)

[Delphinia (Dhamma ✿)]

A walrus? xD I've never heard that

[Artsy]

Delphinia (Dhamma ✿) wrote: "A walrus? xD I've never heard that"

I swear. The mustache, the big teeth, the blubber. xD

[Delphinia (Dhamma ✿)]

Well I naturally look like a squirrel >u< And I love walruses! They're so cute~

[Artsy]

Random question: do you have your drivers license?

[Delphinia (Dhamma ✿)]

Just my temporary :) Before I was a little too busy with school to practice, and now I'm too busy moping around xD Hbu?

[Artsy]

Nope. Thinking about getting it though. My sister got a car(even though she doesnt have a license yet either), and once i get my license, i'm allowed to drive it when i need to. My mom allowed me to drive it from our neighbors driveway back to ours but that was it(first time i ever drove. It was fun but kind of infuriating)

[Artsy]

I feel like i would be terrified driving on a highway.

[Artsy]

Got my blood taken for the first time today. It didnt hurt at all. it was totally fine actually. I watched the blood leave my arm and just pretended it was koolaid. Really thick koolaid i guess.

Now i want koolaid.(is that weird?)

[Artsy]

My little sister is copying me and just bothering me in general. What is she, 7?

[Artsy]

My older sister says that anyone with any diagnosed mental disorder MUST be put on medication.

I want to punch my fist through a hard brick building.

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Artsy wrote: "My older sister says that anyone with any diagnosed mental disorder MUST be put on medication.

I want to punch my fist through a hard brick building."

ha. me too

[Artsy]

My diploma came in the mail today, along with a paper evaluating my test results. The verification papers didn't come with them, which was weird. They better get here, because i paid at least 24 dollars for them.

I feel like i should feel a sense of pride. I don't though. I mean, i don't feel sad, ashamed, or dissapointed(like i thought i might), i feel nothing really. Not sad or happy. Relieved maybe. A weight off my shoulders. Thats about it though. Just a check in the list of things i need to get done. And its quite a list.

[Artsy]

Theres a lightning bug thats just walkin in circles on my bedroom ceiling. I've just been starin at it for a bit.

[Artsy]

Oh god now its flying.

[Artsy]

Ok its back on the ceiling. For now.

[Artsy]

Flash flood warning. Yay. Not uncommon. Its seriously pouring out, though.

[Artsy]

My sisters are so annoying. My younger sister has been playing with glitter glue and her and my older sister fight all the time. I swear i am the only one with any sense in this house.

[Artsy]

My diploma came in the mail. Again. This time it came with the verification papers though. Yay. Now to apply for commumity college. And then do a million other things.

[Artsy]

I'm annoying as hell.

[edge]

Artsy wrote: "I'm annoying as hell."

you're not *rolls eyes*

[Artsy]

So the other night i was basically breaking down in tears because i miss my former best friend and because i feel bad for everything my mom and the rest of my family has been through. This happens every now and again. I just cry about everything all at once(with no one to see) every one or two months or so, then for the most part i keep it all inside. Other than complaining about stupid shit that i don't really care too much about.

[Artsy]

edge wrote: "Artsy wrote: "I'm annoying as hell."

you're not *rolls eyes*"

Yes i am.

[Artsy]

I get my lab results back from the doctor tomorrow. I should be fine. Probably fine. And even if somethings wrong, probably nothing serious. I'm afraid i've jinxed myself by even saying that.
I SHOULD BE FINE. I'M PROBABLY FINE. I'M FINE.

[Artsy]

Paranoia setting in again.

[edge]

Artsy wrote: "edge wrote: "Artsy wrote: "I'm annoying as hell."

you're not *rolls eyes*"

Yes i am."

*rolls eyes* You're NOT

[edge]

Artsy wrote: "I get my lab results back from the doctor tomorrow. I should be fine. Probably fine. And even if somethings wrong, probably nothing serious. I'm afraid i've jinxed myself by even saying that.
I SHO..."

You're gonna be FINE.

[Artsy]

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[Artsy]

Ugh. I guess i forgot how to post an image. I think i'm doing it right. Why isnt it working?

[edge]

maybe you missed a letter or a symbol or maybe the link is toooooooo looooong

[Artsy]

[Delphinia (Dhamma ✿)]

Artsy ~ aww I wish I could be there with you ❤️
Let me know if you want someone to talk to.

[edge]

Artsy wrote: ""

what's with the blank post

[Artsy]

edge wrote: "Artsy wrote: ""

what's with the blank post"

Its supposed to be an image. I don't know what i'm doing wrong.

[edge]

Artsy wrote: "edge wrote: "Artsy wrote: ""

what's with the blank post"

Its supposed to be an image. I don't know what i'm doing wrong."
gimme the link I'll post the image for ya

[Artsy]

Delphinia (Dhamma ✿) wrote: "Artsy ~ aww I wish I could be there with you ❤️
Let me know if you want someone to talk to."

Thanks. Idk. I don't know if talking would really help. I never know what to say. I only complain. I whine. I basically just be my usual horrible self.

[edge]

Artsy wrote: "Delphinia (Dhamma ✿) wrote: "Artsy ~ aww I wish I could be there with you ❤️
Let me know if you want someone to talk to."

Thanks. Idk. I don't know if talking would really help. I never know what ..."

I'm in my usual horrible self too. SO that's ok.