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Jun 10, 2017 09:44PM
Yeah i have half siblings as well. Dads side. Brother and sister. And maybe another brother or so(rumors about it). Dads been married a few times. You could say hes...a lot of things.
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Plus two full blood sisters that i previously mentioned.
Yeah, exactly. there were also rumors about me having another sibling. Tho my dad has never been married.
Yeah its weird, possibly having another sibling i've never met, you know? Like, if i do, they could be anyone, anywhere. Its crazy.
LOL YEAH EXACTLY. But I met my other older siblings so the only ive never met is the little kid.
I might have a half brother who would be like 28 now. Its a long story, but my mom saw one of my dads ex's around 2001, with a kid(who looked around 12 years old at the time) that looked basically identical to my half brother. So she's thinkin it might be my dads son from his and his ex's relationship.
Yeah, me too. Actually, my dad's ex doesnt really care about her children so my mom took pity with them and she took them. Treated them like her real children. And then I came. 6 years later they left promising broken promises. A few years later, my dad left, promising broken promises. Now, he has another woman. I'm pretty sure he would leave her too. He's not the commitment-kind of man
parents are complicated. Like, ugh. I don't wanna grow like them.
parents are complicated. Like, ugh. I don't wanna grow like them.
Yeah, i love my mom and she's great and smart and wonderful, but she's made a lot of mistakes(like getting with my dad). And i don't want to be ANYTHING like my father.
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Yeah, I love my mom too. She's made a looot of mistakes (I am one). But i still love her tho. If she never made a mistake, i wouldn't have existed (which i think would be better for everyone in the world). People make mistakes too, and we get to be better people because of them.
Yeah, I love my mom too. She's made a looot of mistakes (I am one). But i still love her tho. If she never made a mistake, i wouldn't have existed (which i think would be better for everyone in the world). People make mistakes too, and we get to be better people because of them.
I'm not mad. I figured thats what happened. I was going to comment again and see if you saw it, but i decided not to. I knew you didnt just leave on purpose. Its fine. And i don't hate you. I have absolutely no reason to. And i understand feeling like a mistake or a burden. I feel like that too. I think that it wouldnt matter if i never existed. But i know that i shouldnt waste time with hypotheticals like that. I have to face reality. I do exist. I have existed. And its because of that that people have known me and loved me. And if something were to happen to me, it would crush them. Especially my mother who has been through so much already. Although she would have been better off never meeting my father, there is nothing i can do about it. And she lets me and my sisters know that we are the only good things that came from her relationship with him, and she wouldnt have it any other way. Thats why i try not to think like that. Although i still do, i try not to. I remind myself of all of the other "mistakes" out there that turned out to be blessings in disguise.
i'm just kidding. Well, i love your mentality.
I think i now know where to go when I need a dose of reality.
so i guess im not as half as exciting as a chatmate. you're probably getting bored talking to me coz im not as philosophical like you or dhamma.
No you're great. You're energetic. You're full of emotion. You like to talk about anything. You're cool to talk to.
"Full of emotion" oh great i thought i hid them well. or maybe you see through the walls. or read between the lines.
I didn't mean it as a bad thing, by the way.
i meant it as a good thing. for you, at least. (could you read between the lines?)
Again, i'm here if you ever need to talk.
lol yeah exactly. (that's what my common sense told me too)
God, i am so tired. But i have to stay awake. My brain hurts.
idk what to say. Dhamma knows what to say in times likes this.
just keep holding on, dude. The pain will go away eventually. And so will the tiredness. I wake up 5 in the morning each day so yes, I know how that feels.
just keep holding on, dude. The pain will go away eventually. And so will the tiredness. I wake up 5 in the morning each day so yes, I know how that feels.
No, i stayed up all night. Forgot to mention that.
i'm sorry, man. I wish i could do something to help you, since you helped me a lot too. But, i gtg :( i have to really go. But don't worry, Dhamma or some angel will come to rescue you. :)
Yeah. I ended up going to sleep for a few hours. I feel better. Hopefully i can get to sleep tonight.
<3 I hope so~ Melatonin usually makes it worse for me, but foods with some melatonin like cherries, tomatoes or warm milk might help ^.^ Bless you <3
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Just testing these out. Its been a while since i've written in bold or spoilers or anything.
I'm bored, but i'm also freaking out. Not an uncommon thing for me.
Did you want to talk about it? *hugs*
I have things i need to do, but i'm terrible at managing my time and i feel like i cant do everything and everythings going to go wrong and i'm freaking out. And freaking out isn't good, because then i might not be able to sleep later, like last night. And i need to sleep because i have a test tomorrow.
What time zone are you in if you don't mind me asking? Is it possible to study now then sleep and leave the other things for tomorrow after your test? <3
Eastern standard time i think. Its quarter till 11 pm now. And yeah, that could maybe work, but i'm still freaking out, and i'm afraid i won't be able to fall asleep. Its happened before. It's so difficult for me to go to sleep at night.
I'm sorry <3 that's always hard. but it's only one test~ how do you think it'll go?
I'm not sure. I think i'll pass. Its the mathematics portion of the GED. On the pretest, i got a passing grade, but the questions were difficult. And that was when i was at a desk in a classroom. Not at a desktop in a computer lab with other people taking exams as well. It makes me really anxious. I become very aware of my own breathing, and the placement of my arms, and legs, and the clamminess of my palms. I have trouble concentrating. I've always been good at math, though, so i could be fine.
One thing that might help is to leave the other stuff for tomorrow, but decide on how/what order you're going to do them then so they'll seem less mountainy, mountainous (idk :P) And writing down your thoughts right before a test actually really helps mentally and Nova (science show I used to watch xD) says it can also really help your focus. Know that whatever happens it'll all be ok~ You're safe and there's always another chance. You passed before~ And everyone will be focused on their exams, no one's looking at you <3
Good morning world and all who inhabit it!*breathes a sigh* New day.
Heck yah! How you feeling?
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