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i wonder how he feels

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right now

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it would be terrible, waking up, finding your wife ....

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what is this shit life

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this is hell

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so many freaking people dying everyday

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i hate it when people think they have their problems,
and it's really "not having this color of nail polish"
"not having your makeup perfect"
and welcome to life;
where there's way bigger problems

[blue]

it's 10 and i haven't slept

[Kyle]

blue wrote: "it's 10 and i haven't slept"

Ava, please go to sleep right now, I am on my way there.

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my stomach hurts
my head hurts
my face hurts from crying
my body hurts

[blue]

Kyle wrote: "blue wrote: "it's 10 and i haven't slept"

Ava, please go to sleep right now, I am on my way there."

n o n o you don't have to. please kyle you don't have to

[Kyle]

yes i do

[blue]

Kyle wrote: "yes i do"

kyle it's freaking 10 at night. go to sleep. you have a game tomorrow. shut up and go to sleep i can handle myself just go.

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jacqueline wrote: "blue wrote: "Kyle wrote: "blue wrote: "it's 10 and i haven't slept"

Ava, please go to sleep right now, I am on my way there."

n o n o you don't have to. please kyle you don't have to"

yes he does"

no he doesn't. it's fine kyle go and sleep. kyle i'm fine. i'm fine like i am.

[Kyle]

blue wrote: "Kyle wrote: "yes i do"

kyle it's freaking 10 at night. go to sleep. you have a game tomorrow. shut up and go to sleep i can handle myself just go."

no you can't. i've seen you. i will be there in 20. that game starts at 9 it's fine

[blue]

jacqueline wrote: "blue wrote: "my stomach hurts
my head hurts
my face hurts from crying
my body hurts"

i love you gods im sorry i wish i could be there to help"

it's fine jac

[blue]

Kyle wrote: "blue wrote: "Kyle wrote: "yes i do"

kyle it's freaking 10 at night. go to sleep. you have a game tomorrow. shut up and go to sleep i can handle myself just go."

no you can't. i've seen you. i wil..."

kyle..fine

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i can never forget that first memory,
when i was 4,
at my grandmas;
took my first steps of dance
she video taped me
oh god.

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she bought me life;
she bought me dream;
dance
and she's not here now
so

[Kyle]

be there in 10. i am leaving right now

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i remember that thing we had,
where the smith's were having
get-together night
and then grandma made everyone's favs
and she gave us all these little boxes

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mine had this little charm bracelet,
5 total charms
a ballerina,
a peace sign,
a eiffel tower charm,
australian flag,
and a family charm

and my first ever,
ballet shoes

[blue]

Kyle wrote: "be there in 10. i am leaving right now"

fine

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what is life seriously?

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many people in my life have made me feel so useless;
and how do i respond?
smile.

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that's been a huge part of my life;
smiling

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sometimes i wish i can in the hardest times of my life

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i've been thankful for so many people in my life

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i've been and I AM

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kyle's here

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there's a huge list of people i've been thankful for, and if I wrote it all. no point and no use

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they all have a special place in my heart, and they know who they are.

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my grandma .

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frick kyle's here well.

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well he won't let me keep my mac on so good night. ah he went to the kitchen
(view spoiler)[this is gonna be a weird night. sleeping with kyle. that sounds wrong too, but no. (hide spoiler)]
good night. even though probably won't be sleeping for some time

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Um so,

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our family is gonna go over to our grandparents for today

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Well I am too but in the morning, I have a dance practice . And I'm gonna go to kyles game as well

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to do list

❤️ go to kyles game
❤️ dance practice
❤️ smith's fam +kyles family
❤️ work on template
❤️ talk to niki
❤️ tumblr page
❤️ online work due wednesday
❤️ talk to alyssa
❤️ ask coach; other options
❤️ doc app. tmrw

[Kyle]

the game starts at 9:00; you can come earlier

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and I have a doc appointment because, i injured my legs a couple months ago; and this is a later check to make sure.

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'you know, you gave me hope. but I've got to let go; it's taken its toll deep in my soul, now I've got to let go. we wrote our story, and we sang our songs. we hung our pictures on the wall. now, those precious moments that we carved in stone are only memories after all'

~lyric of the day; Memories by Shawn Mendes

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that song is so deep in my heart, it means so much

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❤️ pinterest;

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I'm sick of life; sick of everything
sick of people
sick of everything

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people make me feel so much like trash;
I don't tell at them,
or fire back at them;
I just cry

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cause I'm weak
weak at everything
at life

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My grandma was the only one who I could talk to anytime

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No matter what

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but now; I have no one
i have many people
mom, dad, emma
coach, friends, kyle;
I love all of them so much for it
but sometimes I don't want anyone
but my grandma
:;