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i am not going to be saying names cause its annoying

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i find people so dumb sometimes i just

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like ???
wow

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and you call me ur friend right of course

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i literally hate people sometimes
but i never show it cause like whats the point honestly nothing

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like im not dumb okay honestly
it pisses me off

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guys ur favorite gal is officially single

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sorry, not sorry by demi lovato describes my life

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im so pissed right now
cause this friend or supposedly girl who used to go to my dance

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cause shes like,
"you have everything anyone will ever need, a perfect life, perfect parents and sibling, perfect boyfriend and friends"

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okay how do i have a perfect life
and supposedly i dont have a boyfriend now so ??

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oh wow i laughed at the perfect parents
that isnt the first time someone has said that

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like literally, here i question if she even knows me ?
so what?? i have parents who have money ?? so that doesnt mean theyre perfect ???

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honestly if you think i have a perfect life, trust me you dont know me

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like honestly i love my parents okay
yeah right i have everything handed to me

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i didnt want anything handed to me
i didnt ask, my parents gave it to me

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its not my fault my parents are who they are like
seriously now i dont even know whos my real friend
and whos just my friend so they can get a nice pair or dress from my mom

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i never asked for anything
how do i have perfect friends? i thought you were my friend and therre you go

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like people seriously need to shut up

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i mean i can agree with one one of that perfect
perfect sister
thankfully that was the only perfect person in my life

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its so annoying cause i had a friend exactly like that before

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more than 70% of what im doing in my life right now is for my parents

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they picked what college i should go to

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and honestly i have no intentions of going to harvard whatsoever

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ive always wanted to go to yale or stanford
not harvard

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but yeah im done ranting
this journal is safe now

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praying by kesha

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yess

[kavi ~he-him~]

*hugs*

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honestly I only thought that the only person who wouldn't do that to me was him
but he did

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and I thought that was the only thing

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now I feel like it's everything
my parents who never understand me
from this guy who I thought understood me
and to my friends who I really really believed and now
it's just like no one did

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i feel like this idiot and honestly
i don't know why I'm still trusting people
Really after what happened
I don't know what I'm doing

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its always about and I never understand why

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like for once when I think it matters the most
It doesn't

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Honestly I just wish sometimes I could go back and be unborn

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I don't really want any of this and yet
People are honestly so dumb about things

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You don't know the half of me
You think you KNKW everything and you'll be surprised

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honestly
i don't know why I have friends
or why i make friends
like I'm sure all of them have hurted me yet I never said anything

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i just feel like an idiot and I want to not be me
i want to just be someone else
Like people you think care don't and hurt you
People you think actually love you hurt you like every one of my friends

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its all just this part of me like omg you have an amazing life
and it's like what are you talking about

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i just wish I never had friends or anyone

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Why do people even like me
Honestly they put me out so why do they care

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It's just for a time like omg it's you
And then later it's just you sitting there and them with some else

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So obviously what's the point

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It's all just like why do u even care honestly
Or so you even care
Cause it obviously seems like all u care about is who's with me, not me

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Which is kinda sucky because I don't really care if I'm not cared

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Like I'm actually happy for you
But it's just like why bother anymore

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You don't even seem to care the least bit
Everyone says I love you
But do you cause I doubt it
I doubt it every inch

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I'm pretty sure everyone in my life currently has hurted me and it sucks to know that