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Ok Im falling asleep finally also its super late here so goodnight!!!
Star wars nerd, loving a pretty minor character nobody knows that much. And his past is so sad I just want to hug hkm!!
Mapledream {Rose Gold} wrote: "No. My dad didn't like me talking to strangers even though no harm was being done. He was convinced everyone on here was a middle aged man and nome of them cared about me, but honestly my gr friend..."My dad was also a bit iffy but he saw that I was getting more books from here and then my mum. Oh,mother..she went and said to my "Online Friends aren't real friends, dear." Puh-Lease mother I know what's right from wrong I think. I told her some of my real friends I met them online.
I love how our parents looking out for us but when we're adults they won't be there so they got to learn how to trust us now, I guess
Mapledream {Rose Gold} wrote: "Ok Im falling asleep finally also its super late here so goodnight!!!"Night Maple!
Yup. He was like they dont really care for you and I hate them all and they want to hurt you or whatever. Its funny because just the other day he was saying, "most people are really nice people and want you to succeed" ah watcha gonna do? Anyways goodnight! Ok Im actually getting off my phone this time
I need help deciding something. I'm getting my wisdom teeth taken out on Fri. Should I take a ditch day because I'm not really doing important stuff all day or should I go to school because my appointment isn't until afterwards.
Guys my fricken awesome friend is an amazing cook so shes all the way in Reno winning competitions. Im jealous because I can't cook good.
So wisdom teeth recovery is good. I can feel my chin now. Does anyone want the long story? Its happy and funny
Ok so shen I got out of surgery I was staring at and wiggling around my tongue. That was about as loopy as I got. I also chewed my gauze cuz I thought it was gum. That took me a while to figure out. I also cried for ten minutes and nobody would let me walk on my own.
In the car I didn't say anything funny really. I just talked funny with the gauze. My dad and sister tried to tell me stories to get funny reactions but all I did was get mad and call them liars.
Then I just ate a lot of icecream on the couch. My best friend Courtney came over after that. She brought jello mix and made me jello. I was confined to the couch so I had to give her directions from across the room because I have this sorta living room attached to the kitchen. She put it in the fridge then we watched survivor. Then she got me more icecream and laughed at me a bunch. Since I couldn't feel my chin or tongue there was stuff dribbling down my chin and I missed my mouth a lot. Then I tried to drink water and she laughed at me a lot for that too.
wisdom teeth? mine r comin in and i hate it -_-
Eventually she left and I went to bed. She made me happy because I was really sad from the medicine they gave me. Ive had to ice my face. Its weird. Im also only allowed to eat jello applesauce icecream soup and pudding
Then get them out. Sooner the better
Mapledream {Rose Gold} wrote: "Then get them out. Sooner the better"they rel smal and dont hurt. but my doc told me they wer comin in
The doctor said I was really lucky with mine
Mine didn't have long roots and there was this important nerve right underneath the roots. They usually have to worry about that nerve but for me they didn't. I also only had three of the four. He said my recovery would be relatively easy :3
But he said the third day would be the worst
I have to gargle with salt water after eating stuff though.
I should make a pros and cons list for wisdom teeth
ProsLOTS OF ICECREAM JELLO AND PUDDING!!!!!!
Im not expected to do anything
Everyone does stuff for me
Ive only had to get up from the couch five times today
Ive watched a whole season of once upon a time.
Im so relaxed right now.
Im in pajamas and the day isn't over
Ive taken a nap
ConsI had to keep gauze in my mouth for a while
My mouth is sore
I have to ice my jaw
I was numb on my chin until around the middle of today
Yesterday I couldnt eat or drink without making a mess
Im not allowed to chew stuff
I cant hang out with friends because Im confined to my bed
Now I feel fricken dead. I hope I sleep all day. Probably won't go to church because the doctor said the third day was the hardest and today was pretty hard...
Luck's TruthThey roll around in luck
Picking four leaf clovers,
Searching the ground for pennies-
Heads side up of corse.
No black cats
No ladders to walk under
No broken mirrors.
Coast is clear.
No bad luck to stop us now.
But it doesn't matter.
We all trip and fall you see?
Bad luck is a natural thing.
Use your penny to buy some candy
And that cat could use a home.
It's not so bad to relax a little.
Don't worry about luck.
The universe might give you some.
What goes around comes around.
Hi Blue!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im so bored
I really want to start a YouTube channel like now
Going to spam this thread with my poetry
My Little MonkeysEvery week,
same time same place.
I can't wait to see
your shining face
I love you to pieces
How else can I say it?
You're my little monkey
No doubt about that.
Precious moments
Every one of them
Are forever stored
In my heart.
You can sit on my lap
Or I'll be your jungle gym.
I'm here just for you
I'd do anything for you.
You fill my world with light,
I tell your stories
And find much joy in yours
You're my something to live for.
Maybe you look up to me,
I secretly hope you do.
Being cousins makes me happy
I couldn't live without you.
You Don't KnowI always get back up,
Smile through the pain,
And never get mad.
It doesn't mean Im not hurting.
It takes a lot,
Holding all this back.
You don't see,
You don't know.
People who show it get pity,
They get love for a crutch.
Me, I get nothing.
Absentminded hugs and short hellos
I wish you saw it all,
Knew all my pain.
There's a landfill under my park,
Buried under pretty happiness.
All I want, all I need
Is the love you give.
I may be special, but I want the real deal,
Give me the love you give them.
I just need to know,
I need to feel your love always.
It gives me comfort,
It gives me strength.
You better believe Im insecure.
I need to know Im wanted.
I need to know Im important.
I know Im selfish but if you loved me you wouldn't care.
BuzzThe storm is here.
The connection is breaking up
And all I can think is buzz.
It echoes through my head
Everything else lost
As if a hurricane blew it away.
Not just silence but a buzz
That never ends,
Not until the storm passes.
Sleeping lulls the monster,
But Im not tired
Since everything is in turmoil
It quiets down
Until there is nothing left.
I can think again.
My mind picks up the pieces,
Connecting wires again.
Making itself ready.
Storms come crashing in
At the worst of times
Flooding my mind when I must think.
Then all I hear is a buzz.
NecessityI need that piece.
It's the cornerstone,
That holds it all together.
Without it Im in the dark,
No flashlight to guide me.
Wandering aimlessly, lost and alone
Cold on harsh winter nights,
No blankets to bundle up in
When the going gets rough.
No shoulders to cry on.
No one to share everything with.
No one to love.
I need it.
It's my lifeline.
It's what completes me.
My family.
Mapledream {Rose Gold} wrote: "Hi Blue!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im so bored"same
Mapledream {Rose Gold} wrote: "I really want to start a YouTube channel like now"U should do it :D
Preserved BeautyI stare as you wilt,
Crumbling, tumbling.
Giving up your beauty to time
You're done sitting in a vase.
I save you, rescuing you
From death with new use.
You are still beautiful to me
Be still and dry your stem.
Now you lay with your friends
But you are new, different than before.
You are stiff, fragile
My touch makes you crumble away
Everyday I witness you
Even though you are dried and crumpled
You are still beautiful to me
What a pretty flower you are.
I really want to I just don't know how yet
What You Can't CaptureVoices.
Moments.
Perfect.
Love.
They all skitter away,
Refusing to be put in words.
The more precious,
The more they struggle.
The fight takes the wonder away.
Brainstorming.
Trying for hours on end,
To catch these fragile things
But it never works.
They always get away,
Make it hard.
Enjoy it while you can.
Save the memory,
Soak it up.
It will never happen again.
Let it run free as it should.
Some may still try,
But you can't capture it.
HopeHold onto me,
Open your arms.
Please let me in.
Eventually you will.
Hands hold onto one another,
Often holding secret feelings
Passing from one to another
Echoing through their minds.
Help me through this,
Opposition cant stop us.
Protecting the ones we love
Everyone will live.
Honestly I don't know...
Of course someone has a plan.
Pick the right one and
End this battle
Hope draws us towards victory
Onwards we go, our enemies
Plead for mercy and leave us be
Ending this harsh war
Happy endings always come true
Over time all will be right.
Push away the dirty past
Evergreen will our lives stay
My DesertOut there, in the world
You will find a desert.
It's a big city, bustling around
But I own that place,
My home town.
At night you see amazing things,
The performers sing,
Doing their dances and little tricks.
People from all over come to see
In the day you see crowded streets,
Appointments and business as usual
Then the children come from school
Running ramped through the city
At night we've settled down,
City lights shimmer on the horizon
As families get together and enjoy the evening.
Maybe one of our coyotes will howl
This is my desert,
My childhood,
My heart,
My city.
Thats all of then I think
Mapledream {Rose Gold} wrote: "I really want to I just don't know how yet"My friend actually does Youtube for a job LOL
Blue will you look at some of my poems?
Sitting in English. Really bored
SAME!