3. what does the narrator mean "but I myself am missing"?

[Kristel]

“Well, sir, I did not succeed in putting back together what had been nor what I had been. If the face is the same, the expression is di²erent. If it were only the others that were missing, no matter. A man consoles himself more or less for those he has lost, but I myself am missing, and this lack is essential”

[[deleted user]]

I think he means he no longer cares and that his spirit is missing.

[Kristel]

I feel that the person that he was is gone and has been destroyed by his jealousy.

[Diane]

He is no longer the person he was in his youth.