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Apr 19, 2017 02:25PM
What is it with me, reading all these sad books lately? I'm happy IRL, but you'd think I was on the verge of a breakdown if you looked at my reading habits. 0_o
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sorry, I just get really excited when my writing is recognized like this!!!
Thanks. I didn't expect it to go up so quickly, if at all--I just posted it last night, and most of my better articles have taken weeks to get to national status.
Fandom list--ongoing
my own book (yes it counts), The Hunger Games, Harry Potter, The Giver, Steven Universe, Gravity Falls, Adventure Time, Over the Garden Wall, Big Hero Six, Lotr/The Hobbit,
my own book (yes it counts), The Hunger Games, Harry Potter, The Giver, Steven Universe, Gravity Falls, Adventure Time, Over the Garden Wall, Big Hero Six, Lotr/The Hobbit,
I'm trapped in this prison for two. More. Years.
They're draining our creativity through formulaic assignments and standardized tests--and I hate it.
They're draining our creativity through formulaic assignments and standardized tests--and I hate it.
I swear my heart breaks a little more every time I come into contact with homeschoolers. Why can't I be free like them? Are they already judging me for something I can't change?
D:
D:
ANYway, I'm rewriting my novel again. So...that's good.
Ugh. I know it's a first-world problem, but the school cafeteria isn't going to provide provolone cheese for the rest of the year...and the other cheese they offer is nasty.
I want to pack my lunch every day next year.
I want to pack my lunch every day next year.
Writing in my new character's dialect for chapter one is harder than I thought it would be! But I really like the character. I've named her Martha.
Martha is a little like Hagrid. I mean, she's her own unique character--but the similarities are there. :)
For my own reference--things to try drawing digitally
1. Redo pencil drawing of Wirt from Over the Garden Wall. It looked pretty amateur.
2. Draw my OC's
3. Possibly draw a neurodiversity sign?
4.
1. Redo pencil drawing of Wirt from Over the Garden Wall. It looked pretty amateur.
2. Draw my OC's
3. Possibly draw a neurodiversity sign?
4.
I drew a snowman instead. Digital art is so much easier!

I've decided some important things about my future. I'll be happy if I end up having a husband and homeschooling my hypothetical kids--but that's not my main goal. If it never comes, that's fine--I'll be a single-and-satisfied librarian and writer. :)
I don't know what to say either, lol.
I didn't think I'd like it, to be honest. Lol.
I never watch the actual television--I find my shows online.
My new story (for the contest in Blazing Readers and Wordy Writers) isn't going well. At all.
In better news, VBS is coming up later this month! I'm helping with the middle group (first through third graders). Can't wait!
Heart of Darkness is actually really good??? Even though I hated the last Joseph Conrad book I read??
I hope I can get all 27 of my book ideas written in my lifetime.
Delphinia (Dhamma ✿) wrote: "Hi Raevyn! Oh I love this journal ^.^"
Hi! :)
Hi! :)
Aaaand we're over 100 posts! Thanks for this, guys!
My heart is breaking and I no longer have any desire to write. All thanks to one comment.
I don't intend for my books to be "really dark"...
I don't intend for my books to be "really dark"...
I probably won't stop entirely, but I don't know if I can enjoy it like I did.
I still read your works and they feel so real to me.
I don't know where to set my new story, if I provide a location at all....
It's Adventure Timetime to buckle down and write some poems!
...yeah, I'm completely out of poetry ideas.
Me: All the songs we learn for chorus class are lame.
Also me (two months after our concert): *singing* OMNIA SOL! TEMPERAT!!! ABSENS IN REMOTA!
Also me (two months after our concert): *singing* OMNIA SOL! TEMPERAT!!! ABSENS IN REMOTA!
It's weird because I keep thinking"When I get published, I'll do this, think this, etc." and then I remember that my book IS published. ❤
Someone: Describe yourself in a few words.
Me:

Me:



I'm seriously considering leaving the group "Polls About Life". And maybe even Goodreads in general. I tried to ask an innocent question about my writing, and some pretentious user turned it into a passive-aggressive comment on a social justice issue. Fine. Next time I'll just whitewash my characters so nobody gets offended!
I doubt myself enough without certain people implying that I'm racist and a lazy writer.
Changing the title to something else that's depressing. Because why not?
I mess up everything I try to do.