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Once at the Boys' and Girls' Club someone was listening to Owl City and I said Owl City was the only musical artist that made me see images and stories in my head while the song played and one of the counselors said that was the realest thing she's ever heard
I need to listen to more of their songs. I don't know why but I love their music. It's not like anything else I listen to.
It's just one guy lol But yeah everyone just knows Fireflies and a few more know about stuff like Vanilla Twilight and stuff he does for movies like Shine Your Way or When Can I See You Again. His regular stuff is really good though. I really love Strawberry Avalanche, Tip of the Iceberg, Peppermint Winter, Hello Seattle, Rainbow Veins, Technicolor Phase, How I Became the Seat, Hot Air Balloon, Honey and the Bee, West Coast Friendship, Tokyo, Beautiful Times, Wolf Bite, okay I think you get my point
Wait is there no one else at all? He does all the instruments himself?
I think?
Finally I listened to WAP so Mom can stop telling me to do so and acting like she just now discovered Cardi B's music lol
'What should the library expand their collection of?''Library of things, such as tools, toys, laptops, musical instruments, seeds, etc'
Excuse me but we have seeds at our library?! Why was I not informed?!
Musical instruments??
Yeah you can rent musical instruments such as guitars and keyboards, I don't get how that's weird
I told Mom Addict is going to be my stripper song and she thought it was one of the funniest things she's ever heard
Stripper song? :P
Yeah because it's about a stripper :P
But what do you mean YOUR stripper song? :P
I like keeping my career opportunities open :P
Be sure to invite me to your shows :PYOu think I'm joking but I'm serious :P
I told Mom if the guys actually know what Addict is from they get a free blowjob :P
Does it count if I go and learn? :P
I was reminded of one of my favourite YA books of all time and I was disappointed to see so many low reviews, usually I'm used to it but these reviews were from people saying it didn't seem like a 'YA' book because of how graphic and explicit it was in literally every single area, but I was baffled by that because when I read it, that's one of the reasons why I liked it! I was so happy to see a YA historical fiction novel that took no punches, told it like it was, showing how hard it was to survive back then for teenage girls. I read it when I was the same age the protagonist is and I still related to her, I actually thought she was an adult at first because of how plucky and resourceful she was, but nope, at one point the character mentions a book she read she liked and said 'the character in it is only fifteen, hey, just like me!' and I was like 'this protagonist is only fifteen like me?!' (Well I think I might've been sixteen when I read it but my point still stands) And yeah, it really doesn't hold back. It's very explicitly violent, explicitly and graphically sexual; the main character herself gets raped by a nobleman who likes to sew jewels on his member, and another major character has sex to rebel and gets pregnant and miscarries in church and gets in trouble for it, it's also just generally gross and unpleasant in general because it goes into explicit detail about literally every single type of bodily function you could ever possibly imagine, which again is kinda just the norm for the time. Aside from the explicit content though, the actual writing style was gorgeous, it literally dripped from the page in decadence, like the blood jewels it spoke of. Even the book itself was gorgeous, bound with golden pages and written in red. Plus it's not all misery and grimdark, the whole point is that the girls win in the end! They kill the villain and make their escape to a better and safer life. I feel bad that despite it being one of my favourite books ever, it's slipped from my memory so easily and even reading the reviews doesn't really jog my memory of it. A reread is definitely in order. While it's true I wouldn't let a twelve or thirteen-year-old read it due to the content, I can easily see fifteen and up reading it just fine, and YA is meant for them too. I think people need to understand YA is meant to cater to everyone ages twelve-eighteen which means the books can be on the lower end of the spectrum and be more suitable for middle-schoolers, or be on the higher end of the spectrum and be more suitable for seniors in high school. I think it'd be a very dull genera if it was purely for one end or the other
What book was it?I've always associated YA with older teens who can handle stuff like that
No because I'll actually know you looked it up :P
Elizabeth ♛Smart Girls Love Trashy Books♛ wrote: "No because I'll actually know you looked it up :P"Darn iiiit :P
The community event was giving out condoms and even though I didn't need any I still wanted to take one anyway because they were flavoured and I wanted to put one in my mouth
Why did you want to? :PAnd what event?
Because I want to know what they taste like :P I did get some lube though An event where they give out food and other stuff to the neighborhood
THey probably taste like rubber :P
No they were flavoured :P One promised to taste like candy
Mom: "You should be happy you graduated this year. This was a historic year nobody's ever going to forget. Like, nobody's going to remember those who graduated in 2016, but everyone's going to remember who graduated in 2020!" Me; who graduated in 2016: "Touche, Mom,"
I have a thigh gap. I know I always say that I'm fat and gross-looking but I don't genuinely believe it so I don't know why I keep saying it to myself. When I look in the mirror I see someone thin. I have a weird-looking stomach and whenever I wear certain shirts I keep thinking people are going to comment on it but they only comment on how I have a good sense of fashion. My stomach has looked like that for as long as I can remember. When I get a lot of food especially junk food people don't look at me in disgust, they look at me like they're trying to figure out where a skinny girl like myself keeps it all. I mean, if I was fat, wouldn't people say it? People still make fun of me in real life for certain things, yet they've never called me fat. Never even really called me ugly. So I can't be fat if nobody uses it again me, right? Yet it still feels weird in a way. When I got older and started losing a bunch of weight I started to develop a bit of an hourglass figure and Mom told me I should be proud for having a good figure and being at the 'perfect size' men wanted me to be, and I remember looking in the mirror and asking 'this is what guys really want?' I'm definitely thin but in some weird way I feel like it's still not enough. It was so surreal to finally have the perfect body so many men lusted after and so many women tried so hard to get and yet I still felt like I wasn't properly represented. I remember once I watched something with Mom, I don't remember what it was, probably a movie, and there was a scene where the main girl takes her clothes off and stretches herself out to sit in a chair properly and she had a bit of a big stomach but otherwise an extremely thin body and nobody in the movie ever once said she was fat or anything, they always said she looked beautiful, and I just remember whispering to myself: "She has a body just like mine," I've also seen some anime, even hentai, where the girl has a bit of a bigger waist but she's still overall thin and beautiful and I started keeping track whenever I saw it. I don't even know why it matters so much to me. People have told me I'm already thin so I need to stop worrying so much about my weight because it could get very dangerous very quickly for me. I don't even know why I want to complain about not getting enough thin representation, if I was fat I'd have reason to complain but not skinny. I guess it's because after years, when I finally got the body I wanted, the weight that was 'perfect', I was exactly what society wanted me to be, yet somehow I still wasn't thin enough. That's when I started to realize it doesn't matter how much weight I continue to lose whether purposeful or accidental, no matter what body type I sculpt myself into, it'll never be enough. I will never be skinny enough even as a literal hourglass. And there actually are younger girls who are jealous of me, who say they want to be as skinny as me, and I look at that in disbelief, because who could look at me and think I'm so skinny they want to emulate it? I eventually decided I should stop caring so much and just let the chips fall where they may. I'm not going to completely disregard taking care of myself because I'm one of those people who needs to exercise and eat healthy at least sometimes, but I also don't think I should care so much about my weight. It's mainly stationary. It's just hard to admit to myself sometimes that I actually do look good and I've somehow done good for myself over these years, mainly because of my weird-looking stomach, but I want to try and get better at it
That's a great outlook to have. You'll never achieve perfection because perfection is, by nature, impossible. And everyone's views on body image is different, of course. What's perfect for one might be unappealing for anotherStill, I'm happy you've had such a revelation.
I've had it for a while, but things didn't fully fall into place until earlier when I was getting ready to shower and I looked at myself in the mirror and realized I had a thigh gap and was like 'but aren't those only for skinny girls? like girls who start dieting crazily to achieve a thigh gap? so why do I have one? am I not actually fat?'
Based on the pictures you've shown me, no, no you're not.
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Last night Mom asked me why I insisted on getting a bunch of boxes of organic granola bars everyone but me is afraid to touch and I said because organic granola bars are actually really good and I'll happily eat them all if nobody else wants them, one of them is from the brand Amy's/Annie's which makes the best lactose-free macaroni and cheese ever and their fruit snacks are super good too and are shaped like cute little bunnies
Making a macaroni and cheese cup while in cosplay is the dream to be honest
I remember being in tenth grade and excited over my biology teacher because everyone in my friend group had him the previous year and told me how cool he was and I got him my time to take biology but I started to immensely regret it when on my first day I asked him why he had a skull on the projector screen string and he looked at it, then looked at me and said: "Because that's my daughter, she watches over me,"
What's with that face, that was his sense of humor, super surrealist humor. I just didn't know that going in so I got freaked-out
Oh I didn't know he was making a joke
What was actually awkward was being the only tenth-grader in that class. You're 'meant' to take it in ninth grade but since at the time I was trying to get my Academic Honors diploma you have to take three years of science starting with earth/space science so that's what I did, so I was literally the only tenth grader in a class of ninth graders and it was awkward because my schedule was different than theirs, like one time I took the PSAT and due to the scheduling conflicts all PSAT takers had to take a different lunch; B Lunch while that biology class took A Lunch. I wasn't bothered by it but it was incredibly awkward when the B Lunch bell rang for me to just get up and walk out in the middle of a lesson while everyone else stay put
Yeah it was a joke lol Once we did an experiment using those huge clunky 'snap' beads and some kid was like 'are these anal beads' and the teacher was like 'whoa now wrong class buddy'
Mom told me I should be proud of the fact I can actually think critically and try to figure things out on my own and properly articulate why I like and dislike specific things and what I would do better and I told her the fact she has to compliment me on having a basic human skill says way too much about current events
"The ancient Oracle said that I was the wisest of all the Greeks. It is because I alone, of all the Greeks, know that I know nothing"
I was telling her about these book reviewers who can't even say why they liked the book, they just give it five stars and I was absolutely baffled that people out there can read a book and be unable to say even what they liked about it, like how can you do that? I'm almost unable to not think critically about stuff I read
I mean I'm like that about a lot of stuff...but that's more when I'm like "eh it was alright"
Even stuff like The Stand and Swan Song and Battle Royale that I basically read 'for the lulz' I can very easily tell you my thoughts on everything and what I liked and disliked about the books because I still read and processed them. You've seen my thoughts on The Lost Hero as I've read through it, clearly I have thoughts I can articulate on it. I even do it for fanfiction. There's a book reviewer who flat-out says she just reads dialogue in every book she reads which is why she can read such huge books so quickly then wonders why she can't remember anything she's actually read. It reminds me of how people automatically assume since I can read so fast that I'm just skim-reading and not properly processing what I'm reading when that's not true at all. I don't know why or how I read so fast but I do, but I still understand what I'm actually reading. People in doubt have asked me to tell them what's going on in the book I'm reading as of late and any thoughts I have and I can always tell them because I'm paying attention
I pay attention but I don't...get it. I couldn't hold intellectual conversations about the media I consume
I don't think most books have any super deep philosophical things, a lot of the messages are pretty easy to get, like Battle Royale was meant to satirize how hard and competitive it was in nineties-era Japan for students to get into a good school and career, the author was basically like 'they might as well be given weapons and just be told to kill each other' and was inspired. But I don't think one needs to actually know that to like the book or not
Well yeah, you don't need to. But I always feel dumb when people have discussions about fiction and I have nothing to contribute
For a while Mom has wanted to get into the Hypnosis Mic fandom because she loves the art style but disliked the media format of what they actually were and wanted an anime to be made and they finally announced an anime adaptation; it was meant to premiere this summer but got pushed back due to the pandemic so it's coming out in fall and she got super excited for it
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