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Elizabeth ♛Smart Girls Love Trashy Books♛
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Jul 22, 2020 06:27AM
Mom keeps talking about how she's going to post a long rant about how much she hates the movie The Aristocats somewhere online and I keep telling her nobody will argue with her like she wants because nobody else really likes that movie passionately
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Even now it's still raining
Oh no scratch that, it's actually storming
I've never seen AristocatsSlightly overcast here
My mom would say you've been blessed lol
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Elizabeth ♛Smart Girls Love Trashy Books♛
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Even though Quibi was a failure and poorly-executed, I do kinda hope someone better comes along and redoes the whole idea because I feel like I see the appeal more than a few other people could maybe as I'm someone who does want to watch shows but my attention span is so bad I can't sit through normal-length shows, but if said show were only a few minutes long, I could, so to me it's a good idea in theory because it would mean I could watch a lot more popular shows without getting bored or distracted by a long running time
Completely forgot Quibi was even a thing
Everyone did
I also wish when people make countdown lists of their own personal preferences that they didn't put stuff in the top spot just because it's objectively good, because I feel like you can acknowledge something as being objectively good and influential, but not personally like it yourself for whatever reason. I feel like it's kinda a cop-out and impersonal for someone to say things are their favourite when they really just think they're objectively good and not personally like them. In some cases someone might personally like something and find it objectively good, but I feel like it's more common to praise and respect certain forms of media without personally liking them themselves
I feel that aaall the time in my fandoms
When your mom drops a bunch of bombshell theories on you from a series you like and the theories make so much sense and there’s actual evidence for them being true and you can’t sit for a week as a result and you know if the creator does choose to confirm the theories the reveals will be so brutal you won’t sit down for the rest of your life probably
What theory?
It’s a theory about Black Butler
I remember once when my world history and geography teacher kept making jokes with us about what his rapper name would be if he was a rapper and this other girl kept making jokes about it too saying they’d be a tagteam act and one time we took a test and he announced: “Whose test is this? Get Easy Moneybags,” And the girl said it was hers, and I thought the idea was so funny the next time we took a test I wrote the name of an anime character using my right hand and also did the whole test using my right hand because the handwriting looks different to disguise what I did but much to my dismay the teacher didn’t call out our names to get our tests back like the last time, he handed them back to us and he figured out who ‘Arthur Kirkland’ was and I was so disappointed. He didn’t even write anything on my test except the usual grading stuff lol
At least I finally found a good-looking AO3 skin that turns everything into a nice soft pink
When you thought you'd have a hot girl summer but instead it's a hot girl bummer
I felt so sick yesterday I had to stop watching the movie with my mom and go to bed, and I still feel bad about it because it makes me seem like a terrible person, and we rented the movie so we might not even get to finish it because of me
When you used the Wayback Machine to play the old American Girl games from your childhood and then tried to do the same thing with your beloved Barbie games only to learn the Wayback Machine didn't actually archive any of the old games or activities from the site, just the home page*suffering*
Coronavirus: *exists* Literally Every Random Person Who Wrote a Pandemic Novel on a Whim: "My time has come,"
I wonder what the people who idlely scroll through soundtracks because they're looking for a specific song think when they see the song titles because I feel like a lot of soundtracks regardless of what they're from have some weird song names
Absolutely
I remember when I rode the bus the other day and when it was driving around town one of the things I saw was a group of young teenagers hanging out drinking Baja Blasts they got from Taco Bell and they all had masks on and it was simultaneously the cheeriest and most depressing thing I've ever seen
I also saw a biker gang chilling out
Crazy Diamonds?
Nah there was women there
That would be Hiro's mom :P
She was a nurse :P
Could've fooled me :P
Mom: "It has her in it too, that one actress that was in your favourite movie of all time," Me: "I don't have a movie like that,"
Mom: "Yeah you do, she voiced the captain in Treasure Planet,"
Me: "You mean Emma Thompson?!"
Mom: "Yes her!"
Me: "Okay, that's pretty much the only movie I've ever seen her in and she's technically not even physically in it, yet how can I remember her name and you can't!?"
'Dark Ambiance of Viruses Diseases and Parasites?' why now I'm just being spoiled
What's that?
A video of creepy music/ambiance that, according to the creator, sounds like cells breaking down and viruses taking control of their host
When you get excited to go to Holiday World for the free soft drinks but then you go there and they're nothing like you expected
I sat down on the coffee table because I needed to be closer to the TV to hear it better due to how low the volume was and I literally got stuck to it from how sticky and gunky it was, so that was fun
Mom said I don't have a fever but I feel like I'm swimming in my sweat
I regret telling Mom I feel sick because it made everyone in the house start freaking out and Mom instantly checked me for a fever and started asking me questions like if I still had a sense of smell and I know she's not doing this because she cares, she's doing this because she doesn't want to get sick too. She's thinking of quarantining specifically all of us and asked me if I went out without a mask, if I touched anything 'weird', if I was around people who were coughing/sneezing, if I stayed six feet away from others, if I washed my hands, and I kept telling her I followed all of the rules and that it's just a cold, it's just a really bad time to get one, and my baby brother said I probably do have the disease, I just don't realize it because it normally starts out as a cold, and I said if I do die from a disease, I will not die from choronavirus, I genuinely refuse to. I just developed a cold. Where I got it from and who I don't think we'll ever know, but it matters little. I just have a cold, I don't need to be treated like I have leprosy or something
Submechaphobia is such an extremely specific and yet bizarre phobia
There are so many people on FanFiction.net who I swear are the same exact person just under different usernames purely because of the stuff they Favourite
Why'd my mom buy a bookshelf and who's it for
I know it's basically my pasttime to make fun of Gen Z because a lot of them are really annoying and never really matured and are kinda clueless about a lot of things, and that's still true, however if I'd had to say one thing I genuinely admire about them it's the fact they're relentless and determined. They won't stop until they get what they want and they're satisfied, and that can be put to use for the greater good. The 2010's and 2020 presently has been filled with a bunch of upheavals and reforms for social rights and society. Things have been done that never would've been done even fifteen, twenty years ago and it's all thanks to a generation that was taught to never take 'no' for an answer. This is the generation that's starting to make major steps in the way of racial equality, this is the generation that got to celebrate gay marriage being legalized in the U.S. I honestly think that's something to be proud of, even if they're inept in a lot of areas, you have to admit that when it comes to their rights, the rights of people, the rights to live a normal life free of discrimination for things you can't control, they're probably the best of the living generations
I really need to get into the song Blinding Lights but so far the only part of the song I actually like is the part of the chorus that goes 'oooooh i'm blinded by the lights no i can't sleep until i feel your touch'
Elizabeth ♛Smart Girls Love Trashy Books♛ wrote: "I know it's basically my pasttime to make fun of Gen Z because a lot of them are really annoying and never really matured and are kinda clueless about a lot of things, and that's still true, howeve..."i've seen memes that are like "Millennials: Wants to die. Gen Z: Burns police cars and laughs manically"
A Danger to Herself and Others finally someone wrote a book about me
I remember when we had to make a childrens' book for child development and mine was about different family units but at the last second I decided to add 'something' because it was something I related to, but I got nervous about it because for some reason I thought the class would tease me, and when it was time to present, I got cold feet partially over what I put in and partially because another girl who had already went did a book on families too but that just made the class even more excited to hear mine; the girl who had a crush on me was a major advocate for me to go up and present so I did, and mine was a typical family thing you'd expect, I talked about stuff like extended families, nuclear families, single-parent families, etc and then the last page had me saying 'and there are even some families with two mommies or two daddies!' and the class just praised how I had a good voice and how you could tell I was the sort of person who likely read out-loud a lot or told a lot of stories because it was a strong, carrying voice, and I was relieved nobody said anything about the story itself but I had to ask myself why I even had that fear in the first place. My high-school at least when I went was pretty much 'we don't really care what you do as long as you're not hurting anyone' there were more conservative students yes but the majority were liberal or didn't really care; I saw guys attend school in dresses and my old crush crossdressed all of the time but I guess I'm so used to reading about people my age going through stigma that it rubs off on me and I get the assumption everyone everywhere is like that when it's not true
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We read The Bell Jar in Honors English 10 and to this day I still think it's both the best and worst book I've ever read because I know if I ever wrote a memoir of my life it'd be just like that, several hundred pages of someone who's essentially very neurotic and never satisfied and I also related to how she came up with a whole other version of herself where she was a Jewish girl and related to their struggles in WW2 and she eventually killed herself by climbing inside her oven because it reminded her of when the Jews would be gassed in WW2 and I had a similar alter-ego at the time where I tried to process my so-called troubles by pretending I was a Lithuanian girl in 1973 Soviet Lithuania named Ruta whose mother had to work to support the large family after her father was taken away by the Soviets for unpatriotic activities and Ruta was trying to find her place in the world by observing nature and lamenting about how much free-er everything else is comparison to her, and I wrote a lot of the poems down for a class project simply titled The Lithuanian Girl because she was never actually named or referred to by her name in any of the poems, she was just simply called 'the Lithuanian girl', so what I'm trying to say is that I have issues
I found some of the older poems that I wrote featuring her It's a nice day out for a walk;
Maybe that's what others would think
but not her, never her.
The Lithuanian girl has to go out
To the store for food
She better hope there's actually some there
"You look malnourished,"
That was one of the last things her father told her
As if that was her fault
Everyone looks malnourished nowadays
It wasn't like anyone ate much anyway
It was some sort of irony
The yellow represented wheat
Irony indeed
she doesn't run into any Russians while shopping
She's glad for that
She put the food down on the table and went to her room
She likely wouldn't eat it all anyway, it was Russian food
Bland horrible Russian food
The Russians who didn't even know you ate borscht cold
Not hot
What did they know?
=
Another latchekey kid, another statistic
That's all they'll ever see her as
she was gifted her own house key the other day
It's a pathetic thing coloured gold that barely fits in the lock
Still, she won't lose it
Where would she go if she did?
The Lithuanian girl remembers
Remembered suddenly the stories she's read
About other children in Europe
Including in Poland
Who run away and get raised by wolves
In a way, she envies that
Not the wolves, not the isolation
But the choice
They have an option unavailable to her
They can run and live among nature
All the Lithuanian girl can do is sit there
And let things happen to her
And she hates that
What kind of a Lithuanian is she then?
A terrible one
And a statistic
Nothing but a statistic
And she's not even dead yet
=
She hears birds on a walk once
It reminds her of when she was little
And despite not whistling
She never could, and she hated that
She'd still try to imitate birdcalls
And feel delighted when a bird answered
Even if it wasn't to her
The Lithuanian girl suddenly realizes
She's never truly been as free as a bird
Even singing does little for her
=
She watches TV
She just sits there and stares blankly
Most of the time, it's all the same
Censored and propaganda
'You are brave strong nation
You cultured and don't need capitalist
Pig-dogs like America! Be strong!'
The Lithuanian girl has gotten good at tuning it all out
She's gotten good at tuning out a lot of things
=
Of course she has friends
She goes to school and enjoys it
Some people say she shouldn't
They call her names and say she's more Russian
That's the one thing she allows
If it wasn't for school, she would've lost it
Years and years ago
She sees her friends at school and for once
Lithuanian or Russian, it matters little
They are all teenagers attending the same school
=
The Lithuanian girl looks at her dresser
Looks inside it at all the clothes contained within
She wishes she had a uniform, briefly
She knows she should thank the Russians
For allowing her to wear pants
Like a man, to look like a real American
But she doesn't see the fuss
She thinks back to the wolf-children
She thinks she'd prefer horses or cows
Or some animal that didn't rely on eating raw meat
She eats meat plenty
And she hates it
=
The Lithuanian girl had a normal family
As normal as could be
Then her father got taken away
Her mother got a job
And her brothers ride the train to school
The Lithuanian girl has an abnormal family
As abnormal as can be
Her father was doing anti-governmental things
Her mother is working at a restaurant
And her and her brothers have to go to school
And do their patriotic duty
If that's all it took, why did they take him away?
=
She finds it sad how the only thing
That ever makes her smile and feel alive
Are blooming flowers in the forest
Bubbling creeks and small scampering rabbits
Nature is free, it gets to do whatever it wants
The Lithuanian girl is jealous
To grow where she wants
Move where she wants
To be as pretty as she wants
All are things nature does easily
But not so easy for humans
As is their own nature
The Lithuanian girl admires the flowers
Then continues on her walk
Oh! Look, listen and see!
It's the train coming through again!
Let's run to the bridge!
The Lithuanian girl finds herself strangely
Coming alive with the passing of the train
=
The Lithuanian girl hates the house
It's big on the outside but small inside
Her room has no closet, just a wooden pole
The stairs are steep and there's no carpet
The bathroom is the size of a closet
And the pantry is the size of an entire room
They had to move because her father got taken away
She hates the house because there's no hiding it
"Oh you moved because they took your father away?
You used to live in such a nice house
But you're not nobility anymore, are you?
Couldn't have ever been if you downgraded this much,"
She wasn't nobility but they were fine
She whispers to a friend about it once
The friend whispers back in code a joke
"Are you Anne Frank?"
The Lithuanian girl tells her mother
Her mother tells her she should be grateful
=
Once, the Lithuanian girl gets sick
She gets sick bad
She thinks it's from the water
The water that was so toxic
It needed a warning sign of its own
Tap water could be poison even here?
She wants to muse but can't, she wants to cry
Not from the sickness but from the situation itself
She thinks of the golden wheat
But most of all she thinks of lovely delicate
Yellow little Ruta flowers
That grow everywhere here
She finds them beautiful
And also, the fact she doesn't have a chamber pot
Is astounding to her
She bows her head
And thinks of the flowers
=
The Lithuanian girl has two brothers
They ride the train to school
She always wondered why stop there
Either stop at one or keep going
Each child got money from the government!
Three, five, seven, ten!
Why not just keep going?
They'd be revered if they had ten kids!
Three was such an uneven, unbalanced number
She then thinks it's unfair the way humans are born
Birth is painful and babies are helpless
Useless little things
Can't walk
Can't talk
Can't eat
Can't do anything
Whereas other animals have babies
Who can walk and defend themselves
Why did humans get such a short stick?
The Lithuanian girl thinks it's unfair
Are humans the top or the bottom?
=
She does more birdcalls
Maybe she'd be raised by birds
She thinks she'd like that
=
She's short
With blonde-brown hair that could be pretty,
She reasons, but not how she does it
Eyes so vividly green-blue teal
One can only see either colour
Never both at the same time
She thinks her eyes are her best feature
She thinks of a book she read once
Featuring birds pecking out someone's eyes
Wasn't there some culture
Associating eyes with private parts?
And why even bother to peck out eyes?
The Lithuanian girl doesn't understand
Any of the thoughts inside her head
She just knows she has them and that's that
Like birds pecking out eyeballs
Right after she genuinely thinks her eyes are pretty
=
She sees a ribbon as she sits outside on her steps
She drags her key along on the ground thinking
The Russians announced they'd start gassing out houses
She wasn't inside hers but she couldn't go in yet
She opened the door earlier and found everything messed-up
The couch and tables all pushed out and
The cushions thrown off
She closed the door
Now she's wondering who'll come home first
Her mother and grandparents in their car?
Or her brothers on the train from school?
It's a blue ribbon that catches the sunlight
Blue and shimmering
Like a river
Like clouds
Like eyes
Like the sky
Like freedom
She wonders if it was for hair originally
Or tying something else back
Where'd it come from?
It was in the field across from her
If she wanted to, the Lithuanian girl could run across
And grab it
It's stuck, she realizes then
The wind kept blowing it and despite fluttering
The ribbon never actually moved
She thought of her brothers and mother
She thought of her father being taken away
She thought of the Russians gassing them due to
Potential rebellious thoughts because of it
She thought of how nothing ever wanted to grow here
The Lithuanian girl sees the ribbon still struggle against the wind
No matter how strong it blows, it doesn't give up
Doesn't resign, doesn't surrender
The wind is stronger than a flimsy ribbon,
Yet it holds firm
The Lithuanian girl feels like the ribbon sometimes
Who will come home first? Who will come home first?
She stood up from the stairs
And cheered for the ribbon
She actually found herself cheering for a ribbon
"Stay strong, ribbon! Don't let the Russians take you!"
A smile
A real genuine smile
She heard a honk and turned around
Her mother had come home
=
That last one was the one I read out-loud for my class. These were the only ones I could find, I wrote a whole bunch of these and I could only find these. I forgot how much of a misanthrope the Lithunian girl was, but I wasn't in a very happy spot at the time, and I noticed the more I wrote her, the more she became less like me and more like her own person. Plus I wrote these when I had just turned sixteen so I probably still had some edge left in me somewhere
Men still write books??? But like why? Haven't they been writing books for like a thousand years now?
It's a reference to that meme that said 'men are still directing movies? but like why?'
it's personal
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