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~Look Down, You're Talking to Your Highness~[R]
I'm still really close to my best friend, it's just that she's become a totally different person from when I first met her. She's thinking of taking me to a theme park in the summer.
I wish I was as close to my old best friends as I was before. You're lucky for that.
She's just busy and can't invite me over as much as she would like. She's afraid of driving despite having a license and her boyfriend doesn't like to drive until he gets insurance, so she makes her mom drive everyone around, which her mom doesn't like. The last time I visited her was back in February, which was at her boyfriend's house. It was supposed to be a party, but most of our friends cancelled after they found out I had a terrible high after smoking some weed and I still feel really bad about that.
So they said, but I think it's because of the late hour. One of the guys who was going to bring the alcohol and shrooms cancelled due to work. A boy and girl did show up after I calmed down, and left after a few hours despite not doing much. The guy and his friend who brought the weed ended up leaving while I was showering because one of them had a kid and he didn't want there to be any risk to her, but I was still upset that he just kinda left in the middle of my high. He did call my friend's boyfriend a while later and asked how I was doing and he genuinely seemed glad that I was fine. Another friend, whom my boyfriend shared his apartment with, left to visit someone else, so for the remainder of the night it was just my friend, her boyfriend, and me.
Wow that was way longer than I expected it to be.
I don't like parties like that. Shrooms are not good..... Never done them, never will. I got drunk once and it was sort of a disaster. I have smoked weed but not excessively. :p I guess I've just never been the bad kid. My friends were tho, even though it bothered me.
That was the only time I'll ever smoke weed, to be sure. That was also a pretty bad night in general since someone said there were going to be violent protests in town over something political, and I instantly got worried about my mom getting hurt since it was said they were going to break windows and attack people and whatnot. I remember I tried calling her the next morning, only to call the wrong number since I was still high. Then I called the right number and got voicemail.
Of course it was just a rumor, the violent protests never actually happened.
Yeah. That's crazy though. Just a friendly suggestion- don't go to parties like that.
I have so many fanfics I have to finish writing...but I want to start a totally new Five Nights at Freddy's fanfic. What even is my life.
I do that too. My first
Complete
novel has been in publishing limbo for the past year and a half because I am distracted by the others I'm working on.
I usually dislike any fanfic I write anyway. It's a cycle: I think I have a good idea ---> Realize I'm the only person in the fandom with said idea -----> I write it, thinking everyone else will love it -----> It doesn't get very popular or not as popular as I wanted it to be -----> I always compare my fanfic to other better fanfics since I feel my ideas are too unorthodox for my fandoms -----> A downward spiral -----> Rinse and repeat every single time
It depends on the fandom. I'm a huge fan of trying to fill in the gaps left in a work, or doing stories about things I ship. I tend to do lots of AUs too. My most recent fanfic for example was a prequel about the game series Five Nights at Freddy's about the children. 
Cholera, huh? That is definitely not something I'd expect.
It makes sense in the fandom. It's about two half of ships I ship fighting over who's going to take care of the one person I ship them with. It's a parody of those other sick fics that have similar plots, but the person is sick with something like a cold. Since this fanfic takes place in the 1830's, I figured why not make it cholera.
1. ᗷOY SIᗪᕮ[x] You love hoodies.
[x] You love jeans.
[x] Dogs are better than cats.
[x] It’s hilarious when people get hurt.
[ ] Shopping is torture
[ ] Sad movies suck
[x] You own a car racing game
[x] You played with hot wheels cars as a kid.
[ ] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[x] You owned a ds, ps2, n64, or sega.
[ ] You used to be obsessed with power rangers.
[ ] You have watched sports on tv.
[x] Gory movies are cool.
[ ] You go to your dad for advice.
[ ] You own like a trillion baseball caps.
[ ] You used to collect hockey cards.
[ ] Baggy sweats are cool to wear.
[ ] It’s kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[ ] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[x] Sports are fun.
[ ] You talk with food in your mouth.
[x] You sleep with your socks on at night.
[x] You have fished at least once.
2. GIᖇᒪ SIᗪᕮ
[x] You love to shop.
[x] You wear eyeliner.
[x] You wear the color pink.
[x] You go to your mom to talk.
[x] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[x] You hate wearing the color black.
[x]You like going to the mall.
[x] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[x] You like wearing jewelry.
[ ] You cried watching the notebook
[x] Dresses are a big part of your wardrobe.
[x] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[ ] You don’t like the movie star wars.
[ ] You are/were in gymnastics.
[x] It takes you an hour to shower, get dressed, and make-up.
[x ] You smile a lot more than you should.
[x] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[x] You care about what you look like.
[ x] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[x] You like wearing high heel shoes.
[x] You used to play with dolls as little kid.
[x] You like putting make-up on others.
[x ] You like being the star of everything.
3. ᗩᑭᑭᕮᗩᖇᗩᑎᑕᕮ
[ ] I am taller than 5′5″.
[ ] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I’ve had/have braces.
[ ] I’ve been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than two piercings.
[ ] I have/had piercings in places besides my ears.
4. ᕮ᙭ᑭᕮᖇIᕮᑎᑕᕮS
[ ] I’ve gotten lost in my city.
[ ] I’ve seen a shooting star.
[ ] I’ve wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I’ve seen a meteor shower.
[ ] I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts.
[x] I’ve been to a casino.
[ ] I’ve been skydiving.
[ ] I’ve gone skinny-dipping.
[x] I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I’ve crashed a car.
[ ] I’ve been skiing.
[ ] I’ve been in a musical.
[x] I’ve caught a snowflake or snow on my tongue.
[ ] I’ve seen the northern lights.
[ ] I’ve sat on a rooftop at night.
[x] I’ve played a prank on someone.
[ ] I’ve ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I’ve seen the rocky horror picture show.
[x] I’ve eaten sushi.
[ ] I’ve been snowboarding.
5. ᖇᕮᒪᗩTIOᑎSᕼIᑭS
[ x] I’m single.
[ ] I’m in a relationship.
[ ] I’m engaged.
[ ] I’m married.
[ ] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I’ve gotten divorced.
[x] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
[ ] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
6. ᕼOᑎᕮSTY/ᑕᖇIᗰᕮ
[x] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
[x] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
[ ] I’ve snuck out
[x] I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I’ve cheated while playing a game.
[ ] I’ve ran a red light.
[x] I’ve witnessed a crime.
[ ] I’ve been in a fist fight.
[ ] I’ve been arrested.
7. ᗪᕮᗩTᕼ ᗩᑎᗪ SᑌIᑕIᗪᕮ
[x] I’m afraid of dying.
[ ] I hate funerals.
[ ] I’ve seen someone/something dying.
[ ] Someone close to me has attempted/committed suicide.
[x] I’ve planned my own suicide before.
[ ] I’ve written a eulogy for myself.
8. ᖇᗩᑎᗪOᗰ
[ ] I can sing well
[ ] Stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I don’t kill bugs.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[x] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for a cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair.
[x] I care about grammar.
[ ] I have “?”’s in my screen name.
[ ] I’ve copied more than 30 cd’s in a day.
[ ] I bake well.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red, blue, black, purple, or orange.
[ ] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes 'cause they’re funny
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I’ve not turned anything in and still got an a in a certain class.
[x] I can’t sleep if there is a spider/cockroach in the room.
[x] I am ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate.
[ ] I bite my nails.
[x] I’m good at remembering faces.
[x] I’m good at remembering names.
[x] I’m good at remembering dates.
[x] I honestly have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] All my answers were totally honest.
(stolen & slightly changed from Hart)
Fanfics I Still Need to Do: Hetalia
Eating disorder fanfic
Gakuen Hetalia fanfic
Hidden Object-based fanfic
Central Asian party fanfic
England's party
Brexit fanfic?
RPG fanfic
1920's Lithuania/America fanfic
Hungary/Belgium fanfic
Genderswapped Lithuania/Russia fanfic set in the Russian Empire
Chess Empires fanfic
RusLiet fanfic
Bleach
Vizard fanfic
Daycare fanfic
Shopping fanfic
Hunger Games crossover
How they died fanfic?
Prequel of how the Quincy girls joined the enemy?
Sailor Moon
Uranus/Neptune prequel fanfic
AU about Chibi Moon and Saturn
Continue the future fanfic with Sailor Moon?
Prequel set during the Silver Millennium
American Girl
Series that takes place ten years after their books end
Dear America
Lucy Faye-War of 1812
Ruta Malis-Lithuanian Immigrant to Bloomington in the 1920's
A girl who lives in Jackson Mississippi during the Civil Rights Movement
Another girl who lives in New Orleans during a cholera epidemic
Ever After High/Monster High
Treasure hunt between Vanadala Dubloons and Sirena von Boo
Theory that Alistar Wonderland and Madeline Hatter are half-siblings
Five Nights at Freddy's
Prequel about Purple Guy's children?
Sister Location fanfic about the three girl animatronics dragging Funtime Freddy around everywhere to do girly things
Finish the one about a female nightguard
ᑭᙓᖇSOᑎᗩᒪ SᙀᖇᐯᙓY TIᙏᙓ!Rules: Yes or No answers. 1-2 sentence answers allowed.
1. Do you currently have feelings for anybody? No.
2. Do you think you’ve changed over the past year? Oh yeah.
3. Are you currently looking forward to anything? Going to the library on Thursday!
4. What jacket did you wear last? A tight dark purple hoodie with triangular patterns on it.
5. Are you ticklish? Yes. 0_0
6. Are you wearing something that belongs to someone else? My pajamas right now are a pair my best friend outgrew and gave to me.
7. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? I hope.
8. Have you ever liked someone older than you? Yes.
9. Will this weekend be a good one? Probably not.
10. Does anybody have a tattoo with your name on it? No.
11. Do you like your life as of now? A little.
12. Are you mad at anyone? Who? Not currently.
13. Are you okay? Right now I am.
14. Has anyone ever told you they want to be with you forever? No.
15. Do you find the opposite sex confusing? Not really.
16. Are there certain things that can’t be joked about with you? Yeah, genocides and really horrible murders/rapes. Like child murders.
17. Is your hair longer than your shoulders? A little.
18. Buy anything lately? Breakfast for my brothers and I.
19. Have you realized anything lately? I need to stop getting into dead fandoms.
20. Have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced? Ewww, no!
21. Do you know how to use chopsticks? Yup!
22. Who was the last person you couldn’t take your eyes off of? Not sure.
23. Do you think its right for straight guys to get their tongue pierced?
Yeah, why wouldn't it be?
24. Do you dream in black and white? Sometimes.
25. How are you? I have a headache.
26. Are you named after one of your parents or grandparents?
Yup! My first middle name, Faye, comes from my dad's mom's first name. My second name, Ruth, comes from Mom's great-grandmother, who is in Heaven now, bless her heart.
27. If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you? Yes!
28. Do you usually tell people when you’re mad at them? Depends on how angry I am.
29. Do you miss anyone? My best friend.
30. What is stressing you out most right now? I only have a few days to use my brother's school laptop before school ends! And then I'll barely have time to use the Internet or play any games!
31. Are you waiting for a phone call? Nope.
32. Was there anyone who “made your day”? No. If there was I don't remember.
33. Do you even believe in love? Yeah.
34. Did you talk to anyone you didn’t like today? Nope.
35. Are you a very stressed out person? Yes! But I try not to be!
36. Are you single? Yes.
37. Are you afraid of the dark? I'm afraid of everything that comes out at night.
38. Would you pay someone to kill the last person who hurt you a lot? Maybe....
39. Are you a couple with the last person you kissed on the lips? Nope.
40. Looking back, did you ever think you would be where you’re at in life now? Not at all.
41. Is there anyone getting on your nerves at the moment? No.
42. Are you a jealous person? Yes, everyone is better than me.
43. Do you remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed? Never kissed anyone.
44. Last place you fell asleep other than your bed? I fell asleep on a computer at the library a few weeks ago.
45. What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? It's so stupid that people think the little boy in FNaF 4 is Purple Guy's son, like just because he has something purple in his room. Like is that even evidence?!
46. Is anyone else in the room with you? No.
47. What time did you go to bed last night? Why? Noon because I'm trash and can't fix my sleeping schedule when I say I will.
48. What will you do after this? Help Mom get my brothers ready for school.
49. Do you tend to get in fights? Nope.
50. Did you have a good day today? The day just started!
51. Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? Christian, my baby brother
52. Is anyone protective over you? Dad used to be....
53. Do you correct people when they make spelling mistakes on the internet? Yup.
54. Does your bedroom have a door? Yeah.
55. Where’s the closest hoodie to you right now? Hanging up in my 'closet'.
56. How many people do you know of named Adam? Four.
57. How about Jessica’s? used to know one.
58. What was the last thing you burnt? Mac and cheese.
59. Are you currently in a relationship? Nope.
60. Do you smoke/ do any drugs? I smoked weed once.
61. How old will you be on your next birthday? 20
62. Do you usually apologize first? Depends.
63. What are your plans for tomorrow? Exactly what I'm doing now.
64. How many pillows are on your bed? Two
65. What are you craving at the moment? Mom's chocolate-chip cookies.
66. Are you in a good mood right now? I'm decent.
67. Is there someone who has made a difference in your life? Probably.
68. Are you dating the last person who text you? No.
69. Would you rather have your parents catch you having sex or smoking weed? Smoking weed.
70. Is there a person of the opposite sex that you care about? No.
71. Last person you rode in a car with under the age of 20? Back in February when I was riding with my best friend to her boyfriend's house.
72. What is the next concert you’re going to? Haha I wish I could go to concerts.
73. Does it bother you when your friends bring up your past mistakes? Not really.
74. What were you doing at 8:00 this morning? It's six am here....
75. Do you wish you were anywhere other than where you are now? I wanna be in school.
76. Do you know anyone named Joshua? Nope.
77. Will you be in a relationship in 4 months? Probably not.
78. Do you think two people can last forever? Yeah.
79. Would you put yesterday on repeat and live it forever? Not really.
80. Do you know anyone with such a terribly annoying voice that you can’t even stand? They're on the Internet.
81. What do you currently hear right now? All Star by Smash Mouth, cars and birds outside.
82. Did you have any unread text messages when you woke up today? I don't think so.
83. In your opinion which is the stronger emotion: love or hate? Love can do some powerful things....but so can hate.
84. Do you ever think about the past? Yeah.
85. Do you believe ex’s can be friends? Yup.
86. What’re you wearing right now? A frilly spaghetti-strap camisole with a pink flower pattern, matching short-shorts with pockets, AKA my pajamas.
87. What were you doing when you found out Alan Rickman was dead? I don't remember....
88. Are you short? I'm 5'2....so probably.
89. Does anyone hate you? Probably.
Elizabeth♛ Smart Girls Love Trashy Books♛ wrote: "I feel really lonely and I don't know why...I want to be given stuff by my friends and collaborate on stories with them. I want people to remember my birthday and I want to see all of my friends an..."I wish so badly I could just reach out and give you a real hug. I know we're friends here, but having friends in person is a wonderful feeling I wish I could give you.
Dude I feel better now :P I posted that like four hours ago or something.
Well pardon me for being asleep at 2:am when I have somewhere to be at 8:30 this morning and I wanted to comfort you :p
I have other stuff on here now :P
I was reading your Q&A and I saw "70. Is there a person of the opposite sex that you care about? No."\Well gee, thanks :p
Also, you're not going to be able to be on as much?! ;(
I care about you :P I don't know yet....probably not...and if I am on it'll be in the mornings/afternoons.
Aww yay! I care about you too. You're an awesome girl :)Ah okay. Well I'm going to be trapped in the house for the next 2-3 months so that's not an issue :p
I told my best friend I was feeling lonely and she said I could maybe have another sleepover at her house!
Yay! *Claps with excitement for you*
Ugh! I keep losing power and dying on Night 4 in the first Five Nights at Freddy's. I had a plan to beat all five games in a week, but at this rate I'll never do that...
Have you beat it before?
I gots to go very soon. Not sure when I'll be back but it won't take too too long.
Nope, I haven't beaten any of them before. But I figured they wouldn't take very long to beat in a week. Like Sister Location, which is the only one with an actual plot, only takes about an hour to finish if you do all the endings.
So how do you know all this about them if you've never beaten one? Let's Plays?
You dare question my knowledge? :P I'm so excited to play Sister Location, it has three female animatronics in it and only one male one. I can totally see the three girls dressing the guy up and forcing him to do stuff like have tea parties and dance with them haha. That entire game is dripping in estrogen-even the main character loves soap operas and he's a guy!
All I wanna know is how you know this stuff :p
Let's Players and the wiki :P As well as experience. Also I beat the fourth night!! Gonna try beating the fifth night now. Don't know if I'm going to try beating the extra nights this week or not....they're a lot harder and there's way too many of them in each game. But you kinda have to play the extra nights in the third and fourth games....hmm...
Ah.Yay! *Applauds* Good luck with the fifth night!
It started out as such an easy night....Foxy didn't come out, Freddy barely moved....and then by 3 AM...it all went to Hell....and I lost my power....
I'm gonna try again! I made it to 5 AM in that night, I just know I can get it by my second try!
Good luck!
Fanart of My Faves Part 5: Elizabeth:
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Ciel:
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Joanne:
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Book of the Atlantic:
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I also like Elizabeth's older brother, Edward, and Doll, who is a circus performer who has the hots for Ciel, but it's hard to find fanart of them...and I also love Alois, but he's only in the anime.
Awesome!Elizabeth looks beautiful.
Poor Funtime Freddy is the only boy...haha.. 
Humanized Funtime Freddy and Ballora.
Hunter (Totally NOT a communist ☭) wrote: "Awesome!Elizabeth looks beautiful."
She's amazing! But everyone else in the fandom thinks she's weak and useless and a b*tch....and they also hate how she's engaged to Ciel...
Elizabeth♛ Smart Girls Love Trashy Books♛ wrote: "More FNaF: Sister Location fanart: Poor Funtime Freddy is the only boy...haha..
Humanized Funtime Freddy and Ballora. "
Wow. The time people take to make such things is astounding. It's so cool they have things they're so passionate about they take time to draw pictures based on it!
Elizabeth♛ Smart Girls Love Trashy Books♛ wrote: "Hunter (Totally NOT a communist ☭) wrote: "Awesome!Elizabeth looks beautiful."
She's amazing! But everyone else in the fandom thinks she's weak and useless and a b*tch....and they also hate how ..."
Well...is she weak and useless?
So a shipping war is happening? :D
Of course she's not! She ACTS that way so Ciel isn't scared of her, but in reality she's a badass fighter and way older than Ciel! Dude don't get me started on the stupid Ciel/Sebastian and Ciel/Lizzy ship wars. >.< Like Ciel/Sebastian isn't even a thing anyway...not like Ciel/Lizzy is. Ciel hasn't saved Sebastian's life numerous times, for starters.
Ohhh. Well as someone who has not consumed material from this fandom I did not know that :pShipping wars are fun yet frustrating at the same time. More fun when you grab popcorn and watch them go at it :D
I hate them SO much. In Black Butler, it's Ciel/Lizzy VS Ciel/Sebastian. In Bleach, it's Ichigo/Rukia and Ichigo/Orihime. Even though Ichigo and Orihime got married and had a kid at the end, people STILL fight!! In Hetalia, it depends on who you ship....I was a part of some particularly violent ones between the Lithuania/Poland shippers and the Lithuania/Russia shippers because I just HAPPENED to ship BOTH of them.
it's personal
Books mentioned in this topic
The Kingdom of Little Wounds (other topics)Anastasia's Secret (other topics)
The Crown's Game (other topics)
Cinder (other topics)
Mechanica (other topics)
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If I've learned anything, life changes and people move on without us sometimes. We just have to take our own path instead of trying to compromise and keep up. (sorry for the philosophical mumbo jumbo :p)
Sorry you're feeling lonely. That's my #1 reason why I hate online friends (or I guess what I hate about them): They are too far away to feel less lonely most of the time.