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Elizabeth ♛Smart Girls Love Trashy Books♛
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Mar 09, 2018 11:49AM
Mine? It's either two weeks or three. I know for a fact it's not a week though because the college kids are already on their break.
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Yeah, a lot of colleges are having theirs this week, but I don't see why they would get more than a week.
I don't know....maybe it has to do with all the transfer students? Like if they come from other states/countries they might want more time to visit family members.
I threw up again. It was painless yet my nose is running and I have tears in my eyes-not from crying but just from the act of vomiting itself. My throat and mouth feel like that weird feeling you always get in your throat/mouth after puking. I can tell my breath stinks from it and I'm going to brush my teeth. I had a hard time identifying what it was this time.
It was all liquid though. Dark green, which was undeniably bile again. Some light yellow bits I think came from my cereal. And then a bunch of dark brown liquid that I could tell was from the sandwich I ate for lunch because it was the color of roast beef and it tasted/smelled just like roast beef. Actually all of my vomit smelled like roast beef, even the bile part.
I feel so much better after vomiting and yet I feel disgusted by that fact. Why do I feel better? I'm not even sick, I know I'm not sick, I didn't eat anything bad; nor is this from my lactose intolerance.
Maybe my digestive problems are a lot worse than I originally thought....ever since 2015 I've been having a lot of problems with puking and stomach pain for pretty much no reason and sometimes it affects how I do things.
I asked Mom if something was wrong with me and what I should do, not in a panicky way but in a legit curious 'what should I do kind of way' and she kept saying 'I don't know' and trying to make me leave the kitchen and she said she was listening but I honestly feel like she wasn't...
I don't think I've ever written an emetophilia fanfic. I've written lots of fanfics where people vomit, in fact I think it happens in every single fanfic I've ever written ever, but it wasn't the focus of the story. It was just something that happened. I've always wanted to write a good emetophilia fanfic. A lot of my fandoms are lacking in that sort of stuff for people who are into it and honestly I want to experiment about writing about a new fetish. But I always seem to have a problem expanding it into an actual fanfic. I'm not saying it has to be novel-length but I want more than just a few sentences and sometimes I feel like that's all I can come up with.
I think the problem is how quickly you throw up. There's not really a lot of build-up to it. Sometimes you can throw up without even feeling the tiniest bit sick. And the whole point of it is the build-up. I also feel like there's not a lot of scenarios to do for vomit. Like when you take away the usual 'character has a stomach bug' plot what's left? They eat too much, they get really nervous, they get motion-sick, they ride on a ride they can't handle, I don't know what else is there?
Maybe I'm just too inexperienced to deal with this. I have read a few emetophilia fanfics to give myself ideas but I don't know they don't really inspire me...
I feel pain in my side and a bubbly sensation in my throat again....You know what that means.....
In a few hours I'm going to throw up again
I'm going to the library tomorrow! They're doing something called 'Saturday Morning Cereal' that starts when the library opens at 10 AM and ends at 1 PM and it's to relive the glory days of the 80's and 90's by watching Saturday morning cartoons from those years and playing old video games on old systems like the Sega Saturn. I really hope they have 80's and 90's cereal/breakfast stuff to really complete the experience! I'd want old commercials to watch too but Mom says those are super hard to find so I guess not. But the idea itself sounds like fun and that's why I'm going.
Slaughtered Vomit Dolls is part of the Vomit Gore Trilogy and was followed by two sequels: ReGOREgitated Sacrifice (2008) and Slow Torture Puke Chamber (2010). A fourth "Vomit Gore" film - titled Vomit Gore 4: Black Mass of the Nazi Sex Wizard - was released in 2015.Me: Did you mean Black Butler?
I got so excited when I saw what time it was until I woke up and realized everything's one hour ahead.
There's an anime on Netflix I've been meaning to watch because it's one of those animes that has that animation aesthetic I like where the actual animation style is really beautiful or aesthetic but the characters makes these super grotesque, over-the-top reactions that screw up the animation style and makes them look really strange. Gainex's animes do it, DanganRonpa does it, Black Butler does it, Code;Realize does it, Bludgeoning Angel Dokuro-chan does it, Boku no Tomodachi does it, etc. Usually the villains do it, for obvious reasons, but there's a few characters that are main characters that make faces like that usually for comedic reasons.
Elizabeth ♛Smart Girls Love Trashy Books♛ wrote: "I got so excited when I saw what time it was until I woke up and realized everything's one hour ahead."I woke up close to 10...was not happy.
Elizabeth ♛Smart Girls Love Trashy Books♛ wrote: "There's an anime on Netflix I've been meaning to watch because it's one of those animes that has that animation aesthetic I like where the actual animation style is really beautiful or aesthetic bu..."Can you post a picture of these faces? Anime makes so many faces it's hard to tell really :p
I woke up at 1:30 but thought I woke up at 12:30 and thought I had time to go to the library today....nope
I can try to find a good one. I imagine they'd be hard to find though because who would spend their time screenshotting something like that? Lol
I know they suck....I tried my best to find good examples but I knew they'd be hard to find lol
There was actually a really good picture of Finis from Code;Realize that perfectly summed up what I was talking about but I wasn't able to find it so RIP me I guess lol
You've also never seen anything like the anime it comes from lol I actually don't really recommend that anime to people since it's an acquired taste. You need to already enjoy shows like that before I suggest it. I wouldn't recommend it to someone who doesn't like shows like that or is just starting to watch anime even though it's fairly short simply because I feel like you need to know you're going to enjoy stuff like that.
Chaotic Neutral is the best alignment ever and I'm not just saying that because I am that alignment Or am I?
Mom: "Just think, in a few years everyone will be excited for your newest books. They'll be saying 'I want to read her book now!'" Me: "That'll never happen. My books aren't that good. I'm going to end up being one of those authors that writes something that I find really beautiful and different and unique and everyone else will disagree and say it's disjointed, messy, pointless, stupid, and say the characters are terrible and unrelatable. Just like they say about every other book I've loved immensely....because I model my writing after those books,"
Mom: "But it's not like everybody hates those books, right? They were given a chance by a few people.Just remember that. Even if the majority of people think that about your writing, there will always be that small minority that loves what you've created and want to see more of it. Honestly, I thought you of all people would know that,"
*sees all of the retellings of Les Mis coming out in the next few years* *is not sure whether to be intimidated or proud*
Mom keeps telling me about that time she used the Internet while I was out shopping and how I left open the Tumblr tag I was looking at and what she saw and now she keeps saying: "Who is making my innocent cinnamon roll sin? Don't let him sin! And I'm like you hashtag that sister!"
I told Mom I don't want to ship abusive ships and she said I must love them because my ship from Diabolik Lovers is really abusive and I couldn't even defend myself so I guess my trigger is fucking fake because damn she's right
She's got a point, I can't hate abusive ships and be triggered by abuse if I ship one. Like I literally can't defend my reasoning for it. The only thing I came up with was 'well after a while he becomes nicer and doesn't abuse her anymore' which is true but still.
You don't have to be okay with something to be interested in it in a fictional standpoint. In my game I break into people's homes, rob them in their face then murder them for money. I'd be absolutely horrified if that were to happen in real life.
Other people with triggers avoid them in fiction though. They say it doesn't matter that it's fictional, seeing it still triggers them. And fictional accounts of abuse do hurt me. There's a reason I won't RP it. RP is still fictional. But I still ship an abusive ship when I avoid all other ones like crazy. I must not have a trigger if that's the case.
Well like I said, after a while he stops being abusive to her. But that's not until the last game and even then he's still a spoiled brat. And that doesn't excuse his awful behavior in literally every game before that.
It's Spring Break so I can tell this story again A few years ago in like 2015 or something there was a large outbreak of meningitis and there were even some cases in America. My first day back to school after the break my neck was extremely sore to the point I couldn't move it properly. I automatically thought I had the disease but kept it to myself.
.....The next day my neck was perfectly fine and I realized I must've just slept on it wrong.
I threw up Wendy's.... It was orangish-brown and really bubbly. There were small chunks in it but not a lot; the actual vomit was liquidy. It was a tiny bit painful but no excessive. I got tears in my eyes from the effort. It tasted and smelled like chicken nuggets and a cheeseburger.
Waste of four dollars....
You really ought to see a doctor. It's not healthy to throw up so often, there might be something seriously wrong with your stomach.
Mom scolded me for coming home from the library so early but the reason why I came home so early was because of how sick I felt. And now I'm upset I even threw it up because that was going to be the only meal I ate today and now it's literally gone, so I'm stuck eating more noodles which make me feel sick too.
I actually felt sick at the restaurant and almost threw up there. I made myself finish the food though aside from the French fries-I took those home and still have them.
☣ ᕮɱƿՐ૯ςς S૯Րค ☣ wrote: "You really ought to see a doctor. It's not healthy to throw up so often, there might be something seriously wrong with your stomach."Mom said it's probably my gallbladder because she had a lot of stomach pain and nausea until she got it removed. I don't know if it's my gallbladder or not because I don't remember her throwing up so much.
Even if it's not your gallbladder, you should get it checked out. No offense to her, but your mother isn't a doctor. A professional could help you stop throwing up all the time.
Well you're clearly not healthy, so even if you're misdiagnosed, you have a better chance of getting help. All you have right now is your mother's uninformed guess of a gallbladder issue.
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