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gentle remindergentle-reminder:
if you are a creator: it doesn’t matter that there are a lot of other people in the area you’re interested in, you are not less talented than them, it also doesn’t mean that you have no place there, creativity is not a competition - there are billions of stars and flowers but not a single one of them doubt their right to be among others, they just shine and bloom in their own unique way, so please try your best to let yourself shine and bloom; there are people who need that thing that only you can offer and one of them is you, there are people who will love your creations, so please, whenever you’re able, try your best to not doubt yourself and your abilities
There was lots of gay stuff on my Tumblr dash today. That made me, a gay, very happy.
Elizabeth ♛Smart Girls Love Trashy Books♛ wrote: "gentle remindergentle-reminder:
if you are a creator: it doesn’t matter that there are a lot of other people in the area you’re interested in, you are not less talented than them, it also doesn..."
That's beautiful.
I don't know, I still feel like my fandoms don't need me to contribute to them since I've added literally nothing new.
I told my mom that I feel a spiritual connection to that 'why is the fbi here' meme because I feel like one of these days she's going to ask me that when I'm playing a dating simulator lol
HahaWHat meme?
Basically the meme is some guy watching stuff on his computer when the FBI break into his house; it's from a movie. But the meme is replacing what he's watching with something like a little anime girl changing or something.
I have a lot of material so I was thinking of making one lol Like that scene from Jewelic Nightmare where that fourteen-year-old boy makes out with her and says: "Wow big sister, you're such a good kisser!~ Do you have a boyfriend I don't know about?~" Or that scene from Noragami when Yukine tries to undress Hiyori while they sleep together lol
Our WiFi has been broken since yesterday morning because of the cable company....ugh.....
I feel so sick. Like literally. I keep feeling like I'm going to throw up but I reallllly don't want to vomit. Not here. Please don't let me vomit in here.....
Mom got invited to a birthday party and says I can come with her. Should I go? Or should I not? I want to go because it's a little kid's birthday and I love being around little kids, but I also want to stay at the library so I can use the computer. The party starts at one.
Someone made a mashup of a decade of pop showing hit songs from 2008-2018 and I felt personally attacked as I watched my life from 2008 to now flash by my eyes lol
I annoyed my parents so much because I would do nothing but sing those songs over and over and I had no idea half of them were even popular, I just found them on AMVs. And a lot of them I heard on the school bus because we could listen to the radio. And when Dad found out I was obsessed with Kesha he tried to prevent me from listening to her music because he thought she was a bad influence on me. My mom and I used to watch the top twenty songs of the week on TV when I was younger. She would play Taylor Swift for me when she did my hair when I was in fifth-sixth grade because I liked her songs and that was when Mom started to get into her too.
I'm so bored.....I should've just gone to that birthday party. I wouldn't have been bored there.
I didn't see your message until after 1 so I figure my thoughts wouldn't have mattered by that point.
Would you have told me to go or something?
I would have said to go and there'd be time for the computer later. WHo knows when you'd have another chance to go out to a party you might enjoy? But now it doesn't matter *Shrugs*
I lost track of time anyway. When I looked up it was already 12:25 and I didn't think I could make it in time. So it doesn't matter. Whatever.
I should actually get something done today since I'm here since that's why I came here. But I don't know which one of my fanfics to finish.
Someone used Firefox without my permission and erased my previous session.....now everything I had worked on is gone and a lot of that stuff I can never get back......it's all gone....
I should've known there was a catch when Mom said she fixed the WiFi. There's always a catch.....bet it was my bad karma for being a bitch this morning. Well look at me universe, I'm suffering for this hardcore, you happy?
I don't care anymore. Yes I'm still annoyed, but I don't want to waste my time angry at a stupid thing. I don't care about my tabs anymore. If I need one again, then I'll go find it. I don't want to deal with that anymore.
Mom asked me if the next time we go to McDonald's if I want to get a Happy Meal and I asked her why in confusion. And she said since I usually feel sick after eating a lot of it, she thought portion size would help me a lot since Happy Meals are small. I told her I'd think about it. I'm really embarrassed that my digestion is so weak....but on the other hand I'm strangely happy that she said that? Because she usually thinks I'm lying or overexaggerating how much pain I'm in after eating even if I throw up(sometimes I throw up after eating McDonald's) The fact she offered to do this for me really weirdly means a lot. It means she was actually thinking about my health for once and not brushing aside my concerns.
That is rather OOC for your mom...but good nonetheless. Maybe she's finally realizing you're serious about all this?
'ooc for my mom' that just sounds weird to me lol I guess? But this is something that I've been struggling with for a while now. It's not like I just started having this problem last week or something. I think about 35% of everything I've eaten in the past two years I've vomited. That's just the last two years too. And not counting the times I was actually legit sick with something.
Well I'm not wrong, am I? :pYeah. But I remember you've said she thinks you fake/exaggerate it...maybe she's changing her mind now?
I guess. Maybe last year made her realize something. This time last year I went through a weird spell where I literally couldn't eat anything because my stomach hurt so bad. I could barely move. Then a few weeks after that I couldn't stop puking for several days. I was terrified and kept begging Mom to take me to the hospital but she told me I would be fine. I mean, I was fine, but that's not the point.
I regret focusing this fanfic on the character I picked because at first I thought 'I love this character so much I can't wait to see what this arc was like from his point of view' but then it very slowly dawned on me that I was going to have to write about him wetting himself from fear and being the victim of a laxative prank from his perspective and I so don't want to do that but I've literally dug my grave so far now that the only thing left to do is just keep going down
This keyboard literally just broke....
I've been feeling extremely nauseous and sick these past few days. I hope nothing is seriously wrong with me. I'm having trouble even eating because of how much my stomach hurts.
I want to see a book about someone in the Russian Empire who's half-Russian half-something else. Authors are always looking for some kind of conflict like that in their books and I think it'd be an interesting conflict, and it was an actual conflict. There were lots of children who were born from Russian solders and people like that in the Russian Empire to women from all different nations. That's one of the reasons a lot of people in those countries are light-skinned. Of course in the Russian Empire those children faced a lot of prejudice even if they were like half-Lithuanian or something because in Russian society they were too 'ethnic' and in their own society they were considered to be too 'Russian' and thus they were often ignored by both of their societies. That's one of the things I liked the most about Crystal Kingdom of the Clouds. One of the main characters was half-Russian and despite having lots of brothers and a loving mother, her father was still a random Russian soldier who was passing by and she's outcast even at school because she has dark features but vibrant blonde hair which labels her as being an outcast. She's not even in the story very much but her struggle is still very realistic. She does everything she can to be seen as 100% Russian in her government's eyes, going so far as to betray her friends at the end of the book because she was told by the military if she did that, she'd be seen as an actual citizen. She ended up being one of my favourite characters from that series because of her struggle and they did a very good job of portraying how a person like that would've been treated in Russian society back then.
A book coming out next year is described as having a dark-skinned main character in the Russian Empire and it's supposed to explore prejudices about such things and I'm reallllly hoping the author goes down that same route and makes her half-Russian and half-Central Asian or half-Caucasian to really demonstrate the idea of prejudice better. Because what's the point of making her half-Indian or whatever? It would make no sense in the context of the story.
That's just how I see it, though. I'm probably going to end up being disappointed in that book anyway.
I am dreading getting the laptop back today, even if it's just a replacement.
Mom said she purposefully gave me really bad ideas for my characters Hanako, Kai, and Lavender in the hopes I would stop asking her for ideas. I told her she doesn't understand the point; I ask her for ideas because I have no other ideas and I always use her ideas because even if I don't like them, they're better than having no ideas at all.
Mom says I likely feel so much stomach pain and vomit a lot because I have a bad gallbladder and should look into getting it removed. She had hers surgically removed several years ago and felt a million times better for it. But I don't really want my gallbladder removed....
Any long term reasons or you mostly just dont want to go through that process?
Mostly the latter, although I read you can't eat a lot of junk food without your gallbladder. Mom says you can but she barely eats any kind of junk/processed food so I don't really want to take her word for it.
I'm still worried about the fact historical fiction seems to be a dead genera for all age groups. That's pretty much all I write and I'm worried nobody will read it because of that. Well technically I write fairy-tale retellings in different time periods. So I'm hoping that along with the different cultures I write about will be more appealing than the fact it's also historical fiction.
I'd read historical fiction about almost any time period. The only setting I can really think.of I wouldn't try reading would be like.pioneers and Industrial Revolution specific. If it's set in that time but not about the Industiral Revolution then I might.
I also have a friend who I believe really enjoys HF.
Just two people enjoying it doesn't mean anything. By a dead genera I mean very few books, if any, are coming out in that genera. We really need a super popular book to revive the genera. It went through a revival a few years ago but then very quickly died out again.
I threw up. Threw up twice into the toilet bowl. It was all just bile, I didn't throw up any food; I didn't taste nor see any remains of what I ate today. I had been feeling sick and awful all day today but after the bile vomit I literally feel like a new person. Whatever was wrong with me is clearly gone now. This isn't the first time I've thrown up just bile and felt better, by the way. It happens to me quite a lot. The vomit is often really painless too, unlike regular vomit. It smells absolutely awful, probably moreso than regular vomit. It doesn't taste that bad though.
Maybe Mom's right and I really do have a problem with my gallbladder.....
I was listening to a remix of Or Nah while playing Disney Princess games and Mom said that perfectly sums up my two sides lol
What's Or Nah?
A song about having sex that's so explicit the clean version cuts out like 98% of the lyrics or something lol
I mean, the first lyrics in it are 'do you like the way i flick my tongue or nah
you can ride my face until you're dripping cum
can you let me stretch that pussy out or nah
can you lick the tip then throat the dick or nah'
I think that sums up your sides, yes :pDoes the clean version change all the lyrics or blurt them out so it sounds weird?
It blurs them out which makes it even funnier. What I'm not that dirty lol
I'm glad they didn't change the lyrics though, I'm still laughing at 'cookie put his butt to sleep now he's calling me NyQuil' from the clean version of Anaconda
Lol what is this guy even talking about
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I WAS TRYING TO LISTEN TO A SCENE FROM DIABOLIK LOVERS WITH KOU IN IT
AND IN DIABOLIK LOVERS THE VOICE ACTORS ARE GIVEN A SPECIAL DIRECTION TO WHISPER SOME OF THEIR SEDUCTIVE/THREATENING LINES IN YOUR EARS AND THAT BOTHERS ME BECAUSE IT MAKES ME FEEL MOLESTED
AND I HAD NO IDEA THIS TRACK HAD WHISPERING IN IT SO I HEAR HIM SUDDENLY WHISPER IN MY RIGHT EAR AND I THOUGHT SOMEONE HAD SNUCK UP ON ME AND WAS DOING IT
SO I SCREAMED SUPER LOUDLY AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS ONLY TO REALIZE IT WAS JUST THE AUDIO
I'M SO EMBARRASSED....