it's personal discussion
300+ views
>
A Solivagant on the Inselberg
message 25151:
by
Hallie
(new)
Dec 08, 2021 05:07AM
Not the ortho saying, "She's celebrating. She's partying tonight," when I told them that I didn't go to uni today (hey, they asked!)
reply
|
flag
I've been thinking and I spent more than half of uni life with braces. Like no kidding. I'm supposed to graduate in about 6 or 7 months (depends on whether or not COVID has any mercy), so I had them on for 5 semesters because this one is almost over anyway.
Hallie wrote: "My teeth are officially out of prison :)"CONGRATS!!! how does it feel??
edge wrote: "Hallie wrote: "My teeth are officially out of prison :)"CONGRATS!!! how does it feel??"
Thanks! It feels super weird. I don't even remember how to eat like a normal person xD
I texted someone at 11 PM to tell him I got it off, and his response was legit, "Now you don't have to worry about giving me blowjobs."
Sometimes, people on the internet are just weird as fuck.
I just got my retainers and they are making me gag.
Hallie wrote: "I texted someone at 11 PM to tell him I got it off, and his response was legit, "Now you don't have to worry about giving me blowjobs.""I am not giving you one because I'm most likely going to puke.
Him: Babe, that only happens when you deepthroat.
Um... You underestimate my gag reflex.
Also, what do you call a person you don't want to date but have a sort of emotional and perhaps slightly sexual relationship?
Law is hard. People in law school have my respect (except S. I mean, she has my respect, but I'm still going to pretend she doesn't).
I have an important exam this weekend (actually, divided in parts on Thursday and Sunday), and everyone except me thinks I'll do great. I'm really worried, though, and it's stressing me out.
I swear I heard someone say my name in class followed by, "But Hallie doesn't know.." I wonder what it was about.
I've been sick for weeks, and I continue to be sick because I simply don't feel like living. It's one of the worst feelings ever.
I messed up my exam. My life is ruined. I'm off to cry and die right now. Thank you. Goodbye.
"Blah blah blah so it's stressing me out.""Relax babe."
No shit Sherlock -_-
I cannot believe I am spending Christmas swamped with work and haunted by the thoughts of inevitable failure and intrusion.
This last week of 2021 is absolutely terrible. So much happened and I've felt so bad that I cried in public, but it's just been so bad.
Started the New Year crying :) Spent the rest of New Year's Day crying :) Headache from crying instead of drinking :) Life is great :)
My senior (who graduated last year) has sent me a request on Instagram twice. Once from his side account and now from his main one. I've legit never met this guy and I've only spoken to him once on Twitter, so I initially declined cause I'm that lame. Now I'm not sure what to do xD I used keep getting recommendations of his memes page (which I lowkey love but refuse to follow because I have no self-esteem), so Instagram certainly thinks I should be friends with him. Never seen him. Ever. HR knows him quite well and I think all the popular people in my classes do, too, but my popularity is due to grades, so do not know him.
Also, it's so wild how I'll be graduating uni this year. Like damn, Hallie, you're most likely getting that degree in English Lit after all.
So far, 2022 has been absolute shit. All the people I like are going through hell and I have no idea how to help them, making me feel guilty. I don't think I'm going to get into the Master's programmes I want to do (Goldmsith's rejected me, and I'm so upset I haven't even told anyone). Kinda considering applying to Australia, too, but I doubt that'll work out. My family has been awful and I was really counting on Master's to get out of this household... I'm not great.
Also, it's P's birthday but my salty ass refuses to wish her. It's probably stupid, but I can remember people's birthdays pretty well and the past two years, I got her gifts. But this year, I'm not even going to bother talking to her (even though she got hit by a truck last year and whatnot), and N is asking whether I did. "Hallie, please stop being stubborn and cut her some slack. It's her birthday." "Fuck that."
Hallie wrote: "Also, it's so wild how I'll be graduating uni this year. Like damn, Hallie, you're most likely getting that degree in English Lit after all."whatttt congratulations hallie!!!!
edge wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Also, it's so wild how I'll be graduating uni this year. Like damn, Hallie, you're most likely getting that degree in English Lit after all."whatttt congratulations hallie!!!!"
Haha thanks! Still a semester away, but yeah xD
New update of my pathetic life. I might have COVID. The store ran out of home tests and I don't really have major symptoms yet, but my dad may or may not have given it to me :( And I have finals... (Also, dad refuses to take a test as well as medication. He has asthma but surprisingly, he is doing wayyy better than everyone feared. So is it not COVID? Symptoms are pretty much the same. Besides, my mum started showing symptoms today and I feel like I'm developing a cold. We're all fully vaccinated, though.)Other than that, I have an interview for Westminster tomorrow and I'm internally freaking out. I don't have a good feeling. My application was actually deferred, so I'm worried. Also, still awaiting an LOR from my Journalism HOD to apply to City and Birkbeck. I really wish he would send it and end my anguish.
Please, prof! I'm worried the spots will be filled up.
Hallie wrote: "New update of my pathetic life. I might have COVID. The store ran out of home tests and I don't really have major symptoms yet, but my dad may or may not have given it to me :( And I have finals......">i think thats a common cold considering youre fully vaccinated. idk tho im not a doctor :(
>good luck on that interview. you got this!
edge wrote: "Hallie wrote: "New update of my pathetic life. I might have COVID. The store ran out of home tests and I don't really have major symptoms yet, but my dad may or may not have given it to me :( And I..."We think the same, too. It's not that bad, to be honest, but I'm just worried about infecting other people if it is COVID - even though I haven't seen the outside world in like 3 weeks.
Thanks! I just finished it, and boy, I fucked up :'( I didn't say anything wrong, but I could have done soooo much better.
Maybe I should apply to the other two without the LORs? I'm worried they'll fill up all their spots if I apply any later because I already feel like I'm late.
Who cares? I'm going to fuck those up anyway...
Hallie wrote: "edge wrote: "Hallie wrote: "New update of my pathetic life. I might have COVID. The store ran out of home tests and I don't really have major symptoms yet, but my dad may or may not have given it t..."lol sameee i havent been outside in forever
you did your best hallie and at least it's over now. good job!
Hallie!! Big hugs and sending strength. I got exposed to covid bc my roomie tested positive but I seem to have gotten lucky... Feel better soon!
edge wrote: "Hallie wrote: "edge wrote: "Hallie wrote: "New update of my pathetic life. I might have COVID. The store ran out of home tests and I don't really have major symptoms yet, but my dad may or may not ..."Haha!
Thanks! That makes me feel slightly better ^^
Alia ~you are not your anxiety~ wrote: "Hallie!! Big hugs and sending strength. I got exposed to covid bc my roomie tested positive but I seem to have gotten lucky... Feel better soon!"Alia!!! Thank you! Haha I know that feeling, too.
So, I didn't die (bummer) and I didn't hear a reply from Westminster even though they said I'd know by Tuesday (anxious). I do feel really awful and lonely and tired, so it's been a rough week. Nothing beats me battling my photography exam on Monday, lol. I was so tired from the illness that I almost gave up halfway through. Just could not write anything else. It was a pain. I'm doing a lot better physically, but I'll admit I'm super stressed and sad.
Rays of Light
Last night, I was feeling absolutely awful and was really spiralling down. It was bad... I went to sleep pretty early for someone like me, and I honestly did not want to get up this morning. I probably would have stayed in bed for longer if Mum didn't keep yelling and if the electrician wasn't going to come today.
Well, I got up and checked my phone and guess what - an offer letter from University of Westminster! I did not expect to get in at all, so let's say I was pleasantly shocked. I told my mum and when he told Dad, he was like, "What was that interview for?" Dude, catch up! I'm kidding. Anyway, I still need to email them to talk about a mistake in my application, so I'm not sure if that will be okay. I also really want to hear from City and Birkbeck but my guidance counsellor still hasn't applied to them. It'll take them at least 2-6 weeks to respond and I need to respond to Westminster by the end of next month. I don't want to lose this if I don't have that. Not sure what to do, and the one person who I usually turn to for help is in Sydney now and timezones are a pain.
Moving on, the last working light in our house stopped working last week. I had to write my exam on Friday with no lights. So my brother called an electrician today and we got him to check all the light. Now all our lights have been fixed (finally!) and our house wiring is really as shitty as we suspected. We changed to LED because not only was that more convenient, cheaper, and energy efficient, the wiring is too bad for the traditional ones to work. But my room finally has lights! Haven't seen that thing shine in years and it frees up a spot on our spikebuster now. We used to have a small bulb hanging by the window for light in my room.
So lights and a conditional offer from one uni. Not bad for someone who was in such a terrible state the past couple of days.
Yup!! I'm stressing out about it now, though :/
Hallie wrote: "Rays of LightLast night, I was feeling absolutely awful and was really spiralling down. It was bad... I went to sleep pretty early for someone like me, and I honestly did not want to get up this ..."
This is too stressful :( Should I accept? But I really want to hear from City... Aghhh... And the woman keeps saying that the application is in process. Come on, it's been two weeks :'(
Hallie wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Rays of LightLast night, I was feeling absolutely awful and was really spiralling down. It was bad... I went to sleep pretty early for someone like me, and I honestly did not want ..."
i mean. you can accept westminster now and when you finally hear from city, then you can turn westminster down at the last minute? idk
edge wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Rays of LightLast night, I was feeling absolutely awful and was really spiralling down. It was bad... I went to sleep pretty early for someone like me, and I honestl..."
That's my plan right now. I have the 'idk' at the end, too. I just stressing out because I keep getting the feeling that all of this is going to blow up on my face.
Hallie wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Rays of LightLast night, I was feeling absolutely awful and was really spiralling down. It was bad... I went to sleep pretty early for someone like me, and I honestly did not want ..."
So, she finally applied to City but guess what. She didn't fill in an entire section even though I gave her the document to fill that in (emailed it twice with everything that it contains listed out in points in the body of the email), and she put the internship that I left ages ago as my current internship. The one I'm doing right now is more relevant to the course, so that should have been there instead, but ugh :/ I can't edit it now, but when I got an email asking for the missing section and my transcripts, I explained that I haven't graduated yet and sent in the document wanted along with a personal statement (because I was worried she included the wrong personal statement, that is, if she did upload it - I can't find it in the application), an article (which I can't find in the application again), and a portfolio link (once again, can't find it). I'm not sure if the application is designed that way, but if they have been uploaded, shouldn't there be an indication? Ugh. My stupid ass still forgot to include my CV in the email, so that's what I'm beating myself over. I'm worried cause they didn't ask and if those documents have already been uploaded, then I doubt they'll consider those...
I can't sleep thanks to do this. No kidding. I barely got any sleep.
And I fucked up my viva-voce for photography so I'm just dying of embarrassment and anxiety and ugh kill me already.
I really want to get in :'( But I really don't think I will.
Me every three seconds: I wish I'd get accepted. But I won't *starts crying*
Not me having a panic attack at 1 AM, finally falling asleep at 3 AM, waking up at 5 AM, falling asleep again, waking up at 8 AM and writing an exam.
I'm super tired and I probably should just listen and go to a fucking doctor.
I did not log into Goodreads to find Lillian gone :( I did not :( Nope :(
it's personal
Books mentioned in this topic
Kim Jiyoung, Born 1982 (other topics)Lore (other topics)
The Glass Menagerie (other topics)
The Great Gatsby (other topics)
Orlando (other topics)
More...
