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A Solivagant on the Inselberg
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Hallie
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May 24, 2020 10:19AM
Haha I'm glad too :D Kind of reminded me of one of the issues I have, but I was able to smile and let it go, so it made me feel a little for accepting towards the situation.
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Aww, thank you Hallie ^^ and yeppp, Mitch McConnell too, no one can come close to those guys... :/But you just said you're topping your class! You do have a path! Believe in yourself :P
:D I had to look him up because I didn't know who he is, but from the surface, he does sound like bad news. Well, that doesn't really do much. It was just one semester, and I'm pretty sure I won't top this semester or the ones coming up. Even if I did, through some miracle, it doesn't guarantee that I'll actually achieve much. Grades are certainly important, but it doesn't actually measure one's capabilities, so it might not even help that much in a long run. I just think it's premature to not stress over with a one-time thing.
Late Night What?
I'm doing an assignment that's due today, and I absolutely hate it. I'm sure it will receive a terrible grade and that really upsets me, but it's also my best attempt, so I can't improve it any more without help from someone who actually knows this subject. And when I look around to ask my classmates, the joke's on me - they are all hoping I'll give them advice. I'm dying here.
Another mildly concerning thing that I had totally forgotten about till a few minutes ago was a hallucination like incident last night. My head had just hit the pillow and I wasn't tired, nor drowsy. In fact, I was tossing around trying to fall asleep since it was already so late. I wasoverthinkingthinking about something when I felt a hand crawl up my leg. It was my brother's, so I pushed it off. The problem was that he was fast asleep, snoring beside me, and the hand moved pretty swift, which means he couldn't have done it in his sleep. When I tried to recollect the details, I couldn't figure it out. It suddenly stopped feeling real and felt more like a hallucination. I began to doubt if it even happened, but I could swear that it did happen. It was just bizarre and left me confused for a while.
I also have an exam tomorrow, but no one knows what my teacher is going to ask. I'm not prepared at all, so I'm doomed.
I made a terrible mistake, and I tried to fix it, but I'm not at ease.
No Hallie, stop thinking about it. Focus on the exam, which you haven't studied for.
I'm so exhausted, but we're only getting started with the stress.
I didn't sleep at all last night and with all the stuff that's been going on, my head hurts so much. On the plus side, I'm the only one who thinks I didn't completely screw up my exam. For now.
Most of the people I know are complaining about gaining weight during this situation, and here I am with skin stuck to my skeleton. Human bodies are weird.....
Hey you tried. And that's worth a lot. :) Try not to worry if you can?
Yeah, you're right. I'm just mad at myself for messing up on the first place.
What the hell?! Sour Candy has been released early?!?!
Rain On Me and Sour Candy were the songs I was looking forward to the most, and both were released early! :)
I'm so tired, but I have a script to write and finals to stress over.
I am going to die of embarrassment tomorrow. Everyone else is doing their acts on serious topics, and then there's me who just submitted a script on how I'll be acting like a five year old for a theatre class in college.
If I had known, back in November, that this virus would make an appearance and screw with the whole world, I would have opted for athletics :/
I had the honour of humiliating myself before everyone as the person to start the exam. May I die now?
I recently wrote an article for a magazine (it hasn't been published yet, and it's only the second issue), and they wanted a photo of me to put along with it. Since I hate my appearance and hence have no good pictures of myself, I had difficulty finding one. I finally sent them the one I took right after I cut my hair in 2018, and do I miss that hair length?! Hell yes! I should probably cut my hair to that length again after my exams.
I obviously can't go to a hairdresser, so that's the catch.
I saw the outside world after three months! And the receptionist at the dentist's office said I look dull, so there's that "compliment" again.
Dream Come True
This morning, I had my first online exam. I have three more left, and hopefully they go as good as this one did.
My brother was being a total brat since when I woke up, and that really pissed me off. I was already sleep-deprived because I couldn't sleep from the stress, and I'm in a little bit of pain. I got a rather different kind of rubber bands for my braces which assert more force on my teeth, and since it takes a while to get used to it, it will be painful for a few days. Even eating is really hard; I couldn't have breakfast either. I did want to take a painkiller, but my parents are very annoying when it comes to medicines, and even if I did take one in secret, I didn't want to be drugged during the exam. I once showed up to class drugged after having taken a stronger medication that I was used to for a fever, and that made me so loopy that people began to ask why I was behaving so strange. It really hurts, though, but I can't complain because people have bigger problems than me.
Anyway, back to the exam - it was supposed to be for 2 hours with 60 multiple choice questions. My majors depend upon descriptive writing, so the idea seemed extremely different and scary to me. I was so unsure as to what to expect, and ended up nearly crying last night because this subject was something I could get a decent score in even in my sleep. We had been instructed to switch on audio and video to check on malpractice, and also to present IDs or hall tickets if asked.
When it started, a lot of people couldn't log in. I was able to, and the first few questions were so easy that I got carried away and began marking them quickly without realising that I hadn't switched on audio or video. Without it, we were told that the exam wouldn't consider. Being the anxious wreck I am, I freaked. I checked my messages to see that a lot of people weren't even able to access it. A teacher asked it anybody was able to access it, and C said yes. I added that there was no option to enable audio or video, and C and another classmate confirmed. That's when the coordinator of our department said, "There will not be audio or video. Please carry on with your exams." What the fuck?!?!?!
The exam was already easy, and now it was easier because we could obviously cheat. I didn't need to look anything up, though, because I found it really easy and knew everything except one. So I did it on my own and finished it in about 15 minutes. I spent some time checking before submitting it and yelling to my mum that I was done.
Mum had dreamt of me writing the exam last night. In the dream, I finished the exam super fast and came out saying that it was super easy and I finished it so fast. Her dreams are usually preposterous, so I usually laugh out off. Well, this time, that's exactly what happened in reality. My mum had the laugh this time while I rolled my eyes. Its simplicity seems like an ominous mark to a huge disaster later on, and I'm terrified.
I'm making myself iced tea today because my mouth is super sore and I don't know what else will cheer me up enough to study for my exam tomorrow.
Iced tea is great, and I hope you enjoyed it.
I couldn't drink it, though xD I guess I will after my exam today.
Hallie wrote: "I couldn't drink it, though xD I guess I will after my exam today."It was terrible :( I put in way too much of something.
I really should get a haircut. My split ends have split ends :/
Hallie wrote: "It was terrible :( I put in way too much of something."make another one today !! and make another one and another one until it's so good that you want to drink only that every day
bertille wrote: "Hallie wrote: "It was terrible :( I put in way too much of something."make another one today !! and make another one and another one until it's so good that you want to drink only that every day"
I was planning to, but then I got super lazy and decided to just hog instead.
Super random drop in here, but I'm glad to see you're still alive. Aso, I do hope you remember me.
Heyyyyy!!! Of course I remember. Ughhhh I'm still alive, unfortunately.
It's fine! I didn't expect anything better, honestly, so I'm not disappointed.
I have to do a course on Coursera or Udemy that's related to my core subjects, and I don't know what to do.
Hallie!!! sorry i keep disappearing
Alex!!!!! It's fine! :) I'm always happy to see you. I meant to say hi on your journal, but then I got distracted and forgot :/
Udemy has a course on investigative journalism which I want to do, but I need to wait for my uni to give proper instructions as to what I can take for now.
I wonder if I can do a course in Criminology.
So I joined this group to grow my writing page on Instagram, and long story short - I'm now the admin on a small group of content creators.
This happened over the past two days, and I did end up kind of having small conversations with people there. Anyway, I asked for book recommendations on my story because I ran out of books, and I hoped it would serve as a good opportunity to interact with my new followers. I got some pretty interesting suggestions, which I've already downloaded and will read over this week, but there was this one guy who said, 'You know, instead of reading books, you should watch anime like Death Note. You'll like it.'
What the flying fuck?!?!?!
I told him that I prefer books over everything else and also added that I've already watched Death Note. He suggested One Piece, which I discarded saying that it's not my cup of tea and that I don't want anime recommendations.
Another guy wanted my feedback on his poetry, and being the insomniac I am, I was up till around 12 to help him, which isn't that late.
This morning, the anime guy asked, "Do you ever get offline on Instagram? I saw you were active during the night."
Once again, what the absolute fuck?!?!
I can do whatever I want in my spare time, darling, and it's none of his business - especially since it has nothing to do with him. When I said that, he was like, "I haven't said anything." Yeah well, "I prevented you from saying anything." Apparently that was "Very clever".
I think the same guy also texted last night but later deleted his messages because I received notifications, but couldn't find the messages. When asked, he said that he didn't remember.
Ugh...
In today's exam, some questions made no sense, and others had all options wrong with no 'none of the above' option. The right answers weren't even present -_-
I feel really shitty. I keep trying to move on, but end up circling back to the same thing again.
This day, in third grade, I broke my fingernail between the hinges of a door in my school. It was June 9th and a Tuesday - just like today.
And *insert number of years that have passed since then because Hallie is too dumb for Math* I elegantly hurt my toe, so now I'm limping around pretending nothing happened.I tripped over the wire of the earphones my dad left connected to the CPU, and I might or might not have bent the jack in the process. He was already complaining that it doesn't work but I managed to make it work, and now it's back to the same position. I'm going to pretend I had nothing to do with this because uhhhhh..... Haven't I gotten into trouble over stupid things enough already?
My new hobby is sitting back and laughing at people while chatting with them on Instagram. "If you give your words a voice, you'd be a better poet."
Like what the fuck?! I pointed out how many great poets have their poems appreciated for centuries without "giving them voice", and this guy said, "Times have changed. Voice is somehow a more powerful weapon for innovation."
I know I'm not supposed to judge, but such bullshit both frustrates and amuses me xD
Then he proceeded to make stupid assumptions about me. After that, he said that I'm so practical that I should have been a science major. I said that I know for a fact that I shouldn't, but this guy went ahead to say, "Nah, it'd be better."
*eyerolls*
So I explained that I have solid proof and that the only science subject I like is Biology. Guy says, "If you like Bio, you should be good at Chemistry." And argued that he knows better because he is in an engineering major.
That's it. I'm done.
One of my friends has been plagiarising her writings and posting on Instagram for at least a year now, and people are finally ganging up against her.
Apparently P and others are going to expose her after our exam tomorrow.
New coronavirus observations imply that if my entire family for affected, I'm the one who is most likely going to survive. My mum, dad, and brother are most likely going to die.
Apparently Instagram thinks that H and I have spam accounts because we don't post.
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