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Hahah xD I did not expect that. Also, I just realized that I passed Math solely through luck and nothing else. I always wonder how teachers don't get tired of teaching the same things over and over again - especially in the same class.
Yay I'm glad you think so! :) You'll always be an awesome writer, so don't worry about that.
I actually think that I had more fresh ideas back then even though the writing was..... Whatever that is. Not sure if it has progressed, though. I'm really starting to miss those!!! We have to admit - as cringey as it was - it was really fun.
I hurt my foot and I'm having a meltdown (totally unrelated to the injury), but the pain in my foot is actually nice?
hey hallie! i miss you :(also literally everything in my life is getting turned upside down now, so that's always fun... please help lol
Elizabeth!!! Aw I'm sorry! Wanna talk about it? I'm all ears.
not tonight, i'm just depressed and upset. maybe tomorrow once i can form a coherent thought?
Take your time. And only if you want to. No force here.*hugs*
I'm hungry and terrified for finals.
Hallie wrote: "Why am I still stuck in the past?"it’s okay, being stuck in the past is also one of my side effects. how are you anyways? long time no see :))
I had multiple panic attacks over the past few days because of it, so I should probably learn to move on. I'm a fucking mess right now, and the situation in the UK isn't helping :/ How have you been, though?
Look to the right, kids, and you can see Hallie crying, tossing and turning while overthinking all night.
Aaand I haven't slept all night :/ Can't seem to get through this.
I should probably talk to someone about it, but I can't because I really hate myself for feeling this way and don't want anybody to know that I have such thoughts in my head.
Two hours of sleep and a terrible dream. Today's going to be great! :)
I have a verbal exam tomorrow, but I can't even concentrate.
Also, there are a lot of mosquitoes here for some strange reason. One was on my brother's leg, so he and Mum tried to kill it. After a few minutes, my brother pointed at my heel, right at the scab that formed from my injury few days ago, and said, "Mosquito!" And Mum proceeded to hit it with a bloody clothes hanger while I yelled that it wasn't one. They were so confused and almost began to pick on it until I said what it was, and all of a sudden, they are shocked. When? How? Yeah, people, I constantly get hurt and none of you notice even if there is blood all over the floor where you are always around. The wound is actually right above another scar that caused me to limp around school and fall sick almost four years ago, so Mum pointed that out and laughed. Yeah, yeah, laugh at my pain!
Half my text messages ask "Hallie, how are you?" and my trust issues make me question whether they genuinely care, or if they sense something wrong, or if it's history repeating itself.
Hallie wrote: "ALEX!"HALLIE, WE'RE GETTING A PJO TV SHOW ADAPTATION, RICK JUST ANNOUNCED IT YESTERDAY!! AND IT'S GONNA BE BETTER THAN THE MOVIES BECAUSE RICK IS GOING TO BE INVOLVED IN EVERY ASPECT OF IT!
Oh my goodness! That's great! Yay!!!!!
No one:No one ever:
CB: Finally you have a profile pic which is you
I was forced to do that because my teacher is supposed to allot marks by assessing our performance through the semester, but only remembers our faces and not our names :/
Also, N told me that she noticed that I never genuinely smile. Apparently I only smile for the sake of smiling?
y'all.i'm moving out this weekend.
it's official.
Me: *spends all day googling different ways to die and tries to find as many pills as possible in this household*My classmates' updates: Practice self-love. You matter. Blah blah blah!
I have a viva and assignment due tomorrow, but since I'm a mess, looking forward to screwing up :)
*hugs*I hope you do great. :) Good luck!
Thank you!I messed up, but whatever.
So, one of the guys I went to school with passed away, and I still see his close cousin (who also went to the same school) everyday on the bus because he's in my uni. And in my theatre class. And almost everywhere I go when I'm on campus.And turns out my Irish final assignment is due tomorrow and not the 26th like I had thought, and I haven't started.
And I'm internally dying. So bad P who's in her hometown can sense that something's wrong.
I know I'm talking weird, but everything is just attacking me at once, and I have no idea how to handle it.
oh, hallie, i'm sorry :( i'm here for you if you ever need someone to talk to, okay?
Thanks! I don't really want to talk, though, but thanks! I do appreciate it.
I probably should talk to someone, though......
Cause I'm feeling extremely suicidal again.
I'm sorry Hallie <3 Here if you need me. I hope I was there for you in the old days, but I will admit that I can now understand your line of thinking much better... I have rebuttals against it still, though.
Thanks Alia! Honestly, you, Maya, Alex, and people here are the only ones who have been there for me throughout, so I think you guys need a break from my nonsense now. Thanks for that, though! I also understand why you have rebuttals against it. If I were in your place, I wouldn't want to hear my friend be like this either.
Wo sorry to hear you're stressed out! I really hope you do well, and I'm always around 😅Good luck with everything going on!
Hallie wrote: "Thanks Alia! Honestly, you, Maya, Alex, and people here are the only ones who have been there for me throughout, so I think you guys need a break from my nonsense now. Thanks for that, though! I al..."Aw I'm not sure how much I've really been there but thank you! Also it's not nonsense, it's justified. What's nonsense is that Trump campaign aides were released from prison and nonviolent offenders are being held and succumbing to COVID. Your honest thoughts are not nonsense.
Yeah, I'm not happy you feel this way, but I get it. The world is pretty darn screwed up and while we should all soldier on, thoughts of giving up in this climate are understandable. I believe in a better future though ^^
Empress X wrote: "Wo sorry to hear you're stressed out! I really hope you do well, and I'm always around 😅Good luck with everything going on!"
Thank you!
Alia ~you are not your anxiety~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Thanks Alia! Honestly, you, Maya, Alex, and people here are the only ones who have been there for me throughout, so I think you guys need a break from my nonsense now. Thanks for tha..."Just so you know, I'll be there for you too! Or at least, I'm going to try. Okay, you got me there. I can't degrade myself while Trump still exists.
True. Except I don't believe in a better future for me because I keep screwing up all potential paths to anything good, so....
A friend from uni legit just texted me to say: "I saw you in my dream today!!! Daaaymmmnnn you looked so prettyyyy!" And then she sent a voice message explaining her entire dream (which was hilarious), and turns out the two of us were walking towards an eating centre inside our campus when some guy, whose face she forgot, saw us and said that I looked pretty. Then she agreed with him and tried to set us up - for which she apologized xD I swear this is the funniest thing I've heard in weeks, but it also made me smile so much that I'm grateful to her for giving me an escape from my usual melancholy.
You're welcome. Also that sounds awesome and funny. Glad it gave you a distraction. :)
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Awww that sucks! Hope you can still have a decent quarantine summe..."
Your mum is not representative of us all though! But I feel you! My friends' exams are later than mine because I go to a different school so I definitely feel a little forgotten.That is a mood! My math teacher the other day was going over for the thousandth time that the cosine of pi is -1 and I was like omggg I know can I go write now?!
Aww thank you!! I did read some of the better RPs and I guess my writing skills weren't that terrible. Frankly, my writing from back then is probably more understandable to the average person than mine now.
Please don't be depressed! You got better because of all that cringe ^^ I was just rereading Aria supporting Natasha and while the concept is awful, the execution was flawless. Same with the Corvus and Patrick RP which I totally forgot about but is just as hilarious 3.5 years later.