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A Solivagant on the Inselberg
I used to say weird things all the time and everyone was weirded out. But they probably thought I was joking.I cannot confirm nor deny if I was or not.
I would always say I had no soul. Which was very much true. But I think people took it as a really weird joke.
Anyway, that’s it...
Oh, I'm the Queen of "weirding" people out!
I used to be, but now I’ve gotten more anxious and introverted that I would literally die before making people hate me more than they do now. XD
My problem is that I'm so introverted that I weird people out without even talking 😅
I mean, I can weird people out just by existing.
I do that too!Like once I went backstage at this play thing because my friends were in it, and I was so nervous that I was just hyperventilating in the corner the whole time.
And like my friends friends walked by me and that just made me more nervous. Especially because their was a chair right next to me and I was sitting on the ground looking like an idiot, which made it more noticeable that I was hyperventilating. It wasn’t a fun day. XD
Ugh..
Sometimes I can just sit in a chair and everyone will notice and be weirded out. And it’s really annoying lol
Empress X wrote: "I do that too!Like once I went backstage at this play thing because my friends were in it, and I was so nervous that I was just hyperventilating in the corner the whole time.
And like my friends..."
Sounds like a Hallie thing xD
Anyway, this is going to be my sixth hour in a bus, and I would like to get run over by one, please :/
I actually love busses because I never get to go on them like ever.But sorry you’re not enjoying being on busses xD
I prefer driving on my own. Buses are too annoying for me :/
I live in a very small town so anything that remotely reminds me of cities, I love. :))
Heyyyy Alia! How have you been? :)
There is this cool internship/job thing that I found which is basically teaching English over Skype or Hangouts. The pay looks nice to me right now, so I'm debating whether or not to apply for it.
Fights and News
Today is just bizarre and boring.
We have a new English lit professor, and when I say she is annoying, I mean she is annoying. All my new teachers are annoying, and people are pretty frustrated with the number of teachers we've had to change.
So today, a fight erupted in her class when she handed out an assignment and we mentioned that we already submitted one to the previous teacher. She stared screwing us for being indisciplined, but eventually, we grew mad and began to revolt. There was a small arguement going on when one girl, my friend's cousin, said to the teacher, "Just kick the people who aren't interested out of the class." This girl wasn't in this class the previous semester, so the only reason we have her is because now we have a combined class. She looked around at the group of the "cool" kids while she said it, and this pissed my class off. Like, who the fuck is this bitch to walk into our class and insult us like this without even knowing us?! A huge fight arose with us saying that she has no right to say that. One guy said, "We paid quite a lot to be here. We'll stay." The teacher tried to settle it and told us not to take it outside class, but now a lot of people in my major hate that girl. She is friend's cousin, but I don't really care. It wouldn't be the first time she tried to offend us.
After this, we were supposed to have an hour off when another annoying teacher walked in and began blabbering about budget. We initially wondered if she was in the right class, but turns out some news channel was coming over right then to conduct a panel discussion on finance after Brexit. We went over, and I ended up drinking two cups of tea - one with P, and another with this girl who shows up to class once in a blue moon just to mess with my mind. I was getting lectured for being too critical about myself, so eventually I ran off from there - also because I did not want to face a camera and talk about the country's economy.
I went back to one of the classrooms where I found F and another friend. P came up later and she was pretty excited because she had booked tickets to go back home. I was happy because I get to not see her for a couple of days. She kept saying, "I'm going home on 19th!" In order to be evil, I replied, whilst sipping my third cup of tea for the day, "Well, I go home everyday. Every single day, P. Every single day. Monday? Home. Tuesday? Home."
Yep, it annoyed her and she started groaning about what a sadistic person I am. She also said I'm lucky, but I said that I'd rather move out. That's when F, P and the other girl began to talk about how being home is to be with family; I immediately began to say, "Home isn't where you're family is. It's where you're most-" "Shut up, Hallie! Gosh you're weird."
"Hey, family does not necessarily be the best thing for everyone! For some people, family can be the reason for... Why is my mum calling me?" "Reply to your family, Hallie!"
And then they proceeded to try and eavesdrop, but failed because apparently when I speak Welsh, my voice goes on child version. It's a strange thing I do unconsciously that many people pointed out. I initially thought it probably occurred only when other people who know Welsh are around me - since Coffee Boy was one of the first people to directly ask why I hid while talking to my mum on the phone, but then that doesn't seem true anymore. I just speak real quiet and my voice sounds even more like a kid, and all my friends now keep picking on that.
Then I had Irish, which, as usual, was boring and I didn't understand anything, so.... I had psychology again where I finally got to do an experiment I was supposed to do two weeks ago. It's a pretty annoying one since it makes a lot of noise and seems pretty much like a mini guillotine. I finished mine (which turned out better than I thought I would do), conducted it on another classmate, and went back to my seat when C asked if I finished. Somehow, C, my other friend, and I ended up walking back together after class. We were talking about Game of Thrones: C and I both think the ending is disappointing, so we ended up spoiling it for the other friend.
Now here's the funny part. C's girlfriend keeps reminding him of me. The last time we talked for more than 5 seconds, this was what our conversation looked like:
Me: Have you read *insert name of book that I like*?
C: Yeah. My girlfriend likes it.
Me: Do you know about this? It's pretty interesting.
C: My girlfriend is interested in it.
And this time:
C: Where do you stay?
Me: Near *name of prominent place that he, as a person who doesn't know this city that well, would know*
C: Oh! My girlfriend stays near there!
Okay......
Updates
So a couple of things that happened:
• I fell sick. So sick that I was wheezing and missed two days of uni.
• My mum's going to Grandma's today for grandpa's death anniversary, but I'm sick and I have so much on my plate already. I'm dying.
• Oh, and I have tests from Monday, and I do not know shit. Somebody please help this poor soul!
• I'm still sick, but I finally went back to class today. Nearly had a bad attack while climbing the stairs with a classmate. I eventually told her to leave me and run along by herself because I was slowing her down.
• So we're having this film festival at uni, and they want everyone to take part in the planning. P, who is part of the main team, began rambling about how no one is participating from my class when our journalism teacher asked how that was going. She had previously begged me to do content writing, but you know me.
• So this bitch, my teacher, began to randomly call out names she thought could help with content writing. And then she said, "Put in Hallie's name. What's the point of being the topper if you can't participate in these things? Give Hallie's name."
• Legit bit my tongue to stop myself from saying anything. One of my classmates, who lives close to my place and hence often talks to me, said, "Good luck, Hallie!" Yep......
• And while I was quietly, peaceful, not-bothering-anyone, absolutely-minding-my-own-business, eating lunch and watching You, P stormed into the room I was in and dragged me of to the meeting. I didn't want to go.
• Eventually reached there, and yep, already hate it. Turns out my teacher had ordered P to bring me along. I did not even want to put down my name in their list, but P ended up doing it on my behalf.
• Except...... I can't do it.
• Not because I have to work with seniors or anything. I'm just really bad at stuff like this! That's why I choose not to participate.
• Oh, and now stuck at theatre class. P and I were the first ones to get to class, so he sent P to get the keys to unlock to the door. When she left, he asked me which place I was from in Irish (because P and he were talking in Irish throughout). I said Wales, and he's like, "Oh, then do you not know Irish?" And I replied, "I do. Just a little bit." Then he asked what my parents are doing, and by them P returned with the keys.
• He then made P read out poetry in Irish. She kept trying to push me into reading it because I'm the one doing Irish as one of my soft core classes (forced to, forced to).
• When more people joined in, another classmate and I asked to be excused this one day from class.
Hence, here I am, sitting in the corner, laughing and everyone else doing exercises :)
Hallie!! i'm sorry i keep disappearing!!
I have tests from Monday, and no motivation to put in information in this empty head of mine.But then, I can finally sleep in on Saturdays from the coming Saturday :)
Hallie wrote: "Heyyyy Alia! How have you been? :)"I'm sick right now :(( but as a whole things have been going well. I hope you're not having to take math and physics anymore?
Alia ~you are not your anxiety~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Heyyyy Alia! How have you been? :)"I'm sick right now :(( but as a whole things have been going well. I hope you're not having to take math and physics anymore?"
Oh, hope you get better soon! I'm sick too, so can relate :/ Fortunately, no! All my subjects are related to arts and Humanities :)
In other news, one of the professors' crashed her car into the bus that I was in, and she had the audacity to blame the driver when it was clearly her fault.
My exams finally got over. Not sure if I'll pass all of them, but whatever.So I guess I'm free, right?
Not! :/
I still have that stupid Irish assignment that I swear I'll submit next week (yeah, two weeks late), another assignment in which I need to write my pathetic life history in 5-10 pages, and the film festival thing my teacher forced me into :/
And I signed up for like three things even though I know I'm useless and can't do any of those three things, but whatever....
Essay for Theatre: Life History
I was born. Unfortunately, I did not die. Hence, I continue to live, knowing that I will die.
@Hallie, Oooookie, first and foremost, I don't think you're as ugly as you claim you are, smhhh
Secondly, chu best~!
Deepthi, oh um, actually, I'm uglier. Secondly, I est the worst.Hey Abigail!
Five pages of my boring, pathetic life..... How do I write five fucking pages on something I can say in three sentences.
Hallie wrote: "Essay for Theatre: Life HistoryI was born. Unfortunately, I did not die. Hence, I continue to live, knowing that I will die."
H and S like this, though. Sounds typical Hallie xD Albeit they do advice that I do not hand this over to my teacher if I want a decent grade and a way to not have to attend counseling sessions.
Both yesterday and today, I decided to wear my denim jacket and do my hair in a half-up ponytail instead of the ponytail I usually wear. And now I'm stuck having to say, "Not really, but thank you!" top a dozen people because "it looks nice and I should come like this everyday".
Aaaand I fucked up my theatre exam because I can't act, and the guy gave me a scenario that I'm a soldier defending the country along with another guy I didn't know.
Hallie wrote: "Oooo what?"look at my journal
Who wants to see me murder my literature teacher? Come over to uni. I'm going to fucking kill her.
Hallie wrote: "Deepthi, oh um, actually, I'm uglier. Secondly, I est the worst.Hey Abigail!"
Never seen you, so I can't agree :P
But I really don't think you're so ugly!
Oh, and btw, check Discorddddddd :) Rnnnn
Deepthi, yeah, but I have seen myself, so I know for a fact that I'm ugly. And okay! Going over there now.Hullo Faith and Abigail!
Hallie wrote: "Deepthi, yeah, but I have seen myself, so I know for a fact that I'm ugly. And okay! Going over there now.Hullo Faith and Abigail!"
Still disagree here!!
Heheheheheeheee, decided to kill you with a lil' bit of cutenesssss~ dx
Still right here!xD It really helped, though, you know. I was having an anxiety attack right before I saw it, and now my day just got slightly better. I mean, the problems I was afraid of just vanished, and I attribute it to you :)
Still nope!Aww, anytime fren :) *hugs*
I'm glad I could help a bit :)
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Me: I want to kill someone.
Classmates: What the fuck, Hallie?! You're scaring us!