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A Solivagant on the Inselberg
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Nov 03, 2019 03:08PM
in college everybody is a wannabe alcoholic lol ! personally drinking is not my vibe (i have beer in my fridge but i used it for a hair rinse, not for drinking haha) but u just gotta learn ur limits when it comes to drinking
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Yeah, that's college for you. Albeit none of the people I hang out are into it, so I don't get to drink that often. Hold on a minute - beer to rinse hair?????
yup, it makes ur hair v shiny!! i don’t do it too often tho, i’m p sure alcohol can dry ur hair out if used more than like 2-3x a week
This is new information to me, lol.
Hallie wrote: "Myks - Haha I can't believe I guessed that right xD I just said whatever came to my mind. Anyway, oh my goodness, yay!!!!!!!!! It's gonna be awesome and it's gonna be just what my playlist needs ri..."it’s something that grows overtime i guess but the images on the packets used to give me nightmares as a kid
sara wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Myks - Haha I can't believe I guessed that right xD I just said whatever came to my mind. Anyway, oh my goodness, yay!!!!!!!!! It's gonna be awesome and it's gonna be just what my pl..."I suppose. Ooh yeah, five year old me can relate.
Hallie wrote: "sara wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Myks - Haha I can't believe I guessed that right xD I just said whatever came to my mind. Anyway, oh my goodness, yay!!!!!!!!! It's gonna be awesome and it's gonna be ju..."Legit thought that even the slightest puff could make me die
Hallie wrote: "Today is not my day :/"Are you okay? I forgot to ask you moved from London right? I’m moving as well (like next week :/)
sara wrote: "Hallie wrote: "sara wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Myks - Haha I can't believe I guessed that right xD I just said whatever came to my mind. Anyway, oh my goodness, yay!!!!!!!!! It's gonna be awesome and i..."Haha xD
sara wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Today is not my day :/"Are you okay? I forgot to ask you moved from London right? I’m moving as well (like next week :/)"
I'll probably be fine. Uh no, I didn't. I plan to die here. Oh, where are you moving to?
Hallie wrote: "sara wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Today is not my day :/"Are you okay? I forgot to ask you moved from London right? I’m moving as well (like next week :/)"
I'll probably be fine. Uh no, I didn't. I pl..."
LMFAO. Africa if you can believe it. For two years basically my a levels going to learn Arabic, my half siblings are going also
Hallie wrote: "I don't get paid enough for this."For life yeah I can understand
Hallie wrote: "What???? Is MCR returning or something?"YES THEY ARE
sara wrote: "Hallie wrote: "sara wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Today is not my day :/"Are you okay? I forgot to ask you moved from London right? I’m moving as well (like next week :/)"
I'll probably be fine. Uh no,..."
Why are so many people moving to Africa?! You're like the fifth person I know who's going there. Not that it's a bad thing; I'm just curious.
sara wrote: "Hallie wrote: "I don't get paid enough for this."
For life yeah I can understand"
That's life for you :/
Alex ~They/them~ ~Annabeth Chase and Alex Fierro are the best~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "What???? Is MCR returning or something?"YES THEY ARE"
YAY!!!!
Hallie wrote: "sara wrote: "Hallie wrote: "sara wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Today is not my day :/"Are you okay? I forgot to ask you moved from London right? I’m moving as well (like next week :/)"
I'll probably be..."
I don’t even know to be honest LOL. Maybe because of London’s weather to be fair. It was absolutely disgusting today, my feet turned into icicles.
sara wrote: "Hallie wrote: "sara wrote: "Hallie wrote: "sara wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Today is not my day :/"Are you okay? I forgot to ask you moved from London right? I’m moving as well (like next week :/)"
I..."
Haha! I guess not everyone likes that kind of weather.
Hallie wrote: "sara wrote: "Hallie wrote: "sara wrote: "Hallie wrote: "sara wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Today is not my day :/"Are you okay? I forgot to ask you moved from London right? I’m moving as well (like next..."
True but being hot all year round isn’t any better lol
sara wrote: "Hallie wrote: "sara wrote: "Hallie wrote: "sara wrote: "Hallie wrote: "sara wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Today is not my day :/"Are you okay? I forgot to ask you moved from London right? I’m moving as ..."
Haha yep.
So I have an exam in 12 minutes, and did I mention I'm screwed?
Did I also mention that I topped in my Literature class? The teacher said that only 5 out of the 42 people who had attempted the paper (the total strength is 64) deserved to pass, so I was afraid. We got the results this morning and turns out I'm one of the 5 xP
Not My Week
Last week was horrible. After that meeting with Coffee Boy, I could barely focus and I lost all motivation to do anything productive. The only problem was that I had all my projects and exams at the same time. I had to quickly make a collage for journalism on Sunday with no computer to get images from. All our computers broke, so I have nothing.
Then Monday, I had my first two tests. I never study for the first subject, so I've forgotten that already, but the second was Psychology and I had no motivation to study. Which was ironic considering the whole chapter was on Motivation and Emotions. The next day, I had Irish and journalism - both of which I screwed up. I sat in the Irish exam all blank, and when the question paper came up in the tiniest font that exists, I nearly quit and walked out of the room because I legitimately did not know a thing. I was also coming down with a cold, and even though I tried, I still ended up being sick for the next day. Now this is a whole different story.
Wednesday morning, I was halfway there to uni when I realized that I had left my hall ticket for the test at home. I called my brother, yelled at him, then explained. It was so scary. I got down and waited for my mum to bring it before taking a cab to uni. I managed to make it in time for my literature test. This test was on linguistics, so it was a new branch that we didn't really know that well. And since P had missed a lot of classes when it was being taught, she skipped the test itself. We were told to meet in a common class before the next test to pick an elective for the next semester, so I went there. P walked in and asked, "What did they ask?" I told her she should have at least attempted the test to see what kind of questions would come. She said she just wasn't prepared.
While we were waiting for someone to come and tell us our options, I learnt that we were supposed to get our Psychology records signed by the director that very day. And I didn't have it. Yep, that's two things I left at home on one day. All I come say was: "Today's not my day...." After my friends realized what was going on with me, they agreed. That day just wasn't my day. F didn't get hers either, so when we went to her and begged her to forgive us, she screwed us and sent us back to our mentor. Our mentor said we could get it the next day, so that's when we finally managed to breathe.
Anyway, the highlight of that day for everyone was the selection of electives. Not because they were excited, but because it was so entertaining. Now, we have very limited options for two credits. We have music (classical), dance (contemporary), theatre, yoga (huh?), athletics (includes shot put and stuff like that so not just running), basketball, football, and volleyball. Since I'm a talentless idiot, I did not fit into any of these.
So I calculated. I can't do music because they don't offer guitar or keyboard, which is so weird. I can't dance and what on earth is contemporary dance anyway?! I suck at all sports, but I can run; except I can't throw stuff or jump high or whatever. I'm horrible at public speaking, but I've down some (poor) acting before. My only choices were theatre and athletics, but albeit I do not want to do something that has talking involved, athletics wouldn't be a great choice for me considering how sick I've been for the last one year. I pretty much trashed my immune system to such an extent that I can no longer go outdoors without falling sick the next day. So when she asked, I told my teacher that I was taking theatre. After a bit, her husband, the mentor of the neighbouring class, came in and did a head count. He was fine with dance and music, but when he counted the number of people for theatre, he said, "No, this won't do."
Apparently, the music and dance departments takes 20 students, theatre takes 30, and sports has no limit. So there can only be 15 students for theatre from my class since the remaining will be from the other class. However, each class had more than 30 students for theatre since it was in high demand. My mentor's husband started rambling about how many in his class are taking it because they're guys, and because they want to see pretty teachers from the theatre department; that theatre's hard and that seniors have failed. So eventually, people were forced to switch to others.
I can't do anything else. So I continued to stand when F tried to persuade me to sit down and take football like her. No way! I continued to stand even though all my friends were trying to make me sit. C walked up and tried to change our minds by saying that it involves public speaking, and all my friends were like, "Hallie! Come on... Sit down." Then the mentor said, "The people sitting down - vote for your friends." Guess what my friends did....
"Anybody but Hallie, Ma'am! Never Hallie. Not Hallie!" Somehow they made a few people switch and she tried to offer the ones standing different options. She looked at me and said, "Hallie, what about singing?" I was internally laughing and legit said, "I can't sing to save my life!" It cracked up half my class. Subsequently, we needed only two people to sit down when that annoying husband married to my mentor said, "Fine, let's have a performance." One kid sat down. Just one more to go. P was the first one to go and she did it pretty well. Two other groups went, and just as I finally mustered up the courage to go up there and do an impromptu act, one guy sat down saying that he can't do it. Problem solved. The rest of us could join theatre. I quickly ran to sign it before anybody could change anything. So now I'm stuck in theatre. Yes, I'm going to flunk, but their options are so limited that I'm forced to flunk or flunk.
The next day, I went in to get the signature, but guess what - F did not even complete her record. My exam was at 9, and she was holding me up even though it was 8:50! I finally went, but the director was so engrossed in discussing the scheme of evaluation that I was scared. My mentor eventually told me to just go inside, and when I did, she didn't utter a word to me as she signed. F got a late submission from her teacher, though, because yes, she was very late.
The Psychology exam itself was chaotic. I was doing fine until one of the evaluators kept glaring at me for no reason and acted as though I was dumb and my subject was dumber. My subject was just like, "Uhhh..... Crazy woman. I got what you said." But it went okay, I guess. I had to wait for nearly five hours all by myself because I couldn't go home, and the next day, I had to come back for one signature. Another girl and I left as soon as it got over, though.
Also, my mum went to Wales on Wednesday and came back on Sunday, so now she's being an even more annoying woman. Agh!
But then, I topped literature, got one of the top scores in Psychology, and somehow did not fail any of my tests.
Oh sucks! How many more years do you have?Uh you wouldn't really be able to help, but thanks anyway :D
I don't really know what a senior is, so last year of high school is all I got. So you'll be out of there in no time :)
Why am I up at this ungodly hour, you ask?My ear hurts and I can't sleep :/
On Monday, one of the cool kids happened to be standing beside me because she had to finish her exam, and both of us were teasing P for the amount of effort she put in her collage. P disappeared because that girl can never stay in one place, and the cool girl started talking to me. She asked why I was still in the campus when my exam got over hours ago, so I explained. Then she gave me this look and said, "You know, you're not really what you pose to be. You act like a complete introvert, but on the inside, you're like badass." And then she gave me this long speech about loving myself and being more me. I'm just standing there like 'Huh?'
My only question is how much longer before my new friends desert me?
Anyway, I've been looking at paid internships I could do over the break so that I can get a car and probably move out of this crazy household. But they don't pay a lot, so it seems like I'll have to take a minimum of ten jobs if I need to do anything.
I'll end up forgetting this and being confused for the rest of my life because the American school system never seems to stick in my head. Yep, I'm in first year of uni.
With a knife, poison, strangulation - pick your means. As long as I'm literally dead.
Ugh my department changed our exam dates, so now my excuse to skip my cousin's wedding is a little weak. I can still skip it because it's already too late, and I really can't go, but the previous schedule was more solid for me to use.
Like it was just, "Okay, I have an exam the next day, so congratulations, Cousin!" But now it's, "I have an exam on the day before your wedding, which is weird because it's a Saturday and we don't even work on Saturdays, but I also have an exam on Tuesday, so I ain't coming. Congratulations cousin!"
Albeit it's not like it matters whether I attend it or not. I don't want to go, and nobody there will miss me anyway.
December To-do List
• Take driving lessons
• Work on psychology research
• Take on part-time internships to:~ Buy a laptop
~ Pay tuition fee
~ Contribute towards Mum's implants
~ Contribute towards getting a new car/doing interiors of our house
~ Move out
I spent so long looking at laptops and wireless headphones that now I'm sad....
Yeah right, that's how emotions work. By simply invalidating my feelings by saying, "Quit being sad", I'll just quit it like there's some exit button that allows me to quit sadness and be all happy-go-lucky -_-
It's fine. Although, do watch what you're saying, though. One wrong sentence could lead to an irreversible disaster - even if you were only trying to mess around.
I don't like weddings. And going to the place the wedding is taking place. And a lot of the people who will be attending the wedding. My cousin's a sweet soul, so he doesn't need me around there anyway.
Oh, about that, of course I'm not going. Except my mum's mad that her meticulous planning fell apart xD
Hiii. Is it okay if I comment on here?
Hey Lex! Yeah, sure :) Although the owner of this journal is pretty boring and annoying.Robert, well, I totally hate them, so I don't think I should be the one to describe them.
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