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A Solivagant on the Inselberg
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kavi ~he-him~
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Sep 19, 2019 10:18AM
also, i have a feeling rick is gonna kill off frank, or someone else
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Although, I hope someone kills me off.
To-do List - Assignments/Presentations• English Literature: Essay on Macbeth as a Shakespearean tragedy
• Journalism: 500 words on current trends in television
• Journalism: Focus group discussion points
• Communicative English: Short story
• Communicative English: Phone conversation
• Environmental Science: Group presentation on soil and noise pollution
• Environmental Science: Group assignment on policies during natural disasters
• Psychology: Pop quiz
• Psychology: Group presentation? (Not assigned group and topic yet)• Irish: 2 page essay on English Romantic Poetry
Oh, and I got lower braces on Wednesday, so that hurts.
I'm being surrounded by assignments everywhere, and my jerk of a brother is being a um, jerk.
You see, Hallie has to email a dozen assignments to her teachers, but her data plan for over, and her brother refuses to recharge it so that she can work on them and finish them.
He was like, "Don't ever ask me to recharge it for you." And I replied, "Well, don't ever ask me to give you hotspot either." And he legit said, "Who needs your hotspot?"Um... You? He is the only one that demands that I should share my internet with him even when he has it on his own phone. Like he watches movies using my internet and yells when I don't give it. I mean, he was being a dick about it just yesterday. So uhh..... I'm going to get my revenge :) The next time he needs it, he ain't getting it from me. And one extra diabolical step would be changing the passwords to both my parents phones, so he would be royally fucked. That would teach him a lesson.
We got a new mattress for our bed, but it stinks. It legit stinks. I can't take it anymore.
I don't know why I keep saying those words and I'm sorry if it's annoying the imaginary people are not really reading this (because no one cares about my crap), but that is my situation right now.
I've been running on three hours of sleep for the past two days, have a 4 assignments due tomorrow (one of which I already told the teacher I fucked up), and have exams next week. Confidence level is lower than ever (never good to begin with), but I keep getting screwed by my classmates for degrading myself so often. And I could really use a drink right now.
A BIG OL PRAYER THAT EVERYTHING WORKS OUT FOR U HALLIE <3333
princess maggie wrote: "A BIG OL PRAYER THAT EVERYTHING WORKS OUT FOR U HALLIE "MAGGIE I READ THAT AS PLAYER OMG
HHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH OMG YES A BIG OL PLAYER
Aw thanks, but this girl is too obstinate to accept prayers.Although I did get to sleep and finished most of my assignments, so yeah.
Hallie Finds Me Entertaining
I haven't updated this because I'm a crazy maniac right now who just wants to drop dead as soon as she reaches home. A lot has happened. By a lot, I mean a lot. I don't even remember half of it.
Let me start with yesterday. I walked into my journalism class scared to death because I had a group discussion, and I did not care for the topic my group was assigned. Turns out nobody in the group knew anything, so we were all frantically looking at our phones and collecting information when our teacher called for group 2. We continued to do our research and when group 2 finished, we were so unprepared.
And then she called group 4. They protested saying that group 1 (my group) should be doing it, but she said that she never mentioned which group was supposed to do it, and that all the groups should have been prepared. And like that, I was saved.
We had more seminars in Psychology, but my team is supposed to do it tomorrow, so I just sat back and relaxed. After all the groups due that day finished, the teacher came up and said, "So I graded your quizzes, and most of you did bad. Only a third received acceptable marks." She handed out the graded papers, and all the my friends were getting marks like 2.5, 5, 6, 7, and the highest was 8.5. I still hadn't received mine. Others had comments to meet her. I was so sure I was dead when she finally gave me back mine, and the minute I saw it, everyone around me started glaring at me while I laughed hysterically. It said 8.5 with 'Good job' and a smiley drawn. I couldn't believe it. P went on to publicise my marks and that was so funny.
I didn't have class the next hour, so P and I went to the library and made notes. She also managed to get a picture on me and post it on every single social media she had, so I was just like, "Why do you take pictures of my ugly face?!" And that became a big deal because apparently no one can deal my negativity anymore. Then we had literature, which was pretty fun.
So then after our last classes, F and I went to the food court, drank a cup of tea, and simply did nothing before going home. I went home with the intention of working on the discussion topic, but what I did was walk around my room. Finally, it got pretty late, and P texted saying goodnight. I said the same and began to watch YouTube videos. An hour later, she was still up being her random self, asking if I was annoyed with her. I said I found her entertaining rather than annoying. Guess what she did!
She put that up as her fucking story! "Okay, apparently Hallie finds me entertaining so I can now die in peace!" I actually logged off before she put that up, so I hadn't realized say had happened. I woke up this morning and was waiting at the bus stop when I checked my messages and saw that someone had sent me a picture. I hadn't saved the number, but it was C. He took a screenshot of her story and said, "Brush." I was like..... I wanna die right now. And then I expressed my surprise to P, but yeah, she is a pretty strange person. Just like moi.
Since we reached today, let me mention that I managed to fuck up that group discussion because I got nervous, started trembling on the inside, and stared at C and another girl's faces without uttering a word unless asked. Therefore, I ended up with the lowest score the teacher gave. And I still have that Psychology presentation with C and two others, and I've only talked to two of them to ask what they want to do. So basically, I'm screwed again.
Another incident today was when a friend got a candid picture of me, and I looked like I was stressed out or something, so now everyone gets to see that ugly face of mine. And then, during lunch, P stole me phone and posted a group photo that we took a few weeks back on my Instagram page, and everybody joined hands to stop me from deleting it. I mean I was literally wrestling with P in front of half the class to get my phone back. It was hilarious and I look ugly as fuck, but at the same time, I'm kinda having fun with these people. It's a lot less lonely - especially in comparison to my *friends* from school 2.
I don't want to go back to my family.
Why do bad things happen to good people?Yesterday, my dad's cousin (?) called him while he was at work, crying. Her husband had been sick for a while, so my dad called her sister and asked what happened. He was in the ICU. My dad decided to call and check once again in the evening, but by the time he came home and called, nobody was picking up. My mum tried called another one of those sisters, but the only information we got was that they were still in England because the recorded messages were in English instead of Welsh. After a while, my dad's brother called to inform that he passed away. As soon as he hung up, another person called to tell him. Right after that, his uncle called. Apparently he was a really good man and everyone loved him so much that people thought it was unfair. So my dad and I searched for flights, but since those were too expensive, he ended up taking a bus there to attend him funeral. They suspect he had blood cancer, but no one knew that until after he died. I'm not kidding; everybody loves him. Obviously I don't know who he is even though I might have seen him, but not a single person can think of anything bad in his character - and this was even before he died, so it's not out of respect.
Thanks. I didn't really know him that well (or at all for that matter), but it's just sad to know the world lost someone good.
I just thought of checking and saw this. I am sorry Hallie.
Anywho, did I mentioned that I'm fucked? Well, I'm fucked. My internal assessments started today, and we have two papers per day.So for today, I didn't quite study for the first paper because it's a soft core paper with 30 multiple choice questions, so I just randomly selected answers that I thought sounded okay. The second one was Psychology and I swear I lost my mind studying it. The thing is I actually knew everything on the question paper, but I didn't have time to attempt any extra questions, and I'm starting to suspect I messed up the ones that I wrote. I just hope I pass - hopefully with a good grade, but that's too much to ask.
Aaaand here's the problem: I have two annoying papers tomorrow. The first one is Irish, which I was compelled to take, and I assure you I do not know shit. I just don't understand what they teach and what the lessons even are. Like..... Ugh! The next one is journalism, and while I like it, this time, it's rather heavy and mundane, so it's hard to memorize. It's mostly history and facts, which otherwise, would be fun, but since we had different professors and a lot of confusion, it's just tiring and frustrating. These two I'm definitely going to fail.....
Ahana~ wrote: "I just thought of checking and saw this. I am sorry Hallie."Ahanaaaa!!!!
Uh thanks.
A lot has happened - and hopefully I don't jinx this, but I finally found a place I'm having fun. I probably don't fit in, but people are really trying to get me to join in, and I don't feel lonely that often thanks to them :)But then, right now, I'm dying, lol.....
All my friends have heard from me today is, "I'm fucked. Please kill me. Here's knife; kill me."
I happy for you! Stay happy love! You deserve it!!And don't die! Good thing will surely happen now!
Aw! Oh, how have you been? I did see your announcement in the Harry Potter group, and boy, you seem sooo busy!Well, dying is the only way out. No wait, it's the only answer. If I don't die now, I'll die/be killed when results come out.
I have been very tired! Yes I have been busy. I underestimated the work load XD now it's puja time so I am free kind of.NO DON'T DIE! IF I EVER GO TO UK I WANNA MEET YOU
Ahana~ wrote: "I just thought of checking and saw this. I am sorry Hallie."AHANA OMG HEY!!
btw i was Kavy but i go by alex now
Ahana~ wrote: "I have been very tired! Yes I have been busy. I underestimated the work load XD now it's puja time so I am free kind of.NO DON'T DIE! IF I EVER GO TO UK I WANNA MEET YOU"
Well, I hope you get some burden off your shoulders! And glad to hear that you're free now :) You deserve the break.
Oh well, I'm not that interesting to meet anyway.
Socializing at Uni
Today was strange....
It started with me walking to the bus stop. There is this lady my mum knows who is deaf and mute. So she and another lady stood near her house which is on the way to the bus stop. The other lady called me over and asked if I was in the uni she thought I was in. I said yes, and that's when she asked if I could deliver a phone to someone in the admissions office. I was so blank. I said yes, so she called that guy, made me give him my number, and I left with a cover in my bag to deliver. Just as I reached the gate, he called and told me where he was waiting, and I gave it to him. So uh.... I've legit never seen him before and apparently he works there. That was just strange.
So then I went to the examination hall, but they wouldn't let us in. I was standing outside when a girl I know from my Irish class came over and asked if I was prepared because my first exam for today was Irish. I said I'm screwed. Now here's the funny part. We have this lesson about some animal. I mean the title has that word in it; the whole lesson is on it, and my teacher spent two hours talking about it, but all I knew was that it's an animal. So I asked this girl, "What on earth is this?" She was just like, "You're kidding me, right?! You don't even know that!?"
The next strange thing was when this girl, the leader of my group presentation from awhile ago, came asking for some water. After I gave it to her, she asked if I had some cash. She wanted a cup of coffee, but had no money, so I gave it to her because she really needed that caffeine. Later, when I was waiting for the paper, I heard her scream at someone, "I don't have cash. Why don't you understand? Even the coffee I bought was with the money I borrowed from Hallie!" I learnt later that her friend had walked into P's room, crying and was in tears throughout the exam. At first P thought she broke up with her boyfriend and felt weird asking that because that guy is in most of our classes, but when I said this, she said it could be related.
I suppose now it's clear how that exam went. I gave up on it early and rushed out of the classroom because I was ordered to run away from P's roommate, who sits behind me for exams. P and I spent ten minutes trying to find a spot where her roommate wouldn't us, and then sat in this secluded garden far away from our block. And then we studied journalism from scratch. It was mostly history, and turns out P isn't great with history, so 1890 became 1980, 1795 became 1818. It was a mess. At one point, I saw this wire hanging and contemplated hanging myself before I mess that up.
I went into the exam hall again thinking, "Oh boy, I'm doomed. I'm failing this as well." Then the question paper appeared and I happened to know three out of four questions pretty well, and I could still write the first question. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, but I still think I'm going to flunk. On the way out, the girl who asked for cash accompanied us till the gate, and we were talking about random stuff going on in uni. Some of that tea, though....
After that, I went to P's dorm. We were actually supposed to study for the next test, but what we planned to study was too simple, so we ended up watching A Quiet Place before I left.
So that's pretty much my day. Looks like I have a better social life after coming to uni xP I just have been up to things I don't usually do.
Ahana~ wrote: "ALEX!!!!YOU ARE AMAZING HALS"
Nah!
Alex is amazing, though. So are you.
samejust realized there’s someone (may or may not have commented on here recently) who has had me blocked since freshman year for something stupid that she did but didn’t want to accept that. damn.
Halsss you are amazing!!! And so is Alex! Everyone is amazing!!Are you referring to me? 👀 Hey I haven't been online much for a year!🙈
If it's me, I don't remember doing anything stupid though 🤣🤣🤣🤣
These days my face is an oil factory. I am rubbing astringent all the time OMG.
you know whatif you don't remember i'm not gonna bring it up.
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