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Hallie wrote: " Alex ~They/them~ ~Annabeth Chase is a legend~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Alex, I just don't want to say something stupid on there.Deepthi:
Yep!
Whaat on earth?! I'm pretty sure I said they are! Go..."
not at the moment
Alex ~They/them~ ~Annabeth Chase is a legend~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: " Alex ~They/them~ ~Annabeth Chase is a legend~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Alex, I just don't want to say something stupid on there.Deepthi:
Yep!
Whaat on earth?! I'm pretty sure I sa..."
Well, just think of one by the time I take over the world :)
Tomorrow is my mum's birthday, so I have a huge list of insults for her birthday present.
Yep, Worst Daughter of the Century goes to Hallie Aurora *insert my surname*!
Although I wonder whose idea it was to add "Aurora". Like Aurora? Seriously? Which other kid were they thinking of when they thought, "Oh, let's make it Hallie, which none of her relatives bother to pronounce right, and Aurora, which sounds so weird and does not suit her whatsoever?
Hallie wrote: "DenBasically, that weird classmate asked H my marks, and H said she didn't know. H just found it creepy that she wanted to know out of the blue. Like sorry, girl, but Hallie is the one who's goin..."
Oh, and this one is legit afraid to continue the conversation xD
I finally finished Game of Thrones.
Others: I use this product on my face for acne, this when I go outdoors, this when I'm the bedroom, this when I'm in the bath, this when I'm in the kitchen.Me: I wash my face with warm water while having a bath and forget its existence until I see my reflection on my phone and scream in fright.
Turns out speaking to yourself in third person makes you wiser :) I can't wait for some intellectually inferior person in Wales to mock me for talking in third person!
My favourite pastimes include reading, listening to music, making songs, watching series, writing, and of course, trying to find all the different ways I can shun anything Welsh related.
I like the fact that Blackpink's anniversary is on the 8th of August :)
It's August 9th :)My ovaries decided to self-destruct and I look, feel and am absolute crap, but it's August 9th.
There is one (1) reason for the world to be happy today and that reason is because its Hallie's birthday!
Not just that, but also technically you graduated from Hogwarts and you're an adult now ^^ Congratulations, we've been waiting a long time for you on this other side of the shore.
I'm actually so proud of you for making it this far, since life isn't easy at all. I don't know how you've been since I've barely used this website this year, and I'm bad with advice but let me tell you my year of being 18 has had happy ups and huge, huge downs.
Obviously we won't experience the same stuff but the downs might include a lot of expectations, such as "You're an adult now, why can't you solve this??" "How are you supposed to survive in the outside world in the state that you're in?" Its not just other people, it might even be you asking yourself that question and growing frustrated because you thought you'd be able to finally pay your own rent and move out the next day when you were still 17 like, eight hours ago and you still have chemistry class. Thing is, you can be 28 and still be clueless in organizing your room, and everyone grows at their own pace, so take things one at a time.
Arguments with parents might not make sense sometimes, because they will expect you to suddenly know stuff, 'treat you like an adult' but its going to feel slightly terrible. Also if you think you're allowed to talk back to anyone, well in your dreams I guess :D Best solution is to stay wise and as mad as people can make you sometimes, stay out of drama in family or social circles because seriously life is short and you don't want to waste a day of your life blowing steam on matters that aren't going to matter in five years.
Do you still write? I hope so. It really helps with stress (especially if you like doing it in the first place), and if you're ever feeling like it you could look back on your old writing and compare it with your new works. Not so that you'll slap your forehead and go 'I should've used this word instead of ____!!' or be unsatisfied or cringe, but you'll notice the growth and change in yourself because I bet if you write about the same thing or use the same character now, your thought process is going to different. It's an interesting thing—at least that's how I find it.
Try stepping out of your comfort zone, use your OCs and make them do the craziest things. It feels strangely relieving; I ended up rewriting their profiles and got to know them better. In the process I got to know myself better too.
The upside of being 18 is that you're more self-conscious, but in a good way. There's things you're going to be more confident about, and you sort of feel like a senior shouldering responsibility next to anyone younger than you. You have yet to see the world, but at the same time you've seen lots. "Are you 18?" "Yes." WHO KNEW THIS DAY WOULD COME. It feels weird even saying it but ADMIT IT you're smug.
You're stronger than you think, and I know you're going to fare better than most of us on your own :') Look how far you've come ajabsjbfjyc I'm really proud of you. I'm inserting Lucy here and there but I kind of also see a little Erza in you? You've both got a strong sense of justice and take on battles like a boss.
Good luck at school and good luck in life. If you need anyone to talk to we'll be here, and you can also look up "How to Adult" on tumblr. Lastly I can't believe you didn't tell me you finished GoT, and I hope you were at least disappointed in the season finale as much as I was or else I'm questioning my Friends list.
Stay awesome💜
SHINE wrote: "HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HALLIE!"Thank you so much, Shine!!!! 😊😊😊
May͛a [semi-hiatus] wrote: "There is one (1) reason for the world to be happy today and that reason is because its Hallie's birthday!
Not just that, but also technically you graduated from Hogwarts and you're an adult now ..."
I'm laughing. I'm laughing too much. I'm laughing so much I might start crying. These are just words xD
Oh wait a minute, I'm an adult?!?! *sucks on lollipop* What?! When?! How?! I'm going to memorize all that advice because I ain't surviving life without help from you and others. And you're one of the wisest people I know.
So this birthday girl also happens to be doing English lit and journalism, so she gets to write plenty. Plenty. Hopefully it won't get too stressful, but once again, advice noted that writing is amazing therapy.
*laughs hysterically* You're going to do better than me! Candidly, though, sometimes I do think I have a bit of Erza, so you're probably right. I just lose those battles pretty easily, though 😅😅
And please, teach me the art of finding the right GIFs! These are perfect! I spend an eternity every time I need them - this message included.
They really have "How to Adult" on Tumblr? Why am I surprised? Why am I so naive? I already suck at being an adult and it hasn't even been 24 hours. I mean thank you existing and being my friend! I just finished it two days ago, and I'm still very disappointed by the ending, so I could not stop rolling my eyes and tell you. Oh, you don't have to worry about your friends list; I'm sure I'm on the same page as you. What the bloody hell was that?!?! I expected something........ A lot, lot, lot, lot, lot, lot better.
And thank you!!!! :D You're awesome!
"So baby, come light me up and baby I'll let you on it
A little bit dangerous, but baby, that's how I want it
A little less conversation, and a little more touch my body
'Cause I'm so into you, into you, into you."
~ Into You, Ariana Grande
It's August 9th!
I woke up this morning too afraid to get out of bed and start the day. People are going to do their best to be nice to me - that much I know, but I'm not exactly kind to myself. I woke up long before my dad walked into the bedroom with hopes to wish me before he left for work, through which I pretended to be asleep because I was just too mentally exhausted already. I pretended to not hear Mum ask my brother to sponsor the pancakes she wanted to buy for breakfast. I pretended to be asleep for the longest time before I started feeling cold and lonely.
Perhaps it's self-centered, perhaps it's jejune, and perhaps it's stupid; my birthday will always be my favourite day of the year. It's the only - I repeat - only day people don't ignore me. It's the only day people give a damn about me. Any other day, I'm a transparent ghost. On August 9th, though, I'm Hallie, the birthday girl. I exist. That's why I got up - because I'm not letting my messed up mindset ruin that day I have been waiting for my entire life. The one day I mark in my calender with a purple smiley.
I stirred and made some noise to let them know I was awake. At 7 in the morning on a holiday, I kind of wished I had slept in. I even went to late super late to meet that intention, but guess what. I just can't sleep like a normal person. To this, I was greeted with nonsensical syllables from my brother, which only we know, translates to "Happy birthday, you idiot! Mum and Dad left me all alone at midnight with the caretaker for you."
Mum's greeting followed, too, and when she touched my hand, she had to make sure if I had a fever or something, because my hands were too warm to be mine. My hands are usually ice cold, which earned me the nickname Elsa back in school, but they were just so warm she half believed I was sick on my birthday.
I wasn't, but I wasn't doing that great either. My period, which was supposed to have come last month, finally came on that one day I did not want it to come on. Although it's kind of weird right now and not really flowing at all, but it makes my already ugly face look uglier thanks to hormonal acne. Thank you for that, ovary!
My phone lit up to show "August 9, 2019", and that was when I realized that it's still my favourite day every single year. It's just something in my head telling me that it's just a nice day even if it's too hot, or even if millions of people died at the same time in a different country.
And then I put up a birthday message for my cousin because we're birthday twins :) She replied wishing me as well, following which both of us got wishes from the rest of the family. Soon S put up a message on Instagram and I received messages from people I haven't talked to in years wishing me after seeing S's story. See? I exist only on this day. Cousin M has this picture of her, the other cousin whose birthday is today, and me standing together as kids, and I look soooooo cute in that. Like I was trying to smile, but I don't have that pretty smile or whatever; yet it's so cute I want to strangle myself as a kid.I want to strangle myself now as well, but for different reasons.Oh, K and M wished me as well, but not because they remember - because they saw my post for my cousin.
Anywho, S asked if I'd be free at around 11, and she called. We talked after almost a month. We actually wanted to do a video chat with H too, but that one was still asleep, so we might do it tomorrow or something. As soon as we stopped talking, another cousin called, but my mum went outside and as you all know, I'm not exactly very good at socialising. Except with H and S and my family, to whom I issue death threats for existing. And she got another call, so she said she'd call later. Mum is talking to her right now.
I did get a panic attack. I'm still scared. I still want to drop dead, but not today. Perhaps tomorrow? I felt happy for a while, but then I felt lonely and sad. I just felt like a bother to so many people. I just don't.....
Well, at least I can finally drink and drive legally now. Of course, not simultaneously, but you get the point. And tattoos. And, I don't know, maybe my "maturity" will finally be accepted as an adult thing. (I don't understand this. Too many people think I'm mature or something, but I swear I'm a 2 year old in heart and mind. Lollipops are my favourite candy. What is wrong with people?)
Anyway, it's August 9th! :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HALLIE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH
So people, the minute the day changed and it was no longer my birthday, I fell sick :) Lost half the contents in my stomach and will probably lose the rest if I get out of this bed.This is amazing!
Hallie wrote: "Alex, I just don't want to say something stupid on there.Deepthi:
Yep!
Whaat on earth?! I'm pretty sure I said they are! Goodreads is sabotaging my posts!!!
We don't know for sure."
Slr...
Nope!!
*grins*
Goodreads is good then, hehe :D
True, but I'm still sticking to No.
How are you btw?
And I know I'm late (I'm really sorry.... My freaking computer stopped working Dx), but, Happieeeeeeeee Birthdayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!Check your PMs for the gift :)
Deepthi wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Alex, I just don't want to say something stupid on there.Deepthi:
Yep!
Whaat on earth?! I'm pretty sure I said they are! Goodreads is sabotaging my posts!!!
We don't know for su..."
Yep!
Bad Goodreads!!! :/
And I'll stick to yes.
Uh well, a bit sick and bummed out. What about you?
Deepthi wrote: "And I know I'm late (I'm really sorry.... My freaking computer stopped working Dx), but, Happieeeeeeeee Birthdayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!Check your PMs for the gift :)"
Aww thank you!!!! Wait, I get a gift?
Tamra wrote: "I'm back everyone!!!!"Tamra!!!!
You probably have a billion PMs to attend to xD
Hallie wrote: "Deepthi wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Alex, I just don't want to say something stupid on there.Deepthi:
Yep!
Whaat on earth?! I'm pretty sure I said they are! Goodreads is sabotaging my posts!!!
We d..."
Nope!
Nuuuu :/
Nope.
Same here...
Sick, I mean.
Hallie wrote: "Deepthi wrote: "And I know I'm late (I'm really sorry.... My freaking computer stopped working Dx), but, Happieeeeeeeee Birthdayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!Check your PMs for the gift :)..."
Anytime ^^
Of course!! <3
Deepthi: Yep!xD
Yep.
And thanks once again!!! I love you!
Damn! That sucks :( I hope you feel better soon!
Tam: Lol xD
Nope!xD
Well, GR is correct though :)
Anytiiime ^^
Love chu too~ <3
Thanks, Hallie :)
Same goes to you :)
Deepthi wrote: "Nope!xD
Well, GR is correct though :)
Anytiiime ^^
Love chu too~ <3
Thanks, Hallie :)
Same goes to you :)"
Yep!
Not this time.... xD
:D
Thank you, too!
I was supposed to go out for lunch with my brother today, but we cancelled it because I'm sick.
well when it comes to something with u
Well, that's probably cause it is fine.
I'm 90% sure that's what will happen.
Aaand I'm back to "Okay, you're alright physically, Hallie. Dammit I thought you'd die!" mode again.
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