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A Solivagant on the Inselberg
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Hallie
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Jun 07, 2019 06:01AM
I suppose a lot of people thought that I was finally dead and don't bother them anymore in person. I went to the beach yesterday evening and my cousin took a candid photo of me, which I put up as my Instagram story. The photo itself is weird as hell, but it's the less worse than the other ones. K surprised me by responding with an emoji, and I honestly didn't expect that. S and I had an arguement when she said I looked nice and I said that I look weird and stupid. H replied saying, "U r alive!" so I expressed that I indeed am alive and apologized for the disappointment that information causes. And then today, Coffee Boy just texted me. But I feel like crap because I learnt that my aunt deduced something about me and spread rumours based on the same. Turns out that she is patronising me for the same, and I kind of want to walk over and yell at her, but if I or anyone could, they would have done it long ago.
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When I get back home, I'm going to do it.
Tomorrow. I'm going back home tomorrow :)
*walks into thread and begins to cry*
Hallie wrote: "*walks into thread and begins to cry*"*hugs you tightly*
Shh.... What happened? *gives a glass of water*
I need to stay here for one more freaking day -_- I want to go home. I'm still resisting the urge to rip out my aunt's vocal cord, and now I'm supposed to stay here one extra day?!
My mum and brother are so stupid. They were supposed to have booked that ticket long back, but they kept postponing it to the last minute like idiots. Like who does that?!
There... weren't any tickets available for tomorrow..?
Apparently I've turned a few shades darker, and it's weird because I rarely even go out of this room.
And some weird insect bit my brother last night so he ended up coming to sleep between Mum and me on the floor. Except that insect was on our bed thingie too. It's literally everywhere, and I hate it.
"Why don't you stay another week?"I have a dentist appointment I'd rather go to than stay here, and if I didn't have it, you'd have to transport my dead body back to London because I somehow managed to learn the art of accumulating toxins in my body. And this is after multiple attempts to kill myself with other chemicals.
Well okay I still have two half days left of school but I basically made it through the year Hal!! I'll be an hour ahead of your time zone soon and able to talk to you in the morning :) I'm sorry to hear about being stuck there but how have things been going otherwise?
Alia! Well, that's no surprise :D Of course you'd make it through the year! I now need to recalculate time differences again then (as if that would help). Anyway, uh uh uh.... Let's skip to how have you been?
How am I up at 7 in the morning on a Sunday? I basically overslept most of the week.
My mum, grandma and uncle are fighting, so my brother and I are cooped up in one room pretending we don't exist.
So my brother and I want to go to the beach. He wanted to go yesterday, but we were super late after visiting my dad's uncle, and Grandma would worry if we went, so we decided to go today. I was going to trim my nails before we leave, but the above people starting fighting, so I didn't want to go outside. When they finally stopped, I trimmed my nails and changed my pyjamas (which ripped, by the way, even though it's literally only the second time I'm wearing it), our eldest cousin came with his wife and two daughters, so we're both stuck here like, "We want to go, we have permission to go, but it feels weird to go when everyone's here."
And my cousin's wife of dentist, so she was taking a look at how straight my teeth already look while my cousin had never even realized that my teeth were screwed up and that I needed braces. So that's weird. His father didn't see the need for me to get braces too, so I don't understand why the other non-dentist people in my family couldn't shut up about my poor teeth.
Speaking of which, the first day I arrived, my aunt asked whether they extracted two teeth (yeah, everyone is obsessed with my teeth and now everyone simply needs to take a close look at my braces :/), I replied that I had to sacrifice four innocent teeth so that they can be straight and I hopefully won't murder someone for pointing it out (okay, that's a lot of bullshit, but I did four). So my aunt was like, "Oh, as if it matters. Don't you have other teeth." Ahem! How about I knock out four teeth in your mouth, Aunt? Would you like that? -_-
Same aunt also has the heart to spread rumours about me, which was just mean because I swear I've never done anything to her to deserve it. Like how? All my other relatives were pissed because how the fuck do you have the heart to say stuff like that about Hallie? For all they know, I'm an innocent little ball of cotton.
I'm annoyed because it's one of the reasons why I hate coming here, and to become part of some stupid thing like this only makes me want to never step foot here ever - even if someone here drops dead. Secondly, she has no fucking idea how many fucking times I tried to kill myself just thinking about something like that. Thirdly, as if my insomnia isn't tiring enough, as if nightmares aren't mentally and emotionally draining enough, I'm going to back to having five to six nightmares every night after finally having managed to reduce it to two.
Oh wait, we're going to beach in fifteen minutes, so I'll continue this rant after I come back. Probably tomorrow, because once my brother has waves hitting his feet, he won't come out unless I drag him with a machine.
Haha it was a tough year though... but I learned a lot outside of school. And aww! :( I hope you're okay! We had to do a titration lab the other day and I thought of you lol.
Well, I'll be on your continent soon and I have only one more exam that doesn't even count for a class grade so... You could say I'm pretty good! I'm also transferring schools next year (not sure if I told you) and so excited for that.
Although Mr. Knox's reaction has been mixed (always hilarious though). One day he's like "you're abandoning and betraying us!" and another he's like "yeah go Alia get the hell out of here!" Lol XD
Also so sorry about the teeth and nightmares. One of my parents can relate to the tooth pain and I can relate to the nightmares.
Eh well, I think I had a pretty bad year end, so I can relate to it being tough. But hooray you're finally free! :DI'll.... I don't know. Agh! Agh! Agh! I'm never doing another titration again in my life, so that's all in the past! xD
I figured xP I still pretty much suck at calculating time zones because I'm uh me. Good luck with that exam! I'm sure you'll do great even if it doesn't count :) Oh, glad to know! I think you did mention that you are transferring schools; I hope that turns out to be a better experience!
Haha xD I suppose there won't be any more Mr. Knox stories, so I am quite disappointed about that bit. He's entertaining even to someone across the sea.
Ugh I'm sorry too! Did you parent get the tooth pain checked? I hope it gets better. And really sorry about the nightmares as well :(
We came back within an hour, so everyone is surprised. The truth is there were high tides and the sand had pretty much disappeared. It looked more like a cliff, and to get to the water, we'd hand to jump. The problem is the tides were still higher than usual, and not only were we concerned whether it would wash us away, but also we wouldn't be able climb back up. So we didn't go into the waters because I bet if anyone else was with the two of us, they would have not let us go.On the other hand, a huge fish got washed to the shore, but we couldn't take a closer look because of the cliff like sand. It was really huge - possibly bigger than us, but there was no blood and it's face was disfigured. It had some horn thingies, which my brother thinks could be because someone tried to hunt it or something. I took a lot of pictures to show someone who might be able to recognize it, but as of now, no one quite understood what it was. But my brother and I are the only ones who got to see it, so let's say they all just missed it xP
I'm going home today!!!!! Not like I'm going to do great there, but at least I had punch walls and get immersed in my usual self-destructive crap there.
I'm back! I threw up four times, and it's never worth the travel, but does anyone listen? Nope.
I missed this bed so much. Totally don't miss anything or anyone at Wales! It's so weird how some people come back and say, "I miss my cousins! I had so much fun!" Dude, I was watching grass grow whilst counting the number of seconds before I can come back home.
Boy, I do hate my parents' hometown with a passion!
I used to hate my dad's place because it was boring there and I was the outcast. I still need to figure out why exactly I hate my mum's place now, but I'd rather not, because I think whatever the reason is, it would make me sound like a monster.
Friend: The last thing you googled will kill you. What will kill you?Me: *remembers the last thing I googled* Suicide by overdose from over-the-counter medications.
Me: Drug overdose.
Friend: That's very very hard to believe xD
You'd be surprised my friend.
Although said friend did once ask me years ago how to get rid of suicidal thoughts, so I'm guessing it won't be harmful to confide in her.
😅 My mum's teeth hurt, so I'm supposed to take her to the dentist to get them extracted. But I have an appointment for my braces the day after tomorrow, and those people know my family's dental history more than us....
I ended up getting an appointment for today.
She legit took five seconds to pull out my mum's teeth. On the other hand, the guy who pulled mine legit wrestled with my teeth using three different appliances.
Should I insist that Mum stay back when I go? Mum says that if Dad comes home early, she won't come because he will take me, but he doesn't know that I got an appointment today.
Robert wrote: "Hallie wrote: "The next person to tell me how to eat, breathe, walk, talk and shit, I'm strangling to death.""
xD
Robert wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Should I insist that Mum stay back when I go? Mum says that if Dad comes home early, she won't come because he will take me, but he doesn't know that I got an appointment today."th..."
Not really. I can go by myself.
I had to Google the name Adam West to understand it.
Okay, I'm too dumb to understand these, so enough of that.
Hey! My braces are tightened, and while it's not so bad, it's a tad bit uncomfortable. I'll tell you what's bad, though. My depression and suicidal tendencies.
Oh, the orthodontist said that my teeth have improved pretty well, and that I might be able to get braces for the lower jaw as well next month.
Except when I told my mum, she said, "Oh then what a waste of money if it's so fast!" And I like, "I didn't ask for it."
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