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A Solivagant on the Inselberg
Sorry, ignore me. I haven't slept properly in days.
Part of me wants to stay up all night for the next week just so I can add the final touches the my distorted mind, but the other part knows I'll end up crying all night and get into trouble if I don't force myself into sleeping every night.
But hurray to insomnia and anxiety for making me toss and turn for hours before finally staying still for 15 minutes just so I'd fall asleep. And hurray to those again for waking me up with nightmares after a few hours so that I can repeat the whole fucking cycle again.
Apparently my cousin's younger sister was the one who paid for everything for his engagement.... Mum has been stressing on that part for quite a loooooong time. Should I mention that I'm still a baby?
Like um, hi! I'm still banned from every
Hallie, you'll be fine. You don't have to kill yourself.
"Sometimes your pessimism is just too much to handle, Hallie."Imagine the condition of the mind that encloses all that pessimism then.
Oh, and today's L's birthday. My grandfather's too, but I'm not sure if that's actually true. They could have just put it in his obituary. Considering how both my parents have fake birthdays, it's hard to trust birthdates of people born before the 1980's unless they have concrete proof.
Hallie wrote: "Another reason why my parents are not the best. I'm forced to go to school even when I'm sick :/"me too
"Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright, because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright, because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie."
~ Love The Way You Lie, Eminem ft. Rihanna
My braces are poking me and I have an interview tomorrow.
I also realized that everyone who "confessed" to me
Hallie wrote: "I also realized that everyone who "confessed" to me without even knowing me, except for one person are either mad at me, or not talking to me right now."??
But I have a reputation for antagonizing people, so yeah.
Uh I mentioned something in particular.
Poison. I need poison. The quickest acting poison.
I need to go to a therapist, gynaecologist and who knows some other doctor, but I'll just sit here and die on my own.
Turns out Coffee Boy tried to vlog a year ago, and I watched his first one just to see what kind of a person he was, but lol.Just lol.
Worse xDM___________ is behind my blood rn, so yeah...
Wonderful day, ig.
Crap! Well, she will get your blood only over my dead body, and trust me, I stay alive for my friends.
Hallie wrote: "Deepthi wrote: "Hi btwIt's sorta been long..."
Hey! A lot has been going on here, but I did miss you!
☯Phoenix~They/them-I'm here, I'm queer, and I wanna have chocolate-Having Transgender friend..."
hi i'm late but i want to fight her
Alexxxxxxx!!!!!!!!!! Hey!!!!!!!! I'll take a look at that link when I find my earphones.
I had an exhaustingly crappy day yesterday; parts of my body hurt because my brother kicked me, my head hurts as usual, and I have to get rid of blood from my clothes yet again.....
Hallie wrote: "Crap! Well, she will get your blood only over my dead body, and trust me, I stay alive for my friends."Thank you :)
Hallie wrote: "I had an exhaustingly crappy day yesterday; parts of my body hurt because my brother kicked me, my head hurts as usual, and I have to get rid of blood from my clothes yet again....."*hugs and offers some water*
I don't see any bruises or anything. Then why do they hurt?
I didn't like Tyrion much in the books, but Peter Dinklage makes me love his character.
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Hallie, I has new phone
Hallie wrote: "Thanks...."Anytime :)
Phoenix - Wow cool!!!!!! Deepthi - :)
I might've been responsible for something...I... guess i scared myself... *hugs tightly and sniffs a bit*
Almost was responsible, but no...I'm not...
Our brains do sometimes tend to take blame ourselves for something we had no part in, so whatever it is, it probably isn't all your responsibility.
I... could've been responsible for the suicide of an online friend of mine... :'(She... sort of told something, and my brain... ugh!! :'(
You didn't tell her to go die, did you? Or that you wouldn't care if she did? Or be the reason why?
She's a really close friend of mine... she was upset, i asked her why and... she said that today was her last day...she wasn't online after that, and i sort of connected the dots, and... yeah...
thankfully, i was mistaken...
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Because it's killing me every time people look at me and ask why I'm not more like my brother.