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[Lynx ~ 10/1 Never Forgotten]

Well yeah, credit cards can't usually be opened before 18. But that doesn't mean something else cant be worked out.

Emancipation is a start, though....
Hmm... military? I had a friend who joined the military at 17

[Hallie]

I'm texting my friend at 5 in the morning xD She's going to think I'm a sleepless vampire.

[Hallie]

Lynx ~ 10/1 Never Forgetten wrote: "Well yeah, credit cards can't usually be opened before 18. But that doesn't mean something else cant be worked out.

Emancipation is a start, though....
Hmm... military? I had a friend who joined..."

Not going to work. Trust me, I've thought about it.

I'm a wimp; I'm not really the brave and patriotic person.

[Lynx ~ 10/1 Never Forgotten]

That sucks. Well just hang in there I guess. :/

Lol me either.....

[Hallie]

Almost time to get up!

[Hallie]

Now I'm sleepy -_-

[Lynx ~ 10/1 Never Forgotten]

Then catch some sleep. A little sleep is better than none...

[Hallie]

No, I can't sleep now.

[Hallie]

My morning just sucks. I dropped my phone, probably caused a lot of pain to others, and keep lashing at people :(

[Hallie]

[Hallie]

Bored....

[Hallie]

What a nice place the world would be if I didn't exist!

[Alia ~you are not your anxiety~]

That only applies to a few people, and you're defs not one of them. Actually, there is no one I know personally who I'd say that is true for. Just some of the people in power in the world.

[Hallie]

Well, you do know one person who you could include in that list because I am one definitely amongst those few people.

[Hallie]

I wonder if these are just symptoms of some serious disease....

[Hallie]

"I would be a liar
If I said I was fine
But I can't help being honest
And I know now is not the time"

~ Lie A Little Better, Lucy Hale

[Hallie]

I forget how big of a pain I am and try to act like I'm not a fool.

[Lynx ~ 10/1 Never Forgotten]

It could be, Hallie. It could very well be some kind of chemical imbalance/hormones. It's common. Have you tried seeking any professional help about it? I feel awkward asking but maybe that's the step you may need to take to make it through.

[Hallie]

Nope, and I don't think my parents will believe me if I say I feel sick. The last time I told my mum I was sick, she thought I was lying to not escape eating breakfast -_-

[Lynx ~ 10/1 Never Forgotten]

Well it isn't a sickness like that. It's something kinda worse, Hallie. I know you don't get along but you should probably talk to them about it. At the very least is there someone at your school you could talk to? Either someone who works there or a parent of a friend who could help you get in touch with someone?

[Hallie]

They'll just ignore me. If I make it to the official first day of school, I'll try and talk to the counsellor.

[Hallie]

*sighs deeply* Tomorrow is Wednesday.... I'm looking at a long, stressful, depressing day..... And it's still today. *sighs again*

[Lynx ~ 10/1 Never Forgotten]

Hallie wrote: "They'll just ignore me. If I make it to the official first day of school, I'll try and talk to the counsellor."

Awesome. <3 Nice to see some kind of battle plan. And if you dont think you'll make it that far, please consider committing yourself. At least it would give you the help and attention you need. <3

[Hallie]

The odds of me doing is next to 0. I don't even know where the counsellor's cell is.

[Hallie]

My right hand hates me. It won't stop hurting me, abs I think it wants to be cut right off.

[Hallie]

And I'm back to I want to hurt myself again....

[Jingle ❀彡]

Hallie wrote: "They'll just ignore me. If I make it to the official first day of school, I'll try and talk to the counsellor."

I support this plan Hallie :) I'm sorry you're feeling this way though, do you want to talk about it (also, have you tried ice for your right hand?) ?

[Hallie]

It sounds like a plan I'll never execute. The pain starts from my shoulder, so I don't know what to do. *opens freezer* Oh, we can't get out the ice. The freezer is completely covered with ice, so we can't even open it.

[Hallie]

And Jingle, my phone thinks your journal is not mobile-friendly. It drives me mad and keep shouting: "You don't get to decide whether or not my friend's journal is mobile-friendly or not!" xD

[Jingle ❀彡]

I think the fact you have a plan is good as it is, and if you ever execute it I'll bring my squad of otters to cheer you on :) Also stick your hand in the freezer...? :P

My journal is definitely not mobile friendly bc of the pictures and formats and I apologize for it! I recommend using a website browser like Safari on your phone if you don't want to get irritated xP

[kavi ~he-him~]

Hallie wrote: "And I'm back to I want to hurt myself again...."

Don't even think about it Hallie

[Hallie]

Cheerleading otters! I'm going to venture the basement of the school during lunch xD I would have done that if my hand wasn't twice as long as the antiquated freezer and if it didn't suck at keeping it balance (when I went to check, it kept rocking and rocking I thought it would fall on me!)

I don't mind it :) Honestly, it looks pretty. I use Google Chrome, but what annoys me is that my phone keeps prompting me to switch even though I like it the way it is.

[Hallie]

❄️Ƙανу тнє Ƒαℓℓєη Aηgєℓ❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) wrote: "Hallie wrote: "And I'm back to I want to hurt myself again...."

Don't even think about it Hallie"

I have very little control over my thoughts right now...

[Hallie]

148 views xD How hilarious!

[Jingle ❀彡]

Woah, you guys have a basement? Also never mind smart move not to stick it there then, maybe try sleeping it off? xP How did you hurt your hand?

Hehe thank you and sorry for the trouble it causes XD I just got sick of my old format so I kinda went a bit wild

(PS You're gonna be in the 150+ views folder soon omg :D )

[Hallie]

Apparently xD I've only been to five rooms till now. Well, if it doesn't stop hurting, I have a different plan in my head which you most likely won't approve off. I have no clue. I wake up today with this strange pain and now I can't even open a door

Nah, it's fine! :D

(That will take forever, and it's not like it makes a difference. People will still ignore me.)

[Hallie]

My shoes are completely wet!

[Hallie]

Oh, and I might go running tomorrow. Let's hope I do and eventually collapse and die.

[May͛a]

wat. *gets remote and pauses Hallie's thoughts*

[Hallie]

You can't do that!

[kavi ~he-him~]

We don't have a basement

[Hallie]

Oh my goodness! 149 views!

[Ahana~]

1 view left and you join 150+ club!

[Hallie]

How come you guys are more excited about it than me? But it doesn't really matter. Not that it will make a difference..

[Hallie]

All I did was hog food today.

[Hallie]

Stupid Song Writing Time!

I just wanted to put down the first line somewhere,
but ended up without a little more than that. I'll finish this song later and try to give it a tune as well. Yeah, I know! It's crappy!

{Verse 1}
Lost in the dark without a flashlight, (does candle sound better than flashlight?)
I tried to feel my way to the light,
And though I walked and walked around,
I didn't see even a ray of light.

It was just how you left me,
All alone in the darkness,
With nothing but a broken heart,
Which you crushed with ease.

{Pre-chorus}
I didn't know where you went, or why,
I didn't know how to find my way back,
I didn't know where I was or why I couldn't hold your hand,
And let you stand by me in the dark

So I hate solitude, it reminds me of when you left me.

{Chorus}
Since you've been gone, I've been bumping into walls,
Since you've been gone, I've been devoid of light,
Since you've been gone, I've been stranded in that darkness,
'Cause you left me in a chasm and killed the lights.

{Verse 2}
Tripping over myself without something to hold on,
I tried to drag myself around with no light,
But I took me time to realize that,
There was no opening to escape through.

It just like you hoped,
All useless by myself,
Not even my own black shadow,
Wished to keep me company.

{Pre-chorus}
I didn't know where you went, or why,
I didn't know how to find my way back,
I didn't know where I was or why I couldn't hold your hand,
And let you stand by me in the dark

So I hate solitude, it reminds me of when you left me.

{Chorus}
Since you've been gone, I've been bumping into walls,
Since you've been gone, I've been devoid of light,
Since you've been gone, I've been stranded in that darkness,
'Cause you left me in a chasm and killed the lights.

{Bridge}
One day you left me forever,
(You never said goodbye, no, you never said goodbye)
I thought you'd never leave me stranded.
(You never gave a reason, no, you never gave a reason)
As I struggled blind on my own,
(Don't give an excuse, no, don't give an excuse)
You resigned as my trusted one.
(My once trusted o-o-o-one)

And that is how I stayed forever (forever, forever, forever....)

{Pre-chorus}
I didn't know where you went, or why,
I didn't know how to find my way back,
I didn't know where I was or why I couldn't hold your hand,
And let you stand by me in the dark

So I hate solitude, it reminds me of when you left me.

{Chorus}
Since you've been gone, I've been bumping into walls,
Since you've been gone, I've been devoid of light,
Since you've been gone, I've been stranded in that darkness,
'Cause you left me in a chasm and killed the lights.

[[deleted user]]

I love your song!

[Hallie]

Aw thanks Shine! Even though I think it sounds plain, but it's just my feelings so I guess it doesn't matter.

[[deleted user]]

I've edited my songs lyrics to make them sound better.

[Hallie]

I want to read yours again!!!!