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A Solivagant on the Inselberg
And that was a pretty good thing tbh.
Nope, it's not. It's the worst thing that occurred in the 21st century.
"Changing faces
Know the name but I just can't place it
Slurring phrases
Took a step but I can't retrace it
You tell me, "Take this"
But I don't wanna wake up in your wasteland."
~ Wasteland, Against The Current
Honestly, I do miss roleplaying, though.
Dad isn't back yet. Should we send out a search party?
K, M and H2 had a blast yesterday, my dad seems to be having fun as well because we haven't heard a word from him since yesterday morning, and I don't even know if I'm still alive.
Hallie wrote: "and I don't even know if I'm still alive."What do you mean? :/
I was kidding about the Cotard's syndrome. Sure, I'm delirious at times, but in a different way.
I can't decide whether or not I should get back into roleplaying.
But I suck. And groups these days are rather....
If you really want to, then go :)Enjoy :)
But I felt less lonely on Goodreads when I did, and I could write more.
Series of Disorganized Thoughts
My dad just brought home his classmates from30030 years ago, and while introducing his children, he ended up butchering my brother's company's name into something completely different and getting my major for uni partially wrong.
Initially one of them asked my brother what he was doing and my brother replied that he was working in our particular Welsh dialect. Except the friend did not quite understand what the hell he was saying, so everyone else in the room, minus me obviously, had to intervene and say the formal version, which probably never occurred to my brother because neither of us actually studied Welsh to be adept in recognizing dialect and formal. Also, when we - or at least I speak, I mix a lot of English and my own version of Welsh with a weird English accent, so even relatives who do understand and speak the same dialect don't understand what I'm saying. I don't understand what they are saying either, so...
But this is super weird because my dad didn't tell Mum that he was bringing home his friends, so she is kind of mad.
The whole story is that my dad had a reunion of all his classmates who studied with him in uni, and since they all studied here in London but are in different parts of the world, they decided to join here. Since Dad still lives here, he did a major part of the planning: one of which included making the momentous. He and another classmate were the ones who went to the store, designed and placed orders.
So when my brother and I were just staring at the giant men he invited into our messy house, he grinned and gave me something wrapped. I just left it on the bed until Mum came here and was curious to see what it was. Upon unwrapping it, we saw the momento, and Mum was explaining how she was a similar design in the sports shop when they went to buy my dad a swim suit (yeah, swim suit! That's the other funny part! xD). And then I just looked at the inscription and said, "Uh the spelling is wrong." Mum looked at me all confused, so I pointed at the word "alumini" and said, "There's an extra 'i'. It's alumni." I even googled it to prove it. Now I just can't stop laughing after picturing about 20-30 people having this at their home.
And my brother just slipped out of the house but none of these people realized. Oh, and I think one of them might have left their possible iPhone to charge using an adapter that came with my android phone, so I do wish him good luck with that!
The more likes I get for my status, the more I feel like deleting this particular one.
"Okay you're pretty
Your face is a work of art
Your smile could light up New York City after dark
Okay you're Coverboy pretty
Stamped with a beauty mark
But it's such a pity a boy so pretty
With an ugly heart."
~ Ugly Heart, G.R.L
Personal Survey Time
This is actually a repost from 2 years ago (check message 63 of this thread to compare) just to see how much I've changed.
What's your name?
Hallie
How about your age?
17
Gender?
Female
Birthday?
August 9
Height?
5'5" I think.
Weight?
Around 88 lbs.
Zodiac sign?
Leo
Birthstone?
Peridot
Eye color?
Brown
Hair color/style
Black/mid back
Current fitness?
I er, don't know?
Skin tone?
I'm not sure how to describe.
Romance Section
Sexual orientation?
Straight - I think
Current relationship status?
Single.
How many relationships have you been in, and could you give a brief description of them?
0.
What is your favourite feature of your preferred gender?
Well, almost everything about female. If not for discrimination and menstruation, I'd say there is nothing to not like.
Are you a virgin?
Yes
How often do you go on dates with your partner?
Since your girl is single, I can't answer this.
If you aren't already, do you hope to marry the person you are with?
I'm not with anyone, but no thank you!
If you aren't in a relationship, then do you have a crush on someone?
Nope!
Where is your favourite spot to be kissed?
Um..
How old were you when you had your first kiss?
Never been kissed.
Seven Deadly Sins Section
Would you consider yourself a glutton?
Nope! Quite the contrary.
A sloth?
Well, I am pretty indolent, but not to the extent of sloth.
Lustful?
Nope.
Envious?
Yes.
Wrathful?
Hell yeah!
Greedy?
Not really. I doubt it.
Prideful?
I'm not sure. I guess yes?
"Naughty" Section
Ever done crack?
No.
Smoked weed?
No.
Done meth?
No.
How about tried speed?
No.
Heroine?
No.
Shrooms?
No.
Do you often drink?
Just when I'm....
Do you watch any form of pornography?
No.
Ever stolen something?
I did once steal some money from my brother's wallet when I was 5, but I told him later, and he explained that stealing was bad. He did let me keep it, though. Actually, he threw in a little more. Is that considered stealing?
Ever abused or bullied someone?
Probably.
Ever been arrested?
No.
Ever cheated on someone?
Nooo.
Have you ever gotten alcohol poisoning?
No.
Have you ever abused over-the-counter drugs?
Yes.
Education Section
Are you still in school?
Yes, unfortunately :/
If so, then what grade?
Let's see.... In the US, I think it's 12.
Your best subject in school?
English, I guess.
Worst subject in school?
Math!
Did you ever drop out of school?
No.
If you are in college, then what is your major?
Well, in a few months, English literature and journalism.
Family Section
Describe your relationship with your parents
It's complicated, but let's say I hate them to a great extent.
Relationship with your siblings?
I'm not sure anymore. We don't fight or anything, but I don't really know if we're best buddies like we used to be.
With your family in general?
In nutshell, it's too complicated that I don't know.
Ever experienced the death of someone close to you?
People who have made a major mark in my life - yes, but close - no. Not yet.
Life Section
Do you have a lot of friends?
Nope.
Would you consider yourself a loner?
Yes! I don't consider myself a loner; I am a loner.
Briefly describe your childhood.
To be honest, I don't remember much. I've been rethinking and I guess I never really got to do a lot of things other children did, but on the bright side, I was a lot happier and stress free back then.
Best aspect of life right now?
Nothing.
Worst aspect?
Everything.
Religious Section
Do you have a religion?
No.
Do you believe in a god or a form of intelligent design?
No.
Do people need to live by morals or just to have fun?
Hmmm...... Depends.
"Life Sucks" Section
Do you have any allergies?
I don't think so.
Addictions?
I'm addicted to Goodreads....
Health problems?
Depression, anxiety, insomnia, paranoia, I don't what exactly it is that is making my body rebel against the world with scary consequences.
Permanent injuries/scars?
I have plenty of scars now everywhere. And there is the nail on my left hand always indicating my left from my right.
Favorites Section
Colour?
Purple.
Style of music?
Pop.
Food?
None.
Drink?
Tea.
Animal?
I'm actually scared of animals...
Plant?
Rose plant (?)
Book?
To Kill a Mockingbird, Harry Potter, Divergent etc.
Movie?
The Shawshank Redemption
Song?
Too many, but most of them are by Ariana Grande
Album?
Thank U, Next (?)
Band?
Linkin Park. Within Temptation. My Chemical Romance.
Sport?
Badminton?
Candy?
Loliepops!
Weather?
Cold wintery weather.
Time of day?
I don't have.....
Smell?
The smell of books, roses and lavender.
What was the last…
Movie you saw?
I think Despicable Me 3.
Book you read?
The Last Thing She Told Me
Thing you ate?
Uh chicken.
Thing you drank?
Juice.
Piece of art you did?
It's been so long I can't remember.
Time you cried?
A few hours ago.
Have you ever…
Punched someone?
While I don't remember, I'm sure I did.
Kissed, or done more with, someone of the same gender?
Nope.
Thrown up on someone?
I hope not.
Been thrown up on?
No.
Been to a rave?
No.
Danced on a table?
No.
Had a hangover?
No.
Flashed someone?
No.
Sneezed more than three times in a row?
Yes.
Hugged a zebra?
No....
Seen a ghost?
Nope, since I don't believe they exist.
Talked to an inanimate object?
Oh yeah!
Who keeps track of the number of suicide attempts by moi?
Let's Grab Coffee
So I went to an exam for uni today (and met S there because she had the next slot), but something else made me super happy before the exam.
Starting from the beginning, nope, no school today. That friend/relative of mine is also applying to this uni, and the venue we got was really far from our houses. My dad knows the place though, because it's an exam centre and he once took my cousin there. So my mum offered them to come with us since she didn't want to wait outside for me all by herself. And of course they came with us.
Upon reaching the venue, we checked the board for seating allotments and while my friend's was listed between the limits they posted, mine wasn't. I asked nearly seven people and they all guided me rather poorly. I had to go to the third floor, then come down to the second and finally found my place. Thank goodness we were more than an hour early! Anyway, they don't allow anything except the admit card, ID and a pencil case, so I was supposed to spend like an hour staring at the computer screen which basically said I can't start for at least 80 minutes. It was pretty boring and I was just looking here and there when a boy came over and occupied the system to my right. I was still sitting there in silence for a while before he said, "Hello!"
And then we just started talking from "Have you prepared?" to "Why on earth did you take science subjects? That's probably why your grades are low. Science screws you up and I'm sure you'd have great scores if you took something else" to "What?! You're an atheist too?!" It was..... I rarely talk to people I don't know this openly, but I ended up mentioning that I have rather toxic friends at school and shit. It totally calmed my nerves. And he was super nice.
The exam itself..... Well, I doubt I'd get qualified. I think I did decent in the English and reasoning sections, but I also think all my hopeless answers from the other two sections will nullify the marks I get from these two because it has a negative marking evaluation :/ The new friend doesn't think he did too great either, but I think he is just being modest. Anyway, after the exam, just before they let us leave, he asked to stay in contact, so now we're texting each other :)
Although I'm a bit confused about the situation. I mean he texted me a while ago, but I couldn't reply immediately. When I got a chance, he was still nice and ask if I wanted to grab coffee with him sometime. I said I was rather busy with uni admissions and stuff, but should I be worried?
And the friend/relative, his mum, my mum and I went out for lunch and I wasn't so happy with it, but the some of it was good. Honestly, I didn't care. I was just thinking whether I should try slitting my wrists or something.
A guy I did not meet online, who has seen how my ugly face looks could be hitting on me?
Or he's not and my depressed self is trying to think he is because I'm such a pathetic loser.
Someone save me! I don't know how to handle this guy.
We're in the same year, but I think he's one year older than me, so 18.
The thing is I feel too suicidal to think clearly about anything that isn't about suicide.
Robert wrote: "maybe you have a bad taste in you"Nah.
Well, considering my parents' unspoken no dating rule and my lack of experience with this stuff, I'd say he could make it into my list of reasons why.
I don't believe in the concept of love at first sight, so something isn't right here, and I should probably block him.
Hallie wrote: "Personal Survey TimeThis is actually a repost from 2 years ago (check message 63 of this thread to compare) just to see how much I've changed.
What's your name?
Hallie
How about your age?
17
G..."
i'm gonna steal this :)
Hallie wrote: "Wait I think he's hitting on me?"if he hurts you i'll fight him :)
Aw thanks! I don't think anything is going to happen, though.
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*reads the previous message*
Uh... Don't.