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[Damien]

Howdy

[Empress X]

Heyy

[Empress X]

:)

[Hallie]

I'm so fucking pathetic.

[Hallie]

Sure am!

[Deepthi]

Hallie wrote: "I'm so fucking pathetic."

You aren't.

[Hallie]

You have no evidence against it, but I have so much evidence for it, so ultimately, yes, I am.

[Deepthi]

I stand by what i've said.

[Hallie]

Well, standing by a false statement won't make it true, so too bad for both of us.

[Aqsa]

Hi Hallie, it's been a while.

[Hallie]

Hey Aqsa! :D

[Aqsa]

How are you? I'm sorry I haven't been there for you 😉💗

[Hallie]

Right now, pretty bad, but I'll deal with it somehow. It's alright :) I've been stalking you enough to not miss you whosaidanything.

Seriously though, I don't expect you to be there every single day. I don't expect you to be there at all. I just know you will be there when I need you, so that's enough for me :)

How have you been?

[Aqsa]

God, you are so damn sweet, Hallie! I did miss you!

I'm here right now, and I'm all ears. Whatever you wanna say.
P.S. Stalking? I'm real glad and I did not expect that!

I'm kinda a mess right now too. It's the fault of a book, lol.

[Hallie]

My brother, who just received a dozen death threats from me in one minute, would love to beg to differ xD

Uh well, I'm trying to think about different things right now.
I hope it's not too creepy! I just enjoy reading your interactions with others on Goodreads and turn green in envy.

Awwwwww xD Which book is that?

[Aqsa]

Haha, brothers do things that deserve those threats. That doesn't count here ;)

I understand :) It's better to distract one's self :)
Haha, God no! It's not like I haven't ever stalked you!

It's The Song of Achilles. I've been constantly smiling and crying and staring at nothing for several days now. Have you read it?

[Hallie]

Yep! They exist. Albeit I do issue death threats to mothers, fathers, brothers, friends on an hourly basis, so they would all beg to differ as well xP

:)
*gasps* Now I'm feeling self-conscious looking through the cringey stuff you might have seen.

You've got to sew my face right now! I have wanted to read that book since forever but my library never has a copy :( I'm assuming, from what you said, it's really good and I need to sell my soul to the book dealer to read it right now.

[Aqsa]

Don't worry, I think we all do that once in a while ;) P.S. We do not take your threats to heart. Never. Why do you think we all keep coming back? I am aware you haven't threatened me much, lol.

You can never be self-conscious with me! Don't even try! Plus, I do love most things I see there. It's a whole different side of Hallie and I like seeing what else might be there :)

Haha, now that you mention it! READ it please! I highly recommend it to you! It's not so much about the world, but about the characters in there and I am lost in that world for several days now. I cannot believe it's 2nd April tbh. I think I searched every fandom, fan-art, books, music, and movies even remotely related to it. I even started reading it again in hopes to get over it. From my words, it must be obvious that I am not close to getting over it just yet. So do sell your soul and find it!

[Hallie]

Except not once in a while in my case xP That is probably the last thing you could do, though, because when I get angry, I do chase people with knives and other sharp objects. The reason you don't take them to heart could be that you're confident I can't do that through the screen :)

Eesh sorry, it's a habit. Probably should change it, though.

Sounds intense. I'll definitely hunt down a copy I'm exchange for my soul now! :) I'm trying to find more books to read and perhaps a bookclub as well to talk to others about the same books, so I appreciate the recommendation!

[Aqsa]

Would you believe me if I said that I expected a very similar reply to what you sent me? I don't trust myself with knives and sharp objects because I do get out of control in anger and rage, and I tend to be destruction at times. Haha, the reason I don't take them to heart is that I know you don't truly mean those. You do care.

It's alright, I like that you don't let people change you here. For their believes and opinions. I respect that. But for you, I'd say that it'll be great if you are not self-conscious. Stay confident, my friend :)

I only hope you love it :) That'll be something better!

[Hallie]

Candidly, I'm not surprised. It is rather predictable. I suppose both of us should not be allowed near sharp objects then - especially if we just read a frustrating book. Hmmm.... Considering the fact that my family only has scars but are still alive to this day, I'm not providing much to argue your point wrong.

I'm too obstinate for that, apparently. Working on it, but with everything that's been going on, my progress vanished, so I'll have to start over again. But someday, probably, I'll be able to politely tell the man blocking my path to the book I want to move a little instead of hovering around and waiting for him to leave.

I hope so too! I've always enjoyed anything related to Greek Mythology, so it would be a huge surprise if I don't.

[Aqsa]

I agree, then. I guess. You know that you are providing some, but I'd like to believe that still. You are way better than you give yourself credit for. Come to think of it, you never really give credit to yourself for any good thing.

You do have a way with words. I'd love to be able to tell that move to move a little more often too. I'm sure you will learn to do that without feeling awkward soon.

I hope that we do not get that surprise then 😉😉 Did you read anything particularly beautiful or wonderful these last couple months? Any 5 star I might have missed?

[Hallie]

To be honest, I think I sometimes make myself seem better than I actually am, which is going to sound strange because I'm always bashing myself. But my brain is super weird and will find everything defective about me in a matter of milliseconds, so it makes sense in my head.

Well, if I don't die in the next ten years or so, then you're speaking to the future winner of thousands of literary awards ;P Whilst I don't believe I will be able to get there, it's always been a dream and I'll continue to dream on anyway, and people's comments that I'm not that horrible with words makes it much more nice to dream giving acceptance speeches (with a lot of stammering, but I want to be a writer, not an orator, so that's fine). Now I'm rambling xD Anyway, hope so!

I'm 99.9% sure we won't get that surprise because it already sounds too enjoyable to dislike. Well, I haven't read a lot because of uni applications and crying, but The Bear and the Nightingale is simply beautiful and A Thousand Splendid Suns is too magnificent.

[Aqsa]

The reason I say that and you know that, is the very same fact that you mentioned. You are quick to find your faults and while I appreciate people who work on themselves, I'd like to scold you someday in real to let yourself be appreciated for the good in you. You blame yourself for the bad, but do keep some balance, my friend.

Alright, I admit, this paragraph was one of the best things I read today. I hope you're alive in the next 10 years and more and I am too, so that I can tell everyone that I know that awesome writer out there! You better not forget me then 😏 I am loving this rambling, do not stop on my account ;) I wish all the best, love, though you do not need it!

Aw, now I cannot wait to see you read it! How did the applications go? Let us know when the good news come :) Aw, I hope you're happier at the moment, love. You know you can share, right? I do have the paperback of 'A Thousand Splendid Suns' and it's pleasing to now that you thought it magnificent :) I loved The Kite Runner and I better read this soon! God, there is just too much to do and so much else to read. I keep forgetting. As for 'The Bear and the Nightingale', I did hear some wonderful things and hearing praise from you obviously gets it higher of me to-read books :)

[Hallie]

But I fail to recognize any 'good' in me to appreciate, so you know I'm just going to ignore that.

What sort of horrible writing have you been reading today to find this impressive? I mean of course it is! xD Eh I probably will be alive by then and as much as I hope not, somehow all the buses nearly run over me but never actually run over me. It's like I have way too many lives at the moment. It might take more than a few decades to exhaust all those lives by nearly falling off roofs and nearly getting run over by vehicles while trying to cross a road with literally only one vehicle ;) Haha my slam book has about 50 entries in it, and every single one of them has 'I look forward to the day I proudly say that I once knew that writer, and you better not forget me when you get all famous' when in reality, it goes the other way around. Most people tend to forget me and I remember everyone even if they are don't. But I'll probably mention you in the author's note and send you ARCs to read, so don't worry lol. Thank you! :D

I can't either :) Well, it's mostly bad news, which is why I've been feeling rather low. I did get in to one, which I didn't initially like, but their infrastructure is better than the crappy, money-minded yet reputed one I actually want to attend, so I can't don't know. We'll see. Hope you like it! Actually, I'm sure you'll like it, given that you loved The Kite Runner and it is just as wonderful. I can relate! Too many books, too little time.... Oh yay! Hope you enjoy that as well when you get to read it! :)

[Aqsa]

As usual, let's agree to disagree, shall we?

Haha. You don't know how down I was before today, and today's been a good day. At least so far :) So, hearing you say those lines was a really good feeling especially when it's so rare you talk like that. It's hard not to fall over when you sound hopeful. You are like a cat! Only with many more lives! A bus or a fall from the roof cannot be the end of our Hallie! I hope I'm here to prove you wrong once where you cannot deny it and to accept all those ARCs and expect my name there. I'll probably die if that ever happens, lol. All thanks to you!

Aw, that same thing happened to me too and there always is some disappointment, but I'll tell you that you'll get use to it and you might even enjoy it once you get used to it. I think you're half-way there already :) Yes, I hope so :) I also bought And the Mountains Echoed and will have to get to it too. Yes, you are right :) Thanks!

[Hallie]

Of course! :)

Ha well same. I couldn't type as much, but then I figured Goodreads might just be what I need right now, so I came back, and now I'm not crying anymore. So I guess I can relate. Haha it was actually meant for people who legitimately hate me and wish to kill me because I destroyed their lives. "You can poison my tea, drop a gigantic piano on my head, or do anything to try any kill me, but I have my many lives to come back to get rid of you for good before I die." But since you don't fit in the category that deserves the what was supposed to be dramatic line, I modified it :D Although I don't know if you'll enjoy the ARCs, I'll still send them and mention you as inspiration because, well, you are :) Lol, you'll be fine, though. One friend actually did dedicate a book in part to me and I nearly had a heart attack when I realized, but that didn't kill me either. How many lives are cats supposed to have? I'd like to know when this 'I managed to fall off a hill, but survived' luck will expire so that I can read all the books I have to before that.

That's what everyone says, so I'll just suck it up if I don't hear from my first choice :) I found And the Mountains Echoed a little hard to get into, but I believe it was because I read it when I was in a bad mood. I'm going to give it one more try soon, but it still is pretty nice :)

[Aqsa]

I wasn't going to stay for long either, but then it's proved better today :) And this happened after several weeks! You are one of the main reasons. I'm glad you're not crying, Hal 😉❤ As for that line you wrote, weirdly I loved it! I might borrow it some time for some very deserving people if you don't mind ;) Phew, I wouldn't wanna be in that list in my dreams! Oh come on, maybe I'll be devastated with the ARCs in the same good way I am devastated with this last book! You better not break hearts with your book, or do warn me in time! No, I think I might just die. I'm glad you've been an amazing inspiration to someone, my friend :) Usual cats have 9 but since you are not that ordinary, you got so many bonus lives. I guess it's the uncertainty of our certain deaths that make life worth cherishing.

I wish you all the best, love, though I hope you hear from them too :) I hope you enjoy it more if/when you give it another chance :) Was it the writing or the story that made it hard to get into it?

[Hallie]

Oooo yay! Glad I did something nice today :) Haha feel free to use it whenever necessary to put people in their places xD Yeah, I wouldn't want you to be the list either. Even though you have no potential whatsoever to step into it even inadvertently, the people in there have it rough. I couldn't possibly subject you to any of that! I see devastation flooding you after reading the ARCs, lol. Oh, you need a warning? Okay, um there might be a few (around a million to two million) deaths, and most likely the only sweet hearts, but I assure you, no animals/children/books/unicorns will be harmed in the process. But if you die, who'll read my next possible bestsellers? xD I have no clue why she put me there, so I just pretend it's some other Hallie until some mutual friends come over to remind me that I should shut the self-deprecation. Pretty sure I exhausted 9 lives already, so this is more from cats. I see.... You're so right, but since, you know, I'm me, I'll have a ton of stuff to say about that, but since you already know what it's going to be about, I'll keep mum.

Thank you so much!! The writing was great and the story wasn't bad either, but I think it was the lack of enough knowledge to read in between the lines that made it hard to get into.

[Aqsa]

I'd copy and save it for future use right now, thank you very much 😏 I can have that potential believe me. I am in some great hit-lists already, not that I'm proud of it. But yours is something I'll stay clear of, as long as I can 😉. Haha, you can see that, huh? I am sure your books will definitely not go easy on the hearts, but everyone is still gonna love them. That'll be their beauty! So you'll only kill us adults? *Gasps* I am feeling betrayed! But still, it'll hurt the same, won't it? Oh, I hope those mutual friends call you up and tell you just that! You're super-cat, lol. Yes, you're so right, too! I'll also zip it then ;)

It's great to hear you praise it even after that! Was it the culture or other words that created that problem?

P.S. Let me know when I start biting your ears too much, otherwise it might take quite a while to get rid of me. 💗😉

[Hallie]

Sure! :P Oh, and don't bother giving any credit. Just use away! Nah, my list does not include amazing people, so you don't. Yet 😇 I'm not so sure if anyone would like them, but we'll see. Well, I wanted to start with a mystery/crime with mainly adult characters, so that's why children would not be involved there. Although I need to think about the other books I need to write, so I'll have to reconsider the children.... Animals still won't be hurt. Just human beings - as if that's supposed to be better, but hey, at least animal lovers will be able to read them? I need to think this through 😅 What?! Do you really want them to suffer through having to argue with stubborn me on whether or not I'm awesome?! I don't know had to feel about that because I'm afraid of cats, but they are cute in pictures, so..... xD

It wasn't bad; it just didn't click, so I don't think it deserves anything less than a praise. I think it was both.

P. S. Haha I will. It just isn't now because I'm pretty bored anyway :) Although feel free to slip away when you're tired of me.

[Aqsa]

If they deserve more than that line, then I'll scare them with your name, it will work, right? Thank you for thinking me amazing, you're never gonna appear on my list either 😇 Haha, your dilemma is catching. Don't worry, not even animal lovers will judge you, and I am a huge one. I think I'd cry more if an animal is even ignored. Weird like that. Take your time thinking, love 🤗😋 Honestly? Yes, I want that! I'd also want a million other people arguing with the stubborn you on how awesome you are. You're afraid of cats? Really? I'll be sure to bring one along when I meet you then! 😏

That's really fair :)

P.S. My mouth hurts because of smiling right now, so I ain't complaining. I was just warning you 😏 I hope I'm not boring you :)

[Hallie]

Oh yeah, that will! A lot of people are afraid of my name, and if they are a jerk, they will be trembling xD Why are you thanking me? You're the amazing person. I have nothing to do with it other than recognizing the awesomeness in you :) Ha I hope I don't enter that list even though there are chances I might, but hopefully not. Well, animals dying in books are always sad, even for non-animal lovers, so I'd rather have healthy, happy, alive animals running in my books. *puts on thinking cap* Huh? Seriously? I'll wind up killing half the population out of frustration and to prove my point then. Uh, I'm afraid of all animals except my brother, so now if you're thinking of brining along Noah's Ark, we're meeting in a castle where you're looking down from the window with all the animals while I stay down with no animals around.

My logic is that I can't blame a book if I read it at the wrong time.

P. S. Hahahaha! Sorry, laughing to much because mine hurts too, but for different reasons. Nope, you're not! :)

[Aqsa]

It's always great to be in the good graces of a friend that has everyone one trembling, so you're gonna be my constant savior xD Duh, don't tell me you forgot this: Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. My point proved. There were chances of you entering that list when I didn't know you. You have now extinguished those chances, love. Hard to find a seat in there now. That paints a good picture in my mind :) Nah, you won't! I'd love to someday hear you say that you are a wonderful perfect. Of course, I'll still accept it if the adjective is similar. Haha, Noah's Ark or not, you made my work real easy, you know that right? Now I do not have to bring a cat that can be easily spotted and avoided by you. Anything small will work equally perfectly.

It's a good logic, and something more people should REALLY adopt.

P.S. I am super curious why now, as you knew I would be!

[Hallie]

Lucky for you then xD Although I don't think you're that big of a troublemaker to need me that often. I never believed that to be completely true! I did? Wow! Although I wouldn't be surprised if I crawled bank into the list at some point. Never! I would never say that! Never! Not even close. Aghhggggh!!!!! If you want to hear me scream, just buy me a book. If you want to hear me scream in fright, drop the book. No need for animals to me involved. By the way, why are you striking out this?

I know! Although there might have been instances where I didn't follow it myself (I don't remember any for solid evidence, but I have the feeling - which could be true or not), so I doubt I'm qualified to preach.

P. S. Haha it's the braces moving my teeth around. And I have a zit right before my lip and that hurts my entire jaw for some strange reason.

[Aqsa]

Yes, not much of a real troublemaker anymore, though I might be tempted at times! Yes, but I think it was partly my own fault. I didn't understand you much, then. It's so different now. No, I think I've banished you from that list a long time ago and that exile is permanent. Haha, see? I just need to change this stubbornness one day. I'm very patient about this one thing. Haha, no I wanna see that cute fear. IDK, lol. Why are you? XD

I think you are qualified as who you are how. If we do it that way, then none of can are fit to preach anything. Opinions change over time, so let's not stay quiet now because of the things we shouted before.

P.S. Lol, I understand you! My sister and brother had braces too and they went through this. It looked painful. They have this was they use, do you?

[Aqsa]

P.S. I'm sorry I need to go. I wish we could talk some more :) It's been a real delight talking to you over so many topics continuously 😉💗💗❤❤ You really made my day so much better, Hallie! 😘 I'll love to get back to these chats if you're willing :) Love ya! Missed you and thank god that I finally talked to you!

Will get back to you about the Greek books and will be waiting to hear from you as well :) Stay happy and don't let those eyes tear 💗💗 Can I hug you? Real tight?

[Hallie]

Haha xD Well, I am a very difficult, enigmatic, weird and hopeless person, so I don't blame you. My very existence tends to annoy people and the truth is I can't be bothered to change that or to prove them wrong. So to everyone who manage to still call themselves my friend, I'll be a loyal friend back to them because they deserve it. We'll see if I ever make it back to the list, though xP Hopefully not. Never! Never ever ever! Never ever ever ever! xD There is nothing cute about my fears! Okay, or is kind of hilarious, but if you want comedy, I'd recommend reading Calvin and Hobbes than bringing animals that aren't my brother near me. I don't know, so I stopped 😂

The thing is I don't trust myself to follow it throughout. I might unintentionally ignore the same logic tomorrow and bash a book because it didn't work for me without listing any legitimate reasons, and I won't even realize that I pretty much contradicted what I said previously. But the day after tomorrow, I might follow it. So that's why I don't think I'm qualified; I'm pretty capricious that way.

P. S. It hurts less sometimes, but some days I want to murder people. Hm, I think there's a typo, so I didn't quite understand your question.

P. S. Bye bye! I enjoyed talking to you and honestly, it's been so long since I was this light-hearted, so thank you! :D *hugs real tight* Of course I'm ready to chat anytime! It's the only means of socialisation in my world.

[Damien]

howdy

[Hallie]

Heyo!

[kavi ~he-him~]

Hallie wrote: "I'm so fucking pathetic."

NO YOU ARE NOT

[Aqsa]

I'd say it's kinda fair too, since not everyone should get the chance to come closer to us. Not everyone deserves it. Hope not! Though I'm sure you can't! As for that book, I haven't read those! Alright, I'll see if I'm in the mood to spare you when I meet you. Do not tempt me then ;) Lol, alright, no brother! And good call 😂


It's alright, Hallie 😉 We aren't perfect and that happens to us all! It's up to you to rate it however you want :) Sometimes, it really is the book's fault.

P.S. Sorry for the typo. I meant wax. Does that not help?

P.P.S I really loved talking to you too! It had been a while for me too, and today was really special :) Thanks for being a part of it! I'm happy to hear those sentences 😍😍 I'm glad this kind of socialization exists. Sometimes it can be closer than real-life interactions. *Suffocating hugs* Keep smiling, love 😋😘😘

[Hallie]

Alex - Am!

Aqsa - True. I'll let anyone talk to me or ask for anything if they need to, but apparently I'm pretty choosy when it comes to making friends for the same reason you mentioned. Mt brother had a book even before I was born, and since it's a comic, I read it at a pretty young age and loved it! :D Well, if you don't spare me, you'll pay. I mean..... 😅😂

You're right :)

P. S. It's fine :) Unfortunately, my dentist didn't even mention any wax. I've heard others talk about it, but I was told to take painkillers for discomfort instead of wax.

P. P. S. Well, I'm glad! :) Oops *releases from hug* You too!

[Hallie]

So the weirdest thing just happened. Yesterday, I was fantasizing that I'd meet a dear friend from my old school and run up and give her a hug. I literally enacted it in my room. She goes to H's school now, and I haven't seen her since December 2017.

And today I saw her. We waved in surprise because neither of us expected each other to be there, but while I didn't get to hug or talk, I'm just really, really glad I saw her :)

[Hallie]

And I was wearing one of my favourite tops, so bonus.

Also, today's my childhood friend's birthday, but I have no way of contacting her except going to her house. I haven't met her in nearly 7 years, so that would be super awkward.

[Hallie]

I'm relapsing :)

[Hallie]

I'm sorry. I tried. I really did. I just can't stop myself from trying to hurt or kill myself.

[Deepthi]

*offers a hug*
It's fine... Relapses do happen...
You tried :) That's what counts, you know.

[Hallie]

I don't think I'll try ever again...

[Deepthi]

Something... happened..?