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A Solivagant on the Inselberg
Johnessa wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Johnessa wrote: "I am soooooooooooooooooooo far from even being near to a legend Hallie..."You think you're so far away because you're a legend soooooooo far away from commoners."
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There is no way you're a commoner!
Hallie wrote: "Johnessa wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Johnessa wrote: "I am soooooooooooooooooooo far from even being near to a legend Hallie..."You think you're so far away because you're a legend soooooooo far away ..."
Well I am!
You are soooooo far away from being a commoner.
I am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo far away from being a legend.
Let's make a poll and see how many agree with me.
Don't forget to invite me to vote on it
Just need to find a group everyone is in and always idiots like me to create polls.
Hmmm.... okay then. On a scale of 1 to 10, how mad do you think Tamra is going to be when she finds out I cut myself again?
Yeah... You're probably right... *sighs* I'm in for it...
Gee - thanks for the support Hallie lmaoWe'll work through it, we always do :)
I'm officially disappointed in G-IDLE :(
But I'm also officially free to hang myself :)
So - I'd ask; "Hey Hallie, how's life? Or how are you? Etc." but I already know the answers: "Life sucks, I wish I was dead - you know the rest." Lmao
Or maybe, it's all stuff you have said before, so everyone knows what it is going to be.Although - as far as I have seen, I am the only one who has ever said anything like that lmao
You know, the fact that anyone knows you that well is a good thing Hallie. It means that they pay attention and are most likely your real friend, not just someone hanging around because they benefit from your misery or want to get sympathy by being like you.
Which I think is just sick, but I have known people like that. And they enjoy seeing others suffer - somehow feeding off of their pain and misery; it makes them feel better about themselves.
Or those who will mimic your every word and action because they are seeking attention. Those ones bug the shit out of me.
There are better ways to try and get people to talk to other than out of sympathy - especially if it is undeserved; but they somehow think that the only way is to seek attention and pity...
From what I can tell, all of the people here in your journal are true friends, some who have similar issues and understand where you are coming from - and want to be there for you.
And yet you always shut us out and push us away. And I know why - it's more than likely because you decided to trust someone at one point, and they decided to use the knowledge you gave them against you; to hurt you as best as they could. How do I know? Because I have had a similar experience.
The people who do that are leeches; (As explained above) and will stop at nothing to hurt you. We are not like that Hallie, we are here for you as friends who care about and want to support you.
Which you would see, if you would just give us a chance. But once again, I am well aware of why you don't and am not going to force you to.
And for the record - I did not just spend roughly 13 minutes writing out a 309 word and 1569 character reply for the hell of it - I'm trying to get my point across that there are REAL people who REALLY get you and where you are coming from.
You're right - to an extent, but that is not what happened to me. If anything, I have always been the one to use knowledge about others against them.
I honestly don't believe that for a moment.
Well, you'll still be the one who is mistaken, so not really my loss.Besides, what do you want me to do, Nessa? Say life's fine the next time someone asks? I do that plenty in the real life. Or what? Invite these real people who really do get me (I don't disagree with this, by the way) to run away to Neverland forever?
I don't want you to do anything Hallie, I was just trying to make a point that there really are people who care about you and your well-being. And we are always here to talk as well.And now I feel like I am repeating myself... lol
And I'm self-centred enough to say that it doesn't matter to me.
I'll tell Tamra to enlighten you about it.
I literally have been unable to sleep again. And I dunno why. My brain and body hates me...
Did you try..... If only I knew something that works!
Yes, I have tried sleeping. No it is not working. And I just remembered we are taking the dogs to the vet today... fuck
I actually intended to say something like: 'Did you try blinking for a minute?', but I couldn't think of something that could work. And how did I miss that you have pets?
Um... right then lolMainly because I don't talk about them, but we have 3 dogs - a black lab mix named Kitty who is 15 in human yrs - a female pug named Maelie around 6yrs and a male pug (Mae's son - who has an eye missing because he and his father got into a fight and it was bitten out) named Haze around 2yrs
And then I have a tiger cat named Ziggy around 3yrs old - Ziggy StarBuster in full - his name had been Buster, but it didn't fit him, so me and my grandpa renamed him; and when I said I wanted to do Ziggy, papa brought up the fact that David Bowie had made a song called Ziggy StarDust - so that's where the StarBuster comes from XD. Otherwise just Zig, Ziggy, or Zig Zag
Last but not least are the two tiger kittens my uncle has - Jasmine and Kyro.
Oh wow! That was elaborate and I candidly did not expect so many xD
My mum is resisting the urge to either kill me or send me to a psychiatric institute.
I was being me.And hiiiiiiii!!!! :D
Check my journal.... The newer posts I mean....:(
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You think you're so far away because you're a legend soooooooo far away from commoners."
No - I know I am so far away from being a legend, because I am as common as a commoner gets....