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A Solivagant on the Inselberg
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Deepthi
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Feb 20, 2019 04:26AM
That's seriously bad... :/
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Why not? Why won't you eat for another 5 hrs?
When I posted that, I was in my fifth class, which means right after lunch break. So it was a little after 12. My classes got over 15 minutes ago, and in another 15 minutes, it would be 3 hours since that. It will take one hour for me to leave from here, and another one hour to reach home, so 5 hours in total.
Albeit it's leftovers from my brother's birthday dinner, my next meal will be breakfast tomorrow morning.
People are talking about one of the girls doing drugs, and I'm trying to sink into the back seat even though no one remembers I exist.
Reminds me of the time S was ranting about how some people hurt themselves and basically ask for attention, and my hands just went behind my back spontaneously and I tried to hide and get out of the conversation.
Although I should eat something. I am hungry.
Hallie wrote: "Although I should eat something. I am hungry."There you go. At least have something when you can...
Hopefully if you get something to eat, you don't have any animals - like say - a fucking cat; who will just walk up and take it out of your hands...
Hallie wrote: "But I don't want to."C'mon Hallie..? Please?
It's enough having one person who can't and doesn't wanna eat.
Ness, other than my brother, we don't have any animals, so problem with that. Although if you do, I know the pain because once my cousin got me an ice-cream, and a stupid monkey just snatched it from my hand.... So yeah, I get how frustrating that must be.Deepthi, but eating is too much work! You've got to bite it, then chew it, swallow it, digest it, assimilate it and you know the rest.
Just kidding. I ate.
And it's the above mentioned cousin's birthday today.
I'm not even going to talk to him, so doesn't matter.
Even Instagram goes anti self-harm/suicide mode.
If my parents somehow manage to get into my Goodreads account, I bet they'd go all, "A website for books killed our daughter."
If I could speak Korean, sing and dance, I could become a Kpop idol xD
Not really. I was just being funny.
Maybe if I cried enough tears, made a river, made a sea, I'd be finally worth a little bit of love.
Nah, I'm not. I'd never be.
And it involves not killing or hurting myself, so you guys might like it :)
Maybe not according to your sky-high standards! But you are worth it more than you wanna admit.I liked it (as long it's not what you mean for yourself) and it might be good, you shouldn't give up before you start.
This was five years ago, but when I sang the first song I ever wrote to H, she liked it so much that she made me sing it a hundred times before butchering it. She was inspired and said, "Hallie, let's write a song! You and me!" So we spent hours trying - each of us taking turns to show what we thought of. Nothing seemed right. One of H's songs contained the words 'little more'. After we discarded that idea, those words struck me, and I got out the next tune with the same words. I basically just changed the tune to something else, but it felt like a crazy pop song at the moment and we both liked it. We worked on it and made half the song before something happened and we stopped.I still remember the tune of the chorus very well. I don't remember the lyrics or the verses, but I remember 'a little, a little more'. I was thinking I could rewrite the song, back it up with guitar or whatever suits it the best, and send it to her for her 18th birthday this May.
Aww, that's an amazing and lovely idea, Hallie! You're so sweet!I'm sure she'd love it!
Aqsa wrote: "Maybe not according to your sky-high standards! But you are worth it more than you wanna admit.I liked it (as long it's not what you mean for yourself) and it might be good, you shouldn't give up..."
😅 Hey my standards are really, really low. Seriously!
Well, another reason would be that most my songs are so depressing and about abandonment, so I really wouldn't be missing much if I didn't write it.
Please write it! (Idk why the hell am I excited!)(Your standards are low? Are you kidding me?)
Aqsa wrote: "Aww, that's an amazing and lovely idea, Hallie! You're so sweet!I'm sure she'd love it!"
Just need to learn how to sing better, but I surprisingly think it's sweet xP
I hope so! Even if she doesn't, she won't tell me, so we'll only hear that she liked it.
Aqsa wrote: "Please write it! (Idk why the hell am I excited!)(Your standards are low? Are you kidding me?)"
Yeah, maybe I will.
(I really settle for the cheapest and low things. Sure I'm picky, but my standards are lower than the depths of the ocean.)
You've got me loaded with dopamineYou've got me folded like a paper crane
You've got me tired of fun
I need more than just fun
I've become wild now - wilder than I've ever been.
You've got me drowning in euphoria
You've got me doing things that I dream
You've got me living my life
Now I am living my life
I've become myself now - better than I've even been.
Hallie wrote: "Aqsa wrote: "Please write it! (Idk why the hell am I excited!)(Your standards are low? Are you kidding me?)"
Yeah, maybe I will.
(I really settle for the cheapest and low things. Sure I'm picky..."
Good to hear :)
You are picky and then you chose something that suggests high standard. Idk, maybe I'm wrong :)
Hallie wrote: "Aqsa wrote: "Aww, that's an amazing and lovely idea, Hallie! You're so sweet!I'm sure she'd love it!"
Just need to learn how to sing better, but I surprisingly think it's sweet xP
I hope so! Ev..."
I hope she really loves it.
Aqsa wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Aqsa wrote: "Please write it! (Idk why the hell am I excited!)(Your standards are low? Are you kidding me?)"
Yeah, maybe I will.
(I really settle for the cheapest and low things...."
I know I'm picky but I also know I have low standards because when people see what I chose, they shrug and try to convince me that it's too low and I should pick something better. I'm weird like that :)
Then those people have higher ones ;)Do love your choices, Hallie.
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