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A Solivagant on the Inselberg
Hallie wrote: "Who needs friends like me anyway? I could be bad for them."Oh, now don't that. You're a good person, Hallie.
Aqsa wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Who needs friends like me anyway? I could be bad for them."Oh, now don't that. You're a good person, Hallie."
And who told you that lie?
Lol, what makes you think it's a lie?
Because I know for a fact that it is a lie.
Yeah, you kind of are. I'm backing up Aqsa on this one.
I just want to ask why you are so hard on yourself? I think you’re a great person even with your flaws and it might be hard to love yourself sometimes but doing it would make you feel so much better and your life a lot easier...
If you say so.But, that's where you're wrong. I have nothing good in me - really. Sure, I'm sweet and ready to help people and whatever you think I am, but behind all those good actions reside a motive darker that I won't even share.
I still don't think I am hard on myself. Hardly. I've seen friends lose sleep owing to the way they beat themselves up over little things I personally wouldn't bother about, and I'm far, far, far, far away from that point. If anything, all I think I'm going is being honest - something I don't do very often.
Well course everyone has to hide something, no one is perfect but that doesn't mean because of that one thing, your suddenly bad and not good at all. And you said it yourself, good actions. You commit good actions. And maybe your not hard on yourself like others worrying about makeup or their face but you are definitely hard on yourself on a mature level.and you said it yourself!! Your honest!
You know how they say that just because you didn't suffer much doesn't mean your suffering doesn't count or matter (or something like that)... That same case is here. Just because you don't go and beat yourself up doesn't mean that you don't blame yourself and are not hard on your own self. We all do good things and sometimes there are selfish reasons. But it doesn't take away the good. And we all have a dark side.
And Idk why you think you have absolutely nothing good in you but forgive yourself. Think good of yourself and love yourself. Make it a priority.
I commit good actions to manipulate people. The fact that I do good things is just the sugar coat; the bigger picture is what matters behind good actions. That's what makes me a not-so-good person. I lie and cheat and backstab people, and I won't stop. I don't want to stop. I'll keep doing it as long as I live. End of story. There is no freaking point of loving me. I'm an idiot and I want to remain the same idiot.
Aqsa wrote: "You know how they say that just because you didn't suffer much doesn't mean your suffering doesn't count or matter (or something like that)... That same case is here. Just because you don't go and ..."
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No point of loving you? Oh come off it, that's bogus. Your not an idiot and explain to me how you commit so many good actions to backstab others? Do you think your hurting people's lives?
Do you know where positivity got me to? Despair. Good grades? Anxiety and more disappointment. And for that, I want people to pay.
Ok, make them pay but not all people are the same, Hallie. Don't make that mistake. Give them a chance. Give yourself a chance
Maybe I should start spilling out the stuff I've done and currently doing. Then you'd understand where I'm coming from, start hating me, and jay would kick me out of here and whatever.
Trey wrote: "No point of loving you? Oh come off it, that's bogus. Your not an idiot and explain to me how you commit so many good actions to backstab others? Do you think your hurting people's lives?"Cyber-bullying. What are your thoughts on that? Does it hurt people?
Some things are better left unsaid, Hallie. We are not asking you to spill something you don't want to. Even we have things we won't want to spill.And why are you trying to make us hate you? (Know that u can't)
See? Hard on yourself!
Yes, it does! Cyber-Bullying does. How do u accomplish that?
Hallie wrote: "Maybe I should start spilling out the stuff I've done and currently doing. Then you'd understand where I'm coming from, start hating me, and jay would kick me out of here and whatever."
That would never hqpoen.....and Hallie, your telling me you cyberbully? That does hurt people but I do know there are levels to it and at some levels it isn't as severe. I don't think your going to cause someone to want to commit some dangerous act.
That would never hqpoen.....and Hallie, your telling me you cyberbully? That does hurt people but I do know there are levels to it and at some levels it isn't as severe. I don't think your going to cause someone to want to commit some dangerous act.
Aqsa wrote: "Some things are better left unsaid, Hallie. We are not asking you to spill something you don't want to. Even we have things we won't want to spill.
And why are you trying to make us hate you? (Kno..."
Exactly, no matter what you say, wont force us away and like she said, being hard on yourself AGAIN
And why are you trying to make us hate you? (Kno..."
Exactly, no matter what you say, wont force us away and like she said, being hard on yourself AGAIN
I can. If I say that, I can. I've done that before with a friend I thought would be my best friend on Goodreads.So let's say one of those victims got so messed up he tried to come back here and attack me, so I went back to where he came from and did some hmm pretty serious stuff and never turned back. He disappeared off the face of the internet, along with some others.
Did he deserve it? You say he became a victim ? How? What was so bad Hallie? And as bad as it sounds , he shouldn't have came back to attack no matter what. Should've just left it alone, that's his fault
Did he deserve it? I won't say it's right but was there some reason you did that? How did he attack you?
I was bored. I think how he came back has been deleted now, but it was just name calling.
Anyway, that's prologue of Hallie does screwed up shit.
Well, it's in the past. U can't do much about it now. Why don't u forgive yourself for that and start anew?
Aqsa wrote: "Well, it's in the past. U can't do much about it now. Why don't u forgive yourself for that and start anew?"
Exactly, you can't be put to blame for past mistakes . Come on, it's 2019, new start, new slate for all
Exactly, you can't be put to blame for past mistakes . Come on, it's 2019, new start, new slate for all
Hallie wrote: "The past? You wish."
No joke, it is
No joke, it is
Hallie wrote: "The past? You wish."How is it not in the past? Because maybe u still think about it?
So another fact about me: I have a malevolent mind and bear grudges for way too long. My parents want me to earn independently, and if I don't die by then, that's what I want to. Except my parents want that so that I can take care of them, and I want it so that I can do the opposite. It's not just the past, it's the future. I'm not dropping torturing people because the year changed because I have more people to hurt in the future.
And you believe leaving them one day will hurt them?
Because you want to be independent independent.
Because you want to be independent independent.
When did that bullying thing happened? The one you shared? And once you're independent, you can decide for yourself.
I think I've said too much already.
Alright, but think about letting it go. Don't let it choke you.
Hallie, it's your choice if you want to say anything at all. We are just trying to convince you your not as bad as you think
You can't convince someone that they are not them.
We can't convince someone who doesn't wanna be convinced.
I can if it is the truth. And I don't need to convinc----
Convincing is persuading someone about something else that might not be true
I don't need to convince you anything because there is no maybe or might, it's just truth.
Convincing is persuading someone about something else that might not be true
I don't need to convince you anything because there is no maybe or might, it's just truth.
Aqsa wrote: "We can't convince someone who doesn't wanna be convinced."
*Sigh* I guess so
*Sigh* I guess so
Trey wrote: "Aqsa wrote: "We can't convince someone who doesn't wanna be convinced."*Sigh* I guess so"
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I can say I stayed up until midnight to try to convince some one about something so I can cross this off my bucket list
Trey wrote: "I can say I stayed up until midnight to try to convince some one about something so I can cross this off my bucket list"Well, sometimes it's not easy and sometimes it takes time. Hallie is good, she just doesn't wanna admit it.
I hope someday (however far away that day might be), you finally learn to love yourself, Hallie.
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Yeah, they could be. You can't be so sure though.