it's personal discussion
300+ views
>
A Solivagant on the Inselberg
Alia wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Alia, you're talking to the person who is known for being boring everywhere - school, family, online. I know popularity doesn't determine how interesting a person is, but hey, if I w..."You keep your inbox ready! I'll think up of something that doesn't sound rude and contradict!
❄️Princess Kavy of BVBarmy/Books/Music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Nonsensical RantI guess people don't really want to see my happy.
I was over the moon three hours ago, and they said one sentence to get me back to the 'I want to kill myself' mod..."
*hugs* :(
Alright, screw it. I'm drinking that bottle of soft drink with or without a cough.
I have a report to send within two hours, and I haven't even started it. This is all just going to blow up on my face....
To-do List• Report✓
• Record
• Papers - 75%
• Roleplays
• Roleplay group
• Guitar
• Incognito searches
Woah!! Give me an invite when you start the rp group!! :D
If either of us is alive after a million years, sure, I'll do that! xP
Omg!!! Haha!!!Well, Maybe we will be alive! XD
I won't let you die!!!!!!!Btw, lets have a GR family union when we grow up!!! We can meet if I ever visit London! :D
I'd like to see that.That would be cool!
Ugh I just wrote the most crappy report in the history of reporting! I'm such a terrible writer!!!! :(
Hallie wrote: "Ugh I just wrote the most crappy report in the history of reporting! I'm such a terrible writer!!!! :("YOU ARE NOT!!! Tbh I envy how well you write sometimes!!
♧Ahana♧ I am 365 so FRESH! wrote: "I won't let you die!!!!!!!Btw, lets have a GR family union when we grow up!!! We can meet if I ever visit London! :D"
Omg Ahana I was just daydreaming about such a thing happening like two days ago XD That would be so great!
Alia wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Ugh I just wrote the most crappy report in the history of reporting! I'm such a terrible writer!!!! :("YOU ARE NOT!!! Tbh I envy how well you write sometimes!!"
Bah my writing makes me throw up! Yours is so much better!
Hallie wrote: "Alia wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Ugh I just wrote the most crappy report in the history of reporting! I'm such a terrible writer!!!! :("YOU ARE NOT!!! Tbh I envy how well you write sometimes!!"
Bah m..."
Umm what? Masi and I were literally just talking in PM yesterday about how your vocabulary is truly admirable! :)
*drops phone* Masi and you were talking in PM about my vocabulary?!?!?! Honestly, it's not that good! And I'm probably using the little I know in the wrong way.
30 Questions Music Tag
1. Last Song You Listened To - Jar of Hearts
2. Last Song You Purchased - I've never purchased a song
3. Song You Discovered On Youtube/Tumblr - There are plenty! One would be Pink Champagne by Ariana Grande
4. Favourite Soundtrack Piece - I don't know...
5. Favourite Band - 5 Seconds of Summer, Twenty Øne Piløts, One Direction, Poets of the Fall, Maroon 5, Nightwish, Within Temptation, Linkin Park
6. Favourite Solo Artist - Ariana Grande, Ellie Goulding, Selena Gomez, Shawn Mendes
7. Favourite Album - Dangerous Woman, My Everything, Yours Truly - all by Ariana Grande
8. Best Live Gig Or Act You Wanna See Live - Anything by Ariana Grande!
9. Guilty Pleasure Song - Uhhhhh..... Sorry by Justin Bieber
10. Song You Used To Hate But Like Now - Problem by Ariana Grande
11. Song You Used To Love But Now Can't Stand - Ummm... Closer by Chainsmokers ft. Halsey
12. Favourite Song From A Video Game - No idea
13. Group You Wish Had Never Split - One Direction (I liked Zayn), Fifth Harmony - I know they didn't split exactly, but the groups aren't complete without all of them
14. Favourite Song From A Film - Oh oh! I can't remember right now.
15. Favourite Song From An Advert - I don't know...
16. Song You Grew Up With - Escapist by Nightwish
17. First Song/Album You Ever Bought - None
18. Album You Found Accidentally And Love - None
19. Favourite Foreign Language Song - Again by Yui in Japanese
20. Song From The Year You Were Born - I don't think so
21. Song From Fav Music Genre - Too many! It's pop, but anything Ariana Grande
22. Most Overrated Song - Blank Space by Taylor Swift
23. Song You Would Recommend To Everyone - Quit by Cashmere Cat ft. Ariana Grande
24. Song That Reminds You Of A Specific Event - Dangerous Woman reminds me of me threatening someone
25. Song You Can't Help Singing Along To - Too many to list!
26. Parody Song - I can't think of my favourite
27. Slow Song - Hmmmm
28. Fast Song - Uh, Be My Baby by Ariana Grande. It isn't the fast
29. Favourite Song At The Moment - Quit by Cashmere Cat ft. Ariana Grande
Masi (Known as geekyfreakyscientist or Masi [Hey HeyHey]) wrote: "Hallie wrote: "*drops phone* Masi and you were talking in PM about my vocabulary?!?!?! Honestly, it's not that good! And I'm probably using the little I know in the wrong way."Yes we were :D"
??? You don't want to see my face right now xD
Hallie wrote: "*drops phone* Masi and you were talking in PM about my vocabulary?!?!?! Honestly, it's not that good! And I'm probably using the little I know in the wrong way."Yes, it is! Well, next time I see you use a complex word, I'll Google the definition and tell you if it fits with the context. Because I'm sure that it does!
No, I don't! They seem pretty simple to me. Nah, they are simple
Masi (Known as geekyfreakyscientist or Masi [Hey HeyHey]) wrote: "Hallie wrote: "No, I don't! Do I really? My brother thinks I have the vocabulary of a five year old.
They seem pretty simple to me. Nah, they are simple"
Hallie you like thinking negative about..."
*blinks* That's one of my worst attributes. Talking ill about myself. Now I've got zero self-respect.... My brother has a really good vocabulary! I stand nowhere near him! He could be right about that.
How big is um, dysphoric? xD
Horrible. My afternoon was even worse, and evening is just ugh!
Uh I'll just keep these problems to myself for now, and rant after one more bad thing happens in a week's time.
I don't think so.Or at least not while I'm having extremely bad thoughts.
Hallie wrote: "30 Questions Music Tag 1. Last Song You Listened To - Jar of Hearts
2. Last Song You Purchased - I've never purchased a song
3. Song You Discovered On Youtube/Tumblr - There are plenty! One woul..."
you love twenty one pilots and Linkin Park YES
Hallie wrote: "30 Questions Music Tag 1. Last Song You Listened To - Jar of Hearts
2. Last Song You Purchased - I've never purchased a song
3. Song You Discovered On Youtube/Tumblr - There are plenty! One woul..."
I'm stealing this
Masi (Known as geekyfreakyscientist or Masi [Hey HeyHey]) wrote: "Lovely! I think the energy of the full moon is attacking us and I feel crazy!"Well, unless the full moon has been up since December, that couldn't be the only reason.
❄️Princess Kavy of BVBarmy/Books/Music ❄️~Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "30 Questions Music Tag 1. Last Song You Listened To - Jar of Hearts
2. Last Song You Purchased - I've never purchased a song
3. Song You Discovered On Youtube/Tumblr - There are p..."
YEP!!!!!!
It's horrible. I'm horrible. No one needs me. No one.
Uh I'm talking and thinking crap the minute I wake up. And thinking about running away if not killing myself.
My mother hates me, my brother hates me, my teachers hate me, my friends hate me.I hate me.
Two more episode and I'm done with season 4 of Pretty Little Liars.
Season 5!!!! Three more seasons away from the finale!
Rant Time!
All my friends blindly tell me that my mum is really sweet blah blah blah and all that crap. Once S even told that in front of her and said that I should take her as an inspiration instead of my brother (who the hell told her that I consider my brother as my inspiration? That's the most preposterous thing I've ever heard!) Later that day, my mum narrated this to my dad and brother, and the three of us said, "Only we know what you really are!" My dad laughed sarcastically, my brother grinned, and I rolled my eyes. Let me get this straight: my mum is not someone I want to look up to. I'd rather live at my school than do that.
Anyway, the reason why I told this story was... I actually don't know. I was just reminded of that incident when I was about to write on what happened just now.
A couple of minutes ago, she was resting (I think), and I went to outside to clip my nails. I had closed the door and my neighbours' music stereo was blasting. My dad apparently asked for me to get him some water (rise up, walk to the table, take the flask, drink it - it's a really hard task you know!), but since I was out and I was clipping my nails, I didn't know. So when I came back in, my mum was pouring him the water and saying, "Of course she can't hear anything with those earphones!" And I glared at her, and demanded her to repeat what are said. She nonchalantly told me that dad had asked me to give him some water "a long time ago". Hey, I was outside! How was I supposed to hear? Besides, if she has the hearing power of a bat, then why didn't she give it to him "a long time ago". What frustrates me is the tone in which she said it and how she acts as though everything is always my fault. She shouldn't blame it on me or dad - and I certainly should not be hearing this from a *mother* who never clips her nails but bites them everyday.
Believe it or not, my mum bites her nails, and I have to tell her to stop -_- And then she accuses me of "teaching" my little cousin "bad habits". Wanna know what really happened? I went to that stupid country because of her against my will, was forced to eat from there, and was given that because my cousin decided to imitate the way I was eating. I have my own style of eating food because I think it's a lot less disgusting than the way everyone else in this darned family does!
So basically, my mum's a... I'm still not going to say it *sighs* I really, really don't want to cuss but everyone is forcing me to now :(Aand I changed topics so many times in this post, but I'm really mad and can't think straight.
Oh, and I forgot to mention that she was saying that my smile wasn't right in the morning. Okay, I don't know how to smile, but who's for fault is that for not teaching me how to smile right?
I'm sorry hun. Take a few deep breaths. Take more if you need them.Anger clouds your judgement.
It is really unfortunate that your relationship with your mom is so rough.
I can relate.
I just don't want to breathe. That's my problem.I think my relationship with not only mum, but everyone I know it's strained :/
Kinda hard not to.Definitely change the way you approach things.
It's possible, though. I don't know...
It is, if you want to faint. :p not fun.You never know until you try. Change your thinking. The strain is less when you're open and honest.
dang double post.
Or if I want to die. That's what I'm sick of. I'm tired of being open and honest and getting stabbed because of it. I'm sick of respecting them and eventually treated as crap.
I used to be like that. I used to go around talking and telling everything, but no one listens. And if they do, they shut me out. That's the whole reason why I changed from a person who abhorred lying to a big, fat liar.
it's personal
Books mentioned in this topic
Kim Jiyoung, Born 1982 (other topics)Lore (other topics)
The Glass Menagerie (other topics)
The Great Gatsby (other topics)
Orlando (other topics)
More...
Stuff like Guitar Jamz and Marty Music (same person different channels)"
those channels really help me