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[Hallie]

I think I'm falling sick and it's all Mum's fault!

[Hallie]

I'm not myself today.

[Hallie]

Sorry H, I'm not in the mood to talk. Happy birthday, though :) You need to think of something like this in exactly three months, or I'll get the doctor who was in charge for delivering both of us get you in trouble :)

[Hallie]

It really wouldn't hurt to stop existing.

[Hallie]

Anyway, I'm trying to kill myself even in my dreams. A few nights ago, I was walking on train tracks, then I was jumping in front of a train, and this night, I was walking aimlessly and saying some depressive crap on the way to get hit by ongoing traffic.....

[Hallie]

Maybe I went overboard with the whitener.

[Hallie]

H look at your phone and see my messages!!!

[Hallie]

A-Z Personal Survey Time!
Stolen from Tumblr

‎A - Available?
I don't know..... I suppose yes, but I'm not particularly interested. Besides, who wants to ask this stupid face out?

B - Birthday?
August 9th!

C - Crushing on?
No one.

D - Drink you last had?
Water.....

E - Easiest person to talk to?
Let's see..... My friends on Goodreads. They are people, but I can't choose.

F - Favourite song?
At the moment? No Tears Left To Cry by Ariana Amazing Grande

G - Grade I hated?
Year 10 and 11 sucked.

H - Hometown?
London.

I - Ice cream flavour?
Vanilla.

J - Jellybean flavour?
Whaaaaaaaat? xD I don't eat Jellybean! No seriously, I don't eat jellybeans.

K - Kissed someone?
Nah!

L- Longest friendship?
S? I guess. It was an on and off friendship until a few years ago, but we never stopped being friends ever since we were 2 years old.

M - Milkshake flavour?
Strawberry (?)

N - Number of siblings?
1.

O - One wish?
I wish to stop breathing and start rotting in a coffin.

P - Person who called me last?
Dad.

Q - Question you’re always asked?
Oh my god, you're Welsh?! Are you telling the truth?

R - Reason to smile?
Dude, I despise smiling.

S - Song I sang last?
Chasing Ghosts by Against The Current

T - Time you woke up?
I don't really remember. I woke up at around 5 and fell asleep and woke up I don't know when.

U - Umbrella colour?
Purple.

V - Very best friend?
H and S.

W - Which celebrity I’d marry?
Nah, I wouldn't want to marry any of those guys.

X - X rays I’ve had?
2? One of me as a baby and one of my left hand.

Y - Your last time you cried?
I candidly don't remember.

Z - Zodiac sign?
Leo.

[butterbean]

Hallie wrote: "A-Z Personal Survey Time!
Stolen from Tumblr

J - Jellybean flavour?
Whaaaaaaaat? xD I don't eat Jellybean! No seriously, I don't eat jellybeans.‎"

xD

[butterbean]

Also, congrats on 10,000 posts Hal! :)

[Hallie]

xD

Oh haha thanks, I guess? It kind of feels weird, though xP

[butterbean]

Why? Do you think that it's 10,000 posts of you asking for death?

[Hallie]

I don't know. It's one extra digit and it looks different every time I'm checking the group notifications.

[butterbean]

True, true that. Oh man, that was rude. Okay can't edit it now, crap!

[Hallie]

It's fine. It is the truth after all.

[butterbean]

Maybe so.

[Hallie]

She hasn't seen the message yet and I'm tempted to delete them...

[Hallie]

Nah I'm just really lonely.

[butterbean]

You're lonely?

[Hallie]

Mhmmm.

[Hallie]

Oh, killing myself actually has long term benefits.

[Hallie]

No more drama, no more stupidity, no need to worry about career.....

[Peyton]

Don't say that.

[Dramomid ~The Demon of the Dark~ (aka T)]

Hallie wrote: "Oh, killing myself actually has long term benefits."

It also has its consequences which will be your fault

[butterbean]

Tyler has an important point right there, Hals.

[Peyton]

♛✧נєℓℓувєαη✧♛✧ℓσνє ιѕ α тяαgι¢ ƒαтє✧♛ wrote: "Tyler has an important point right there, Hals."

I second that.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Tyler ~Tyler-Another Synonym for Stubborn~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Oh, killing myself actually has long term benefits."

It also has its consequences which will be your fault"

^^^^

[Hallie]

Tyler ~Tyler-Another Synonym for Stubborn~ wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Oh, killing myself actually has long term benefits."

It also has its consequences which will be your fault"

1. Does it seem like I care?
2. Let's talk about these consequences.
Firstly, my dad will lose the money he spent on my education. And in everything else. I'm insured, apparently. Secondly, oh wait - what else? The rest are benefits. The 'people who care will miss me' crap? Those people do not exist. How do I know? I've checked.

[Hallie]

Ariana and Mac broke up????

[Hallie]

Another 'please call a suicide hotline' email.....

[Hallie]

Woohoo! I finally managed to place an order for books in my library! :D

[Hallie]

So...... H liked my wishes. Even though they specifically ordered her to go to S if she ever needed anything.

Since I won't be there.

[Hallie]

^ Mainly because I added pictures of that money face.

[Faith]

Hello my name is faith I haven't heard very good childhood I am currently 13 years old next month is my birthday to start from the beginning my supposed to die when I was born when I was born I made it to where my mom could not have baby probably for the best cuz she never took care of them she abandon me when I was 5 but when I was 3 she stole money from my dad left me with a total stranger and I felt was sliced so good now I have this scar shaped as a heart pretty cool and she officially abandon me when I was five then my dad found the new woman she was abusive she nearly killed me five times last thing she did before I go into foster care but she slammed my head around yelling at me saying I'm the worst child ever have and that I was just awful which is very hurtful because my dad never pretty depressing I attend my first attempt of suicide was when I was 8 my brother sexual assaulted me bedtime when I was drugged on my nighttime medicine I never really had a happy ending I'm so fast care two nights ago I attempted suicide cuz I don't want to be alive cuz I couldn't handle it

[Hallie]

Uh I'm sorry you had to go through all that.

[Faith]

I am past it because defines me not has a victim but has a victor

[Hallie]

I didn't quite get all of that, but okay?

[Faith]

victor means like conqueror sorta

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Hi Hallie!

[Hallie]

Faith, well, good for you :)

Hiiii Raven!!!!! Are you feeling better?

[butterbean]

Wonder if I'm allowed to say "Hey Raven!" as well. Seems like something I wouldn't be allowed to say. Ah, now I'm just talking about putting limits on myself!

[Faith]

ya i am a little

[Hallie]

♛✧נєℓℓувєαη✧♛✧ℓσνє ιѕ α тяαgι¢ ƒαтє✧♛ wrote: "Wonder if I'm allowed to say "Hey Raven!" as well. Seems like something I wouldn't be allowed to say. Ah, now I'm just talking about putting limits on myself!"

Why would you not be allowed to say that? Raven is always friendly to nice people.

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Hallie wrote: "Faith, well, good for you :)

Hiiii Raven!!!!! Are you feeling better?"

I'm meh rn still. Never really truly happy

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

♛✧נєℓℓувєαη✧♛✧ℓσνє ιѕ α тяαgι¢ ƒαтє✧♛ wrote: "Wonder if I'm allowed to say "Hey Raven!" as well. Seems like something I wouldn't be allowed to say. Ah, now I'm just talking about putting limits on myself!"

Hey Jellybean :)

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Donut fear me, I wont bite unless you a donut

[Faith]

wos jelly bean

[butterbean]

Well then, hello all.

[Hallie]

Sylveon~Raven wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Faith, well, good for you :)

Hiiii Raven!!!!! Are you feeling better?"

I'm meh rn still. Never really truly happy"

Aw *hugs* At least it's not like how you described earlier.

[Jaxon(Jax)[They-He]]

Meh