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A Solivagant on the Inselberg
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Hallie
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Jan 23, 2018 12:23AM
Crap suicidal thoughts!
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Is it wrong to be jealous of my brother?
When my parents say goodbye on Friday, that will most likely be the last time they ever see me.
I wonder if they'll leave if they know that.
Oh wait, what's there to wonder? As long as my brother is fine.....
Hallie wrote: "When my parents say goodbye on Friday, that will most likely be the last time they ever see me."Hals no :(
I see the notifications still aren't working.
Someone tie me up because I'm most likely going to jump off a building today.
Hallie wrote: "Someone tie me up because I'm most likely going to jump off a building today."No don't Hals :(
Hey this one's for you when you wake up
Thanks Maya!
Hey Lily!
Trying not to because I'm not allowed to cry in this household. *hugs back*
I guess I'm stressed out and anxious because I have exams and I can't focus on studying at all. And then my parents are always calling me names for the same, and they just ignored my passion as if it doesn't exist. Then my friends are...... Not really my friends.
Writing, literature, editing, all that English stuff.
Cool! I wish my mum was. Then my parents would have been more tolerant.
What if I go to school and never come back?
By the way, I pretended to be asleep a little while ago and my brother was wondering why I wasn't up yet. And that's when my mum just said mean stuff about me :/ Yes, I heard that! Years of pretending to sleep helped me learn that they speak when I'm "asleep".
Anyway, my brother even thought I was dead. He legit began to poke me and say, "Hey, are you dead? Is she dead?"
??????? Why does he want me to be dead?
Whew that went well! Now hopefully my anxiety will lessen.
Why am I stressing over every single thing????
Crappy Poem Writing Time!
Okay people, please please pretty please with books on the top honestly tell me what you think about this poem:
Her world was colourful,
Soon the colours began to fade to grey,
Slowly turning black and white,
Until all she could see was black.
Her kingdom was immaculate,
And then her crown fell down to the ground,
Her kingdom shattered to pieces,
And her throne was buried amidst the rubble.
Her eyes were sparkling,
But the shine soon tarnished,
As the light left her eyes,
She lost her sight to see darkness.
Her dreams were ambitious,
They wanted to soar up high,
They shattered and fell to her feet,
She couldn't even glue them back.
Her heart was soft and warm,
Time passed to make it ice cold,
Enough to break from its own indifference,
Posing her to be deficit of one.
Her hands were pale and pristine,
Unmarked by anything harsh,
Now lay scars over scars,
And blood dripping from wounds unhealed.
Her life was precious,
She realized its worthlessness,
With a few pills in her hand,
She ended it with no hopes in mind.
Hey, just want you to know I'm alive and stll rooting for you and our lit magazine people woild love yout poem :)
Hallie wrote: "Hey Lily! I don't know whether I should see it or not, but if it'll stop me from crying, I think I'll take a look xP"*hugs tightly*
Hallie wrote: "Trying not to because I'm not allowed to cry in this household. *hugs back*"Lillian wrote: ":( That's not right, my household's the same way."
Crying is good for you tho :(
Hallie wrote: "By the way, I pretended to be asleep a little while ago and my brother was wondering why I wasn't up yet. And that's when my mum just said mean stuff about me :/ Yes, I heard that! Years of prete..."
Hallie wrote: "I guess I'm stressed out and anxious because I have exams and I can't focus on studying at all. And then my parents are always calling me names for the same, and they just ignored my passion as if ..."
I'm so sorry Hals :( *hugs*
Omg sorry for those asinine (to use a word of yours) errors :/
*sends bundles of flowers for the poem*
Yay everyone is alive! Thanks people! I had a scary dream just now, so I don't want to go back to sleep. Anyway...Alia, haha now is when I realized that I use that word a lot xD Aw that's so sweet!
Kavy, *hugs back* It is, but some people don't understand that :/
Mays, *stares at flowers* The poem says thanks! xP
Shine, lol xD
Did I just address all of you according to alphabetical order?!?!?!?! What on earth is wrong with me?
Nothing's wrong with you :) sorry about the nightmare, though
I found it weird, though. :( I saw ghosts of my brother and cousin and guess who was the reason for their death? :/
Haha that is awesome!!! Hooray for being precise! I've edited two assignments with much to be desired today in English so I'm admiring order right now. The bright side is that I edited two people instead of one like everyone else because the second person was lagging behind and when they needed an editor they got pointed to me! Kind of an honor XD
Do you like editing stuff?
Also, wish me good luck, I'm talking to a teacher who intimidates all my friends who have them. I'm hoping I won't bomb these interactions- I was assigned to certain teachers to talk about magazine submissions and ask them to tell their students.
I was thinking of posting that poem on Instagram, but I'm worried whether it's extremely bad?
Change 'was' to 'were' in the stanza about her eyes. Then post it. Let it out, Hallie! I'm sure you'll get some likes :D
Alia wrote: "Haha that is awesome!!! Hooray for being precise! I've edited two assignments with much to be desired today in English so I'm admiring order right now. The bright side is that I edited two people..."
Wow that's awesome! Way to go, Alia! :D
I love editing stuff, but I never got a chance to.
Oh my gosh, good luck! I hope it will go good! Actually I think it will go good :)
Alia wrote: "Change 'was' to 'were' in the stanza about her eyes. Then post it. Let it out, Hallie! I'm sure you'll get some likes :D"I wrote was? I wrote was???? Stupid me! Thanks Alia! Uh let's see what happens xP
Hallie wrote: "Yay everyone is alive! Thanks people! I had a scary dream just now, so I don't want to go back to sleep. Anyway...Alia, haha now is when I realized that I use that word a lot xD Aw that's so swee..."
I wish they would. This person on twitter once said that crybabies get bullied and I said that crying is good tho and he said crying is for nerds and I said that everyone cries. and he said that he never cries so I called him a liar. Because everyone cries at some point.
SHOKIE (SHINE) (Shine's back up account.) wrote: "*Dr. Hulk and Dr. Strange appears in the room*"YES DOCTOR STRANGE!!
Hallie wrote: "Yay everyone is alive! Thanks people! I had a scary dream just now, so I don't want to go back to sleep. Anyway...Alia, haha now is when I realized that I use that word a lot xD Aw that's so swee..."
oh no I'm so sorry *hugs*
Hallie wrote: "I found it weird, though. :( I saw ghosts of my brother and cousin and guess who was the reason for their death? :/"*hugs you tightly*
❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Yay everyone is alive! Thanks people! I had a scary dream just now, so I don't want to go back to sleep. Anyway...Alia, haha now is when I realized that I use that word a lot xD Aw..."
Crying can actually be healthy. It gets rid of toxins, but too much crying can be harmful. Did he know that?
Hallie wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Yay everyone is alive! Thanks people! I had a scary dream just now, so I don't want to go back to sleep. Anyway...Alia..."
True, idk. everyone cries because we're all only humans and humans have a lot of emotions. if we don't have emotions then we would be robots. And when you're born, crying is a sign that you are alive and healthy.
SHOKIE (SHINE) (Shine's back up account.) wrote: "How can too much crying be unhealthy?"Too much crying can dehydrate you
crying is healthy but too much crying isn't. Then again too much anything is unhealthy
SHOKIE (SHINE) (Shine's back up account.) wrote: "How can too much crying be unhealthy?"And it causes hypertension.
❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Hallie wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Hallie wrote: "Yay everyone is alive! Thanks people! I had a scary dream just now, so I don't want to go back to sleep. ..."Exactly! My brother wasn't crying when he was born, so the doctors and nurses freaked out.
*hyperventilates* I just posted my poem!!!!!
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