This Title is a Work in Progress ~Alec Lightwood

[Zombieslayer⚡Alienhunter, oh, hell's bells]

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[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

Thanks!

Anyone besides James can comment. Personal reason. And cursing is fine, I do it all the time.

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

So, now that the formalities are out of the way..

Feels good to have a journal again.

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

So last night was interesting.

Hearthstone and Diablo 3 power leveling at the same time. That was a fun experience.

Also, tomorrow I finally go to orientation for my school, which means new computer! Woo! And I pray they let me Bootcamp windows.

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

Well then, I abandoned this thing. Whoops.

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

Oh, and I don't care who comments here anymore, if anyone even still follows this thing.. As lon as you don't pick fights, we're chill.

[Mariama, Just You're Average Southern Rebel Belle.]

Alec Lightwood wrote: "Well then, I abandoned this thing. Whoops."

Yeah, you did. XD

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

Yeah, kinda..

[Mariama, Just You're Average Southern Rebel Belle.]

Alec Lightwood wrote: "Oh, and I don't care who comments here anymore, if anyone even still follows this thing.. As lon as you don't pick fights, we're chill."

*long. I believe that is a point, sir.

[Mariama, Just You're Average Southern Rebel Belle.]

Alec Lightwood wrote: "Yeah, kinda.."

XD

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

Autumn Rising |Another Cog in the Murder Machine| wrote: "Alec Lightwood wrote: "Oh, and I don't care who comments here anymore, if anyone even still follows this thing.. As lon as you don't pick fights, we're chill."

*long. I believe that is a point, sir."

Oh shut it, you. There was one point where I could've called you out on it, but I didn't.

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

So, I honestly have no idea what to say here. Life stuff, I guess? I dunno. At any rate, I'm really happy.

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

And she's working the concession stand, so she can't answer my texts.. Woooooooooo

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

Oh, and I'm finally getting back into RPing, after a good 3-4 months hiatus. Feels good.

[jay]

Alec Lightwood wrote: "And she's working the concession stand, so she can't answer my texts.. Woooooooooo"

girlfriend?

[Mariama, Just You're Average Southern Rebel Belle.]

:))))))))))))))DDDDDDDDDDXDDDDDDDDD

[Mariama, Just You're Average Southern Rebel Belle.]

Alec Lightwood wrote: "Autumn Rising |Another Cog in the Murder Machine| wrote: "Alec Lightwood wrote: "Oh, and I don't care who comments here anymore, if anyone even still follows this thing.. As lon as you don't pick f..."

*le gasp* Where?!

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

james; fresh regrets, vodka sweats wrote: "Alec Lightwood wrote: "And she's working the concession stand, so she can't answer my texts.. Woooooooooo"

girlfriend?"

Yep.

[Mariama, Just You're Average Southern Rebel Belle.]

Hehe. XD

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

Autumn Rising |Another Cog in the Murder Machine| wrote: ":))))))))))))))DDDDDDDDDDXDDDDDDDDD"

^~^

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

Autumn Rising |Another Cog in the Murder Machine| wrote: "Alec Lightwood wrote: "Autumn Rising |Another Cog in the Murder Machine| wrote: "Alec Lightwood wrote: "Oh, and I don't care who comments here anymore, if anyone even still follows this thing.. As ..."

Did you reply to the wrong thing..?

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

Autumn Rising |Another Cog in the Murder Machine| wrote: "Hehe. XD"

What?

[Mariama, Just You're Average Southern Rebel Belle.]

YOU HAVE A GIIIIIIIIIIIRLLLLLLFRIEND. *wiggles eyebrows*

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

Oh please.. This is nothing new to you.

[Mariama, Just You're Average Southern Rebel Belle.]

XD I know, but I'm just SO EXICTED.

Gagie's got a girlfriend, Gagie's got a girlfriend!

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

Autumn Rising |Another Cog in the Murder Machine| wrote: "XD I know, but I'm just SO EXICTED.

Gagie's got a girlfriend, Gagie's got a girlfriend!"

XD Okay okay, chill.. You'll throw your back out with all that fake dancing.

[Mariama, Just You're Average Southern Rebel Belle.]

XD I'm not old, dude. I just might be a bit sore in two days.

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

Now why would I say you're old? When did I say that..? :P

[Mariama, Just You're Average Southern Rebel Belle.]

XD

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

So today has been fun so far. Talk about hate speech and how it would make me feel if I was the target. Fun stuff..

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

Well, that sure lasted long.. :/ And I was really looking forward to the coming weeks.

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

Oh, why must I like the people I do? Sometimes I hate my heart :/

[jay]

DETAILS

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

It's not good, trust me.

[Zombieslayer⚡Alienhunter, oh, hell's bells]

Alec Lightwood wrote: "Oh, why must I like the people I do? Sometimes I hate my heart :/"

Heh. Story of my life.

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

Zombieslayer/Alienhunter {the crownless} wrote: "Alec Lightwood wrote: "Oh, why must I like the people I do? Sometimes I hate my heart :/"

Heh. Story of my life."

It sucks, really.

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

Stolen from Autumn (Sorry/not sorry)
1) Are you really ready for 108 questions?
Bring it on, I guess? I'm bored, nothing better to do.

2) Was your last real relationship a mistake?
Well, I choose to not look at it that way.

4) Who did you last say “I love you” to?
My dad, about 5 minutes ago.

5) Do you regret it?
Nope!

6) Have you ever been depressed?
Eh. I've been really sad before, but I don't think it'd fit the term depressed.

7) Are you a boy or girl?
Boy. Though some could think otherwise, if I changed my name and profile. Now THERE'S an idea!

8)Who is your best friend?
Not internet: Guy named Clay.
Internet: Marie.

9) What is your relationship status?
Well, taken in my mind, but single.

10) How do you want to die?
Probably naturally, since I don't really like pain, and I want to live a full life.

11) What did you last eat?
Potato Soup.

12) Played any sports?
..Do e-sports count?

13) Do you bite your nails ?
Unfortunately.. And also unconsciously.

14) When was your last physical fight?
Four years ago.

15) Do you have an attitude?
Not mean per say, but I can be very sarcastic, which an be taken many ways.

16) Do you like someone?
I do indeed, though I wouldn't say "like". I mean, I would, but... Oh, you know what I mean, quiz.

17) What is your real name?
Gage.

19) Are you gonna get high later?
Um.. If sleep deprivation counts. I don't do drugs.

20) Do you hate anyone at the moment?
Nope. Not the hating type. Now, despising.. That's more me.

21) Do you miss someone?
Yeah...

22) Twirl or cut your spaghetti?
Cut. As you can tell, I hate physical activity, and spaghetti is the most physical if you twirl.

23) Do you tan a lot?
I tan easily, but I didn't really go out and do it last year.

24) Have any pets?
Dog and a cat, who I both love.

25) How exactly are you feeling?
Sleepy, sad.. Bored, mainly. Why would you care? You're just a quiz.

26) Ever eaten food in a car while someone or yourself is driving?
Yup, did it twice yesterday. The eating, not the driving.

27) Ever made out in the bathroom?
Never kissed anyone. Though, the bathroom would be a bit creepy..

28) Would you take any of your exes back?
If you're talking about "real" relationships, as in not ldr, then one, yeah. If you are talking about LDR's, then two, throwing in another one there.

29) Are you scared of spiders?
Only if they come at me. Otherwise we're chill.

30) Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
Nope. I've seen enough time travel movies and shows to know that's a really bad idea.

31) Do you regret anything from your past?
Oh, of course I do.

32) What are your plans for this weekend?
Christmas, woo! And sleep.

33) Do you want to have kids?
Yep!

34) Did you ever kiss someone whose name starts with an M?
Again, never kissed anyone.

35) Do you type fast?
Yes.

36) Do you have piercings? How many?
Nope. I'm a guy, so of course not..

37) Want any more?
Never.

38) Can you spell well?
Let's see.. W-E-L-L. There you go.

39) Do you miss anyone from your past?
Yeah...

40) What are you craving right now?
Non-boredom, and talking to friends.

41) Ever been to a bonfire party?
Yep! It was fun, s'mores and stuff like that.

43) Have you ever been on a horse?
Yep.

44) Kissed someone in a pick up truck?
For the third time quiz, I've never kissed anyone! Get that through your made up head!

45) Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
I'd like to think not, though I don't know.

46) Have you ever been cheated on?
I wouldn't know, but probably. Actually.. Yeah, I have been.

47) Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
Yes, but out of happiness, not sadness, I swear. i'mnotabadpersondon'tkillme

49) Would you live with someone without marrying them?
Probably. I'd live with my friends.

50) What should you be doing ?
I dunno, it's christmas break.

51) What’s irritating you right now?
Boredom..

52) Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts?
Yes, I have. Still do, actually.

53) Does somebody love you?
Hah, doubt it.

54) What is your favorite color?
Green.

55) Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
I've changed shirts and pants, yeah, but as far as putting on a whole new pair of clothes, no.

57) Do you have trust issues?
Not unless I have a reason to.

60. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
Yup!

62) Do you believe your most recent ex thinks about you?
Probably. I mean, we still talk, so I'd assume so. Not romantically though, no.

63) Who was the last person you cried in front of?
My ex, coincidentally.

64) Do you give out second chances too easily?
I usually don't give many of those, so no.

65) Is it easier to forgive or forget?
Depends on what happened.

66) Is this year the best year of your life?
No, HELL no.

67) What was your child hood nickname?
Didn't have one, my name wasn't long enough.

68) Have you ever walked outside completely naked?
Yup, albeit unintentionally.

70) Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
Not really no. I mean, if you're talking about cause and effect, then yeah.

71) What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
Watched all of SAO Abridged, up to this point (it's not done yet)

73) What is bothering you?
Boredom, and my mind.

74) Have you ever been out of your province?
Province as in.. State? Then yeah.

75) Do you play the Wii?
Haven't in a while, no.

76) Are you listening to music right now?
Nope, but I should be.

77) Do you like Chinese food?
Depends.

78) Do you know your fathers b- day?
Yes, but I forget all the time..

79) Are you afraid of the dark?
Nope. I like the dark.

80) Is cheating ever okay?
Hell no.

81) Are you mean?
Depends on who you ask.

82) Can you keep white shoes clean?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

84) Do you believe in true love?
I do indeed.

88) Do you like the outside?
During spring and fall, yes.

89) Are you currently bored?
Yup, I've said that about ten times now.

90) Do you wanna get married?
Of course.

91) Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?
Depends on who's doing it.

92) Are you hungry?
Nope, just ate.

93) Have you ever made out for more than a half hour straight?
Quiz, I swear, if you ask me something that involves kissing someone one more time.. Do you HAVE to keep driving in that nail?

94) What makes you happy?
Music, Video Games, and talking to my best friends. Oh, and being sarcastic as well as making or receiving jokes.

95) Would you change your name?
Nope. I like it.

96) Ever been to Alaska?
No, I hear it's pretty warm though.

98) Do you watch the news?
Usually, in the mornings. Gotta stay up to date!

99) What’ s your zodiac sign?
Pieces.

100) Do you like Subway?
Sometimes.

101) Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed again?
QUIZ I WILL MURDER YOU

102) Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do you do?
I'd be very careful.

103) Do you talk like your friends?
Depends on what you mean. In terms of accent. probably, in terms of word choice, also probably.

104) Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them?
Yup, all the time.

105) Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?
Yup! *glances at Marie*

106) Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
Marie.

107) Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
Yes. I would try my hardest to get them to stop, but it ultimately depends on how much I enjoy being with them.

108) Can you count to one million?
*sigh* You asked for it..

(I couldn't find 1-1 million typed out, and I'm not going to take the estimated 2 weeks to do it myself. This joke has been thoroughly ruined.)

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

I really wish I could get back to my old journal and its group.. Not that this one isn't great, but it just isn't as active.

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

Also, I really really need to talk with someone, but I know they don't want to talk to me (hence why I can't send a message or friend them).

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

Thoughts, stop. All that happened a year ago, so why are you thinking back there now? What if I don't want to cry about it all over again?

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

I'm really not a good person. I just make people feel bad, two people specifically. I used to think I was a good person, but looking back.. I'm not.

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

I personally screwed up the two best things in my life.. All by myself.

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

Both things I could've avoided, both things were my fault entirely.

I'm sorry, to both of you. One of you might read this, and I know the other one won't. I'm sorry to you too, for bothering you with all that, and I know you'll read this.

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

This isn't good. All this borderline depression from the past hitting me at once, and I'm currently rewatching Your Lie in April. This month is not gonna be fun for me. I hate my thoughts.

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

Another thought I hate: Wouldn't it just be a good idea to never come back on here again? It was fun at first, reading and reviewing books, roleplaying to my heart's content, but now.. It's only worth it because of one person, that's it. One friend I still talk to at all from my past here, and I'm surprised even they've stuck around..

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

I'm only still here because of them, this is my only way of reaching them. And all I do is bug them, constantly, with my problems.. Remind me again why you've stuck around?

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

The past convos we had were great, but that's the past. Everything lately has been horrible stuff no normal friend would care about, so why do you? You've watched me degrade down more and more each day, how do you stick around?

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

Do you remember when I was genuinely happy? Because to be honest, I don't anymore.

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

...And I'm over here about to cry because I miss the past and I miss all the people I used to love talking to and I miss being happy and I miss when every day was a great and happy one and I miss being carefree.. I just wish I had moved on when the past did, cause now I;m stuck wanting t relive it, and I know that's impossible.. I hate my thoughts, and what they think about nowadays. I hate my heart, for doing what it does to me. I hate myself, for screwing up everything and getting myself stuck in this mess..

[Alec Lightwood *I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this girl*]

I just wish I didn't have to feel any of this. I wish I could develop some sort of amnesia and wipe the last year of pain from my mind.. I don't want this, any of it. I want to be happy, I want to be in love, I want to life a good life, but.. I just can't seem to do all of those things at once.