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Jun 18, 2016 02:27AM
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i'm so proud of this masthead
what idiot invented falling in love with your best friend bc i would like to sue them
note to self:— keep queue at 45+ posts
— do ur spanish work u lazy fool
— get over ur crush
— deal with ur depression
— do ur damn music practice
— finish english work
— nothing i say comes out how i want it ;
nothing i do turns out how it ought to —
am i broken ?
or am i just useless ?
ok this poetry is bad and short and i've lost all talent i ever possessed for writing poetry bye
kaya wrote: "— nothing i say comes out how i want it ;
nothing i do turns out how it ought to —
am i broken ?
or am i just useless ?
ok this poetry is bad and short and i've lost all talent i ever possessed..."
it's ok, i didn't exactly lay out the rules up the top
that's fine. so how you doing kaya? that's a pretty name
ah, thanks. it's not my actual name though, just the one i use on goodreads. it actually comes from a character in a story i wrote ages ago, and when i was signing up to gr i was like... 'what's a name that i can use' and this one came to mind.
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kaya wrote: "ah, thanks. it's not my actual name though, just the one i use on goodreads. it actually comes from a character in a story i wrote ages ago, and when i was signing up to gr i was like... 'what's a ..."that's pretty cool. :) no problem
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-.-. .- .. - .-.. -.-- -. wrote: "Ooh look at that XD"XD are you too?
kaya wrote: "note to self:
— keep queue at 45+ posts
— do ur spanish work u lazy fool
— read frankenstein properly
— get over ur crush faster done
— deal with ur depression
— stop thinking abt suicide or i..."
when i look at this and think how little i've managed to achieve
kaya wrote: "kaya wrote: "note to self:
— keep queue at 45+ posts
— do ur spanish work u lazy fool
— read frankenstein properly
— get over ur crush faster done
— deal with ur depression
— stop thinking abt s..."
Mod
XD are you too?"
Yeppp
riverdale au where archie is the new kid from nz and his dad is this huge samoan guy with sleeve tatsbc that would be awesome
people in the us complaining about internet speed: but it's so slow! my video is buffering i must complain incessantly [at 1080p]
me: [at auto/360p] *video buffers for half an hour and has only loaded the first five seconds* ok nvm im going to go check something else now
when people blatantly rip off your group ideas and ruin them
should probably not second-guess people's motives
they might not have
it might be me making assumptions that aren't true
which is a common occurrence so like... i wouldn't start defending me if i were you.
anyway i'm petty i should just get over it rather than debating blocking them
things about me ;
— i'm lame and stupid and have an inability to stand up for myself unless it's to people my age who have absolutely no relation to or friendship with me
— i probably have depression but i can't say that i do because my parents refuse to take me to a psychologist/psychiatrist or acknowledge there's anything even slightly wrong with me aside from being 'lazy'.
— some things that get said to me way too much for my liking: 'you're lazy, stop spending so much time on your laptop' (paraphrased), 'stop biting your fingernails', 'yeah, right' (whenever i say i was doing schoolwork and actually was), 'get off your laptop', 'you never do anything to help'
i really agree with that second pointi have a sleeping problem but my parents refuse to take me to a psychiatrist and theyre like 'its ok just drink some warm milk and read a book and youll be able to sleep'
parents suck at acknowledging your failings might be caused by chemical imbalances rather than uselessness
taken from aphrodite
Daisy: How old were you when you had your first kiss?
➙ haven't had it
Carnation: If I handed you a concert ticket right now, who would you want to be the performer?
➙ they might be giants
Jasmine: What color looks best on you?
➙ most colours
Foxglove: Name three facts about your family?
➙ the most common age gap in my family is 2 years, my dad's family are a bunch of human calculators pretty much, and my uncle and grandfather get free train and bus travel in nsw bc they work/ed for transport nsw.
Allium: What's the best thing you can cook?
➙ brownie
Orange Blossom: If you could pick the gender and appearance of your child, would you?
➙ no
Calla Lily: If you died right now, what song would you want to play at your funeral?
➙ why does the sun shine by they might be giants (just to annoy all my friends one last time)
Poinsettia: Favorite holiday dish?
➙ panettone
Oxlip: Would you ever get into a long distance relationship?
➙ maybe
Primrose: Favorite kind of soup?
➙ pumpkin
Daffodil: What's the most thoughtful present you've ever received?
➙ when my best friend gave me a book and my favourite type of chocolate for my birthday
Rose: Are you currently in love with someone?
➙ yes
Amsonia: Would you ever become a vegan?
➙ no i don't want iron deficiency
Peony: What's your favorite hot beverage?
➙ hot chocolate
Tulip: For your birthday, what kind of cake do you ask for?
➙ red velvet
Myrtle: Do you like going on airplanes?
➙ sometimes
Hibiscus: Did you ever play an instrument? If so what?
➙ i play the guitar
Zinnia: Who was your best friend when you were six years old?
➙ siobhan
Poppy: What color was your childhood home?
➙ greenish-grey (and now grey & brown)
Hydrangea: Starbucks order?
➙ no
Violet: Do you like where you're from?
➙ in summer, no.
Locust: What was your favorite book as a child?
➙ drac and the gremlin
Rhododendron: What's the scariest dream you've ever had?
➙ the view from ararat-esque thing that left me having a panic attack for an hour
Queen Anne's Lace: Would you rather carve pumpkins or wrap presents?
➙ wrap presents
Magnolia: Favorite kind of candy?
➙ slate pencils (aniseed)
Aster: Would you rather be cold or hot?
➙ cold
Marigold: Do you listen to what's on the radio?
➙ no
Heliconia: Do you like when it rains?
➙ sometimes
Azalea: What's a movie you cried while watching?
➙ lion
Dandelion: Do you think you're important?
➙ no
dear mum,one of the symptoms of anxiety is overstimulation
i get overstimulated a lot
maybe you should take me to see a psychiatrist/ologist?
this was from yesterdaymy mum wanted me to help her hang out the washing even though i hung out an entire basketful on my own like 5 hours before that
but i also don't do the schoolwork so there's that
hahaha i love not having any friends at all online or in real lifeok i have friends but they all hate me
also when u have a ton of people who are ur best friends but ur nobody's best friend and there's always someone better n u really just need to cry but u can't bc ur not at home n i hate life can it just stop
and im so uninspired and there's nothing i can do to fix it and i have an assessment due tomorrow that i haven't finished and there's another subject where i'm so far behind it's not even masochistically funny anymore
why can't i just be happy for people why do i have to be depressed and bitter and miserable all the time
knowing that i'm never the best in anyone's eyes is really ew like can i please just be good at something for once?
i remembered why i never suggest anything or make jokes or interact with people. because when i do i somehow manage to offend everyone within hearing distance, or i get told that i'm wrong. yet everyone around me does the exact same things and the exact same people are around and nobody criticises them.
when u caused a war by asking ppl to choose between spring day & dna and u feel guilty
I WAS JOKING PLS DON'T FEEL GUILTY
