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Slowly Giving Up.... On Everything
rae wrote: "⛄⛄Emiliootjee⛄⛄ wrote: "rae wrote: "⛄⛄Emiliootjee⛄⛄ wrote: "whale shit.... its one sided love.... and one sided love doesnt work out. thats been proven with her."one sided love as in... you dont ..."
wait you mean the girl who told the whole bus about all my problems? or the girl im like super in love with but am letting go?
⛄⛄Emiliootjee⛄⛄ wrote: "rae wrote: "⛄⛄Emiliootjee⛄⛄ wrote: "rae wrote: "⛄⛄Emiliootjee⛄⛄ wrote: "whale shit.... its one sided love.... and one sided love doesnt work out. thats been proven with her."one sided love as in...."
the girl who told the bus about yah problems
also
back to your not handing love out like lollipops thing
1. i think its nice to at least show some love though cause then people are gonna think you dont like them or youre ignoring them
2. spoken from experience: you do NOT want to hand out lollipops to strangers >.<
the girl who told the bus my problems i like hate now cause shes the reason the girl im in a hole for doesnt wanna talk to me.im just not good at showing love/loving.
i dont plan on handing out lollipops to strangers... i would rather keep em to myself.
awh well maybe talk to her
did you ask her why she'd do that
also i want lollipops
rude
no and i dont really plan on it.... i was on this sitehttp://www.insidermonkey.com/blog/7-e...
and she saw it and she was like "no you cant do that" and then i was like... its my choice and she sounded like she was gonna cry but then she turned to her friend and they started chatting like she hadnt just read that. i hope she tells the rest of the bus what im planning.
your not a stranger rae :P you can has one.
these make me laugh.... so hard. xD
okay so today, i was talking to some friends before i went to my class, of course this was after the bell already rang.... and an AP is like "where you supposed to be" and im like "im headed to class" but shes like nahh your coming with me... so me an 3 other people go with her, and we all got iss tomorrow. they searched me because i was "awfully giggly" so yeah that happened. then i saw her again while i was skipping fourth period and i almost flipped out. i turned the other way and pretended to be in A lunch which is where i generally go to hang out when i skip 4th period.
she smiled and waved at me today.... which is so much better than how we usually avoid eye contact and keep walking.andddd.... happy 4/20 day.
420, 4:20, or 4/20 (pronounced four-twenty) is a code-term that refers to the consumption of cannabis, especially smoking cannabis around the time 4:20 p.m./a.m. (or 16:20 in 24-hour notation) and smoking and celebrating cannabis on the date April 20 (which is 4/20 in U.S. form).
Pulling me furtherFurther than I've been before
Making me stronger
Shaking me right to the core, oh
I don't know what's in the stars
Never heard it from above, the world isn't ours
But I know what's in my heart
If you ain't mine I'll be torn apart
I don't know who's gonna kiss you when I'm gone
So I'm gonna love you now, like it's all I have
I know it'll kill me when it's over
I don't wanna think about it, I want you to love me now
I don't know who's gonna kiss you when I'm gone
So I'm gonna love you now, like it's all I have
I know it'll kill me when it's over
I don't wanna think about it, I want you to love me now
Love me now (love me now)
Love me now (love me now)
Oh, oh, love me now, oh, oh, oh, yeah
Love me now (love me now)
Love me now (love me now)
I want you to love me now
Something inside us
Knows there's nothing guaranteed, yeah
Girl, I don't need you
To tell me that you'll never leave, no
When we've done all that we could
To turn darkness into light, turn evil to good
Even when we try so hard
For that perfect kind of love, it could all fall apart
And who's gonna kiss you when I'm gone?
Oh I'm gonna love you now, like it's all I have
And I know it'll kill me when it's over
I don't wanna think about it, I want you to love me now
Love me now (love me now)
Love me now (love me now)
Oh, oh, love me now, oh, oh, oh, yeah
Love me now (love me now)
Love me now (love me now)
Love me now
Oh!
I don't know how the years will go down, it's alright
Let's make the most of every moment tonight
I don't know who's gonna kiss you when I'm gone
So I'm gonna love you now, like it's all I have
I know it'll kill me when it's over
I don't wanna think about it, I want you to love me now
I don't know who's gonna kiss you when I'm gone
So I'm gonna love you now, like it's all I have
And I know it'll kill me when it's over
I don't wanna think about it, I just wanna love you now
Love me now (love me now)
Love me now (love me now)
Oh, oh, love you now, oh, oh, oh, yeah
Love me now (love you now)
Love me now
Oh love you now
Oh oh oh
There is a house built out of stoneWooden floors, walls and window sills
Tables and chairs worn by all of the dust
This is a place where I don't feel alone
This is a place where I feel at home
'Cause, I built a home
For you
For me
Until it disappeared
From me
From you
And now, it's time to leave and turn to dust
Out in the garden where we planted the seeds
There is a tree as old as me
Branches were sewn by the color of green
Ground had arose and passed it's knees
By the cracks of the skin I climbed to the top
I climbed the tree to see the world
When the gusts came around to blow me down
I held on as tightly as you held onto me
I held on as tightly as you held onto me
And, I built a home
For you
For me
Until it disappeared
From me
From you
And now, it's time to leave and turn to dust
so ISS is actually really fun. we just sit and listen to music and play games on our laptops. xDfirst you copy down some rules, then you get turned loose and you can do whatever you want as long as you dont get up and you dont talk. we can eat and drink whatever, we can play games, use our phones, and listen to as much music as we want.
yasssss i got my phone back....AMOSC: elmer331
instagram: emiliootjee
soundcloud: emiliootjee
its going okay.... just taking my time on the quest to find 10 guys xD
nahhh i refuse to give up. :Pgimme a while.
slowly giving up on everything at school.... more skipping, not caring, guessing on tests.... skipping is actually really fun. like its the only time i can have a conversation with people. plus its fun to see people when im walking around. yeah its a prison, but at least they dont mind me walking around it and enjoying myself for once. even if i end up not being able to graduate because i missed out, at least i had a good time and enjoyed my fucking life while it lasts.
⛄⛄Emiliootjee⛄⛄ wrote: "slowly giving up on everything at school.... more skipping, not caring, guessing on tests.... skipping is actually really fun. like its the only time i can have a conversation with people. plus its..."
*approaches u carefully* hi...are u okay?
*approaches u carefully* hi...are u okay?
yeah im fine. thats your classic "im fine"
but im moving to a new school and they said if i pass some tests they have there, they wont look at my grades so i got all my hopes on the tests.
Im sure you'll pass them. your smart
yeah othewise im fucked. im not passing a single class.
Lol, at least you've got a chance.
Idk why I loled. Don't pay any attention to it
STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDY! That should work
no actually thats just what everyone thinks. im actually not that smart. just good at solving problems that arent school related.
im sure you are just as intelligent as everybody else!
Sirius (Malakalato) Kaldwin wrote: "Lol, at least you've got a chance."yeah a chance is a chance. plus i wanna take it serious so im trying to get all the bad stuff out so i dont do bad in the new school.
Madi wrote: "STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDY! That should work"hate studying.
⛄⛄Call Me Emi⛄⛄ wrote: "Sirius (Malakalato) Kaldwin wrote: "Lol, at least you've got a chance."yeah a chance is a chance. plus i wanna take it serious so im trying to get all the bad stuff out so i dont do bad in the ne..."
Smart.
Madi wrote: "hi Sirius"Hello.
Madi wrote: "im sure you are just as intelligent as everybody else!"no im not smart at all.
STUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDY !
Sirius (Malakalato) Kaldwin wrote: "⛄⛄Call Me Emi⛄⛄ wrote: "Sirius (Malakalato) Kaldwin wrote: "Lol, at least you've got a chance."yeah a chance is a chance. plus i wanna take it serious so im trying to get all the bad stuff out so..."
see? smart with things outside of studying.
Sirius (Malakalato) Kaldwin wrote: "Nice pic"who you talking to?
Madi wrote: "STUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDY !"*sticks middle finger up at prison*
⛄⛄Call Me Emi⛄⛄ wrote: "Sirius (Malakalato) Kaldwin wrote: "Nice pic"who you talking to?"
Madi. Katie? Idk. Whatever she wants to be called.
Madi wrote: "dont say that"im skipping classes and failing while i know the consequences.... thats really stupid. because i know i dont want a job at mcdonalds flipping burgers.... thing is... even mcdonalds wants a high school diploma now.
one sided love as in... you dont love her (your friend) b..."
ok i feel like you're talking about two different people
id just asked about the friend
fuck sorry this is confusing