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How can you run from what's inside your head?
Shadow~Infj wrote: "OMG REALLY?!"
Yeah!! I've never met another one before r.i.p.
Yeah!! I've never met another one before r.i.p.
Me neither. We are making less than 1% of the worlds pop :(
Crazy family
Well, I talked about myself, lets go to the family! Whoo.....
I am an only child...so that probably explains a lot about my shyness. (thanks a lot parents) But, my mom and dad were planning having a another kid, but than my mom got cancer, which made her unable to have one.
My parents met, at work. They are both police officers. (retired, now) My mom was a forensic scientist, and she had to deal with a lot of chemicals, which made her have cancer. Today she is alive and well ;)
My dad, is well crazy. He is a little boy in a man's body. He often bugs me while I read, or on the computer. In the mornings, he sings...
That sums up my parents! :)
Well, I talked about myself, lets go to the family! Whoo.....
I am an only child...so that probably explains a lot about my shyness. (thanks a lot parents) But, my mom and dad were planning having a another kid, but than my mom got cancer, which made her unable to have one.
My parents met, at work. They are both police officers. (retired, now) My mom was a forensic scientist, and she had to deal with a lot of chemicals, which made her have cancer. Today she is alive and well ;)
My dad, is well crazy. He is a little boy in a man's body. He often bugs me while I read, or on the computer. In the mornings, he sings...
That sums up my parents! :)
Me, myself, and I
Do any of you guys talk to you self? Not in your head, but literally talk to you self out loud. Like, have an imaginary conversation to someone? Call, me crazy but I do that in bed, just talking to a imaginary teacher, or one of my peers...weird yes; should go into an asylum... quite possibly.
Any who, the reason I probably talk to myself, is that, I want intention! Be in the spot light, of everything! Have everyone be amazes by me, and my great comebacks at a teacher. But I hate being in the spot light...having everyone stare at me, and judge me for who I am.
I know, I know...that sounds insane, but there's a war in my head, clashing together.
My brain during parties for example
One part of my brain says, Oh, Shadow, come on! Lets go and dance, and party! Ooo! Theres you crush!!! Go on dance with him!!!
While the other part of my brain says this, Why am I here? This is boring, I'd rather be at home and become a hermit. Oh, god, don't look at me, people! I.Want.To.Go.Home.NOW!
Welcome to brain wars...who will win? The crazy brain? Or the party pooper brain...
Unfortunately neither win...I end up making a fool out of myself.
When both brain, thoughts collide
Whoo! This party is AWESOME! Ahh! That person just said hi and I didn't say anything! Idiot. Idiot. Oh, well, lets party!
Welcome to my life....
P.S I am sorry if this entry didn't make any sense...but I am an infj...I don't even understand myself
Do any of you guys talk to you self? Not in your head, but literally talk to you self out loud. Like, have an imaginary conversation to someone? Call, me crazy but I do that in bed, just talking to a imaginary teacher, or one of my peers...weird yes; should go into an asylum... quite possibly.
Any who, the reason I probably talk to myself, is that, I want intention! Be in the spot light, of everything! Have everyone be amazes by me, and my great comebacks at a teacher. But I hate being in the spot light...having everyone stare at me, and judge me for who I am.
I know, I know...that sounds insane, but there's a war in my head, clashing together.
My brain during parties for example
One part of my brain says, Oh, Shadow, come on! Lets go and dance, and party! Ooo! Theres you crush!!! Go on dance with him!!!
While the other part of my brain says this, Why am I here? This is boring, I'd rather be at home and become a hermit. Oh, god, don't look at me, people! I.Want.To.Go.Home.NOW!
Welcome to brain wars...who will win? The crazy brain? Or the party pooper brain...
Unfortunately neither win...I end up making a fool out of myself.
When both brain, thoughts collide
Whoo! This party is AWESOME! Ahh! That person just said hi and I didn't say anything! Idiot. Idiot. Oh, well, lets party!
Welcome to my life....
P.S I am sorry if this entry didn't make any sense...but I am an infj...I don't even understand myself
I hope every one has a Happy New Years!
Quote
"When I look into an eyes of an animal, I do not see an animal. I see a living being. I see a friend. I feel a soul."
-A.D. Williams
"You are one human with one life, and it's up to you to make it the best you can."
-Dan Howell
Quote
"When I look into an eyes of an animal, I do not see an animal. I see a living being. I see a friend. I feel a soul."
-A.D. Williams
"You are one human with one life, and it's up to you to make it the best you can."
-Dan Howell
Really, dumb, funny story
Okay, you borrow a book, from a friend. He/she is a really good friend, but they do not respect books....
Today, while I was reading on of my friend's book, I found out their were teeth marks on the cover.....
Ideas where the teeth belong to? And why she bit it...
Theory one. She was probably little, and BAM something to chew on.
Theory 2. My friend has ADHD or ADD I am not really sure, one of the two. But she is always hungry...so she probably wanted a snack.
So, that is the end of my stupid story...I hope you guys enjoyed it.
Okay, you borrow a book, from a friend. He/she is a really good friend, but they do not respect books....
Today, while I was reading on of my friend's book, I found out their were teeth marks on the cover.....
Ideas where the teeth belong to? And why she bit it...
Theory one. She was probably little, and BAM something to chew on.
Theory 2. My friend has ADHD or ADD I am not really sure, one of the two. But she is always hungry...so she probably wanted a snack.
So, that is the end of my stupid story...I hope you guys enjoyed it.
Mod
... Though I have bitten my bookmarks.. Because just reading isn't enough I guess. My fingers had to do something else while waiting to turn the page.
Oh well, I don't do that anymore because now I don't have the time to read Or the attention span to focus on reading for more than a page at a time. It's annoying.
Ha ha. Maybe thats why my friend did it, just being bored, or something. But it really disturbed me at first...xD
Mod
*chop. chop. chop* Lol, yes, my friend bit me...and it left a mark.
Mod
I think so, she tries to bite me..often...I should be worried
Omg! She might actually have rabies, but she got all her 5 shots.
How my friend got rabies.
How this story got brought, up was the chatting above.
Anyway, it was the start of school. I was at my house while my friend was at hers. (so I was safe and sound..yay..)
But she ended up finding a bat, which her dog touched, with her nose. The bat ended up, having rabies.
Her dog, had to stay in the house. While my friend, had to get 5 shots...but she bit me a couple of times...I should probably be very worried.
But hey, that was a few months ago, and I am still alive and not a physcho person..or am I??
How this story got brought, up was the chatting above.
Anyway, it was the start of school. I was at my house while my friend was at hers. (so I was safe and sound..yay..)
But she ended up finding a bat, which her dog touched, with her nose. The bat ended up, having rabies.
Her dog, had to stay in the house. While my friend, had to get 5 shots...but she bit me a couple of times...I should probably be very worried.
But hey, that was a few months ago, and I am still alive and not a physcho person..or am I??
Mod
I feel the foam, bubble in my mouth! *gurgling*
Alone
You have at least felt this way, at least once in your life. Being left out, from events, or having no friends.
See the thread's name? How can you run from what's inside your head?
But heres the problem, for me. I have friends, and a family who loves me. But..
I'm alone, inside my head, I feel emptiness inside.
I sometimes space out...and think about life, and think about the future. My brain clash with one another, about my dreams.
I know that none of my friends, with think as deeply as I do.
Thats how I am alone. Mentally. No, one to share, the same connection with me.
You have at least felt this way, at least once in your life. Being left out, from events, or having no friends.
See the thread's name? How can you run from what's inside your head?
But heres the problem, for me. I have friends, and a family who loves me. But..
I'm alone, inside my head, I feel emptiness inside.
I sometimes space out...and think about life, and think about the future. My brain clash with one another, about my dreams.
I know that none of my friends, with think as deeply as I do.
Thats how I am alone. Mentally. No, one to share, the same connection with me.
Mod
Yeah, ikr ;)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Mod
Rant
So, my rant of the week!
Ready?
Setty?
GO!
"Life as the little loner!"
YAY! I get to rant, about my sad social life! Whoo.........................
How to get a new friend!
1) Find some with the same interest as you
2) Make sure, they will fit all your benefits
3) Befriend them!
(The standard list of making new friends)
Sound easy? Heck no. Making new friends, is hard for almost all of us (unless your a social butterfly)
I am so impressed at how people can make like a gazillion new friends, in a month and get all their phone numbers.
While I'm like, with 1 friend, in one school semester. Wow, impressive...
But thats even making it high for me! Last year, 1 new friend. Whoo... this year....0. And its freak'n middle school, you expect to find more people which equal more friends! Right? Ha! Too bad thats not the truth for, all of us.
Here's my friend check list
1) Is this person nice?
2) Does this person, respect, you?
3) Do you have anything in common?
4) Will this person, stay by your side, as a true friend?
5) Are they helpful?
6) Extrovert of introvert? (for me, opposites extract)
7) Do they have a sense of humor?
8) Can, you show them your crazy side?
9) Can you trust them with secretes?
10) Do they make you happy?
11) And like me, for who I am
12) Will, they include you, in events, parties etc.?
13) Will they respect your privacy?
Well, yeah, thats pretty long...and not everyone fits to the perfect friend, for me. But I make exceptions, not everyone is perfect. But because of my 'friend lists' its hard, for me to make friends. I'm also hard to warm up to, as well. I just feel, I can't trust everyone, (#trustissues) sometimes, I don't even trust my friends.
Well, hope you enjoyed my blog/rant.
So, my rant of the week!
Ready?
Setty?
GO!
"Life as the little loner!"
YAY! I get to rant, about my sad social life! Whoo.........................
How to get a new friend!
1) Find some with the same interest as you
2) Make sure, they will fit all your benefits
3) Befriend them!
(The standard list of making new friends)
Sound easy? Heck no. Making new friends, is hard for almost all of us (unless your a social butterfly)
I am so impressed at how people can make like a gazillion new friends, in a month and get all their phone numbers.
While I'm like, with 1 friend, in one school semester. Wow, impressive...
But thats even making it high for me! Last year, 1 new friend. Whoo... this year....0. And its freak'n middle school, you expect to find more people which equal more friends! Right? Ha! Too bad thats not the truth for, all of us.
Here's my friend check list
1) Is this person nice?
2) Does this person, respect, you?
3) Do you have anything in common?
4) Will this person, stay by your side, as a true friend?
5) Are they helpful?
6) Extrovert of introvert? (for me, opposites extract)
7) Do they have a sense of humor?
8) Can, you show them your crazy side?
9) Can you trust them with secretes?
10) Do they make you happy?
11) And like me, for who I am
12) Will, they include you, in events, parties etc.?
13) Will they respect your privacy?
Well, yeah, thats pretty long...and not everyone fits to the perfect friend, for me. But I make exceptions, not everyone is perfect. But because of my 'friend lists' its hard, for me to make friends. I'm also hard to warm up to, as well. I just feel, I can't trust everyone, (#trustissues) sometimes, I don't even trust my friends.
Well, hope you enjoyed my blog/rant.
Mod
I actually find it easy to make friends though, and I am not a social butterfly >.< I am an awkward grilled cheese.
Birthday
January 10, was when the great and powerful Shadow was born! Dun, dun, DUN!
Ha ha, I'm just kidding....or am I? Lolz
I won't say my age, to the people who read this, but you can PM and ask. But please don't share my age, if I tell you. Its nothing personal, but I like my privacy :)
I'm not very excited for it....
Well, your probably thinking, 'Shadow, what how can you not be excited for your birthday! You get cake, and presents, ooo and hang out with your BEST buds!!'
Yeah, I'm happy about that....but.....I don't want to get old....
When I was little, like 5-7 I would worry about death. I used to think every time I did something bad, I would have one less day to live...
I know, weird child, was I?
But, this is a special birthday....to show that I'm a big girl/boy. (Yes, I will not tell my gender. But your guess is probably right ;) ))
My grandma lives with me, and my mom and I have to help her with easy things.
And I don't want to get like that, I want to stay a kid forever!!! I wish I, hadn't wished to grow up, so...FAST!!
The years, seemed to be long, when I was little, but now, everything goes by sooo fast!!!! Like *blink* the year is gone
Heres my message, kids, who are 5-12 years old (yes, being a child, is the shortest part of your life!) do not wish, to grow up just like your siblings or, can't wait that your tall enough for that ride. Or old enough to go by yourself. Enjoy your life as a kid. You only get to live it once, and make it a great 6 years of your life :)
Do not make the same mistake as I did, enjoy your final years, as a kid. Where you don't have to experience drama, or the mean people out there. Just live free, and wild. :)))))))
January 10, was when the great and powerful Shadow was born! Dun, dun, DUN!
Ha ha, I'm just kidding....or am I? Lolz
I won't say my age, to the people who read this, but you can PM and ask. But please don't share my age, if I tell you. Its nothing personal, but I like my privacy :)
I'm not very excited for it....
Well, your probably thinking, 'Shadow, what how can you not be excited for your birthday! You get cake, and presents, ooo and hang out with your BEST buds!!'
Yeah, I'm happy about that....but.....I don't want to get old....
When I was little, like 5-7 I would worry about death. I used to think every time I did something bad, I would have one less day to live...
I know, weird child, was I?
But, this is a special birthday....to show that I'm a big girl/boy. (Yes, I will not tell my gender. But your guess is probably right ;) ))
My grandma lives with me, and my mom and I have to help her with easy things.
And I don't want to get like that, I want to stay a kid forever!!! I wish I, hadn't wished to grow up, so...FAST!!
The years, seemed to be long, when I was little, but now, everything goes by sooo fast!!!! Like *blink* the year is gone
Heres my message, kids, who are 5-12 years old (yes, being a child, is the shortest part of your life!) do not wish, to grow up just like your siblings or, can't wait that your tall enough for that ride. Or old enough to go by yourself. Enjoy your life as a kid. You only get to live it once, and make it a great 6 years of your life :)
Do not make the same mistake as I did, enjoy your final years, as a kid. Where you don't have to experience drama, or the mean people out there. Just live free, and wild. :)))))))
Mod
Ha ha, cool!;) same with my class mate and neighbor. ;))))))))))
Mod
Lolz o.O yeah, its kinda creepy....but oh well! xD
Presentations
Presentations....
Presentations...
Every, shy girl/boy fears most
I'm deathly afraid of that word. I hate the feeling, of um..hmm 27x2= 54 eyes on you!
Or even feeling the heat rise to your cheeks, making you look like a tomato or, feeling like your having a fever.
Then while you talk, your voice changes, into a more...scared tone, and it starts to stutter. Then you speak fast...BAM 'F' for Shadow for her presentation.....
Well, that grade hasn't showed up in my grades...yet. But being shy, and scared for presentations, can get your points detected...
I love teaching things to people....yet I don't want to speak in front of everyone! Maybe just one on one, teachings. Yeah, that sounds good.
Presentations....
Presentations...
Every, shy girl/boy fears most
I'm deathly afraid of that word. I hate the feeling, of um..hmm 27x2= 54 eyes on you!
Or even feeling the heat rise to your cheeks, making you look like a tomato or, feeling like your having a fever.
Then while you talk, your voice changes, into a more...scared tone, and it starts to stutter. Then you speak fast...BAM 'F' for Shadow for her presentation.....
Well, that grade hasn't showed up in my grades...yet. But being shy, and scared for presentations, can get your points detected...
I love teaching things to people....yet I don't want to speak in front of everyone! Maybe just one on one, teachings. Yeah, that sounds good.
Alone, and lonely
So, what is the difference between alone and lonely? Riddle me that Batman.
Dictionary's definition
Alone: separate, apart, or isolated from others
Lonely: affected with, characterized by, or causing a depressing feeling of being alone; lonesome.
Hmm, they seem kinda similar...well here's the difference folks!
Introverts!
If you have a friend who is a introvert, they probably like 'me time'
What is 'me time?'
Well, its the best thing for an INTROVERT! 'Me time' is a good solid 20 min to an hour, of isolating yourself from socializing. Your friends may, listen to music, take a nap, or just read. Its basically re-charging them to face more socializing. This is being alone. They are not lonely, they just need to be alone, to charge up.
Lonely is, being forced to. While alone is an option or feeling different. Lonely is when people, don't care, about you. Or ignore you, when you ask to hang out. Lonely is having no one by your side, when you fight, life's battles.
Thats the difference.
Makes you think, right?
So, what is the difference between alone and lonely? Riddle me that Batman.
Dictionary's definition
Alone: separate, apart, or isolated from others
Lonely: affected with, characterized by, or causing a depressing feeling of being alone; lonesome.
Hmm, they seem kinda similar...well here's the difference folks!
Introverts!
If you have a friend who is a introvert, they probably like 'me time'
What is 'me time?'
Well, its the best thing for an INTROVERT! 'Me time' is a good solid 20 min to an hour, of isolating yourself from socializing. Your friends may, listen to music, take a nap, or just read. Its basically re-charging them to face more socializing. This is being alone. They are not lonely, they just need to be alone, to charge up.
Lonely is, being forced to. While alone is an option or feeling different. Lonely is when people, don't care, about you. Or ignore you, when you ask to hang out. Lonely is having no one by your side, when you fight, life's battles.
Thats the difference.
Makes you think, right?
Mod
Oh, wow. We are like opposites, when it comes to teaching someone. xD
Some of my writings :)
Wattpad username: Magic_infj
There are more to the stories, in my story on wattpad
Forever, together
https://www.goodreads.com/story/show/...
The Wolf and the Boy
https://www.goodreads.com/story/show/...
Dark and his Light
https://www.goodreads.com/story/show/...
The horse
https://www.goodreads.com/story/show/...
simple fairy tales. They are on dreams, and a dash of magic :)
Wattpad username: Magic_infj
There are more to the stories, in my story on wattpad
Forever, together
https://www.goodreads.com/story/show/...
The Wolf and the Boy
https://www.goodreads.com/story/show/...
Dark and his Light
https://www.goodreads.com/story/show/...
The horse
https://www.goodreads.com/story/show/...
simple fairy tales. They are on dreams, and a dash of magic :)
Does, anyone know how to post pictures, with out the links that you have to click?
Mod
Example:
Don't put goodreads. com, put https://www.goodreads.com
Okay, cool! THANK YOU so much!! <3
Mod
Does it matter what website you use, to upload a photo?
That moment when you realize...
That you are born to be lonely! FOREVER
Yeah, yeah, I could be exaggerating but....my friends have make NEW friends, and started having inside jokes, and leaving me out. And well, not all of them are very nice...
They like drama
LOTS of people
While there I am, in the edge of the crowd feeling like I don't belong. I have been through so many friend groups, its not even funny.
And yeah, I will just accept that I will be a loner! Sure, I will have friends....I will but friends that will forget about you, and leave you, for others.
Okay, your probably thinking, 'Oh, come on Shadow. You sound like a little jealous person.'
Well, I'm not. I'm happy that they made friends. But not happy that they forget about old friends
Such as me...
That you are born to be lonely! FOREVER
Yeah, yeah, I could be exaggerating but....my friends have make NEW friends, and started having inside jokes, and leaving me out. And well, not all of them are very nice...
They like drama
LOTS of people
While there I am, in the edge of the crowd feeling like I don't belong. I have been through so many friend groups, its not even funny.
And yeah, I will just accept that I will be a loner! Sure, I will have friends....I will but friends that will forget about you, and leave you, for others.
Okay, your probably thinking, 'Oh, come on Shadow. You sound like a little jealous person.'
Well, I'm not. I'm happy that they made friends. But not happy that they forget about old friends
Such as me...
Mod
Sometimes some don't work. I don't know why.
Mod
That you are born to be lonely! FOREVER
Yeah, yeah, I could be exaggerating but....my friends have make NEW friends, and started having inside jokes, and leaving ..."
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Cαiт the тrσubℓє Bαit wrote: "Shadow~Infj wrote: "Does it matter what website you use, to upload a photo?"
Sometimes some don't work. I don't know why."
Hm, thanks though! xD
Sometimes some don't work. I don't know why."
Hm, thanks though! xD
The infj stands for..
introvert
intuition
feeling
judging
Infj, is one of the 16 personalities. Here's the link to the quiz. http://www.16personalities.com/free-p...
Anyway, I may sound, like a bubbly, extroverted, online. But I'm a actually a pretty, shy kid. Starting middle school, is tough as well, when you watch your friends, get knew friends...while you have, made none. I probably haven't made any, because...well its hard to make new friends, when every one thinks, being quiet and shy is all to your personality. But, of course there's more than that, if you take the time to really get to know some one. I'm hard to warm up to, as well.
Well, that basically sums, some of me up. The rest of me, will have to be a complete mystery! Dun, dun, DUN! Well hope you guys enjoyed reading my first entry