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Either GR is f'ed up or I thought I posted something and didn't...either is a possibility.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Rant ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Most people in the business society see a young guy walk in and right away think that I’m naïve, and therefore an easy target. After running a financial check they think “Sucker”. They jump to the conclusion that because a) I am young I am not familiar with my rights or business practices. b) I’ve got money, so obviously it was handed to me and those that don’t work for what they have tend to spend more frivolously.
People talk about prejudices all the time but these are the ones that go unnoticed by most and the ones that irk the living hell out of me. My age nor the amount in my account is justification for judgement.
I hate how some people take one look at me and think ‘privileged rich kid’, what they don’t know is that I work a full time job, sometimes upwards of 50 to 60 hours a week, and I’m not sitting behind a desk at some cushy job handed to me by my parents.
I drive a wrecker, that’s right I’m the guy that shows up when you’ve broken down or have been involved in a wreck. I work third shift, the shift that I prefer while most hate to work. I work in the heat, the rain, sleet, snow. I've been soaked to the bone and covered in mud head to toe, so I am well aware of what hard work is.
Yes, I have a trust fund, though its not just handed to me. First of all it is set up to be distributed in increments at certain ages and or milestones of my life, secondly a business plan has to be prepared, by me, stating exactly where and what the funds will be used for, weather it is for major purchases or to be deposited into a money market account or stocks, ect. There is a ton of other stipulations as well but we needn’t go into all that.
Point is, Yes, I lived a privileged life style for the better part of my life, though that does not mean I don’t know the value of a dollar or the rewards of a hard day’s work- I'm not above working for a living and I don't shy away from getting my hands dirty. Privileged doesn’t mean I’ve not felt hardship, or suffered grief, despair, agony, pain, or stress. Everyone has their wounds, everyone has their cross to bear so to speak. Money doesn’t make one exempt from pain. So to those who cast judgement so easily look again.
You don’t know me, you don’t know my life, you don’t know anything about who or what I am, where or what I have been through in my life.
“Everyone is fighting a battle you know nothing about.” ~~
The amount of money in one’s bank account does not set them free of that.
My father once said to me “Never judge a man by the amount of money in his pocket,” ….meaning never look down on those less fortunate…so why then does it not apply for the opposite?
End Rant
Surprised Cass this morning. Stopped on my way home and got her a flavored coffee and a muffin, then met her in the parking lot of her work as she was pulling in.
It was a long night. With the rain today hopefully there won't be much activity outside, no lawn mowers and other equipment running so maybe, just maybe ..I can get some rest? The struggles of sleeping during the day.
*************Starting over.*************Nothing personal against anyone. Due to extenuating circumstances I just took everyone off my friend list. Send a message if you want to be re-friended....idk if that's even a word but whatever.
Every now and then I find myself in this place...it's dark and lonely. Even when you have people surrounding you, you still feel isolated. And although you want them there at the same time you don't, you pull back and withdraw from things. It's odd and conflicting.... And I don't know why I'm even in this place or what brought me here.. My troubles in comparison to most are minimal... though it doesn't ease this feeling of.. I don't know, impending sense of dread?...I'm not even sure that's the right word for what this is, dread? It's like a cloak has been draped over you and you just get trapped in this ongoing feeling of uncertainty and doubt. It's hard to shake. You start to feel defeated and the question 'why bother' hangs over you. Why bother? what's the point? and then I know its time to dig deeper and remember tomorrow's worth the fight. Cus by tomorrow this cloak may be shed and this feeling could be gone just as quickly as it came...
I don't know if anyone else can relate, though that seems a bit conceded of me to think out of the billions that walk this earth I'm the only one to experience such an awareness of a seemingly doom perceived kismet that lurks deep under the surface....or perhaps these are the things I've suppressed and they can only stay buried for so long? Every now and then they rise to remind me ....I have no idea what they are here to remind me? I'm too tired to think...then again perhaps that's all this is, sleep deprivation at its peak.
That sounds like Ted when he's manic depressed, though it isn't so much the doom aspect. I get the dread and uncertainty occasionally but nowhere near as bad as you do, from the sounds of it. I hope the feeling passes and you catch some rest. <3 Also you should totally add me back as a friend, if I don't drive you nuts by now
Survey is in - Sleep deprivation it is! errr was. Amazing what 12 + hours of sleep will do. *rereads post* I really ought not post when I am in that state of mind. smh quite a depressing read. But tbh I think we all hit that low at some point and question our purpose, or lack there of.
Lynx ~ 10/1 Never Forgetten wrote: "That sounds like Ted when he's manic depressed, though it isn't so much the doom aspect. I get the dread and uncertainty occasionally but nowhere near as bad as you do, from the sounds of it. I hop..."The product of Sleep deprivation at its peak. Thanks I did, With a bit of help I got 12+ hours of sleep. Now I have a massive headache but a least its not a migraine.
Friend eh? hmmmm idk I'll think about it. jk
Things to do, Places to go, ppl to annoy, havoc to wreak, and chaos to cause. Au revoir Infidels
I should become a motivational speaker. My speeches will empower, encourage and prompt immediate action from my listeners!...also a taser gun and/or cattle prod will work quite well.
Meanwhile, I will sit with my feet propped up, cold drink in hand and watch some tv
I feel accomplished. Plugged everything into the new surge protector and connected the new printer to the network since the last one got fried. Time for a break. that was 20 minutes hard labour.
I came on here for a reason and now idr what the hell it was....
No work tonight, waiting for Cass to get home, some girls night out thing....kinda bored.
Goodbye summer. No more part time leisurely days for Cass. Mawhahahha
Checking spam mail can be both entertaining and insulting. I had shit from dating sites like 'Farmers only' and 'Christian mingles' to ads for erectile dysfunction....like what the bloody hell? smh At least my mail sorter was smart enough to know it was spam.
I should probably give that guy a raise.
Spam can be interesting sometimes. I find the next of kin ones the funniest for me 'were contacting you because you share the same last name'. I have one of the most common last names so....
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Nothing personal against anyone. Due to extenuating circumstances I just took everyone off my friend list. Send a message if you want to be re-friended......."
I should probably do that, but it's such effort and I'm barely here anymore anyway
Elizabeth wrote: "Spam can be interesting sometimes. I find the next of kin ones the funniest for me 'were contacting you because you share the same last name'. I have one of the most common last names so...."true that.
c a i t l y n ~ it's all good ~ wrote: "Nate wrote: "*************Starting over.*************Nothing personal against anyone. Due to extenuating circumstances I just took everyone off my friend list. Send a message if you want to be re..."
Go for it, took less then a half hour, idk kinda had second thoughts but at the same time, prob should have done it long ago.
gotta get ready for work, not feeling it tonight... c'est la vie
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Nothing personal against anyone. Due to extenuating circumstances I just took everyone off my friend l..."
It probably would take me longer and I just don't care enough anymore
c a i t l y n ~ it's all good ~ wrote: ..It probably would take me longer and I just don't care enough anymore "
Probably so, especially since I had limited my friend selection to begin with. I think I had less then 200 to delete. It was a rather hasty, rash decision though I can't say I regret it too much, probably won't solve the problem but...*shrugs*
Breakfast Burrito...not sure how I feel about this.
.....wait, you've never had a breakfast burrito???
... I just.....
*speechless*
....
How? You poor soul... I freakin love breakfast burritos... Just.... how? :O Please tell me it was at least a decent one you tried.
I don't usually eat breakfast even though my breakfast would be the equivalent of your dinner, you know the whole working nights thing. heh, not bad but nothing I'd consider noteworthy. (I'm not much for eggs either.)
Got a call to tow a hearse....but had to wait for another hearse to show up because the one that broke down still had the casket and body in it.
Nate wrote: "I don't usually eat breakfast even though my breakfast would be the equivalent of your dinner, you know the whole working nights thing. heh, not bad but nothing I'd consider noteworthy. (I'm not ..."
....you and Richard. Freakin' heck. He doesn't eat breakfast or like eggs either. -_-
Also the hearse thing is hilarious
Lynx ~ 10/1 Never Forgetten wrote: .......you and Richard. Freakin' heck. He doesn't eat breakfast or like eggs either. -_- Also the hearse thing is hilarious "
....not cool.
maybe its a chemical imbalance similarity thing? idk
Yeah and me and my co worker had to help move the casket to the other hearse. I was like - I'm quite sure this is not in my job description.
I don't like breakfast most days either, not a fan of breakfast foods. And yeah....moving a casket wouldn't be fun.
Hahaha, possible? XD Lol that sounds like an exciting day
All I could think of was that comedy video I saw years ago about this hearse going up a hill and the back door opens and the casket comes out and rolls down hill. Meanwhile ppl at this little cafe sitting outside eating lunch look on. I think its on Youtube. some prank thing. I was like yeah that'd be our luck, try to load the hearse and the damn casket flies out the back.
My fav show ended last week. (Animal Kingdom on tnt) Sucks now I have to wait a year for the new season. BUT on the upside American Horror story starts tonight. I had to correct that three times cus it wanted to spell Horrour. I guess I use the British spelling more often.
So we were just chilling out and out of nowhere Cass goes 'I think you should write me a poem' Me- Umm no
Cass- c'mon you could do it if you wanted.
Me - umm no
* few minutes of silence as we both go back to our own thing on our phones*
Me - From the moment that I met you I wanted to forget you.
Cass - *Jaw drop, slight laugh* That's just wrong.
Me- Whaaa? Not romantic enough?
Me- Ok what about ....From the moment that I met you I wanted to undress you...
Cass - *Still laughing* Really? ..ok you're right you suck at poetry.
jsut got a text from work, I might have to dispatch tonight. NOOOOO!!!! ...is it too late to fake being sick? JK but I hate dispatch.
So we might be responsible for someone else's child this w/e. smh Not sure what has me alarmed more, the possibility of having to watch someone's kid or wondering what fool would entrust their only offspring with me?....
hi ho hi ho off to work I go. see ya in the AM.
ok so there's a down side to living on the coast, evacuations suck but hell I'll deal with it. To have that view and that lifestyle it'd be worth it...
So apparently Alex was in Key West and evacuated and now nobody knows where he's at. More than likely his phone died and he's resting or something simple like that. Mum's in tizzy
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