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I was in a writing mood...until I started to write.
Happy to have Cass back? :)
Lynx ~ 10/1 Never Forgetten ~ UCC Strong! wrote: "Happy to have Cass back? :)"Yes...though she has reclaimed all counter space in the bathroom. smh
Just washed the car. This increases the chance of rain within a 50 mile radius by 99.98%.
"Gee why didn't I think of that?"....Oh wait that's right, I DID!!! smh I swear it's like I'm invisible at times. I said the same fricken thing 20 minutes ago....but what do I know?
When you type in Mother Fucker and auto correct changes it to Mother of a duck...smh
Sometimes you think something didn't effect you and then you realize later that maybe it did?.....
kind of in a blah mood today, dunno why...
change of plans. *Tosses car keys onto table flops down on couch* smh
I think there is something seriously wrong with me...like really seriously wrong. 1) I let her play country music, in MY car.2) I found myself humming to it....quite disturbing.
Dude that's horrible. Im sorry. *pats shoulder*
Ikr, she's laughing, I'm considering a lobotomy.
Completely understand. Country music sucks.. I'd be reevaluating my life if that happened.
And in other news...this trip hasn't even started yet and its already off to a bad start. smh
let me check my 'giveafuckmeter'....sorry, nothing, not even registering.
WHY do they change plans and then expect that everyone else is suppose to just fall in line? smh
I have two choices....turn this phone off for the night or throw against the wall. It's taking everything in me not to throw it.
Who wants to join the CSI team? (can't stand idiots)
Nate wrote: "Who wants to join the CSI team? (can't stand idiots)"
what is that
Nate wrote: "I have two choices....turn this phone off for the night or throw against the wall. It's taking everything in me not to throw it."turn it off
hey its been forever since ive commented on this journal
i remember the winky faces on this journal lmao ;)
Yes the forbidden winky face. *cringes*
blue wrote: "Nate wrote: "I have two choices....turn this phone off for the night or throw against the wall. It's taking everything in me not to throw it."turn it off"
I did. Well actually Cass did cus I was about smash it.
Nate wrote: "Yes the forbidden winky face. *cringes*"forbidden from this journal
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Nate wrote: "blue wrote: "Nate wrote: "I have two choices....turn this phone off for the night or throw against the wall. It's taking everything in me not to throw it."turn it off"
I did. Well actually Cass ..."
XD
or what? I can't rightly tell you what to post elsewhere...or can I? Mawhahahah*cough*hahahah
the red numbers are bothering me today.
Nate wrote: "or what? I can't rightly tell you what to post elsewhere...or can I? Mawhahahah*cough*hahahah"
no you cant :) smiley
The ads that show up on my homepage make no sense. smh
I don't feel like writing this anymore..... Baby come home
The refrigerator door closed behind me with an abnormally loud thump. I took a sip from my drink and as I set the glass down, that too made an unusually loud clank against the granite counter top. Perhaps it was just me but the stillness of the atmosphere was suffocating and the silence was deafening, her not being here was really playing on my senses.
I knew this would be a difficult time for her, but never imagined I’d be just as gutted.
Every night when she called – especially in those first few weeks – she was so torn. She liked what the internship offered her, loved the work and the people she had met and those she worked with, but she missed home, she missed me and her cat and longed for the familiarity of all she’d left behind. And even though I wanted so badly to tell her ‘Baby just come home.’ That would be selfish. She needed to do this, she needed to be strong. She’d never stick it out if I gave her any inkling that I too was struggling with the separation. We could get through this. On the outside I probably seemed cold, detached even, trust me when I say my outward projection is not always an accurate portrayal of my true emotions.
She’d call and I’d hear the catch in her breath and know she was on the verge of tears. “I’m sorry, I know I’m being overly emotional, I just miss you so much and all I want is to have you here, to hold me, meanwhile you’re probably enjoying your space and having the place all to yourself.” She said…. “ Not true…Ash is still here, though I’ve purposely left the door open a bit too long in hopes he’d wonder off but no such luck. I think he’s holding out for you.” Was my reply. And so am I luv but I’m too, I don’t know, virile to say the words.
Speak of the devil, no sooner had the memory faded from the foreground Ash came sauntering up the hall. He stopped just short of entering the kitchen and peered at me from the floor while I stood resting my palms on the granite counter top of the kitchen island. He cocked his head to the side, then turned in a circle and let out a meow while eyeing the door.
“Don’t look at me, I want her home too,” he dropped his head and retreated back up the hallway. I suppose he didn't like what I had to say.
Time began to drag. The nights I worked seemed to pass at a normal enough rate though the nights I had off seemed endless. At times it felt like the sun would never rise….perhaps that was my own private metaphor. She’s my light. Without her there’s just darkness. Like the colour of my soul.
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Awww... I can see why you wouldn't want to keep writing it. This sounds so much like me and Richard it isn't even funny. There's no way I could do an internship like that. It would tear Richard apart. :/
Lynx ~ 10/1 Never Forgetten ~ UCC Strong! wrote: "Awww... I can see why you wouldn't want to keep writing it. This sounds so much like me and Richard it isn't even funny. There's no way I could do an internship like that. It would tear Richard apa..."...there's a terrifying thought.
on the upside we made it. Which will make the next one easier. We both agreed when we set the date that three weeks b4 the ceremony we would live apart.
Dude it really is... like omg. Why?
Lynx ~ 10/1 Never Forgetten ~ UCC Strong! wrote: "Dude it really is... like omg. Why?"
old fashion, I guess. If you think about it, we're basically married anyway, we live together, have bills and joint accounts, the only thing missing is the legality of it.
So separating before hand I guess our theory is it will, somehow renew? or let us appreciate the relationship more? ...idk but sounded like a good idea and that's what we're sticking with.
I am having hard time expressing things in words lately. smh ...good thing I never pursued that writing career.
I thought DA had a basic chat thread....
I need some new music. Load up the itunes
Just came back from kayaking. An unwelcome stowaway (view spoiler) had us both paddling for the shoreline much faster than our usual pace. Where our passenger was flung several feet after being beat with the paddle...Once the threat was gone, we had a good laugh.
I just need to get through the next few days/nights and then I'm on holiday!
Nate wrote: "Lynx ~ 10/1 Never Forgetten ~ UCC Strong! wrote: "Dude it really is... like omg. Why?"
old fashion, I guess. If you think about it, we're basically married anyway, we live together, have bills a..."
I get it. Richard and I didn't live together until after marriage, but I can see why you guys would decide to take that time away. Sounds sweet :)
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Guess who was suppose to come home today?
Guess who showed up at my place of work around 1 A.M. and surprised the shit out of me?
*hint* she's the most amazing person to walk this earth.
Guess who didn't finish their shift and left early last night?
Guess who is just now going try and get some sleep before my next shift in less than 4 hours?
and I wouldn't have changed a thing.