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Jul 13, 2016 10:24AM
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idk still feels slow, but I'm ok with that now. Though now to break it up they ought to add ..."
Good idea. I'd suggest it myself but at least 95% of the mods hate me soo..
That awkward moment when you have to use your g/f's razor...and to make matters worse, its pink. smh
Flashback to the time when I was young and lost my phone and had to use mum's pink razar flip phone. That was so uncool.
Slice your finger open = OW! Broken bone = OWW! Bloody Hell!
Stub your toe = OWWW!!!! God Damn, mother fucking son of a bitch, GRRRR Fucking Hell, THAT HURT!! *eyes watering*
"what's the worse that could happen?" ~ The powers that be see this as a challenge.
My back, neck and shoulders are so burnt. ugh.
Flipped the waverunner twice today. On the upside finally got Cass to let me get it up to over 85 mph b4 she freaked out. (& no, she was not on the waverunner when it flipped)
My left Nike slide is somewhere in the gulf of Mexico...
very disappointed, no sharks. Plenty of dolphins though. & I'm not quite certain but possibly a whale.
I hate when mum's right....but she was right.
Again I have dropped off the list. Sad day.
I could be writing...and yet I'm not. I kinda want to ...and yet I'm not. Maybe later. Not like it'd make a difference.
My brother is such a Fucking ass. I decided to buy a kite..yes a kite...anyway, I spent a bit more than I should of but it was cool looking, it was a dragon and had fringe and yeah it looked bad ass in the sky,...until, Alex cut the damn line with a pocket knife. Blody Wanker!!! last I saw it, it was soaring high above the gulf of mexico. Prob still out there somewhere. Godspeed Sully the dragon kite.
I can completely relate with that minus the kite part
so far the Gulf of Mexico has my kite, my left Nike slide, a pair of sunglasses, and quite possibly a bit of my pride.
Lil too much company if you know what I mean.
its only two weeks, its only two weeks, its only two weeks....I'm not gonna make it.
Music either makes you forget everything or remember everything...
My brother has a death wish. He just called mum a sea-hag. I've seen that look b4 and its best to back up slowly but keep your eyes on her. LOL
My scar is burning, (I can already hear the Harry Potter Jokes) but seriously its bothering me tonight.
OK its getting a bit cramped now. My tolerance level is maxing out. I made it just over a week. Now the fight to remain calm begins.
I can feel the riptide forming and I'm not talking about the ones in the sea.
idiot screamed shark and its a dolphin. smh even more amusing is no one moved all that quickly to vacate the waters.
'I got guns in my head and they won't go, spirits in my head and they won't go, '
I should be happy, I have no reason to be pissed off and yet I am...idky I'm just in a foul mood.
I'm being watched by a pelican. Its starting to creep me out a bit.
I wonder if I was a bird in a former life? cus I seem to be stalked by the feathered fiends quite often. Most notable of all was stalker duck...wonder what's become of him? very deep thoughts tonight...
when did it become a crime to want some time alone?
#SaltLife (except I don't fish)
The cycle: Starts with the increased insomnia. When you're not even able to achieve the average 4 to 5 hours of sleep you're lucky enough to get on a daily basis.
Next comes the influx of highs and lows. The highs are high and the lows are low. For me I hit an upswing that can last anywhere from a few hours to a few days, where I am on an extreme high. My family refers to this as my 'happy hyper mode', I'm usually quite jubilant when in this phase. After that I assume it's comparable to coming down from a substance high. (Except in this case the substance is your own imbalanced chemical make up) I'll feel really drained and tired. Yet due to the insomnia getting any type of rest is futile.
The lack of sleep leads to anxiety, which leads to irritation as well as an extreme decrease in tolerance for typical everyday annoyances.
Everything builds and quite often leads to the next stage - the fall out. Where I can no longer hold it together and wind up lashing out, most often on the ones closest to me. The ones who would do anything for me and yet I unleash on them time and time again. I don't feel good about it. I'm not proud of it. And I try my best not to let things escalate to that level.
Sometimes the cycle doesn't always follow suite. The pattern is broken and steps are missed and I skip from stage 1 to stage 4 and snap before I even have a chance to reel things in and realize what is happening.
Control is something we fight for on a daily basis. Control of our own emotions and while we don't set out to hurt the ones he care about, quite often we do. We say and do things in the heat of the moment that we don't really mean. Its not an excuse...just don't give up us.
The last stage for me, more times than not if I have reach that explosive phase. I end up with a migraine from hell. (Karma at its best) Personally I think its caused from going from one extreme to another in such a short period of time. Though I have no medical proof of this, its just my own hypothesis...I doubt anyone will read this, but if you do and you suffer from the same disorder. GOOD NEWS - you're not alone.
If one more person bumps into me, cuts me off or gets in my way while playing this fricken Pokemon go shit I'm gonna throat punch them.
That moment when you 'think' you have enough gas, then realize you don't.... (Was stuck in the GOM, Had to wait til Alex came with the other waverunner smh)
Salt water makes my hair feel stiff. I dislike that...a lot.
Watching my sister paint the sunset. Have to admit, not bad.
This is the shit that happens when you are stuck in tight quarters with family for log periods of time. I take you back 5 yrs ago....*swishing whirling sound* https://www.goodreads.com/story/show/...
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