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Jan 22, 2016 09:26PM
I'm crying now...someone read my poem and thought it was about him :'( He was deeply touched and he thought I was the girl that he'd lost. It broke my heart telling him that I wasn't her...
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How long does it take before someone is ok enough to go to sleep after they slip and hit their head?
hour mmaybe half an hour. Did you slip and hit your head?
hour mmaybe half an hour. Did you slip and hit your head?
Mhm. I've actually got a headache from it
I'm tired though...I know though....
lol do something to keep yourself awake. Talk to people, listen to music, play a game
Trying to do all of that literally. I stopped with my game to come here...but I'm talking to you and someone else. I do have music playing. And my head really hurts!!
Then breathe and hopefully it will get better. Now I am so sorry but I have to go to sleep.
My head...it's still bugging me. It hurts. And I've got a slight headache. And I'm so tired!!
No...it just hurts really bad...
well ok...i did just facepalm and that didn't help my head...but that was legitally like not even 5 minutes ago
well ok...i did just facepalm and that didn't help my head...but that was legitally like not even 5 minutes ago
You're fine. I think the whole thing is crazy XD. But I'm going to bed...hopefully that will help
Now...don't freak out...but for the first time since the day I was born...I went to the ER for myself. It was so strange! I've never been to the ER!! I mean...I've been there for friends and family. But I've never had to go for me. I guess that's what happens when you slip and hit your head though...at 11 something last night. I didn't get out until midnight but ok...
So you went in b/c possible concussion?
I'm fine. I've got a mild concussion and facial/scalp contusion
My head seems to be doing better. Not nearly as intense of pain as it was! Making me feel better too :D
I feel like I want to just post random stuff here just to do something but I have no idea what to post. I'm not used to speaking my mind or even being able to be random.
In my family's eyes...it'd be childish and I'm an adult now. *slouches* I know I can make my own choices though...
But...what if I get annoying...like I always am??? Then what?
I guess it wouldn't matter too much...I don't have many people reading me journal...
Soooooooooo sheer boredom is deciding that I shall read again! :D Which means...WAIT!! I shouldn't! I'll get too into the book and not make it to work on time. Darn -_- Why oh why does the book always have to capture me???
Ok...sheer boredom says I could just post random stuff on here...which I guess is possible...idk if it'll help with the boredom though
Eventually i'll grow tired of it and just say bleh
Nah...I'll just take a nap for half an hour...nighty night
Boredom...screw me. I'm massively screwed. Boredom is getting to me and IDK what else to do!!! My stupid computer camera isn't working so vc won't work out too well...usually it would...but UGH -_- this is just like the night I cleaned my friend's kitchen!!
I'm honestly ready to take another f*cking walk -_- Thanks boredom. idt there's anything that can keep me inside since my computer camera is stupid....
Music is boring right now, fb is boring, GR is silent so it's even boring, G+ is boring. I don't feel like reading or writing. GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Then rant about life, but don't walk.
But....gah...I don't want to walk. What on earth am I supposed to talk about? I'll go insane just...ranting...I'm doing my hardest to not walk...but I give it 20 minutes about...I feel like that's how much longer I can take the boredom...
IDK if I'll even last that long. I might just at least go outside...see if that doesn't help. Otherwise...a walk sounds nice...
Parzival wrote: "Then write. Be creative."
There's nothing to write about
There's nothing to write about
I could go on some walk and freeze to death. No one would notice. No one would care. I've never really belonged anywhere. I'm too shy in real life. I'm too shy online. No one knows about me. I'm sorry I can't be perfect like some, ok. But you know...I still want to be noticed. I'd like it if people would at least notice me. I've done post after post like some people...and I'm lucky...LUCKY...if someone will comment and ask me if I'm ok, as most are depressing posts more or less. I've posted posts every now and then, like other people...once again...I'm lucky if someone will comment. I am almost 100% sure NO one will read this. And if they do, they'll just shrug it off. Why? Because I'm not important. I'm too quiet to be noticed. Why on earth does everyone try to keep me here when no one really talks to me?? Why, why should I keep GR? Why should I keep any mother fucking social media website I have? It isn't until I say "I'm leaving" that people talk to me. And once that "threat" is gone...it's right back to the same damn place. Nothing. No one to talk to. It feels like it's just me. I'm in a fucking ghost town! Why is it that I can't actually belong anywhere?? I give up! THAT'S IT! I'm done. I can't take it anymore. Next time...there will be NO WARNING! I will delete every social media website I have. And you know what, I'm sure no one will give a damn anyways.
Sorry I can't be good enough for any of you. I've tried helping you. I've tried being there for you. But it just isn't good enough, is it? No one wants a loser like me. Yeah, I am a loser, but you know what? I DON'T GIVE A FUCK! I've learned to live with it. I just wish....nvm. Doesn't fucking matter.
The ONLY thing keeping me on any social media...is promises. I've promised people I'll be there, and I will be there for them even if it kills me! Yeah, that's the type of person I am. I keep my promises. I care about people. I'm loyal as fuck. And no one gives a damn. Thank you. Thank you all.
Sorry I can't be good enough for any of you. I've tried helping you. I've tried being there for you. But it just isn't good enough, is it? No one wants a loser like me. Yeah, I am a loser, but you know what? I DON'T GIVE A FUCK! I've learned to live with it. I just wish....nvm. Doesn't fucking matter.
The ONLY thing keeping me on any social media...is promises. I've promised people I'll be there, and I will be there for them even if it kills me! Yeah, that's the type of person I am. I keep my promises. I care about people. I'm loyal as fuck. And no one gives a damn. Thank you. Thank you all.
GR is pretty much the ONLY social media website that has exceptions but even then...
You know I read every post and I care for you as a human. I'm not saying that because I want you to stay. I'm saying it because I want you to make the decision that makes you happy. If you delete it because you think no one cares then I understand. If you want to stay around and help people I understand. I know it isn't fair to keep people here just because you want them to stay, I understand. I make time to talk with you. I make time to read your posts. I care. Maybe you should just delete some friends to start. If no one notices then, than make more drastic changes. All I'm saying is don't get rid of someone that truly cares for you. If you don't want to stay then hopefully I understand. God bless you, may He protect you, and help you.
That's why I said GR is pretty much the only exception. You are one of the very few and I'm extremely grateful for it. I was actually thinking about you and that's why I put that last comment...
