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Through My Eyes
She doesn't know she's beautiful
'Cause no one's ever told her so
And the demons that she hides are all she knows
And maybe she can fall in love with someone in her life that she could trust
And tell her she's enough (Will someone tell her she's enough?)
How come no one heard her when she said
'Cause no one's ever told her so
And the demons that she hides are all she knows
And maybe she can fall in love with someone in her life that she could trust
And tell her she's enough (Will someone tell her she's enough?)
How come no one heard her when she said
Maybe I'm better off dead
If I was would it finally be enough
To shut out all those voices in my head?
Maybe I'm better off dead
Better off dead!
Did you hear a word
Hear a word I said?
This is not where I belong
You gonna miss me when I'm gone
This is not where I belong
You gonna miss me when I'm gone
If I was would it finally be enough
To shut out all those voices in my head?
Maybe I'm better off dead
Better off dead!
Did you hear a word
Hear a word I said?
This is not where I belong
You gonna miss me when I'm gone
This is not where I belong
You gonna miss me when I'm gone
When all you got is these four walls
It's not hard to feel so small
When all you got is these four walls
It's not hard to feel so small
All she wanted was to be enough
All she wanted was to be enough
So what does it take?
Maybe it's not too late
Yeah no one heard her when she said
It's not hard to feel so small
When all you got is these four walls
It's not hard to feel so small
All she wanted was to be enough
All she wanted was to be enough
So what does it take?
Maybe it's not too late
Yeah no one heard her when she said
Maybe I'm better off dead
If I was would it finally be enough
To shut out all those voices in my head?
Maybe I'm better off dead
Better off dead!
Did you hear a word
Hear a word I said?
This is not where I belong
You gonna miss me when I'm gone
Gone, gone
This is not where I belong
You gonna miss me when I'm gone
Gone, gone
This is not where I belong
You gonna miss me when I'm gone
-Credit goes to Sleeping With Sirens
If I was would it finally be enough
To shut out all those voices in my head?
Maybe I'm better off dead
Better off dead!
Did you hear a word
Hear a word I said?
This is not where I belong
You gonna miss me when I'm gone
Gone, gone
This is not where I belong
You gonna miss me when I'm gone
Gone, gone
This is not where I belong
You gonna miss me when I'm gone
-Credit goes to Sleeping With Sirens
Pounds. Im usually between 115 and 120
The dark thoughts get worse with each passing moment.
I'm not sleeping tonight...unless I pass out....
I think horror movies can scare me now....
5:30 am....I'm too scared to sleep....then again, in horror movies...they don't dare go to sleep....
Managed to get some sleep. A couple hours....which is better than none but my eyes hurt
Stay strong Artemis. I'm always here for you. I'm always willing to chat. If you need someone to talk to or someone to care for you; you have me.
I am a ghost. I disappear and then reappear when I think I am needed.
Thanks
I've got to go though. You can text me but I won't be on gr anymore tonight.
I've got to go though. You can text me but I won't be on gr anymore tonight.
Hm....I stay up all night and sleep frequently throughout the day. Nights have become like a horror movie
New plan. When I say go to sleep you go to sleep.
I will continue to tell you to sleep then
Hm.....I've taken to sleeping during the day whenever I can
It's official now...I've lost myselft
...okay...talk to me ...y do u feel you've lost urself??
I'm going to b here to help U try and find urself one small step at a time.
I'm going to b here to help U try and find urself one small step at a time.
I lost myself a long time ago tbh
Okay when u say u lost urself what do u mean???
why do u feel like you have lost urself??
And do u think u can refind it or rediscover urself??
why do u feel like you have lost urself??
And do u think u can refind it or rediscover urself??
Can I answer these later? I need to take a small nap before work
Yes u most certainly can...I won't u to really think about it...
What makes u feel like u are soo far lost that u can't find ur way back???
What makes u feel like u are soo far lost that u can't find ur way back???
I mean...I'm not who i used to be. I didn't used to self harm or even try to commit suicide. I at least ate...even if they were small...three meals a day.
I just don't feel like myself anymore due to everything mentioned above.
I seriously doubt it.
Everything
I just don't feel like myself anymore due to everything mentioned above.
I seriously doubt it.
Everything
He's got a new girlfriend. Good for him
Oh. You got us all here on GR. We are your girlfriends and boyfriends. Sounds really weird though.
*sigh* Yeah.....makes it far more official. On top of I already feel like I'm melting away. I'm gonna lay down for a little bit....idk what to do.
Sleep. Its only like half past 7 though
I know.....it's just...I weighed myself today...and I just started thinking...and just now found out he has another gf. I just...,.I need to gather myself.....
I know *sigh* I just don't know if I'M here anymore
You are here though. The real you is. You need to stop worrying and be yourself.
No....I don't know who I am anymore
I know who you are. God knows who you are. He is the One that matters. He has done this for a reason. Trust Him.
He made me like this?? Depressed...a cutter....a suicidal person....He made me someone that's pretty much anorexic without actually being anorexic?? Why?? Is He trying to kill me then?
Nvm....I just lost it for a sec. Sorry about that
I gotta go....i'll be back later. I really am sorry though
God is not trying to kill you. Sure this is happening to you but its happening for a reason. Some purpose farther down the road. Some purpose that you don't know. Something only you are qualified for.
Hm.....
BTW...don't bother texting me after the 11. My phone's getting shut off. I'll let you know when it comes back on
BTW...don't bother texting me after the 11. My phone's getting shut off. I'll let you know when it comes back on
If I was would it finally be enough
To shut out all those voices in my head?
Maybe I'm better off dead
Better off dead!
Did you hear a word
Hear a word I said?
This is not where I belong
You gonna miss me when I'm gone
Gone, gone
This is not where I belong
You gonna miss me when I'm gone