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Magnus
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Feb 08, 2016 06:43PM
You wont be alone as long as I am around. Promise
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If you are every sad, stop being sad and be awesome.
I'm taking a break from all social media. I really have to focus on school. I'll be gone until I get my math and psychology grades up. Sorry guys. Um...I'll try to maintain a good eating habit and stop with the cutting while I'm gone, but no promises. The only thing I can promise is I won't be gone for a year like I was last time
I hate moments like this. Time...just crawling by. Taunting me. Teasing. Making feelings more intense. I came back home just yesterday but it feels like it's been weeks. It feels like it's been forever since I talked to my "brother" but it's only been a day. Time kills me inside when it does this to me. The yearning to see someone again...the deafening silence is loud when time freezes...Please time, speed up a little. Slow time equals boredom. Boredom...equals problems...please, please, please!!! Time! Speed up. Make the night go by.
My body is so off. Time is crawling by. It feels like it's only 7 something, maybe even 6 something but it's 10.
And yeah, I know I said I wouldn't be back on for awhile, but I got bored. And boredom is as far from good as I can get!
My body is so off. Time is crawling by. It feels like it's only 7 something, maybe even 6 something but it's 10.
And yeah, I know I said I wouldn't be back on for awhile, but I got bored. And boredom is as far from good as I can get!
Time is killing me. It's going waaaaayyyyy tooo slowly -_-
How do I make a game out of time that's slow af?
:( I just need to try to find something to do...i just don't know what...i guess I can go upstairs. I've got four friends up there...but...
Well...wish me luck...soon I'm going to go pay my grandma and aunt a visit...ugh. My stomach is doing flips. Thank god I haven't eaten anything today (except a pack of pop tarts) I feel like I'd just throw it right back up. Is it bad when you're this nervous and upset, and worried about visiting family...???
Shit! I just weighed myself... :(
Could be worse...but I went from 115 to 110. something...I got my concussion mid-January and that's when I was last weighed to today...
mhm...hopefully it doesn't drop anymore
Will do after classes and work
I looked at your story and made some comments on it
Almost 100% sure I'm deleting my account and other social media. Sorry. I just don't see why I should be here. Even my phone isn't a guarantee. I'm thinking about turning it off too. I'm sorry for failing. I know I said I'd be here for everyone....but it'll probably just be better if I go.
If you don't hear from me tomorrow...assume the worst...because it's more than likely true....
I'm gonna go to bed for the night after midnight. lol
Thanks :)
Good night though. I do have classes tomorrow
Good night though. I do have classes tomorrow
I know I tell everyone NOT to have this attitude, but I'm fucking done with school. No more! That's it!! GAH!!!!!!!!!!!
Senior year of high school....I didn't trust anyone...students, staff, faculty, family, family friends, other adults....I didn't trust any place...school, school bus, home, aunts and uncles houses, hotels/motels, anywhere I had to stay...anywhere that had cameras...i felt like I was always being spied on...watched...and targeted. Everyone was waiting for me to make one wrong move so they could report it to my family and the school administration. I was scared to do anything on my computer. I was scared to talk to my closest friend. I will admit...I was paranoid. If I could have...I'd have slept with one eye open....just to try to make me feel somewhat safe. I was so stressed out....I didn't dare open up to anyone....the only people I trusted were those that were online because I knew they couldn't report me for saying anything...but that was taken away from me....I'm starting to get that way again....one of my teachers....she brought this on......It's just like high school except it's my phone this time....in high school, it was my laptop....i couldn't....
Stay strong Artemis. You have all of us that will help you.
thanks.....still 99% sure i'm gonna drop out.......
Not when it comes to college -_-
Let it go! Let it go! Cant hold it back anymore. Let it go! Let it go! turn away and slam the door. I don't care; what they're going to say.
