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Scout and ChyChy
Ajax was scribbling down a sentence when she heard the knock. She gasped softly, startled. She sighed down at her messed up word but ignored it for now. She dropped her pencil and stood up, straightening her sweater. It was probably her mom like it usually was. Sunday's were their Amazing Race nights. "I don't think I'll watch the show tonight," he said as she walked up to her door. "I have a lot of homework to catch-" she opened the door and then audibly gasped. Not because it wasn't her mom, but because how....drained Scott looked. She's never seen him look this bad before. And again, it was all her fault. "Scott," she breathed, swallowing hard. "What are you doing here?" She asked softly. She shoved her other hand into the front pocket of her hoodie.
Ajax bit down on her lip, tears gathering in her eyes as well. This was it. The moment where she breaks both their hearts or just tells him. She hated to see him so torn and it was all her fault. She should half told him the moment and found out. "Scott I..." She started to say, ready to dismiss the only man she's ever loved out of her life but she stopped herself. Taking a deep breath, she stepped aside to let him in. "It's nothing you did Scott. It's what I did." He closed the door once he was inside. She walked over to her bed and sat down. She stared at her lap. "I'm sorry that you think I hate you or think you did something wrong but it's all me; it's all my fault and I'm so sorry for being like this." She shook her head, then glanced up at him, her cheeks damp.
Ajax clenched her hands into fists on her lap. All of the anger, sadness, love, frustration and hormones were mixing together inside her, growing and rising until finally it all boiled over the top. She let out a hysterical and desperate cry as she shot to her feet, walking away from her bed. "I'm pregnant!" She screamed/cried as she whirled to face him. She then covered her mouth as if she just said the worse possible thing ever, which she might as well have in her eyes. Ajax whimpered and dropped her hand. "I'm pregnant and it's all my fault," she sobbed. "I kept going on about sex and wouldn't shut the fuck up!" She shouted, completely taken under the emotions now. There was no stopping her. "If I would have straightened my head and thought about the fact that you wanted to wait which I totally totally respected and understood and I wanted to wait to because I didn't care because I love you but I-i-i don't know what happened I just I-" she gasped for air, expelling it with a sob. "And my birth control hasn't been working this entire time and I couldn't stand the thought of telling you that one of your worst nightmares has come true." She concluded, inhaling a lungful of air again. All of her previous words came out in speedy sentences but she didn't care. It was all out in the open now and she honestly felt a heavy weight lift off her shoulders. She buried her face in her hands. She couldn't look at him. Not after that.
At first Ajax didn't know he was the one who pulled her into his arms. She felt almost numb go his touch like it was foreign. But when she finally realized it was indeed him holding her, cradling her in his lap, she held on to him for dear life. She couldn't remember the last time she touched him and now that she was she didn't want to let go. Ajax somehow managed to hear all of his assuringly words over her hysterical crying, her hands gripping his shirt. Even still, she couldn't stop crying. Now, however, most of the tears were happy ones. "I'm so sorry I'm so sorry." She sobbed, burying her face into his neck. She was apologizing for not telling him for as long as she did. She already went to a few doctor appointments that he should have been there with her.
Ajax calmed herself down enough to hear him talk. Her heart clenched with love and she sighed with relief when she realized he wasn't mad, although she knew him well enough that he wouldn't be. As he continued, Ajax untangled herself from his arms and settled herself on his lap in a straddling posting on so they both could have a better hold and view of each other. Ajax took a minute to really study his face. His facial hair was impressive, regardless of how small it was. She could tell he hasn't been taking care of himself that well. Ajax sniffled and nodded, wrapping her arms around his neck. "I wanted to tell you Scott. I wanted to tell you from the moment I found out but I just...I couldn't. I kept thinking of the worst possible outcome. And then I started thinking about how Bianca and the father of Amelia don't even talk. It's so sad and it made me think of us ending up like that since teen parents usually don't make it. It was all to much and I kept it inside to the point where I just lost it....the words...everything." She pressed herself up against his chest, nuzzling her face against his neck again. "I've missed you so much. I'm probably the worst girlfriend ever." She sighed, shuddering a little.
It really hit her then after he said it. *We're having a baby...I'm going go be mom...a mom!* she said exclaimed inside her head and despite the situation, she couldn't help but feel excited. It wouldn't be easy, but this could be a whole lot worse. Her parents could have kicked her out of the house and Scott could be some sort of jerk about it. But he wasn't. He was amazing and so wonderful and...they were going to have a baby. There own little family. Ajax lifted her head and looked at him again, nodding as he concluded with a small smile. However, her eyes were puffy and her face was read. "September 17th." She whispered, biting her lip.
Ajax loved to see him smile again. She never thought she'd get to see it again. She blushed a little when he lifted her shirt, exposing her very tiny baby bump. She held the shirt up for him and more happy tears gathered in her eyes when he splayed his hand across her skin. "It's to soon to tell." She replied. "But if I get one of those expensive ultrasounds at my next appointment we might be able to find out." She said, then giggled when he mentioned her dad. She shook her head, putting her shirt down and climbing off his lap."no, not exactly. But he does one to talk to you at some point before the baby is born." Ajax said as she walked over to her desk and opened the drawer. She pulled out a small envelop and walked back over to him and gave it to him. Inside was a few snap shots of their baby. The first few were unclear, but the lay two showed at least an outline of a head and a small body. Ajax stayed standing in front of him, biting her lip as she watched him look at them.
Ajax grinned at his reaction. It was much like her own when she saw the pictures for the first time. Every night before she went to sleep to studied those pictures like she was going to be graded on them or something. She couldn't wait until the ultrasounds got clearer. Ajax wrapped her arms around his neck and giggled as they embraced. When he pulled away and held her cheek, she smiled and shook her head. "Don't be sorry. It's no ones fault. I know that now. And who really is ready for something like this? This...happened for a reason like everything else in our lives. We may not know why but she just have to live with it day by day, step by step." She said, staring up into his eyes. She leaned up on her toes slightly and very gently pressed her lips to his. Something she hasn't done in what felt like forever.
And felt him tense up when their lips met and at first she thought kissing him was a bad idea and that he was still fragile about what they have endured over the past couple of weeks. But she sighed inwardly with relief when he kissed her back so strongly, almost desperately. Ajax kissed him back the same, her hands diving into his hair. She had a nostalgic moment as if she was kissing him for the first time. Every time each kiss broke, she took a small breath and went in for more. She remembered how much she loved kissing him. How natural and real it was. When it finally broke, she lightly panted as she closed her eyes and pressed her forehead to his. "Stay with me." She whispered. She meant literally and figuratively. There was no way he wasn't not going to stay the night.
Ajax giggled as he spun her around, holding on to him tightly. She smiled up at him once he sat her down, then looked down at the pill bottle in his hand. A deep frown formed on her lips. *Was it really that bad for him?* she asked herself. Well of course it was. Look at him. She couldn't help but blame herself a little for how he ended up. But would all be okay now. Ajax forced a small encouraging smile and nodded, looking at her bathroom. "You can in there if you want. I have a few of my dads razors in there." She told him. It didn't really matter if he shaved though. He still looked incredibly hot.
((I was thinking a girl))"I think it looks fine but it-eek!" She squealed and flinched away when he rubbed his stubbly cheek against her smooth one. "Ow!" She laughed, rubbing her cheek. "It's like sandpaper." She giggled. She had to admit that the oncoming beard looked good on Scott, but it didn't particularly feel good.
((Awwwww lol. I was thinking our next skip could be where he goes with her to one of her appointments and they find out the sex?))Ajax sighed dramatically, placing her hands on her hips. "As hot as you look with it, I think it needs to go before it cuts me." She joked, but it was more or less true. "I'll let me mom know you're staying over and get us a snack while you shave okay?" She took his hand off her cheek and laced their fingers together.
((:D)) "What?" She looked confused, but then she laughed. "Oh! Right, well they are a lot better then lady razors to be honest. And they are much much cheaper." She giggled, and kissed his cheek before walking towards her bedroom door. "I'll be right back okay?" She opened her door then paused. "Wait; what do you want to eat?" She asked.
Ajax nodded and blew him a kiss before leaving her room. With a smile on her face, she skipped downstairs and padded into the kitchen where her mom was, cutting up some fruit. "Scott's staying the night." She announced happily. Marie beamed, happy to see that they made up. She couldn't remember the last time she saw her daughter smile. "Oh and we're both quite hungry so I'm going to make us some sandwiches I think." She said, opening the fridge.
Marie kissed the top of Ajax's head before she left the kitchen to go see her husband. Ajax made two club sandwiches for the both of them with everything you could imagine in them. They looked delicious and Ajax's especially was packed with everything. She blamed the baby of course. She poured them glasses of juice and put everything on a tray so she could carry it upstairs. Once in her room, she sat the tray on her nightstand and took her hoodie off. She had on a pink tank top that hugged her torso, outlining her tiny belly. She then went into the bathroom and gently hugged him from behind, glancing, balancing her chin in his shoulder. "Need any help?" She teased.
Ajax smiled at his reflection. "I made deli sandwiches. Two for us each with everything on it." She grinned, then laughed when she heard and felt his stomach growl. She rubbed his stomach for a moment then pulled away, moving to stand beside him. She grabbed her hair brush and brushed out her very tangled hair. It still looked nice even messy though.
Ajax put her brush down and faced him, placing her hands on her hips. "Hm..." She hummed, inspecting his face. She then reached up and rubbed her palm against his cheek, grinning. "Perfect." She said, then pecked him on the lips quickly. "Oh! I need you to take picture for me." She took out her phone, handing it to him. "I want to document this." She stepped back a few steps and lifted her shirt and turned to the side.
Ajax smiled for the picture, despite how ratchet she looked and skipped up to his side when he was done taking the photo. "I'm thinking monthly. That's when the most change will be." She said, smiling at the picture. She pocketed her phone and leaned aha isn't him as they walked back into her room. "Oh; my sandwich is the one with double of everything." She giggled.
Before he sat down she pulled he covers off her bed and climbed in, sitting on the side closest to the wall. "Hey, I'm eating for two now, don't forget that." She said, automatically smiling. It felt surreal to finally be open about it. She didn't say anything as he took a bite of her sandwich, she took a sip of her juice as she waited. "Thanks." She laughed and took her sandwich, taking a small bite.
Ajax smiled at the gesture, also resting her head against his. She nodded at his question, swallowing that was in her mouth before answering. "Yeah. Plus Bianca even though I didn't even need to tell her. She just knew." She sighed. At school, she was good at covering herself up. It wasn't noticeable unless she wore tight clothes. "Are you going to tell your mom?" She asked softly, taking another bite of her sandwich.
Ajax nodded. "Yeah I know what you mean." She mumbled around the mouthful in her mouth. She swallowed before continuing. "But I think that's something we'd do if we were happily married." She said, the looked over at him. "Do you want to tell her together? She might be less harsh if I'm there." She noted.
By the time he concluded she already finished her first sandwich. She also chugged half of her juice. "Yeah, but when you're married she'd automatically be happy about it. But since we're still in high school and have only been together for about six months, it's probably the last thing she'd expect to hear. But she's a lot like my mom and my mom wasn't mad at me." She shrugged.
((I'll have to listen to it and no worries lol I was studying anyways))Ajax easily moved onto his lap so she was straddling him again like before. She smiled shyly at his enthusiasm about the gender and names for the baby. It made this feel much more real and exciting. "Well I'm only twelve weeks right how, so that's three months. We can't find it until I'm at least five months. But like I said before, we can get the expensive high-tech ultrasound done so we might be able to find out at my next appointment which is next month." She smiled, moving her hands up his arms. "And I haven't thought much about names. I have some I like though."
((I just listened to it; I'm dead lol))Ajax adjusted herself on top of him, straightening her legs out between his. She rested her head on his shoulder, sighing softly with content. This felt right.
"Well, I like unique names like mine. Like names that would be hard to find another person with that same name." She explained, before she took a minute or two to think. "For a girl, I love the names Anastasia, Reese, and Zoey. And for a boy I love Royal, Nolan, and Rowan." She told him, smiling at the thought of having to use one of these names.
(Yeah lol and that's always a great feeling aha)Ajax listened to the names he listed, smiling some. "Those are nice names. Asher and Miles the most." She said. Even if they picked a name, the decision wouldn't be finalized until the baby was born and they could really see which name suited them. As she laid there comfortably on top of him, she started to feel the familiar wave of nausea she's been dealing with for the past six weeks. Ajax whimpered and sat up quickly, crawling off him and jogging into the bathroom.
Ajax groaned and heaved a few times into the toilet, but nothing was coming out yet. "Be grateful that you missed most of this these past weeks." She coughed violently then finally threw up. Her muscles tensed as she spent a good few minutes sitting by the toilet, waiting, vomiting, waiting again, and then vomiting. After several minutes, she was done. "Okay I think that's it." She murmured, sniffling. She automatically cries when she vomits. She reached up and flushed the toilet before shakily standing up, coughing. ((You never know aha))
Ajax lightly grunted as he settled them both down on her bed. She flipped over so she was facing him a little better, reaching down and pulling the covers over them. "I know." She sighed. "Not being able to lay on my stomach soon is going to be the worst possible thing." She said. She always slept on her stomach. It was the most comfortable position to her. "But I'll have to manage I guess." She snuggled up against his chest, suddenly feeling exhausted. So she closed her eyes, adjusting her head in her pillow. ((Awwww))
Ajax took a minute to think about it. "Okay, I guess. Although the nightmares are long gone, I had to deal with sleeping with all of this guilt." She sighed. "But I don't feel guilt now, don't worry. And morning sickness shouldn't even be called 'morning' sickness. It hits me at any moment of the day." She mumbled. "Especially in the evening." She sighed.
Ajax nodded then giggled when his words were cut off with a yawn. She opened her eyes and glanced at his sleepy face. "Sleep, Scott. I know you haven't been sleeping well and I'm truly sorry for that. We have everyday after this to talk about whatever we want." She pecked each cheek, then the tip of his nose, then his lips quickly. "Goodnight. I love you so much." She whispered.
((yup! Where do you want to skip? To where they tell his mom or the appointment?))
((Okay sounds good! Would it be the next day then and they've just been hanging out all day?))
((Kk! Do you mind starting? I gotta do my laundry lol ))
Ajax loved their lazy day. She's been having many lately but it wasn't the same doing them alone. Ajax took the opportunities to fill him in on the progress of her pregnancy, as small as it was but she told him all about her first doctors visit and how she cried when he their baby's heart beating for the first time. She was wearing the same clothes as yesterday except she now wore an old school gym t shirt. Ajax was making of list of things she needed on her phone when he asked her that. She put her phone away and looked at him, nodding with a small smile. "He got home like an hour ago. I'd do it now." she agreed. "I need to shower anyways." She kissed his cheek. She only had two sickness episodes, one when she woke up and one just an hour ago. She felt okay now.
Ajax moved onto her back and smiled at him, returning the kiss when he gave it to her. "He doesn't hate you Scott. If he did you wouldn't be here right now." She stated. She knew her dad and knew he wouldn't do anything rash. "I'm alright." She nodded when he asked. "But if you're not back by the time I'm done then I'm coming in there." She smirked and sat up with a grunt. She then noticed how nervous he looked. "Babe, it's okay. It will be okay. I promise." She kissed the top of his hand like he did to her all the time.
Ajax laughed, standing up when he helped her. "That's exactly what it feels like," she giggled and wrapped her arms around his neck, hugging him tight. She then gave him a quick but sweet kiss for good luck. "I love you. Be good." She teased, and started to gather up some clothes as he walked backwards toward the door. She waved cutely at him with an armful of clothes and disappeared into the bathroom. She really hoped the talk went well.
((Noooooo lol))Cal was in the middle of writing in his agenda when he heard the knock. He looked up from his busy week and adjusted his reading glasses. He knew it was. Instead of calling him in, cal got up and strolled over that he door. He smoothed down the sweater he was wearing before opening the door. "Scott! Hi. I heard you were over for the night and the day. Come on in I've been wanting to speak with you." He stepped aside, holding the door open.
"Now is good. I don't have any calls or anything." He said, and closed the door once Scott was in. He sighed and walked over to his desk, sitting down in the big chair behind it. "Instinctively I want to be angry at you. And I guess I sort of am, but I know I can't do anything about it. So I guess I'll say congratulations first." He said, crossing his arms over his chest.
Cal's eyebrows shot up. he didn't expect him to be so honest, especially about the sex. "Are you trying to say it was an accident or something?" He snickered. "Anyways, it doesn't matter." He waved his hand. "It happened and now you both have to deal with this mistake." He rubbed his chin.
"Ah, that was my next question." He nodded. "That's good to hear. I know you'd provide for her and baby as best you can and myself and her mother will always be here to help to. But I want to know if you plan on sticking around. Because if you plan on skipping out on my little girl, then we are going to have a serious problem," he said darkly. "I've listened to her cry herself to sleep most nights since you've both been apart. Now I didn't know the details but I assumed you left her." He admitted.
Cal nodded along to his explanation, believing it. Scott really was a great guy at heart and Cal knew that. He didn't seem that surprised when he asked for Ajax's hand in marriage. It's something any guy would do in this situation. "If you truly want marry her, you have my permission," he said, meeting his eyes. "But I don't think it's something she wants to do right now. Knowing her she'll want to get married after the baby is born. But just because you're having a baby with my daughter doesn't mean you *have* to get married. It won't much of a difference in the child's life. As long as they have two loving parents, marriage is irrelevant. But it's up to you and I say it's okay with me. But yes; don't do it so soon. You should wait until your relationship has progressed a little more, and it definitely will now."
Cal nodded. "I respect that. As long as your not rushing into it, it's okay. That'd be to much pressure on the both of you and I think you and Ajax have enough of that right now." He said with a nod. He stood up and shoved his hands into his pockets. "I know you'll provide for her and your child. and I see how much you love her. It reminds me of myself and my wife," he sighed.
Cal laughed warmly, shaking hide as amusingly. "Scott of course she will. She'd be a fool not to. I'd blame the surgeons if she ever said no to you." He teased, but then his face relaxed. "You have nothing to worry about son. Just don't forget to show and tell her how much you love her, especially now that she's going to be feeing a whole bunch of emotions. Sometimes she might say she hates you but she really doesn't. You'd be surprised what a pregnancy can make a women say. Just....if you need any help, you can ask me." He smiled.
Cal smiled, amused. "And you have every right to be. I was terrified to. But not as scared as Ajax probably is. She may not be worrying now but the moment she can't see her toes, she'll flip." He laughed, leaning back in his chair. "But like I mentioned before, myself and my wife and I'm sure your mom are here to help. Just think about how all of this could be worse. I could be a huge dick and kick my girl out of the house." He teased.
Cal stood up again and strolled over to Scott. He gently grasped his shoulder. "It's a wonderful feeling Scott. Despite all the difficult obstacles, it's really worth it. You realize that once you hold your little one in your arms for the first time." He murmured, thinking of that very moment he held Ajax for the first time. She was so tiny and a month premature. But still absolutely beautiful.
Cal nodded. He didn't really know what to say about Scott's depression. He sort of wished he pressured Ajax to speak to the poor boy, but he was mainly left in the dark about that subject. When he apologized for knocking up his daughter, it sounded funny to him for some reason so he lightly chuckled and shook his head. "Alright. But note that condoms exist alright? They don't teach kids your age enough about that stuff." He sighed
Cal nodded in agreement. "You'll to busy taking care of your little one anyways. It'll be a good test on your relationship; running off of such little sleep." He noted. "Well, I think that's all I gotta say for now. You can come to me if you eve need anything." he smiled. "Oh, and take care of my girl please? She's more fragile than ever now."
"Yes:" he laughed, clapping his shoulder again. "Good talk. I'll see you around." He smiled and walked over to his desk. "Close the door on your way out please." Ajax was out of the shoulder, already getting dressed. He buttoned up her jeans, which she could still wear-for now- and pulled on a loose black blouse with a white Peter Pan collar. She played around with it until she was sure it wouldn't hug her stomach to tightly. Then, she combed out her wet hair before taking her makeup bag out of the cabinet.
Ajax smiled when she saw him come in through the mirror. "Hey; how was it-AH SCOTT!" She squealed but then laughed, hugging him around the waist. She giggled when he kissed her cheek and said that. "You're lucky I wasn't putting my makeup on." She smirked, then nodded. "I'm glad it went well. I assumed it would but of course there was that small voice in the back of my head telling me you'd get yelled up." She let him go and rummaged through her makeup bag. "Oh I just remembered something in the shower; our baby should be born around our one year anniversary. Isn't that great?" She giggled, smiling at him through the mirror.
Ajax covered her mouth as she yawned. Because of Scott's disappearance at school this week, she hasn't been sleeping well. She was wearing a pair Of baggy track pants and a sweater that was baggy enough to hide anything. She rubbed at her eyes, blinking a few times to keep herself awake. She also looked like a mess with no makeup on and her hair messy around her shoulders and down her back.