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Humbled through opportunities given despite the fact

Just you and I, just you and I
I want you bad, and I won't have it any other way
No matter what the people say,
I know that we'll never break
'Cause our love was made, made in the USA
'Cause baby I'll bite the bullet
And take the blows for love

Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
Like a diamond
From black dust

I'm a Jane Bond, putting all the guys to shame
I'm a wild card, and I'm gonna steal your game
I'm a fire starter
Make your blood run faster
I'm a fire starter, I'm a sweet disaster

Sorry I was just posting things for my profile. And plus I'm too lazy to go through the translation. xD

....Okay then. Humph.

....So doesn't that prove my point that he and I hate each other and that we aren't soul mates?


So I have a sheet right? A regular lined sheet and Ivan's name is on it in big letters with random thoughts around it. Important convos., quotes, thoughts,lyrics etc. And well. Its filled up. The page I mean. And one of them is Whats the point of falling in love if you're just going to fall into darkness?
See one of my friends saw this during 8th period. and than she replied saying "You don't fall into darkness" Thats what I mean. So many people in my real life don't get it when the pain when someone dies. They take emotions for granted or whatever. And yeah I do to. But I mean, I also value them you know? Like even pain. I know how it feels to lose people close to you, to feel actual depression, to have that empty feeling of never being able to talk to someone ever again you know? Its just. I hate people who pretend to know pain when they don't. I mean big whoop. You got a scraped knee? I'll take that any day. I'll exchange all that for me to never know what pain is. And I'm scared. Terrified that if I let anyone else in the way I let Ivan in that its all gonna crumble. I'm scared that if I actually fall in love, all thats gonna happen is that I'll scatter into a million pieces. And than I won't be able to pick myself again. Thats why I'm such an asshole. Because it drives people away. And I want that. I need that. Because that lowers the chances of me getting hurt. Yeah I know. Its selfish. But fine whatever. I'm okay with being a selfish bastard. Its kinda what I'm known from.

YEAH BUT YOU GUYS LOVE EACH OTHER. Some people can hate each other and actually hate each other. BUT NOT YOU TWO. bASED ON YOUR STORIES AND WHEN YOU TALK ABOUT HIM, YOU GUYS LOV EEACH..."
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

You know how you said for me to not talk about Max cause otherwise people are gonna thing that I like him? Where else am I suppose to express my dislike for him?

[Max]
↬ I don't really know what to post here...
↬ Um..hes writing a story for me. With me starring in it.
↬ Uhhh the story is pretty messed up. And I have such a screwed up life. But its pretty entertaining.
↬ He calls me his fangirl .-. Hes pretty arrogant.
↬ Hes in two of my classes. But you guys should be happy because its both morning and afternoon.
↬ Yeah well three actually if you count lunch. And you know what I will.
↬ Its mostly because I see him there, and we talk. And its sooo annoying.
↬ Uh what else? Oh I know! He wears glasses, and has a black watch.
↬ He writes with green led pencils only.
↬ Hes left-handed.
↬ His handwriting is really pointy. No I don't stalk him. I've read his work before okay?
↬ Oh! In my two classes they are both English. xD
↬ So for Lit Conn its me and than a girl in front of me. Than hes right next to the girl. And we're in columns right? But its weird cause its like this:
║ ║ ║
║ ║ ║
║ ║ ║
║ ║ ║
║ ║ ║
║ ║ ║
║ ║ ║
║ ║ ║
↬ Okay that was a really bad example. Lemme try to explain. So its two desks next to one another right? And than behind them is two more. And than another two. And than another two. And than another two. That would be one column. Than theres some space and than it repeats all over again. So theres three columns.
↬ For Language Arts he sits right next to me.
↬ Before anyone posts something like 'aww you choose to sit close to him' shuddap. The seats were assigned okay?
↬ Oh and guess what? Soon we'll be switching seats. SO HAH!
↬ Uhhh what else? I could try posting his personality based off of his handwriting if you want? Comment below and shit.
↬ Umm a lot of the singers I don't like neither does he. xD
↬ Uhh hes not an idiot. Like he can talk about feminism, and sexist people, and racist people. And you know how the work sexist has the word sex in it and most idiotic boys in my school would laugh at that? Yeah he doesn't. He can be serious.
↬ But I've also seen him goof off and stuff. No I'm not a stalker. I know one of his friends. Don't judge me.
↬ Hes into anime. Which is pretty cool.
↬ ...I hate you all for making me do this.
↬ Oh and for the last time I don't like him.

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